[lulusys]

pinned

hi im lulu im black system 22 disabled and use any pronouns

[lulusys]

[blossomfully]

Sue Zhao

[paper-wounds]

[lulusys]

coming to terms with certain behaviors

[lulusys]

i dont understand him

[semiplural]

States of Being

We were trying to explain to some friends earlier that saying "this person is in front" and "this person is co-conscious" isn't always the most useful phrasing for us because either of those terms can mean a lot of different things. We have our own words that we like to use to describe where folks can be in relation to our awareness.

The states on this chart are still a bit of a simplification, as we flow between them and it's more of a spectrum than a discrete set, but they're close enough to the actual language that we use to do the job.

[lulusys]

[lulusys]

[mindnagerie]

A Drop in the Bucket.

[lulusys]

recent events i drew out for my therapist

not feeling fully present feels kinda bad when you have people you care about in your life

[lulusys]

a strict protectors thoughts on recent conversations

[cyber-byte-sys]

Stole this from an endogenic

[torstherapy]

[bathhousekitty]

For the longest time, I truly believed I couldn’t have DID because I “didn’t have amnesia”.

Now, in my mind, amnesia meant everything sort of went black and you’d come to days later without a clue of what had happened or where you were. And while, that absolutely can be the case for some— it wasn’t for me.

Amnesia for me is much more complex. The gaps of memory I loose are patched together by the things that I do remember. My mind may omit half the day, but because I can remember the other half, it doesn’t feel as if I’ve lost any time truly. My mind worked overtime to hide how much time I was loosing, simply because if I knew, I don’t think the past version of myself would’ve handled it very well. </3

I suppose all this is to say that how amnesia presents itself is much more complex than most realize, especially when your brain is trying to protect you in its own weird way. It took me a long time to understand its true face… Q_Q

[blooming-foliage]

apparently theres 5 threat responses documented now!

from a trauma & dissociation workbook page our therapist shared

[lulusys]

differing thoughts on the same thing