When will it be our turn- Pedri
"You know I've been thinking" Pedri startedÂ
"That sounds dangerous" I jokedÂ
"No seriously we've been married a few months now and I thought that maybe we should start talking about starting a family, only if you're ready of course" he said
"I've been thinking about it too I just didn't want to bring it up in case you weren't ready" I saidÂ
"Then lets start trying no pressure we'll just take it as it comes when it's our time it will happen" Pedri saidÂ
"I like the sound of no pressure and I like the sound of not having to take a pill everyday" I saidÂ
Just as I said that my alarm to remind me to take my birth control went off. Pedri turned it off with a smirk on his face as he went to find the pills and throw them away. Next thing I knew he was carrying me upstairs to our bedroom to get a start on trying even though we both knew my birth control would still be in my system but it doesn't hurt to get some practice in.Â
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No pressure. That's what we said when we started this whole journey but the more months that went by the more the pressure started to settle in. After three months of trying neither of us were too bothered about not seeing a positive test. After six months I started to worry that we were doing something wrong but Pedri reassured me that our time will come. After nine months even Pedri started to worry a little but he tried his best not to show it even though I could see right through it. A year passed by and still no positive test or even any real symptoms my period was like clock work every month. Then two years came and went and still nothing changed.Â
Once we hit the year mark we took things more seriously. Every month I took ovulation tests and I tracked everything meticulously thinking it would help. We tried everything anyone had ever recommended from medications to acupuncture anything that could help fertility we tried it. Then as we hit two years we both went to the doctors to get tests done to see if there was anything medically wrong but according to the doctors there isn't any reason we can't conceive. All they recommended was to keep trying or to do ivf which is what we were both dreading hearing.Â
I cried for hours after that appointment. In the two years we spent trying so many of ours friends had babies if not multiple which only ever drove the knife further into my chest. I wondered why we couldn't have the same what had we done to deserve the misery of the last two years. I know Pedri thought about it too but he did his best to be my rock throughout everything he knew that for every months that went by I thought less of myself and he did his best to stop that. Pedri cried too when we were told there was nothing wrong he tried hiding it but I could feel his tears in my hair as he held me tight for the rest of that awful day.Â
This situation would test any relationship and I've read many stories about couples who broke up or divorced over it but Pedri and I have stayed strong throughout it all. There's definitely been hard days but we've always made sure to keep talking to each other and just being honest about how we feel. Pedri held me when I cried after seeing yet another negative test and I supported him whenever things got to him even when he tried not to show it. We've both dealt with it in different ways but we've been through it all together.Â
I didn't want to think about ivf at the time because in my mind that meant failure so we agreed to try for another six months and then we'd revisit ivf. Well those six months went like all the others of course so today we have an appointment to start the process. I've had the time to mourn the fact that we just can't seem to conceive naturally and now I just want us to be able to start a family like everyone else we know. Part of me is excited that the pressure is off and it will be down to science now not us.Â
Pedri picked me up after he finished training and we went straight to the doctor's office which was filled with pregnant women and their partners as well as people with newborn babies which stung a little. Once we filled out all the paperwork we were taken into a room where they drew my blood for some tests then we just had to wait. Pedri never let go of my hand the entire time we waited, he played with my rings the entire time too which is his way of calming his nerves. It felt like we were waiting in there forever but eventually a doctor came back in with  smile on her face which felt a little misplaced in this situation.Â
"Sorry that took so long we had to run some tests a couple times to check the result but I'm happy to able to tell you that you're pregnant" the doctor saidÂ
"Wait I'm pregnant I can't be I took a test a few days ago and it was negative" I saidÂ
"You are definitely pregnant your hgc levels are through the roof so congratulations, on your way out you should set an appointment for your first ultrasound in a few weeks" the doctor said leaving us to process the newsÂ
"It's finally happening" I saidÂ
"We're going to be parents" Pedri statedÂ
"How typical that we find out I'm pregnant just as we finally give up trying" I laughed through the happy tearsÂ
"This baby is already trouble and they're not even here yet" Pedri joked
"I can't wait to meet them" I smiledÂ
"Me too" Pedri saidÂ
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The first few days I almost couldn't believe that I was actually pregnant it then it became hard not to notice. The nausea hit me like a truck along with the tiredness but I wouldn't change it for the world we've waited so long for this I'd take much worse if it meant we have a healthy baby. Don't get me wrong I've not been having a good time I've spent most of my time laying in bed or on the sofa but it's all becomes worth it when I look at my tiny little bump. According to the dates I worked out I should be about 10 weeks and Iâve already got a small bump which I wasn't expecting but it's definitely there.Â
Today is our first ultrasound. It was supposed to be at around 8 weeks but Pedri had so many games that we couldn't find a time we could both go together until now. There's no training today so we had the whole day to think about the ultrasound. Pedri couldn't wait he wanted to see our baby for the first time but I worried that we'd get there and they'd tell us that something is wrong or that somehow I'd never been pregnant in the first place. It's stupid really there's no way I could be this sick if I wasn't pregnant and I've taken my own tests since the one they did at the doctors all of which have been positive it just doesn't quite feel real.Â
Being back at the doctors felt different this time seeing the people with their babies didn't hurt like it did last time instead I was able to picture that being us in just a few months. The tiny baby in a car seat fast asleep, that will be us after all this time. Even the other heavily pregnant women had me picturing myself at 7 or 8 months pregnant probably incredibly uncomfortable eagerly awaiting our bundle of joy.Â
It wasn't long before we were called in and they started the ultrasound. The doctor moved the wand over my stomach a couple of times before going back and forth and looking at the screen intently. Immediately my heart rate jumped to a million miles an hour I thought something was wrong, like really wrong. Pedri must've thought the same as he held my hand a little tighter but at the same time we both relaxed as we looked at the doctor who didn't seem concerned at all in fact she had a small smile on her face.Â
"From your chart I read that you'd been struggling to conceive is that correct?" The doctor askedÂ
"Yeah we were just about to start ivf when we found out I was pregnant" I saidÂ
"Well it seems like you've been rewarded for waiting so long you are expecting twins" the doctor saidÂ
"Twins" Pedri questionedÂ
"Yes here's baby A and here's baby B which explains your high hcg levels in your blood test and I imagine that's why you've felt so tired growing a baby takes a lot out of you but two takes even more" the doctor explainedÂ
"Wow I can't believe it" I saidÂ
"With twins especially as your first pregnancy we like to keep a closer eye on things so you'll have a few more appointments than usual but it's all to keep you and baby happy and healthy" the doctor saidÂ
"Thank you" Pedri saidÂ
Disbelief doesn't even begin to explain how I think we both felt in that moment. All this time waiting for one baby and now we're going to have two. We'll have two car seats, two cribs and two sets of clothes. There's going to be so much we need to buy and sort out but I've been waiting for those days since we started trying so I can't wait although I think our bank account will enjoy it less.Â
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I'm four months along now and time is flying. It feels like just yesterday that we found out about the twins and today we have our gender reveal. We had the appointment a few days ago but we asked for the gender to be put in an envelope which we gave to Pedri's brother leaving it up to him to choose a way to reveal the gender to everyone as well as us. Pedri is convinced that we're having one of each but I think they are identical but I can't decide if it's two boys or two girls. I had a dream the other day about us having two girls which felt really real but honestly I don't know.Â
I've not been involved in planning anything Pedri took over everything along with Fer. All morning they've been setting stuff up in the garden while I just watch as they won't let me do anything. All I had to do was get ready and wait for Pedri to come and get me to see everything they've set up outside. Pedri did just that, first he helped me zip my dress as I couldn't do it by myself then he led me outside making sure I closed my eyes not to ruin the reveal. We walked slowly so I didn't trip over until we stopped and I was allowed to open my eyes. To start with I didn't know where to look they'd really gone all out with decorations and food for everyone. It was everything I imagined and more I can't lie it even brought a few tears to my eyes.Â
People started to arrive not long after, all of them were dressed in either pink or blue and most of them had gifts for the babies even though we said we didn't want gifts. Everyone ate and took part in the games Pedri and Fer had set up before it was finally time for the reveal. Fer went with balloons filled with confetti for the reveal which were kept inside so they didn't fly away until needed. Once the ballon and the needle were in my hand the nerves started to kick in nothing really changes if we have two boys, two girls or one of each but it will help us to get to know our babies, we can decorate the nursery and decide on names, it's the start of them becoming people not just blobs which we've been calling them.
3...2...1
Pop
Pink confetti floated down on top of us. Two girls. I can't believe it my dream was right. In seconds Pedri had picked me up and started twirling me round. I thought he'd be at least a tiny bit disappointed that we aren't having a boy but he didn't seem bothered at all. His smile went ear to ear and the look in his eye told me that he was thinking about what our future looks like. We had our moment together before people started to congratulate us. Pedri's parents were the first to congratulate us Rosy was so excited to have two granddaughters after having two sons of her own. Fer was next, of course he knew but he still he wanted to congratulate us. Everyone else came over one by one some shared advice and others just wished us luck which I think we are really going to need.Â
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After a lot of thinking and many questions to my doctor we decided to schedule a c-section. Having a natural birth with twins is possible but any number of things can go wrong and it can end in having an emergency c-section anyway so we decided it would be safer for all three of us to let the professionals take over from the start. My doctor also didn't want me to go over 38 weeks so today at 38 weeks exactly is the day we get to meet our girls. Pedri was allowed the day off training which meant we got a bit of lie-in although I haven't really slept much in weeks because I get uncomfortable in one position after not too long. Pedri slept in while I made sure I had everything we needed packed in the hospital bag then I did a few other chores to take my mind off things.Â
The drive to the hospital and the wait to go into the operating room felt like weeks but really it was just a couple hours. Once I was given the spinal block things became really real the entire lower half of my body was completely numb which really started to freak me out but Pedri was quick to calm me down. Even as the surgery started his attention on me didn't waver he didn't look the other side of the curtain or at the doctors even once.
"I'm right here amor focus on me not what's going on" Pedri said trying to calm my nervesÂ
"When they arrive go with them I'll be ok I don't want them to be alone" I saidÂ
"I'll be by your side until you are all stitched up then I'll go but I'm not leaving you open on an operating table" he saidÂ
He stroked my hair and held my hand right up until our first little girl was born as they handed her to Pedri. She was so beautiful with her masses of dark hair and her tiny little hands and feet. She let out a few small cries as her sister was handed to me over with the same dark hair and tiny little features. Both of them were perfect so perfect it had tears in my eyes and Pedri's too. Our girls are finally here after years of waiting for this moment we have our babies healthy babies in our arms.Â
The doctors finished my surgery before taking our girls to do all the necessary tests on them so I sent Pedri with them. I was taken to a recovery suite where I was going to wait for Pedri to come back with the girls which felt like it took forever but that was just because I was nervous that something might be wrong. In reality it was only around 10 minutes until Pedri walked back in with one baby in each arm. We've been together for many years at this point but I don't think I've ever found him more attractive than I did in that moment looking at him holding our little girls with the biggest smile on his face.Â
"How are you doing amor?" Pedri askedÂ
"I'm fine in a bit of pain but that's to be expected" I answeredÂ
"You look beautiful you'd never know you'd just given birth" he complimentedÂ
"Thank you but I didn't do any of the work" I laughedÂ
"You still look gorgeous" he saidÂ
"How are the girls?" I askedÂ
"Both perfect the doctors said they are both perfectly healthy you did a great job of growing them" he saidÂ
"I'll have to add that to my skills" I jokedÂ
We spent some time soaking in the moment before we told any one that the twins were even here but as soon as we did we had constant visitors. Pedri's family came first with food for both of us then my parents turned up with some things to hopefully make my recovery easier. They all took turns holding the girls as they are the first grandkids on both sides which makes this all a little more special. After they left a few of the guys turned up Ferran bought some really cute matching outfits with him, Gavi had my favourite chocolates with him and Lamine had a toy for the girls that they won't be able to use for months but it was a sweet gesture nonetheless. Pedri was stressed watching them hold the girls but all was fine.Â
Eventually we were left alone again to spent the first night as parents I'm sure it won't be easy but we've waited so long for this moment that I couldn't care less. Our turn has finally come and I couldn't be more grateful.














