LucidPinkDream

[yoonasdiary]

[angelinesparkle]

girlhood

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I've never felt so stupid until i got into med school...

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today i made myself throw up for the first time, it felt like real ed feels, that bittersweet flavour.

be careful guys, my prime is coming back😝

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i lost around 3kgs (idk in how much time honestly) (i think i gain weight again)

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Esta nostalgia hace que el corazón me pese tanto que no me deja levantarme de la cama...

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I hate how everyone wants to make ed look like the best thing you can get cause you are gonna get skinny and thin. Can we talk about how you lose hair how your skin is bad how you can barely get out of bed how you can't focus on anything cause your body is trying to survive... I know I'm sick and mentally ill and I know this is nothing to be proud about or something to say that is pretty. snap it out. get real.

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Taylor was totally right when she said "They told me that all of my cages were mental, so I got wasted like all my potential"

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mum just showed me a pic of me and said "you were so skinny here"... I was 5 years old...

[heavensghost]

Forgive me, I am soft and warm, but cruel and a coward, I know nothing but goodbye, goodbye

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i need that thigh gap sooo fuckinnggg badly

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i was making myself dinner and my mum came out of the shower and said "what are you eating now?" yes ma'am make me starve again please 🙏

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the day I weigh 55kg will be over for all of you🙏

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"Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels" girl you are british ofc everything tastes better than food for you

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I kinda hate ed in twitter honestly people there are so fatphobic that makes me sick, ik you have a disorder girl but thats YOUR THING dont try to make feel other people bad about it, if you are gonna get hurt doit only yourself if you are gonna die do it alone, that simple

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Since my friend (who was fat) lost a lot of weight so quickly, cause of mia, honestly i've been kinda jealous and not the "ugh i hate that shes skinny and im not" typa jealous, is more the "why with you worked and not with me? why i've never felt skinny?". I've dealing with ed since im literally like 8 years old, its been 10 years so far and im fat now, i was so skinny before in quarantine, in my ed peak but then i tried to "recover" by myself and ended up with a weight that ive never had before. Tbh it makes me so sick thinking that, in the deepest of my heart and soul, im still missing ed even if i say im better now and im happier, i think at the end its a part of me. Plus, lately a lot of people have been losing weight, literally everyone, i just miss that skinny body that i used to have and thought i didnt have. I really hope i can be that skinny soon, guess is time to lock in