Deep thoughts Inc.

I travel mind and body to find peace :/

[lumberjackplaid]

I’m still here

[lumberjackplaid]

Here and back Again....

Im just waiting to wake up from the nightmare that is life.

always tired never feeling anything somedays

[lumberjackplaid]

I'm still here

I'm Ok I'm happy working and I have a woman.

[lumberjackplaid]

Let's try again

Haven’t been on in forever but this week is the worst I’m super tired and sad and food taste bad everything is just shitty to me really this cant be living at all

[lumberjackplaid]

Glassware

I feel like a bottle sometimes full or empty always to be tossed around by my emotions

[lumberjackplaid]

2:48 pm cowboy

Becoming more distant with reality and what's real. Shadows that aren't there sounds that aren't heard friends and people are blending with these perverse illusions. I feel so far gone from this plain of reality and have no priorities of coming back and falling into the madness.

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Lightly scared

Things are I guess going good. I have a job,money, and a stable schedule. But I still hurt even more I can't think straight food is really terrible to me that have to make myself eat and I want to tell everyone how I really feel about killing myself with out repercussions and how I'm so unhappy about nothing but everything. Only thing that's holding me back is being able to play the new Stars Wars Battlefront and the new movie Force awaken but those things feel so far away I'm trying my hardest not to give in. My silence is my tell.

[lumberjackplaid]

Benchmarked

I hear talking,yelling,and terrified screaming in my head during times of unfocused being. I’ve traveled and yet can’t feel moved by the places and people. Food tastes rotten and I can’t seem to find joy in the little things anymore. I this a way to live?

[lumberjackplaid]

Stop hear the beat

I don't know what to do with my life. I can't figure out a meaningful purpose from which I can look into the future and see my self. I just want a purpose a role in society that is helpful and that does more good then harm or if at all possible a neutral way of being

[lumberjackplaid]

Cloud of sky

I cry when I hear music I like. A rush of sad and happiness runs through me and I can't control my self! I break down to the rhythm and beats completely submit my mind and body to the feelings of air vibrating to produce a wonderful experience in my life and sometimes it drowns out the horrible thoughts that send me over the edge of human behavior

[lumberjackplaid]

Make the face

I want to disappear for 3years out of sight and range from anyone who knows me. So I can make a real go at the life I have just roam the wilderness and just me to to care of. I need to really just pack up and run.

[lumberjackplaid]

Painted wrong

Am I? Or just wrong for the stage of life?

[lumberjackplaid]

What's real?!?

I can’t distinguish my thoughts and point of view from reality. I don’t feel anything just empty but I feel like I’m being watched. I don’t know what I’m doing any more but just following the beat of a broken drum but why do I still hear it and feel the false vibrations of sound. I can’t take it I can’t believe my eyes asking if your there to just get by are you real or just a mindless lie

[lumberjackplaid]

That was fun

[lumberjackplaid]

Attached strings

Just sad not wanting to do anything. I'm tired but can't sleep I can't decide if I want friends anymore when can I just not have people bug me to go do stuff

[lumberjackplaid]

Turn't

I'm going crazy walls are breathing and I cant find anything I just want to rip my face off and throw up.

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Aishiteimasu

I can’t say I love you and it hurts that I can’t truly make that connection. I don’t know if I truly like things or people but what I do know that I ache with pain of not being able to understand love.