In Uthenera

Ryerson Theatre School almost grad, Durham College future grad. A blog documenting my postsecondary life.

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[luckyjadeturtles]

I suppose I’ll do one of these again since I’m starting over:

Hi, I’m Jade and I’m going to college. I started this blog back when I was applying for post-secondary studies the first time around. That was in 2013 and things didn’t quite go exactly as planned. I went to university for 5 1/2 years (for a 4 year program lol) before taking a break and ultimately deciding to study something else at a different school.

When I started this blog, I was looking for advice and others who felt as clueless as I did. This time around, I have the experience of almost completing a BA in performance production and a little adulting under my belt. Mostly what I’m looking for is to connect with other college/university students, especially those who will be attending Durham College in the fall like me. 

[luckyjadeturtles]

Ben Barlow from Neck Deep

Ben Barlow looks like if my ex wasn’t ugly

[arsonauts]

(9) Tumblr on We Heart It.

[estradiol]

Due to personal reasons I will be disappearing under mysterious circumstances

[shadowssounds]

Gaff holds bands, concerts, nightclubs—and my boots—together.

[matt-the-blind-cinnamon-roll]

I once built dance shoes out of gaffer tape because mine broke right before a show. RIP my man.

[pinupac87]

In theatre, we live and die by gaffer’s tape. This news makes me so sad.

[queerforscience]

Gaffer’s tape is often the default for track boundaries so the derby community should also take a second to pay their respects.

[luckyjadeturtles]

where did u go

I took a long hiatus from school following the the death of a few close personal relationships. (For clarification: these people are alive, the friendships are dead.) I lost one of my best friends in November 2018, as well as my ex, R, who I wasn’t exactly friends with but we were at least civil and on speaking terms. Long story short, they decided to date despite my making it abundantly clear to both of them that I wasn’t comfortable with the idea. She knew how he had treated me, but insisted that “he changed.” (Spoiler alert: he hadn’t.)

Anyway, I felt extremely disrespected and cut off all contact immediately. I was hurt for a long time, feeling like she had tossed away a nearly decade old friendship for a relationship that didn’t even last a few months from what I heard. I was angry. My mental health spiralled into a bad place again. I couldn’t handle the stress of the situation on top of my classes so, at the urging of my parents, I dropped my classes, moved out of my student co-op, and went back home.

I took some time to recuperate, took care of my mental health, and then I got a job. I worked there for about 9 months before moving on to a different job, where I was promoted within months. I’m still working at that job now. I feel a lot better mentally and emotionally these days. So yeah, that’s where I’ve been since I last posted. 

[luckyjadeturtles]

Do you still use this blog?

The short answer is no, I wasn’t using this blog for a long time. I don’t know when this ask was sent but it’s being answered on February 27, 2019. That being said, I think I want to come back. I took a long hiatus from school for my mental health (which will be addressed in another post) but now that it has stabilized, I’m ready to graduate.

Just kidding, I decided not to finish my program. Theatre production was too stressful for me and as the years went on, I found my passion for it dwindling. My classmates all found a niche within the program, specializing in things that they were good at. I never did. I was okay at some things, but I never excelled or loved one area more than anything else.

Well, I guess that’s not entirely true. I rather liked audience relations. In my third year, I wanted to do audience relations because I thought that I wouldn’t like it, I wanted to put myself out of my comfort zone. To my surprise, I really liked it. Organizing the program for a show, selling tickets at the box office, and dealing with the general public. Yeah, I actually liked dealing with the general public. Weird, I know.

I mention this because I do plan to graduate, eventually. From the public relations program at Durham College. I won’t have to live on/near campus or pull crazy hours on call anymore. It’s kind of a relief. It sucks to start over but at the very least I can transfer my elective courses over.

So yeah, I’m back now. I won’t be checking this blog as often as my main (which I already don’t check very often now that tumblr nuked adult content and killed a good chunk of its userbase) so if you’d like to reach me, send me a message and I’ll let you know some of my other social media.

[natsoldart-deactivated20240228]

[vah-siara]

I always think this same thing every time I find one on Death Mountain. Like dude, you’re literally WOOD and a LEAF. HOW?

[sugarelixir]

So Famitsu weighed Link in comparison to apples and the pan on the side of the apples will go up if you have eight apples.  BUT if you have nine apples, the pan will slowly go down.

Someone: How much do you weigh? Link: Like 8.5 apples I guess.

[luckyjadeturtles]

I felt more loved in the month and a half I spent with D than the year and a half I was with R.

[luckyjadeturtles]

This is the only blog of mine my ex doesn’t follow, or even know about, and thus my only safe space to vent about this weird pseudo love triangle I’ve found myself a part of. Whether or not I still have feelings for him, I’m willing to get back together and try again when the time is right. However, when he broke up with me, he told me he was still in love with his ex. Obviously that stings to hear no matter what. He’s not planning on getting back together with her, or me, or getting together with anyone for that matter until he gets his life sufficiently together. But the fact that she’s still in his mind at all makes me feel sick.

[nueventeen]

seventeen // my i

[gershwinn]

So cool! That Terry is talented af!

[zohbugg]

we don’t deserve him

[vjatoch]

Alistair

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[luckyjadeturtles]

oh also I didn’t graduate so I’ll be back at it for another year, two classes this semester and my thesis project next semester. I haven’t even begun to think about it.