luduckism

[luduck77]

don't get me wrong, i AM driven by love. i just don't think my love has a legal license

[luduck77]

i had a long dream; i think i loved you in it

[25nightchords]

Re: Create you will always be famous to me

[luduck77]

epiphany: i think a lot of my worldview is informed by me being a small scared prey animal of some sort actually. a) people are like horrifically bad at knowing how to approach skittish animals and b) i tend to speak like i assume everyone else also feels like a small animal. this makes me very condescending

[luduck77]

freak my stupid banana life it is so hard to want to be the little spoon when i have Altered Perception of Reality and Irrational Disgust Reaction Towards Other People

[luduck77]

need to defeat the otherness by being hashtag relatable

[luduck77]

i really like curling up sitting on curbs

[luduck77]

one of my favorite motifs in music is the, like, reminder of gentleness- an overarching bell line, or something like nana's part of hoshiboshi no kizuna where there's a dichotomy between big heavy bass and guitar interspersed with tender and held-out strings and vocal, or a reprised nostalgic motif over a grander and more ominous backing (really love funeral of flowers from fire emblem three houses)

anyways so that just really ties into my love of characters like daiba nana!! because she IS incredibly cruel and dedicated to perpetuating her own beliefs over anyone else's no matter what, but she's never Mean about it. she'll put her opponents down, play mind games (hikanana beef is so important to me), but it's all incredibly. gentle in a way. she's so NiceTM. and not like in an inherently* manipulative way her kindness has genuinely warped her. i'm such a big fan...

*back to mind games part she IS manipulative with her tender demeanor, in the context of a battle, as a weapon, toxic parent style Banana Knows What's Best For You I'm Doing This For You style. honestly top 3 most sickening manipulation tactics. i cheered

[luduck77]

if you can tell ive had this on my mind for a hot second and i Just Realized tumblr doesn't have a character limit (i think)

[luduck77]

one of my favorite motifs in music is the, like, reminder of gentleness- an overarching bell line, or something like nana's part of hoshiboshi no kizuna where there's a dichotomy between big heavy bass and guitar interspersed with tender and held-out strings and vocal, or a reprised nostalgic motif over a grander and more ominous backing (really love funeral of flowers from fire emblem three houses)

anyways so that just really ties into my love of characters like daiba nana!! because she IS incredibly cruel and dedicated to perpetuating her own beliefs over anyone else's no matter what, but she's never Mean about it. she'll put her opponents down, play mind games (hikanana beef is so important to me), but it's all incredibly. gentle in a way. she's so NiceTM. and not like in an inherently* manipulative way her kindness has genuinely warped her. i'm such a big fan...

*back to mind games part she IS manipulative with her tender demeanor, in the context of a battle, as a weapon, toxic parent style Banana Knows What's Best For You I'm Doing This For You style. honestly top 3 most sickening manipulation tactics. i cheered

[luduck77]

larping as a normal, existing person with my life on the line

[luduck77]

hisui // jade

[luduck77]

i think my entire personality is a fawn response

[luduck77]

if i was some kind of animal under scientific observation for stress related behaviors the researchers would love me

[luduck77]

yuri between a girl with anxious attachment issues and [Revue Starlight Related Punchline Here]

[luduck77]

out of body experience where i point at myself and go "you can really see they genuinely think they deserve to live"

[luduck77]

one hit k.o. : smiley character with unsettling amount of suicide related imagery and symbolism that is not acknowledged by the actual storyline

[luduck77]

i hope the way i cringe into myself like a terrified dog is endearing to the masses