Its So loud Inside My Head

Anisa, 26th&Virgo. My human design is Manifestor. Well, still looking for real romeo, happiness, and way to burning calories.

[lowfatnica]

Assalamualaikum bapak ganteng ku,

Kakak kangen.

Kakak udah hampir setahun kerja di tempat baru. Alhamdulillah udah jarang lembur.

Kalau bisa mutar waktu, kakak bakal sering pulang Semarang biar bisa nemenin bapak.

Maaf ya pak… waktu masih jadi auditor jarang bisa pulang.

Oya pak, kakak jadi ngerasa aneh sama bulan September. Udah gak ada yg nemenin ulang tahun. Tapi Alhamdulillah banyak doa yang baik untuk kakak.

Bapak seneng kan di sana? Semoga doa-doa dari Ibu, kakak dan adek adek selalu bisa melindungi Bapak ya.

Banyak yg mau kakak ceritain. Nanti mampir di mimpi kakak ya pak ❤️

[lowfatnica]

PAHA AYAM

Sedari kecil aku bukan pemilih makanan

Karena

Tidak ada pilihan.

Ya ibu ku memasak satu lauk dan satu sayur

Cukup untuk kami bertiga, saat itu adik-adik ku masih bayi jadi mereka minum susu ibu.

Sedari kecil aku belum paham apa itu makanan bergizi,

Kalau makan ya pikirku “Yang penting kenyang”

Bapak ibu ku juga makan apa saja yg ada

Dulu pernah eyang ku membuat camilan “tepung goreng”

Tidak bergizi tapi menjadi favoritku karena rasanya gurih telur dan tepung

Saat lebaran, aku senang sekali

Karena

Banyak pilihan makanan.

Lontong

Opor ayam

Sambal goreng

Tahu tempe bacem

Belum lagi cemilannya

Kami sebagai cucu bebas memilih semua menu.

Kecuali dua,

Paha ayam dan brutu.

Anak kecil ini manut saja, jadi mengambil bagian sayap. Bukan dada.

Bukan karena tidak suka dada, namun mengunyah bagian dada membuat gigi ini sakit.

Semenjak itu aku suka sekali dengan ayam bagian sayap. Karena ya belum pernah makan bagian lain.

Di rumah pun ibu jarang membeli paha, jika beli paha pun itu paha atas dan masih dibagi lagi jadi 2. Hehe.

Sampai suatu saat, jaman SMA.

Aku membeli fried chicken di kantin sekolah. “Cobain paha pentung kali ya”

Gigitan pertama rasanyaaaa MasyaAllah enak banget waaaak!

Jadi ini rasanya paha ayam.

Kamu terenak, tapi tidak semua orang bisa mendapatkan mu di moment tertentu.

Salam dari penggemar rahasia mu.

-AW-

[lowfatnica]

Never imagined I can cry through these lyrics. The song is Amygdala by AgustD or Suga BTS. Those lyrics are related to me. Especially, “The call I got during work about dad’s…” it reminds me of my bapak. When I was in client office, I got call from my uncle and he told me that my Bapak was in emergency room. My body and mind felt so weak at the time. The point is, me and Suga also had same situation in the past. I’m not alone.

[lowfatnica]

To: Bapak

“Fly on, ride through. Maybe one day I’ll fly next to you” ❤️ 🥀

Perjuangan bapak di dunia sudah usai, sekarang bapak udah ga sakit lagi, Allah SWT sudah menyehatkan bapak disisiNya. Bapak kembali ke Allah SWT dalam keadaan Islam. InshaAllah surga untuk mu, Pak.

Masih banyak hal yang kakak gatau utk menghadapi dunia yang fana ini. Kakak takut. Tapi harus kakak hadapi. Semoga kakak bisa melanjutkan perjuangan bapak ya... Terima kasih untuk segalanya ya Pak. Semoga bapak bangga sama kakak. Sampai berjumpa lagi bapak ku ganteng ❤️

Dearest,

Kakak Anis.

[lowfatnica]

Hi, welcome back!

I think I need media to relief my stress. Maybe through this app I can freely write what I feel or just post some photos. Stay sane and healthy!

I put a song to accompany you this month 🥰

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Dua kenikmatan yang banyak manusia tertipu yakni sehat dan waktu luang [HR.Bukhari] A week ago when my body need a bed rest. So sad if you are get sick and have a distance with your family. But thank you for Shierly,Pinky, and Farah who stay with me (from 11pm till 6am) in hospital. I do apologize makes your bedtime there. I do have my second family. Jazakumullah 💕

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Me, and my roomie X Nanjing Museum.

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18th of November 2017. The falling autumn leaves covering grass yard in my uni.

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[lowfatnica]

HAH!

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Deep feeling. Being loved and hurted at the same time.

[lowfatnica]

At least, I'm tryin.

Coldplay said "When you're too in love to let it go. But if you never try you'll never know. Just what you're worth" I really do that. I tried to know you. I tried to understand you. I tried to keep positive thinking on you. I tried to be your lovely friend. But what did you do to me? Just being rude. At least, I'm trying though to open my mind ya. But all of things just being insane. Now, I know. Maybe we are in different directions. I am going to north but you're going to south. But I do believe Allah has a great plan for us. Hasta La Vista my mysterious Romeo.

[lowfatnica]

Thank you.

After a week you’ve gone. But suddenly your name pop up in my screen. I thought you are never come again. Maybe that is the worst thing. And maybe Allah doesn’t want that happened to me for now.

‘How are you?’ ‘Are you in good condition?’ Those questioned by you.

For a sec I’ve been thinking. Is it really you? And I replied it and knew it was really you.

Thank you for asking me a simple question like that. And I hope Allah will show me the right one. Maybe its you? I wish I knew.

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My first time ever in sunflower garden. So pretty there 💞. . 📷: @frhdhia

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I have my own red carpet. I'll walk on and accelerate it.

Nica&salma

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We’re very pleased to announce the first wave of 2017 dates for the A Head Full Of Dreams Tour. Tickets on general sale on Friday - see Coldplay.com for pre-sale info. Tue June 06 - Olympiastadion, Munich GERMANY Thu June 08 - Parc Olympique Lyonnais, Lyon FRANCE Sun June 11 - Ernst-Happel-Stadion, Vienna AUSTRIA Wed June 14 - Red Bull Arena, Leipzig GERMANY Fri June 16 - HDI Arena, Hannover GERMANY Sun June 18 - PGE Narodowy, Warsaw POLAND Wed June 21 - Koning Boudewijnstadion, Brussels BELGIUM Sun June 25 - Ullevi, Gothenburg, SWEDEN Fri June 30 - Commerzbank-Arena, Frankfurt GERMANY Mon July 03 - Stadio San Siro, Milan ITALY Sat July 08 - Croke Park, Dublin IRELAND Tue July 11 - Principality Stadium, Cardiff UK Sat July 15 - Stade de France, Paris FRANCE #Coldplay #AHFODtour

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