Daydreamer's Digest

[thewisewill80sbyers]

"long chapter, sorry guys!"

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"Here's a whole delicious cake I made only for you! Sorry that it's so big and delicious and makes you so happy, I made too much... 😔"

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kurt cobain @ live at paramount in seattle (oct 31, 1991)

photo by andré barcinski

[losinmysoul]

[veronicaisnotonline]

Nirvana in Frankfurt - 1991

[cherryohbaby]

"At the core of many of Kurt's internal struggles was his disassociation with the masculine ideal. 'I've always had a problem with the average macho man they've always been a threat to me,' he once said. Growing up in Aberdeen, Washington, he always felt at odds with the gruff culture of loggers and lumber mill workers, the jocks at school who he felt 'just wanted to fight and get laid'. His father tried to make him play baseball and go hunting; he would spend the whole time brooding silently, waiting until he could go home and listen to cassettes and draw pictures. In an environment where being male meant being aggressive and macho, this introspective blond kid - barely five foot seven, so skinny he would pile on extra layers of clothing to look bigger - was never going to fit in. He grew to look at masculinity from an outsider's perspective: 'I definitely feel closer to the female side of the human being than I do the male or the American idea of what a male is supposed to be.'

— Been a Son: Kurt Cobain and His Challenge to the Masculine Ideal

[starsail]

I like that you include at least Kurt in famous bisexuals. It pisses me off that people won't recognize it solely because he dated only girls in his lifetime. They say that it was only to piss off people or troll the journalists that's what he would say those things... I strongly believe that he was but a tiny part of me remembers the " I am not gay " in his journals or " I'm a heterosexual " in a interview so Idk... Your thoughts ?

Hey, sorry I missed this message! God, I have so much to say about this. Kurt and Krist and Dave are all confirmed bisexuals. Kurt and Krist both came out publicly about it several times while Nirvana was a band, and Dave has gotten more bold talking about it over the years. The sad thing is that this information gets ignored and covered up because people are homophobic. I’m actually writing a book right now that will cover a lot of this info and make sure it’s not forgotten.

Did you know Kurt also wrote, “God is gay and so am I” in his journal? It’s in there (can’t remember the exact page off the top of my head). Basically, Kurt said that he was both straight AND gay multiple times, and then in 1993, he finally used the word “bisexual” in his interview with The Advocate (the famous gay magazine). He actually came out as gay to his mom when he was a teen, but said she was homophobic and banned him from seeing his only close friend at the time, a fellow classmate who was gay. He even wrote a song as a teen that was about what it’s like to grow up gay or bi in a family/society that hates you: Laminated Effect

This song shows young Kurt’s confusion about bisexuality, as both the characters, “Johnny the homo” and “Lucy the lesbian” end up in a relationship with each other at the end of the song. You can tell Kurt grew up in a place where you were either a ‘good, clean, straight kid’ or a ‘sick, perverted faggot’ - bisexuality almost certainly was never talked about.

Kurt may have only “officially” dated girls, but he was clearly more than friends with both Krist and Dave (and they were with each other, too). Check it out:

“Did you know that I’m gay? […] If somebody tried to take away my gay rights it would have been really bad, because I really like to buttfuck. It’s fun. It feels good.”-Kurt at the No On 9 gay rights benefit gig (which Nirvana organised!), 10 Sept 1992(this is on youtube)

“Homo-sex rules! You’re not a man till you’ve sucked a cock. You’re not. Only a man knows what another man likes.”-Krist, 21 Sept 1991

“If there were anything I could tell a young band, it’d be just “Don’t do coke.” Go take Ecstasy and fuck your friends and buy giant bags of weed and wear a condom. “-Dave, Spin Magazine 1 Aug 2005(emphasis mine)

“I looked at Krist and Kurt as soulmates. The two had such a beautiful, unspoken understanding of each other.”-Dave, 24 Sept. 2013, Rolling Stone Magazine

Audience member: So, 22 years ago, you guys were on SNL–in dresses–and there was a man-on-man kiss. That was revolutionary.Dave: You know, I’m glad that some people think that. [audience laughter] I’m not kidding! You know one of the things we wanted to represent–we were the antithesis of a lot of that, like, bullshit heavy metal, that homophobic jock rock, because we truly grew up in an underground community where everybody was different and everybody was cool and that’s what was so great about it. I mean, you know, I used to get fucking chased around my neighborhood in Virginia, with people calling me a “fag!”, because I listened to punk rock. So then I was like, ‘I’m in the biggest fuckin’ band in the world!’ [flips the bird]-Bottle Rock Napa Valley 2013

“Krist and Kurt had a legendary lifetime connection. Those guys were soulmates. They’d been through so much together, from Aberdeen to the success of ‘Nevermind’. They fuckin’ shared everything, and they were the kind of friends that didn’t have to talk to each other–they just knew.” -Dave, Rolling Stone, 2005

Also at No On 9, shortly after talking about how he likes buttsex:

Fanquestion: If you could see Kurt Cobain one more time, what wouldyou say to him? Krist: I love you.-Q Magazine,March 2003

“Krist was Kurt’s best friend - always. The two of them had aconnection beyond words. I think they were closer to each other thanthey were to anybody else.”-Dave, 13 Sept. 2001, RollingStone Magazine

Kurt is sitting on Krist’s lap in this picture:

“Kurt heard [my demos], and kissed me on the face, as he was ina bath. He was so excited. He was like, ‘I heard you recorded somestuff with Barrett [Jones].’ I was like, ‘Yeah.’ He was like,‘Let me hear it.’ I was too afraid to be in the same room as helistened to it.”-Dave, 2014, Sonic Highways

Dave dropping hints:

“No, I cannot forgive you yetYou leave my heart in debtI should have knownI was inside of youI should have knownThere was that side of youCame without a warningCaught me unaware”-Foo Fighters featuring Krist, I Should Have Known

“I remember seeing him in high school a few times andthinking he was definitely somebody I wanted to meet. But I never sawhim other than at pep assemblies. He would usually participate insome kind of a skit, or something. And I remember thinking, God, hewas this really clever, funny, loudmouth person. I kept, you know,always making it obvious that I wanted to be in a band, I wantedsomeone to play with, but still Chris never wanted to. Until I madethe Fecal Matter tape with Dale and always making it available forChris to hear, and he just never bothered to listen to it until oneday he just came over and said, “I finally listened to that tapeyou made. It’s pretty good. You know, we should start a band.”Ok! Finally! [laughs]“ -Kurt, 1992 About A Son (theadoration in his voice here as he talks about Krist is so lovely)

And now it’s Dave sitting on Krist’s lap:

“Chris and Shelli broke up. God am I relieved! […] I’m verycontent with the relationship Chris, Chad and I have.“-Kurt,Journals, pg 30

“Dear Kurt,It’s been 20 years since you left and Ithink about you every day.- Love, Krist”(5 Apr.2014, Krist’s Twitter)

Interviewer: “Do you still have dreams aboutKurt?”Krist: “I do. And it’s beautiful!It’s just loving. You know when you lose somebody and you see them ina dream and you just feel all this love? It’s nice.”(7Oct 2015 FOX Business Network Interview)

Aaaaanyway, that was a long-ass post and I hope you enjoyed it and it gives you some ammo to argue with stupid homophobe “fans” of Nirvana.

[outromoony]

Me when the slow burn is slow burning

[bloodbruise]

the bitches traumatized by saltburn would never survive the fics in my ao3 history

[messrsage]

you wouldn’t last an hour in the asylum where they raised me

[midnights-dragon]

[paigegonerogue]

I, of mostly sound body and spirit, request that if I’m ever to die, someone post a new work on my AO3 that says “sorry, she died, ongoing stories postponed forever” because don’t I want my fanfic buddies to think I ghosted them. Amen or whatever you say in a will.

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[6-satans-book-club-6]

The Satanic Philosopher by Rev Cain

[prokopetz]

The author's poorly disguised fetish

The author's proudly displayed fetish

The author's fetish you're pretty sure they don't realise they have

The author's fetish which they're firmly convinced everyone has and is just pretending otherwise

The author's non-sexual special interest which just sounds like a fetish because of their habitually unfortunate phrasing

The fetish the author is making a well-meaning effort to cater to in spite of clearly not understanding it themselves

The author's fetish that never quite makes it into the text because they keep getting sidetracked by the requisite worldbuilding

The author's utterly pedestrian sexual preference which the text treats like a bizarre fetish because they've got shit to work through

The author's seemingly innocuous recurring trope they're going to have a personal revelation about ten years down the road

The author's fetish you missed on a first reading because it's so far out of pocket, it never occurred to you that you could sexualise that

[lucifreta]

Not necessarily the faces, or the f*cking AI which I hate! But this is Cliff and Lewis' hair to me. Hair's a big identity thing for them. Anyway, this'll probably get yanked down 'cause I pulled this shit off Google but I didn't know where else to post for the link. lol go read Long Exposure.