you are beautiful

This blog is dedicated to my own personal journey of finding the courage and strength to loving myself unconditionally and forgiving myself. I started this as a part of my journey through a break up but now it’s more than that. It is time to heal.

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Lucky Stars- Junaid Mortimer

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[thegoodvybe]

[loving-breaking-healing]

This year for Christmas I just want apologies

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if you’re looking for a sign not to end your life, read this

Whenever I am sad about the present and feel like I don’t belong or have to hide who I am, I like to imagine my future. Right now things are tough and I am scared of what might happen but I close my eyes and envision this:

I am in my mid-thirties, 15 years from now.It is six pm in late August and I had a rough day at work, the kids in the school I teach at are lazy teens who only care about their acne or why their crush didn’t text back. But you have to have extra patience with them - and I have, because I know I was once like them. I feel grown and proud at how much I have learned and achieved.

 As I am grading their tests my beautiful wife comes up behind me. She holds our newborn baby, kisses me on the cheek and asks “Don’t you need a break?” I smile and say “No, I am reading Chrisas essay about the edge of the universe. This girl has so many spelling mistakes, unbelievable, but what goes on in her mind is incredibly interesting.” My wife smiles. “I love your enthusiasm. These kids are lucky to have you.” I feel loved and appreciated. 

As she goes to bring our little child to bed, our two other kids come up behind me and begin tickling me. “Can you read us one of your books, Mom?” my little boy asks. The phone rings and I smile at the name on the display. “Of course, Pierre, pick a book from the shelf and I’ll be there in a minute.” They run back upstairs. I feel needed. 

It’s my sister on the other line, I hear her little one crying in the background and her husband speaking in a stressed voice “Uh, I need help?” She seems in a hurry and just says “Selin, we’re having another baby! Okay, I need to go, bye!” Which is okay because Pierre and Jannah are waiting. I feel important. 

Before I go upstairs I pick a flower from our frontlawn and see three boys from my english class walking down the streets, reciting Shakespeare. “Tom, it goes ‘for tis NOBLER in the mind to suffer’, jerk” I shout “Great work, Kevin. That’s an A.” They wave and smile. I feel like I matter. 

Before I go to bed my wife and I start talking about our day. “August 25th. We’re married 6 years now. I love you.” 

“I love you, too.”

so. never stop growing, never stop caring, never stop fighting. maybe i wrote this for me but if i could help only one person thats enough. things might get dark man, but it could all look so different, so soon. i am holding in to life because i will make a beautiful life for myself, no matter what. if you need someone, talk to me.

[amargedom]

[thegoodvybe]

[amargedom]

Daily reminder!

[richtide]

it doesn’t matter how good you’re doing, those sad nights will creep up on you from time to time and that’s ok. doesn’t mean all your progress is gone

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[zenwords]

“Nothing will be enough if the mind cannot befriend the present moment. This is why meditation is helpful for a healthy modern life— without training the mind will swim endlessly in craving, losing itself in new things and “what ifs”.”

— Yung Pueblo

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“Healing, in the deepest sense, is not a destination or a future goal, but a present-moment welcoming of all the guests of Awareness. Sadness, anger, fear, joy, doubt, loneliness, heartache, these visitors do not want to be healed, they just want to be held; held in the loving arms of the present moment, held in your Heart… which IS the healing. Every thought, every sensation, every feeling, every scary thought, they all just long to be included, integrated, welcomed into the tender restful wholeness that you are…”

— Jeff Foster

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devour

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[thepersonalquotes]

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if you’re recovering from something, i’m proud of you. from a broken heart, to a broken leg. from addiction, to self harm. keep at it, you :)

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

Attitudes and Mindsets that can Change your Life

1. Knowing deep inside that you are good enough.

2. Believing you can do it, and believing you can make it.

3. Choosing to be grateful when you feel like complaining.

4. Choosing to hang in there when you feel you’ve had enough.

5. Knowing each new day is a true gift and fresh beginning.

6. Valuing others, and treating others well.

7. Investing in people instead of chasing things.