Eviland Tales

A journey of learning how to navigate life, love, mental illness , and coming out all while trying to win over the love of my life.

[lubuewin]

You know u ain’t getting enough when this is your next read...The first book was intense but it was good to find a well written erotic book that catered to the lgbtq community as well.

[lubuewin]

Why is the fantasy always better than real life?

[lubuewin]

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[lubuewin]

What does it mean if you have a crush on someone like H.H. has on Lolita?

[crazyalien87]

[lubuewin]

Going to the dentist to find out you have 7 cavities

[crazyalien87]

[lubuewin]

Sometimes when I’m digging myself out of the hole I want to just say fuck it and implode. Fuck all the work I’ve done

[lubuewin]

Love

I’m in love with someone with DID and who’s still in the closet. I don’t understand much about this disorder. I’m a bi cis woman with bipolar and thought I would never find anyone to love me. I get such mixed signal from her that she loves me then doesn’t. I don’t know what to do. I drop by and give her gifts. But she’s blocked me on her phone and FB. I don’t know what to do to get it through to her that I love her and am loyal. She’s also going through a bad breakup with a narcissist and I feel that this has damaged her trust. I find myself sometimes riding her emotional rollercoasters and it gets me down. It makes me feel unworthy and unlovable. She keeps hinting that I need to “win” her love and “fight” for her but aren’t I worth those same things. I feel like I’ve done everything I can think about to show her I love her and that I care (This has been going on for close to seven months). Should I even bother chasing her if she doesn’t want to be caught. I feel the push pull is too much to handle at times and she’s set me up to fail. How can I love her if she’s cut off all modes of comm. the last thing I want to do is stalk her and traumatize her. I’m so lost. This is such uncharted terratory for me. It makes me sad every time I think about the wonderful love we could have but I feel she ruins it intentionally. Anyone w any advice would be greatly appreciated.

[lubuewin]

If you love me, why r you running away?

[lubuewin]

[bpadsunflower]

me: *fucks up my sleep cycle*

my psychiatrist, whacking me with a stick: the! base! treatment! for! mood! disorders! is! a! regular! sleep! schedule!

[approach]

“Other people are not medicine.”

— It took me 9 years to figure that out  (via sunsetkawaii)

[thesoberbitch]

[kelpforestdwellers]

there is no moral reward for suffering.

[tamtambitches]

Can't wait to be happy and super gay with the person I love.

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