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hi im lulu im black system 22 disabled and use any pronouns

#plurality #txt #plural #did #did system #black system

States of Being

We were trying to explain to some friends earlier that saying "this person is in front" and "this person is co-conscious" isn't always the most useful phrasing for us because either of those terms can mean a lot of different things. We have our own words that we like to use to describe where folks can be in relation to our awareness.

The states on this chart are still a bit of a simplification, as we flow between them and it's more of a spectrum than a discrete set, but they're close enough to the actual language that we use to do the job.

#helpful

#♦️#system art #ive eaten lunch for host two days in a row now im pleased #lulu #did #did system #plural #plural comic #plurality #actually dissociative #dissociative identity disorder

#did system #did #plural #plural comic #plurality #lulu #actually dissociative #dissociation #dissociative identity disorder #did osdd #🪼#?#idk the other kid lmao #thoughts on our parents are very varied? for obv reasons #realizing you sound like your parents is kinda awful its a wip #system comic

mindnagerie

A Drop in the Bucket.

recent events i drew out for my therapist

not feeling fully present feels kinda bad when you have people you care about in your life

#its weird when youre like not you but you can kinda see what your body is doing but its just not you #its frustrating ik im safe but i just wish i could be present more #did #did system #plural #plural comic #plurality #lulu #♦️#🍳#system comic

a strict protectors thoughts on recent conversations

#did #did system #plural #plural comic #plurality #actually dissociative #♦️#🍳#?#posted with permission from him #he was actually willing to share openly for once wow huge development for him #system comic

cyber-byte-sys

Stole this from an endogenic

#yeah... yeah its like this.#when im not as stressed or everyone is pretty quiet i have to be faking im actually normal

torstherapy

bathhousekitty

For the longest time, I truly believed I couldn’t have DID because I “didn’t have amnesia”.

Now, in my mind, amnesia meant everything sort of went black and you’d come to days later without a clue of what had happened or where you were. And while, that absolutely can be the case for some— it wasn’t for me.

Amnesia for me is much more complex. The gaps of memory I loose are patched together by the things that I do remember. My mind may omit half the day, but because I can remember the other half, it doesn’t feel as if I’ve lost any time truly. My mind worked overtime to hide how much time I was loosing, simply because if I knew, I don’t think the past version of myself would’ve handled it very well. </3

I suppose all this is to say that how amnesia presents itself is much more complex than most realize, especially when your brain is trying to protect you in its own weird way. It took me a long time to understand its true face… Q_Q