this is fueling my need to play pokopia and yet.... i have no switch 2
gnawing at the bars of my enclosure i wanna play it SO BADDDDD RAHHHHHHH, i just cannot justify buying it myself for just the one game but MAN do i want tođ
also ditto V and Ronin are so cuteđ„čđ„čđ«¶đ«¶
Synopsis. Choso always loved watching you - his pretty lilâ camgĂrl - from behind the screen. Who knew heâd love being on-screen with you even more?
Pairing. Choso Kamo x Reader
Content. MDNI, fem! reader, camgĂrl! reader, spĂtting, Choso has rings and piercings, first times + loss of vĂrginity (Chosoâs), oral (fem receiving), exhĂbitionism, DOWN BAD Choso, cĂșmplay, use of âmaâamâ, Sukuna is a menace, vĂbrators, light jealousy (Chosoâs), some HEINOUS things, pet names, swearing.
Word count. 6.5k
A/N. Meant to post this last week but hehe here we are. Also Iâve GOT to stop using Unc-kuna so much lmao.
âWanna see a movie or do you wanna make one?â
Choso was screwed. Completely and utterly screwed. So badly, in fact, that he might as well just wipe off every trace of himself online and go into hiding - preferably forever.
All because he had been so stupidly careless as to leave his phone unattended for exactly 1 minute and 47 seconds around Sukuna.Â
In the time it took Choso to raid the kitchen for his favorite brand of cereal, his uncle had managed to open his Twitter (because âthatâs where all the juicy stuff isâ), stalk your pretty page at the very top of his last searched, and send a god-awful pick-up line that would probably get him blocked. Or worse.
Damnit, he knew he shouldnât have made his password Yujiâs birthday.
âYa should be thankful I didnât DM her myself, brat.â Sukuna chuckles, not even a shred of regret in his tone, way too amused with how Choso was frantically trying to tackle the phone out of his hands. âWhatâs the harm in asking? Such a pretty camgirl, nâ you look like you need some good pu-â
âSheâs also my classmate.â
âKinky. Even better.âÂ
No, not âeven betterâ. God, this must be some kind of cosmic joke, and Choso just wished the Earth would swallow him up whole right now - and maybe his phone along with it too.Â
It had taken him almost a whole semester to work up the courage to just sit next to you during your shared lecture. All gorgeous with your bright smiles, and your smart mouth. And Choso was very much content to admire you from afar - and from behind his phone screen, of course.
Never following, never liking. Never tipping you off as one of your hundreds of thousands of fans.
And now, not only had Sukuna revealed that heâd found your secret Twitter account - the one with those sinful little clips of yourself that had Choso opening the app way too much - heâd also propositioned you. Like some creep. Â
âUgh. This is why women hate you.â Still desperately grappling, he spits out more to himself than Sukuna at this point. âB-besides, sheâs never even gonna respond any-â
Ping!
And the Itadori household had never been quieter. Never, on a random Saturday during spring break. Never, as the two men crowd the phone, jaws dropped and staring wordlessly at the singular message on screen. You.Â
âLetâs make one ;)â
---
âSo sânot a stream this time, jusâ a video. Is that okay?â You hum from your desk, glancing at the man seated on your bed as he hastily nods along with whatever you said. Looking like heâd rather be anywhere but here.Â
Weird.Â
It had only been a few days of back and forth since youâd gotten that first text - the one that youâd honestly thought about blocking like the thousands of others. But there was just something about it that made you stop, something that had you clicking on the profile to delve a little deeper.
It hit you like a semi-truck back then - five of them, in fact - that this was someone in your class. Someone you knew. How the hell did he even find this account?Â
You knew Choso as that sweet - albeit slightly gloomy - kid that sat next to you, always quick with his answers and even quicker to look away from your gaze, no matter how hard you tried to spark a conversation. Youâd just guessed he was afraid of you or something.
So nothing couldâve prepared you for how ridiculously attractive he looked in that profile picture, all smug grins and dark locks falling effortlessly around his slightly smudged eyeliner. Shirtless, giving just a peak of- oh god, were those nipple piercings? Â
Could you really be blamed? You just had to have him.
But, here - it was like he was just itching to run away at the first chance he got.Â
âYouâre not held at gunpoint, yâknow.â you giggle at how he startles at the mere sound of your voice. The mattress dips as you stop fiddling with the camera to sit next to him, thighs flush against his muscled ones. âAre you sure you want-â
âYes.âÂ
It seems that both of you were surprised by the abrupt response. Too quick. Choso clears his throat, cheeks flaring as he tries to dredge up some semblance of dignity, he drawls lightly. âI mean- Yes.â
You study him for a moment under the dim lighting, noting the way his hands clench and unclench in his lap, the way his chest rises and falls rapidly as he struggles to control his breathing. He was nervous. Nervous and horny - nothing quite like the suave impression his pick-up line gave off.Â
But so irresistible just the same.
âWellâŠCho.â you bat your lashes, voice dropping to a seductive whisper - not too heavy, for now at least. âThen why wonât you even look at me?â
Alas, Choso was not a strong man.Â
Maybe at your words, maybe at that playful little nickname you gave him, heâs finally raising those dark eyes to look at you. Twinkling with- fear? anticipation? A flicker of something so dangerous as his gaze sweeps greedily over that tight dress you put on just for this occasion.Â
Choso tries to ignore how sinfully it hugs all your curves. Or the way it would look a million times better on the floor.Â
This was absolute torture.Â
And God he thinks he could pass out right then and there as you lean in closer. Too close. The temperature in the room suddenly increasing by about 10 degrees as you purr, tone careful and balanced. âMuch better. And nowâŠâÂ
His breathing becomes heavier, eyes flickering downwards. Once. Twice.Â
And you know youâve got him in the palm of your hand.Â
â...all you gotta do is touch me.â
Yeah, if Choso thought he was going to pass out before then he definitely wasnât ready for those dangerous little words. Ones that have him shaken right to the core - fighting that urge to just take you how heâs imagined all those lonely nights.
âYou- huh?â he lets out a shaky laugh, the sound strained as he crosses his legs with the subtlety of a sledgehammer, desperately trying to will away the blood rushing straight to his throbbing cock right now.Â
But how could he? Not when you only shift closer, barely even a hairâs breadth between you two - relishing in his strangled gasp as your tits press so enticingly against his arm. Such an adorable pout playing on your lips as you mutter, âDo you not want to?â
And he did. Oh, how he did - has been imagining it for the past five months, in fact. And Choso lets you know, a little twenty times, actually, as the words spill panickedly from his lips.Â
â-idiot trying to set me up and Iâve been dreaming of fucking you for so long but Iâm just-â Heat rushes to Chosoâs cheeks, as he abruptly shuts the fuck up. But itâs too late - the damage has been done.
You give him a wry smile, lips mere inches from his ear. âJust what?â
His breath hitches, muscles rippling so deliciously as he shudders beneath your touch. âIâm a-â Choking out - as if it physically hurts to admit - â-virgin.â
Oh.Â
Now, you mightâve expected many things - but certainly not this. Though, looking at the cute flush on the tips of his ears, all the way down to those big, needy eyes, you donât mind. Not one bit.
With one, quick glance at the rolling camera - your mouth is moving before your mind. âDo you want me toâŠdo something about it?â
And then itâs like something snapped.Â
You donât know who leans in first, just that Chosoâs kissing you. And youâre kissing him - how could you not?Â
Because goddammit it was always those pretty lips that you were staring at whenever he was spouting off answers in class. You just never expected heâd be kissing you back with such an infectious desperation.Â
No sooner are you thinking about how sweet his lips are before heâs pulling away with a soft sigh, pressing hot open-mouthed kisses down your jaw. Your neck. Back to your lips like he wanted everything and anything.
You gasp licks a long, languid stripe up your neck - maybe at how utterly obscene it felt, maybe at that sharp cold feeling that makes you flinch. Fuck - a tongue piercing? The noise makes Chosoâs mouth drop into a quick oh! surging forward to claim your lips again. Addicted.Â
Only to be stopped by your hands cupping his face, letting out a pained grunt at how he was so close. Just a hairâs breadth away from your lips.
âCho~ Open your mouth, baby.â you whisper, hotly.Â
And he looked so pretty - dark hair askew, lower lip swollen and quivering with need, brows furrowing because he wanted more of your taste. But he obeys, of course he does, Choso thinks heâll do anything you asked. And lo and behold, sitting right there in the middle of his tongue was a pretty silver piercing.
You just canât help but thumb open his mouth further, looking him right in the eyes as you spit in his mouth. Once. Twice.Â
âBet no one else has done this before, huh?â Grinning at how sinfully Chosoâs eyes roll to the back of his head at your taste, âKiss me proper now.â
God, you were so good at throwing away whatever was left of his poor sanity. And itâs all thatâs said before his kiss-bitten lips are crashing into yours again.Â
âNo. No oneâs hah- done that before. Only you.â heâs panting into your open mouth, swirling his tongue with yours. âF-fuck only you. Only you only you-â
You barely even realize the way youâre on his lap now, sitting so prettily there that Choso half-deliriously wonders whether he should take a picture. Mind spinning too much with his throbbing erection under your drenched panties, a damp little patch at his fat tip. So hot and heavy already.
âCho, do you want me to-â
âYes, maâam.â
You certainly donât have to be told twice - especially with that little nickname. Fiddling with his belt, youâre so hazy with want - the need to taste Choso, to see if the rest of him was as sweet as his lips - that you almost miss the look of confusion that flashes across his face.
You bat your lashes at him almost-innocently, âYou alright?â And Choso thinks he could cum right there and right now at the sight. If he wasnât currently battling for his life, that is.Â
âYeah, sâjusâ- what I wanted hah- was toâŠâ His hands sneak down, cupping your heated pussy through your drenched panties. â-taste her. â
âOh?â
âAre yâgonna teach me how?â
Oh. Fuck.
You know youâre fucked. Completely and utterly fucked.
Only moments later, Chosoâs wrestling you back onto the mattress, face-to-face with your sloppy pussy. So mean with the way he was pinning your hips down with one hand, all but ripping your panties off with the other.Â
You feel his piercing before his tongue. Both the hot and cold so maddening on your cunt as Choso licks long, lazy stripes up your puffy folds - dragging his hot tongue all the way from your base. Just grazing your swollen clit.Â
âTeach me- fuck fuck-â words muffled and slurring together, vibrations going straight to your pussy. âUse me. Use me how you want.â
Youâre threading your fingers through his dark locks before you even realize it, grinding your sloppy cunt all over his waiting mouth. âQuirk your tongue like- ngh-â Angling him close enough so he bullies his soft tongue into your tight pussy. Piercing massaging all the right places. âFuck-â
âLike this?â
âSh-shit,â you gasp, nodding deliriously. âSâtoo ngh- good.â
And by God, did you mean it.Â
âYeah? Yâlike this?â heâs groaning, wrapping his lips around your swollen clit. âCan feel you clenching around me. Shit shit shit, you love this, huh? So slutty on camera for it?âÂ
Getting wetter and wetter by the second as his tongue roams for that one-
âOh! F-fuck, Cho. Right hngh- there. Deeper-â
Ah, found it.
Choso grins as you tug on his soft strands, you can feel it on your throbbing pussy. Pushing your legs all the way till theyâre at your tits to hit that little spot each and every time. Again and again. Eyes glassy, torn between devouring that slutty expression on your face and how fucking drenched you were.Â
âShit, baby,â his words are so strained now, like his sanity was dancing away at each flick of his tongue. âYouâre drooling everywhere. See? Show the camera now.â
You donât have to look. Because you can feel it.
Can feel how wet his mouth is, just glistening with slick and saliva. Trailing all the way down his chin - to his wrist - only second to how sloppy your dripping cunt was. It was like he was getting messy on purpose, like a little reminder to himself that shit this was you and he was eating out your pretty cunt to insanity-
âOh my god, think mâhooked.â Tongue dragging all over your swollen folds, catching on his piercing. âThink your pretty lilâ pussyâs hah- driving me crazy. Ruined me, Fuck-â
And itâs so embarrassing how heâs talking you through it, grinning at every lilâ whine and whimper that leaves your mouth. You were acting all shy right now in a way that makes Chosoâs cock twitch so painfully. He barely even notices, though, with the way he was so drunk off your pussy.Â
So messy - unable to decide between rolling his tongue over your ravaged clit and dipping into your sloppy hole. Too much. In and out in and-
âFaster.â
He goes faster.Â
âH-harder.â
He goes harder.
Anything and everything for you - to keep those pretty moans falling from your lips, walls getting tighter and tighter around his tongue. And Choso might just consider himself a man addicted.
âCan you ngh- cum fâme, baby?â You flinch as he spits out the words into your cunt. Harsh. Fucked-out. Sounding just as delirious and breathless as you. âCum fâme please. Wanâ to taste yâon my tongue. Please. Fuck- need it so bad. So bad.â
Youâre so caught up in Chosoâs pussydrunk little babbles that you barely even realize when youâre cumming. Just that youâre letting out a strangled scream of his name, dragging your sloppy pussy all over his mouth.Â
And he has never seemed more blissed out. Long gone is that nervous little expression usually on his face around you, Choso looked like he could be suffocated in-between your legs right now and love it. Hope for it, even.
He tells you that, of course. As soon as youâre blinking back your vision, blood still roaring in your ears. Delicate strings of slick snapping where he parts from your quivering cunt, lips swollen and glossed so prettily with your sweet sweet juices.Â
âBaby, yâthink the video of lesson one came out good?â
Oh. Shit, what have you done?
---
That certainly wasnât the last time you saw Choso - or the last time you had him in front of a camera, either.
A few weeks later, you found yourself with an entire album for the man - a hidden treasure trove under the simple name of âCho <3â. Most of the videos favorited, all sorted so tediously in a way that showed you spent an obscene amount of time looking at all the ways he ruined you.Â
So filthy on camera that you always wondered whether it was the same person in the sheets and in class, texting Choso for later. Just to confirm.Â
But embarrassingly, only some of these videos made their way onto your Twitter account - with Chosoâs pretty face largely out of the frame. The two of you hadnât ventured into streams yet either, opting to hide him away. Because, okay, maybe you were slightly jealous of other people seeing him - but it was really hard not to be when he looked like that.
In spite of all that, youâd still gained a casual hundred thousand more followers since his appearance - ones who always commented on your solo streams asking where your âhot emo bfâ was.
Comments youâd pointedly ignore, because, hell, you wished he was here on-stream helping you get off, too. Yet despite the endless flirting and videos, Choso actually hadnât made it further than actually holding a full conversation with you. And you wanted more.Â
For all you know, you might just be one of his many trysts - and it was just for the videos, right? You get the content, he gets the experience? A win-win situation, so why have you never felt more like such a loser?
Such a loser the way youâve already lost count of the âlessonsâ but still havenât gotten to feel him - to fuck him the way you wanted just yet.Â
âSâalright if I take this, right, maâam?â He smirks during one such session, knuckle-deep in your dripping cunt. Dangling your drenched panties like a badge of honor, flimsy and soaked with your sweet sweet juices. âSâalright if I-â And he canât even finish the sentence. Your jaw drops as Choso raises the thin fabric to his face, breathing in your essence like a man possessed.Â
Bzzzt-bzzzt-bzzzzt-
âYouâre so filthy, Cho-â you manage to choke out once you find your voice. Squirming on his bed like such a slut for him. âWas the innocent thing just an act?â
âNope.â he pops the p, licking lewd little circles on your neck, thumbing open your puffy folds to watch in amazement at the way you glisten and clamp around his fingers. Eyes flickering briefly to the recording phone in his hand. âBut we gotta give âem a good show, huh?â
Right, youâd forgotten about the camera. But none of that matters anyway because-
Intensity setting 2.
âYouâre so mean, too.â
âAm I?â he grins, teeth grazing along your racing pulse. âI think you taught that to me, baby. Shit, lesson 8 it was?â
God, he was addictive.
Chosoâs having way too much fun playing around with the intensity setting of the bullet vibrator shoved inside your ravaged cunt. Sending quick, methodical vibrations all along your pulsing clit. In time with the breathless moans leaving your kiss-bitten lips, and itâs all you can to call out for- more? Mercy? Both?Â
Bzzzt-bzzzt-bzzzzt-
âGod, youâre so perfect. Shit, so messy fâme.â he groans, and you could tell that the video wasnât going to be uploaded anyway. Too shaky, focusing in and out of Chosoâs fingers. Knuckle-deep and pumping in and out of your filthy hole. Relentless. âAlmost makes me wanna show off to an actual audience.â
âMaybe I want to, too.â you muse, shifting at his heated gaze. Dangerously pressing your thumb over those nipple piercings youâve gotten to know so well lately - as if to support your point. God you wish heâd take off that snug shirt.
Intensity setting 3.
âThat so?â
And no matter how many times Chosoâs ruined you on camera - and watched the videos over and over afterwards - he always thought they werenât enough to capture your perfection.Â
âSuch a slut fâme, baby.â To capture the exact moment in which your wet lips fall into a soft little oh! when he massages your walls in time with the pulsing vibrator. To capture that absolutely sinfully excited little glint in your eyes as he ruts his clothed erection against your pussy. âYâalways this dirty?â Quickly turning into a look of slight panic at the sudden jingle of keys from the front door.Â
âYo, brat. Where the fuck are ya?â
Ah, there he was, the reason that Choso usually locked his bedroom door whenever you were over, even if he was home alone.Â
Intensity setting 4.
As the silence continues, so does Chosoâs abuse on your cunt. In fact, he only gets more erratic - like he wanted you to cum. Needed you to cum right now, right here in front of Sukuna, footsteps only growing louder. Nearer.
âCho-â you fight to get out the words. âHeâs hah-.â
Bzzzt-bzzzt-bzzzzt-
âCanât speak? Thatâs cute.â he coos, voice way too relaxed for someone whose mind was reeling with the realization that he couldnât remember if he locked the door this time, and how adorable you sounded. Enough so that it made some raw, primal part of him wanna pull down his pants and fuck you right here right now. Cockblocks and his own virginity be damned. âCâmon now, use your words like a good girl. Tell the camera.â
Cocky bastard.
Bzzzt-bzzzt-bzzzzt-
âClose!â you yelp, unsure of whether you were talking about yourself or the looming Sukuna. Jaw slack, tears springing into your ears as you look up at Choso. âSo close.â
God, you were addictive. And this video was definitely going in both your favorites.
âMhm,â he hums, movements getting hastier. More desperate. âI know, maâam.â
Intensity setting 5.
Thatâs all that it takes for you to cum, letting out a loud strangled moan of Chosoâs name. Or, you wouldâve - if it hadnât been for the way heâs shoving two, thick fingers into your mouth.
Silencing you - and in your hazy brain you think that if this was his way of shutting you up, then you really didnât mind. Because all you could taste was you and the cold, cold metal of his rings. Somewhat intoxicating.
âShhhhhh.â heâs breathing out, still mindlessly grinding his hips into yours. Though, you realize with a pang that today wonât be the day you get to feel that achingly hard erection straining his pants. âThese pretty moans arenât for him, hm?â
Pressing on the back of your tongue, smirking at the way you nod tearily up at him, moans still muffled. Hell, do you even know how sexy youâre being right now.
âMhm, all fâme. All for fuckinâ me.â
Knock! Knock! Knock!Â
âWhy the fuck are you locked up in here on a Saturday night?â Sukuna sounds impatient, but not surprised. Probably imagining all sorts of dorky things his nephew was doing to hole himself up in his room. âCome out nâ get this takeout- whatâs left of it anyways.â
And with that, itâs like the magic is over.
Your high only just bating before Chosoâs hurriedly ending the recording on a hazy still of your disappointed pout, cursing Sukuna for his impeccable timing.Â
Slightly concerned about the door being broken down and someone else seeing you in all your fucked-out glory, he hastily moves to grab the spare cloth by his bedside. Cleaning you up with hushed promises of âsending the recording laterâ, and âsâalright, heâll be gone soon.â
Close. You were so close.
A win-win situation - but youâve never felt like more of a loser.
---
âBy God, I never thought heâd get the balls to do it.â
You yelp in surprise at the deep voice from behind you, whirling with a defiant brandish of Chosoâs (your?) keys. Heâd given them to you a few lessons ago, saying it would make it easier for you to come and go from his apartment as you pleased. Which - to you - felt dangerously like something a boyfriend would say-
But that wasnât important right now.
What was important was the older man suddenly towering over you right outside Chosoâs front door. Big arms crossed over his chest, that leering smirk clashing with his pink hair. âI knew it was odd that brat had a pair of heels by the door.â
Shit. Sukuna.
Ryomen awfully-wingman-his-nephew Sukuna.
âSpill.â At your confused head tilt, he plows on. âSpill the tea. I need new blackmail on my lilâ nephew. How badly did he have to beg you to go out with him?â
You donât know what was more bizarre - what he was saying or the way he actually pulls out his Notes app as if hanging on to your every word.Â
âI-Itâs because of you.â you manage to choke out, unsure of what Choso has told his family about you. Eyes flitting between him and the door right behind you, sounding your very best not to sound just as guilty as you felt. âYouâre the reason we have this weirdâŠthing.â
A beat of silence passes. One. Two.Â
And just as youâre beginning to wonder whether youâve broken Chosoâs infamous uncle, he throws his head back and laughs. Laughs, right in your face, sounding like heâd just heard the funniest punchline in the world.Â
âOh thatâs hilarious.â he exclaims, wiping a mock tear. Cackles dying down as if he was suddenly aware that maybe Choso would hear and walk in on this impromptu interrogation. âDamn, that awful pick-up line is why you started fuckinâ? I thought itâd get that sap blocked so heâd stop stalking your account so much.â
âNo, weâŠâ you hesitate, mind reeling with what Sukuna just admitted, and how bad it would really be that youâre divulging your sex life to a relative of the guy youâre fucking. Before thinking fuck it, might as well confide in someone. â...weâre just doing stuff for-â putting up air quotes. â-content.â
âJust content?â
âJust content.â
âAnd you like that fool?â
Your face burns at how glaringly obvious it apparently was, â...Yes.â
This seemingly sets Sukuna off on another wave of uncontrollable laughter. âOhh, thanks for the blackmail on that emotionally-constipated brat.â Typing away on what you assume to be his Notes, he promptly turns to walk away, âSee ya around, doll.â
âWait!â you call after in confusion, making him stop and raise a brow. âArenât you supposed to like- I donât know, give me advice for your nephew or something - like a good uncle?â
Scoffing, âWho said I was a good uncle?â He leans in ever-so-slightly, âJusâ rock his world on camera or somethinâ nâ ask him out right in the middle.â Satisfied with being enough of a decent samaritan for today, he walks back with a half-wave, âHeâd listen to whatever you say anyway.â
Oh. Is that so?
And Sukuna probably meant it as some joke. Something to tease the both of you with - but itâs something that sets the gears going off inside your head. Something that had you ignoring Sukunaâs slightly panicked, âJusâ not too soon, I needa bully him with this first.â
---
You didnât listen to Sukunaâs little plea, of course. Because only a few days later youâd steeled yourself to finally send that one text you knew would change your relationship with Choso. For the good, hopefully.Â
You: 9pm my place. Get ready, cuz this time weâre gonna be live ;)
Cho <3: :0Â
And with that, youâd thrown your phone on the bed, jittery about later tonight. Browsing through your wardrobe for that one set of barely-there lingerie in his favorite shade of pink. Hey, you could never be too prepared, right?
Nothing couldâve prepared Choso for this moment - absolutely nothing at all.Â
He mightâve just died and gone to heaven the very moment he read that dangerous text - finally inviting him to join one of your streams. The ones that heâd always watch in the safety of his bedroom, lights dimmed, pants bunched around his ankles.Â
Cock just achingly hard in his fist while he wished he was with you behind the camera. Getting you off so much better than any sextoy would. Just forcing those pretty moans from your lips - and everyone else could see that. Wish it was them ruining you instead.Â
Alas, it was only a dirty little fantasy.Â
Until now, that is.
slvt4u: Holy shit boyfriend reveal, about time.
uniwhore: THIS is the hottie from Twitter?????Â
itsgenslut: idfc just fuck
âNervous?â you smirk, looking down at the man sprawled so prettily on your bed. âYou look just as close to an aneurysm as you were the first time. Though-â snaking your hand down, â-this is still the same as ever.â
You chuckle at the way Choso catches your lips with his, more to shut up those pathetic little moans threatening to escape him than anything. Because every glance at you in that sinful little pink bra gave Choso a mini heart attack.Â
âB-baby-â he gasps, grinding his clothed erection against your palms. âI wan- hah-â
âMhm?â
And God how youâve ruined Choso - run him so utterly dry of his sanity.
Because heâs angling your head down, piercing cold against your tongue. âSpit.â
It was like that first time had gotten him addicted. So you do - right into his waiting mouth. Jaw dropping at the way he tips his head back, back, back to let it slide so obscenely down his throat. Moaning at just a taste of you, âGod, I need to f-fucking ruin you.â
And if thereâs anything youâve learned after all these months with Choso, itâs that anything he says - he does.
The words have barely left his mouth before heâs pulling your bra off, ripping your panties easily off your hips. Each and every little regret about what a shame it was thrown out the window at the first sight of your pretty pussy.Â
It never gets old - and Choso could never get enough of the sinful sight - your cunt so sloppy and ready for him already.Â
âCho-â you whine as ringed fingertips coming up to circle your sloppy entrance. Cold. Stretching you to insanity. âS-stop teasing.â
âYes, maâam. But first-â shifting you around ever-so-slightly on top of him. âGotta show off how wet yâare fâme.â
uniwhore: did he just call her âmaâamâ?? Me when??
roses101: idk who i wanna be theyâre both so fucking hot ugh
âFuck, yâlook so sexy from this angle. Wonder if the camera thinks so too?â
Your face slightly burns at how he was seemingly taking over your own stream. Smug bastard, you think, glancing down at Choso, red-faced, hair untied, wearing a sly grin as his eyes slide over the flurry of comments. But two can play that game.Â
âCho~â fumbling with the hem of his underwear, âYouâve been holding out on me.â
A gasp leaves you involuntarily as you tug down Chosoâs boxers just enough for his throbbing cock to spring free, hitting his sculpted abdomen. Blushed your favorite shade of pink - to match your bra - so so angry and soaked in precum.Â
He was so intimidatingly long - longer than any of those toys you usually brought on camera. Thick enough that it had you wondering, shit, would you even be able to take it?
âSâthis a-alright?â and for all his previous confidence, Choso sounded self-conscious. Peeking at you through his long lashes.
You grin, pumping a hand up and down his swollen cock, letting his precum drip down your wrist. âSâperfect.â
âGod- fuck, baby. Oh-â Choso lets out breathless little profanities as you straddle his waist, dragging his weeping tip down your swollen folds. So fucking filthy as you sink down in by fucking in. Slowly. âToo- much-â
Apparently too slow because no sooner have you just taken in his fat tip, squeezing and clenching around him, that Chosoâs flipping the both of you over.Â
âMâsorry.â he breathes into your mouth as your back hits the mattress. âMâsorry mâsorry, fuck- just canât-â fingers immediately drawing frenzied little circles on your pulsing clit to take your mind off the dizzying stretch as he bullies his massive cock into your snug cunt. âCanât wait canât wait- waited too fucking long. Want this so badly-â
You felt too good. Too perfect around him.Â
âAh! Hngh- Cho, oh my god. Too- ngh-â you moan, as he starts grinding in shallow, mindless little movements just to fit himself inside. Pushing and pushing, you wondered if he even realized what he was doing.
Sounding like his sanity was dwindling away with each little thrust, âSâtoo big? You can take it. Fuck fuck fuck please. Need this.â Pressing all the way into your lungs. âHow do you wanâ it- how do you wanâ me?â
Honestly, Choso didnât even need to ask, because he just bottoms out - heavy balls smacking against your ass, cock swollen and throbbing inside you - that you think that you just wanted him to ruin you.Â
âR-ruin?â his voice breaks as he repeats - more to himself than you. Oh, shit had you said that out loud? Youâre speechless as Choso throws your legs over his shoulder, dragging his swollen lips lazily across your ankle. âYes maâam.â
Oh. You might as well have just signed off your will.Â
Because then heâs fucking into your sloppy cunt. Unforgiving. A man starved because he was. Jagged, quick thrusts, splitting you apart deeper and deeper on his rock-hard cock.Â
âFuck- fuck fuck fuck-â he pants into your open mouth, finding it so fucking difficult to find any rhythm when your tight cunt was milking him so good. âYou feel so good. So messy. Ya love it like this, huh? Being hngh- watched?â
âHngh-â you buck wildly into his body, reaching up to play coyly with his nipple piercings. Tugging and pulling lightly. âFeels too good- are- ah- are ya sure this is your first time?â
Honestly, it was a wonder Choso didnât cum right then and there.Â
Tojisslvt: need someone to fuck me like this the first time
22sabi: Typing with one hand is so hard.
DaStrongest: i could fuck her so much better than than inexperienced loser
Choso throws his head back in a cruel little laugh at that last comment, something that makes you tingle all the way from your burning cheeks to your stuffed cunt. Clamping down deliciously on Chosoâs unforgiving cock in a way that makes his hips and fingers stutter.Â
âYa think you could fuck her better?â it takes you a second to realize he was talking to the camera and not you. Thrusts getting sloppier, getting familiar. âIâm the one that got her so messy like this.â Purposeful. Calculated. Like he was aiming for that one-
âFuck!â you scream as he hits that magic spot. Once. And then over and over like a man possessed. Just so utterly ruining you the way you knew he could. âCho oh my god- I canât hah- ngh-â
The cold metal of Chosoâs rings dig into your cheek softly as he turns you head to face him. God, this was the stuff of his wildest dreams.
You - teary eyed and looking up at him like such a slut. Pussy getting wetter - tighter - as he teases you in front of the camera. Torn between running away from his relentless cock and bucking up for more more more-
 âFuck no no no- Keep your legs open, baby. Donât hah- run away from me.â his fingers dig into your hips, pulling you impossibly closer. âDonât- need this. Need this so ba- shit.âÂ
And he sounded so genuinely worried heâd lose the feeling of your heady cunt. Fingers bruising on your hips as he pulls you closer. Like he was trying to fuck out any and every shred of shyness out of your body.Â
slvt4u: Always the quiet ones.
DaStrongest: heh, fuck off. iâd make her cum so much harder.
Now, Choso was fucking you like he had a point to prove, and it was probably the only reason he hadnât passed out from how good your pussy felt wrapped around him.Â
Both of you were barely-lucid at this point - and he was out of control now.
Pussy drunk thoughts unfiltered, âNo oneâs ever d-done this- got me hah- feeling like this.â And you had the distinct feeling he just beat you to your original goal, letting out sweet little babbles into your open mouth - though his hips were anything but.Â
So hard that you were sure the creases of your sheets would leave marks for tomorrow - along with his balls on your ass, your ankles on his shoulders, lips searing against yours. It was like he wanted to prove something - to prove he was good enough to- the viewers? To you?Â
Knowing your body well enough to hit that one spot over and over until you were sobbing. Fingers erratic on your clit.Â
âCho-â you squeal, tears springing to your eyes as he only gets sloppier. âI-Iâm gonna-â
âCum?â he breathes, as if he couldnât believe it. And fuck if you werenât the gates of heaven spread wide open for him then he didnât know what was. âFucking cum. Please please- hah- fâme. Cum on mâcock nâ make them jealous. Fâme- Like youâre mine.â
You barely even realize when you are. Jaw slack, eyes rolling to the back of your head as you see stars behind your eyes, blood roaring in your ears. God, he was gonna have to go home and rewatch this stream all over again.Â
âNgh- mâcumming mâcumming oh-â
Not even realizing the way youâre dragging your nails down Chosoâs sculpted back. Marking up his milky skin - and he lets you.Â
Loved it in fact- the way he loved you.Â
Your eyes go wide, and Choso knows heâs fucked up. Realizing with a jolt that words were tumbling out of his mouth before he could stop them. But itâs the way you squeeze him tighter- giving him such a gorgeous little fucked-out smile that sends him over the edge.
Sharp canines digging into the crook of your neck like he wanted to break skin, holding himself back from breaking you while he cums and cums so hard it hurt. Over and over-
âLove you- love you love you love you-â heâs muttering into the skin, unbarred. âSince I first saw hah- you. Wanted this more than fuck fuck- air that I breathe.â
His seed was oozing out of you now, painting your ravaged pussy white, dribbling down your legs. So fucking full and debauched. Thick, hot globs that were sure to stain those overpriced new sheets. But did Choso care for the mess? Not at all.Â
Because you were holding him so impossibly tight, pushing away the strands of hair sticking to his forehead. Whispering little praises as he fucks you through his first time. Close. Warm. Everything he ever dreamed of.
âSâeverything I ever dreamed of, too, Cho.â
And he knows heâs won.Â
urfavslvt: Proudest nut. Want more.
uniwhore: does this mean couples content??? Pls say yes plsplspls
DaStrongest: invite me next time <3
âThought you were embarrassed.â he licks soothingly over the bite. Voice shot, piercing smooth against his tongue. Embarrassing little confessions leaving him with each spark of electricity running through his veins. âThought you didnât stream wâme cuz of that- but shit. Dreamed of this fâso long. So long-â
Oh?
âHey, Cho.â your voice rings through his hazy mind. Just enough for Choso to raise his head and meet your intoxicating, sultry gaze. Giving a sly, sidelong glance at the still-blinking camera.Â
âMhm?â
âWanna film a weekâs worth of âmoviesâ in advance?â
---
Sukuna (do not answer): Oi shitty nephew, where r u Jin made me come over with (half) leftovers.
You: Sorry, not home. At the movies rn.
Sukuna (do not answer): When tf do u go to movies??Â
You: Since now, on a date. You probably canât relate.
Sukuna (do not answer): Stfu nâ stop lying, a date with who? Ur body pillow?? Not like u had the balls to ask out that pretty lilâ camgirl anyway.
Haha
Right?Â
You: *girlfriend
Sukuna (do not answer): Huh?
You: Girlfriend.
Sukuna (do not answer): THE FUCKINâ PICK-UP LINE WORKED??
when he says âi love you,â but ronin beaufort said âi did it for you. you were starving, so i gave you insatiability. you wanted inspiration, so i became your muse. you wanted love, darlin', so i gave you love.â
synopsis: your stoner best friend choso and you are deeeep in sexual tension, you are his girl, but not really his girl. cuddling, forehead kisses, being glued to eachothers hip, it eventually simmers down until neither of you can take it anymore. (my favourite work i've done so far)
content warning: smut, p in v, angst (not really), fluff, comfort.)
wc: 16k || art creds: @/einrvji
choso kamo is the kind of boy people notice without realizing theyâre staring. heâs not loud, never one to demand a roomâs attention, but something about him pulls you in, the lazy grace of someone whoâs always just a little bit stoned and completely at peace with himself.
he throws the best parties on campus, the kind that arenât just about getting drunk or high, but about the vibe. incense burning in the corner, led lights set to red or purple, trap playing softly over speakers. and yet, youâre the only one who really knows him.
you, the sweet girl who never misses a single one of his parties. the one always curled up next to him on the couch with a red solo cup of something you can barely taste, your legs draped over his lap, your cheek pressed to his shoulder. itâs always been like this. ever since freshman year, when you met him during that stupid icebreaker event on campus that neither of you wanted to go to.
somehow, youâd ended up next to him. not even talking at first. just being. and then heâd pulled one earbud out and offered it to you without saying anything, and youâd heard frank oceanâs âivyâ playing soft and crackly from his phone. youâd smiled at him, and heâd smiled back. just a little.
after that, it was like something clicked. you didnât have to try with choso. you just existed in each otherâs space like you were meant to.
youâre sweet, outgoing, a little flirty, always the first one to compliment someoneâs outfit or remember their birthday. people love you for your light, your laughter, the way you make everyone feel seen.
but when it comes to closeness, to real comfort? thatâs reserved for choso.
itâs a mystery to most people. you, the glittering, glowing party girl, and choso, the stoner boy who doesnât even have social media. but it makes perfect sense to anyone whoâs seen the two of you together.
you show up to his parties before anyone else does. you help him string the lights, pick the playlist, bring snacks no one asked for but everyone eats. youâre the one sitting on the counter while he rolls, sipping from a straw and babbling about your week while he nods, smiling faintly, muttering things like âthatâs wild, ma,â or âyo, youâre too nice for them.â
and during the parties, youâre never far. you gravitate toward each other like magnets, slipping into place the way you always do. chosoâs usually on the couch, arms stretched over the backrest, and youâre tucked under his arm without even thinking. you lean into him when you laugh. he rests his chin on your shoulder. he passes you drinks and you take tiny sips before handing them back to him with a wrinkle of your nose.
and itâs so easy. dangerously easy.
chosoâs never been one to push. heâs got feelings, real ones, deeper than heâll ever admit out loud, but he keeps them buried. not because he doesnât want you. he wants you in a way that scares him sometimes. in quiet moments, when heâs too high and youâre asleep on his chest, he thinks about what it would feel like to kiss you. to be yours for real. but heâs content, at least for now. content to have you like this.
you give choso a kind of peace he didnât know he was missing. before you, things were kind of blurry. background noise. but with you, itâs all color. you laugh and the whole room tilts toward you. you touch his hand and itâs like static electricity under his skin. he pretends he doesnât notice. he jokes, he teases, he lets it pass.
because he thinks heâd rather have you like this, close and real and warm, than risk losing you completely.
and you? you love him. maybe too much.
youâve never said it out loud, not even to maki or shoko, but you know it. you feel it every time you see him laugh at something you said, every time he lifts your chin to tuck your hair behind your ear, every time he waits for you outside class just because he felt like it. choso is yours, in a way no one else is. and you donât know what to do with that.
maybe youâre scared to ruin it too.
itâs not just the friendship, itâs the rhythm. the quiet glances, the shared playlists, the way you always, always end up in his bed after parties, clothes still on, hearts too full.
youâll lay there in the dark, both of you wide awake, and youâll wonder if he feels it too. if he notices the way your breath hitches when his fingers brush your waist. if he hears the way your voice gets softer when you say his name.
but neither of you ever says anything. not really. not yet.
thereâs something unsaid between you, always has been, something glowing and soft and maybe a little fragile. like the chords of âivyâ hanging in the air, too tender to touch. itâs in the way he looks at you when youâre not watching. in the way you linger at his door after a party, lip gloss smudged and heart aching. in the way he lets his hand rest on the small of your back just a little too long.
itâs a love thatâs still blooming. hesitant. deep-rooted. and for now, maybe thatâs enough.
maybe not forever.
~
the partyâs already full by the time you get there, but you know exactly where to find him.
bass thumps through the floor like a second pulse, red lights spilling down the hallway, laughter echoing from the kitchen where someoneâs poured jungle juice into a mixing bowl. bodies press close in the living room, the air thick with smoke, perfume, sweat, but none of it touches you. not really. not when you know where youâre going.
you slip past people who call your name, who compliment your outfit, who try to keep you still, but youâre already moving, already smiling like youâve got a secret. because you do.
heâs on the couch. he always is.
slouched like he was poured there, long legs spread, a blunt pinched between his fingers. thereâs a few people around him, suguruâs sitting on the floor, half-asleep against his knee, gojoâs perched on the armrest talking to some girl, but he doesnât really look at anyone. just stares at the smoke curling above him, the red light making shadows under his eyes.
until he sees you.
chosoâs head tilts slightly. his gaze sharpens, just barely. his mouth softens, corners curling up into something small, lazy, private.
âyo,â he says, voice low and smooth like honeyed smoke. âthere you are.â
and just like that, youâre home.
you drop down next to him without a word, tucking your legs up on the couch, leaning into his side like you were made to fit there. his arm lifts automatically to rest behind you, and your bare shoulder brushes against his chest, skin to skin. he smells like weed and citrus and something warm, like sunbaked cotton. familiar. dangerous.
âi brought you chips,â you say, holding up a bag. âbecause you never remember to feed people when you throw these things.â
he laughs, soft and breathy, and takes the bag, tossing it onto the table without looking.
âyouâre the only one who eats at my parties,â he murmurs, dragging the blunt to his lips. âtheyâre lucky you show up.â
he inhales, slow and deep. lets it sit in his chest for a moment. then he turns his head toward you and exhales, deliberately, slow, a trail of smoke that ghosts over your collarbone. itâs not on purpose, but it is. everything choso does is like that. unbothered. intimate. effortless.
your heart stutters.
âyou look good,â he adds, like it just occurred to him. his eyes dip, trace your legs, the cut of your dress, the gloss on your lips. âreal good.â
you smile, sweet and slow, like youâre soaking it in.
âyouâre stoned.â
he shrugs. âyeah. still true, though.â
you nudge his thigh with your knee, and he smirks that lazy, barely-there grin that never quite reaches his eyes unless itâs you.
the party swells around you. bodies dance in the center of the room, the music gets louder, someoneâs yelling in the kitchen about the beer pong table. but in your little corner of the couch, everything is slowed down. hazy. sacred.
he keeps passing the blunt, and you keep refusing with that little scrunch of your nose he always teases you about.
âdonât know how you come to my house every week and still donât smoke,â he says, flicking ash into a red solo cup.
âdonât know how you survive without eating dinner like an adult,â you shoot back.
he chuckles, tipping his head back. his throat stretches long, his hoodie slipping off one shoulder to reveal the black ink of a tattoo just under his collarbone. you donât even pretend not to look. choso doesnât pretend not to notice.
âyou missed me?â he asks after a beat, quieter now. the smokeâs made him slow, softer around the edges. more honest.
you glance up at him, lips parted. âi was here last weekend.â
âyeah, and then the whole week happened.â he shrugs, lazily. âi got bored.â
you nudge your way closer. your knee slides between his. âyou say that like you donât have other friends.â
he hums. âdonât hit the same.â
youâre both quiet for a second. itâs a thick, heady silence, not awkward, not tense. just full. full of everything thatâs been building since freshman year. everything you donât say. everything you both feel in moments like this, when youâre a little too close and heâs looking at your mouth and his hand is resting just a little too low on your waist.
you want to kiss him. god, you do. but not yet. not here.
so instead you lean forward, just enough to rest your head on his shoulder. you feel him go still for a second, then relax, melting back into you.
you stay like that. for a long time
later, when the house gets louder and hotter and someone pulls you up to dance, you feel his eyes on you.
youâre not a wild dancer, you move like youâre in your own little world, fluid and soft and smiling. some guy tries to grind up behind you and you immediately peel away, laughing as you shake your head. but when you look over, just once, you see choso watching from the couch.
his eyes are darker now. still lazy, still half-lidded, but focused. pinned on you like heâs memorizing the way your dress moves, the way your hair sticks to the sweat on your collarbone. one hand resting on his knee. the blunt long gone.
you move back to him eventually, of course you do, and he opens the space beside him again like he knew you would.
âhave fun out there, superstar?â he asks, gaze flicking over you.
you shrug, settling back into him. âmissed my favorite dance partner.â
he raises a brow. âyou donât dance with me.â
you grin. âexactly.â
he snorts, shaking his head. you rest your hand on his thigh, fingers splayed over ripped denim, and he doesnât flinch. doesnât move. just lets you stay there. touching him. like you always do.
like you always will.
when the party starts dying down and the lights dim even lower, when suguruâs asleep and gojoâs disappeared and the couch is just the two of you again, you curl into him like you belong there.
he yawns, one arm around your shoulders, hand playing lazily with the strap of your dress.
âyou crashing here?â he asks, already knowing the answer.
you nod, cheek pressed to his chest. âif thatâs cool.â
he makes a soft sound, something between a hum and a laugh, and dips his chin to brush his mouth against your temple. not a kiss, exactly. just a press. warm, soft. barely there.
âalways.â
you smile, closing your eyes for a second. his hand is still resting on your waist, fingers tracing absent little shapes into your skin like heâs not even thinking about it.
you could fall asleep like this. youâve done it before.
but he shifts a little, murmurs, âcome on, ma. letâs get off this fuckinâ couch. my backâs killinâ me.â
you whine quietly as he moves, and he laughs again, a lazy rumble in his chest and slides an arm around your waist to help you up.
âdrama queen,â he says, tugging you to your feet with effortless strength.
he doesnât let go.
you move through the sea of red cups and leftover smoke, past the people half-passed out in the hallway, with his hand still slung around your waist. like itâs normal. like itâs instinct. your arm hooks around his middle, and you lean into his side as you walk, slow and steady, like youâve done this a hundred times. because you have.
chosoâs room is down the hall. itâs the only one with a broken doorknob and a blacklight taped above the bed, buzzing faintly. it smells like weed and clean laundry and him.
you kick off your shoes the second you walk in and collapse face-first into the unmade bed, limbs spread.
he laughs, low and indulgent, then flops down beside you.
âyo, scoot over,â he mumbles, nudgin your hip with his.
âyou scoot,â you shoot back, voice muffled by the blanket.
he doesnât argue. just lets his body melt sideways until your shoulders touch again. you shift your head onto his chest without thinking, cheek to the soft fabric of his hoodie.
and there it is again. home.
âthis party was kinda ass,â you say.
ânah,â he says softly. âyou were here.â
your stomach flips.
but you donât say anything. donât need to. you just lie there, breathing in sync, your hands curled in the hem of his hoodie while his fingers play with your hair, slow, lazy twirls that make your eyelids flutter.
âremember the first one?â you ask, voice hushed now. âthe freshman-year party where we met?â
choso smiles at the ceiling. âfuck yeah. you were wearing that little white dress and yellinâ at some guy who spilled beer on your shoes.â
âhe ruined them,â you murmur indignantly.
âand i was just sittinâ on the porch, watchinâ the whole thing,â he grins. âhigh as shit. thought you were hot as hell.â
you lift your head to look at him, one brow raised. âyou still say you donât remember how we ended up talking.â
âi donât. swear to god.â he shrugs. âone second iâm finishing a blunt, next thing i know youâre sitting next to me like youâd been there forever.â
âi probably just decided you looked safe,â you say, settling back down. âand hot. but, like, quiet hot.â
he chuckles, slow and low. âquiet hot?â
you nod. âlike⊠hot in a way that doesnât try. like you didnât even know it.â
âdamn,â he mutters. âflirting with me now?â
âalways.â
his hand slides down from your hair to your shoulder, warm and broad and steady.
âthatâs why i fuck with you,â he says after a moment. âyouâre real.â
you blink.
âlike, people show up to my parties for the vibes or whatever. you show up to make sure i eat dinner.â
you laugh. âwell someone has to.â
ânah, but for real,â he says. âyouâve been showinâ up since day one. always got my back. always know what i need before i even do. shitâs crazy.â
your throat goes tight. but he doesnât sound emotional. he sounds calm. sure. like itâs just a fact of life, gravity, weed, you.
he doesnât say it like itâs a confession.
he says it like itâs just the truth.
âyou do the same for me,â you murmur, voice small.
his thumb strokes your arm, slow.
âyeah,â he says. âi know.â
the room hums with silence after that. not heavy. not awkward. just real.
he lets you lie there on his chest, the beat of his heart under your ear, the rise and fall of his breathing making you feel safe in a way nothing else does.
you shift after a few minutes, and his hand moves automatically , tugs the blanket up over you both, settles you closer, fingers smoothing over your arm like itâs second nature.
he doesnât flirt with anyone the way he does with you. doesnât touch anyone like this. people know youâre close, but they donât get it.
they donât know how choso listens to you rant for hours about your classes even when heâs half-asleep. how he always keeps snacks in his room he doesnât like, just because you do. how heâs seen you cry at 3am and didnât say a word, just pulled you onto his chest and played with your hair until you calmed down.
how youâve cleaned up after every party. how you always know when he needs water. how you never smoke but you always light his blunts for him.
they donât know that youâve been doing this, just like this, since freshman year.
youâre not together.
but this? this is something else.
âyou good?â he mumbles, his voice starting to get gravelly with sleep.
you nod, curled into his side.
âyou?â
âmhmm.â he exhales through his nose, deep and slow. âdonât leave before i wake up.â
âi never do.â
he hums, already drifting.
you close your eyes.
"night, cho."
"night, babe."
and in the dark, in his bed, wrapped in the quiet warmth of chosoâs heartbeat and the hush of something unspoken between you, you fall asleep.
right where youâre supposed to be.
~
the sunâs too fucking bright.
chosoâs got his hood pulled low, hands stuffed in the front pocket of his faded sweatshirt, hoodie sleeves bunched at his wrists like armor against the cold. his airpods are in, but heâs not playing anything. just using them to avoid eye contact. to avoid people.
his chem lecture starts in twelve minutes. heâs not rushing.
heâs never rushing.
the quadâs half-full with undergrads moving in packs, laughing too loud for this hour. he weaves through them like a shadow, dark-eyed and slow-moving, sleep still clinging to his bones.
he hasnât showered. hasnât brushed his hair. smells faintly like weed and sleep and your lotion, the floral kind you always keep in your bag.
heâs halfway across the quad when he hears it.
âyo.â
he looks up.
toji.
posted up on a low wall near the main staircase, nursing a large iced coffee and wearing the same zip-up heâs worn every morning since choso met him. he looks good, like he always does, jaw sharp, eyes tired, posture loose in that older-guy way that makes people think twice about messing with him.
choso pulls out one airpod. âyo.â
âyou look like shit,â toji says, amused.
choso shrugs. âfeel fine.â
âlate night?â
âalways.â
toji grins. âbet.â
choso wanders over, boots crunching gravel, and leans against the wall next to him. tojiâs got that lazy menace vibe, like he could break someoneâs nose or fall asleep in the sun, it could go either way. choso respects it.
theyâre not close, but theyâre good.
âyou throw last night?â toji asks.
âyeah. packed out.â
âheard. saw some dude getting dragged out by the neck around one.â
choso huffs a little. âsukuna. again.â
âno shit?â toji laughs. âthat guyâs a walking lawsuit.â
âgot blood on my stairs,â choso mutters. âruined the rug.â
âtragic.â
theyâre quiet for a second. choso watches a squirrel dart across the walkway. toji sips his coffee.
âhow much you make off the door?â
âcouple hundred. enough for groceries. gas. weed.â
toji nods like thatâs the natural order of things. âyou ever think about pledging?â
choso snorts. ânah.â
âyouâd run that shit,â toji says. âturn those little rich boys inside out.â
âiâm not good with rules.â
âfuck rules.â
choso grins a little. âyou sound like yuki.â
âi taught yuki,â toji says, deadpan.
that gets a real laugh out of choso, low and amused, breath curling in the cold air.
âyou got chem?â toji asks after a moment.
âyeah. lab.â
âtough.â
âi'm so fucking hungover.â
toji smirks. âso. last night. you go home alone?â
choso shrugs. ânah. crashed with her.â
toji looks at him. not surprised. not shocked. just curious.
ây/n?â
âyeah.â
a beat.
âyou guys together now or what?â
choso looks up, brows drawn. ânah.â
toji raises an eyebrow. âhuh. figured that wouldâve happened by now.â
âwhy?â
âyouâre always with her.â
âyeah.â
âyou sleep in the same bed?â
choso shrugs again, easy and lowkey like it doesnât mean anything. like itâs normal. âall the time.â
toji whistles under his breath, grinning. âyouâre a better man than me.â
ânot like that,â choso mutters, looking away.
âright,â toji says, smirking. ânot like that.â
choso stays quiet. doesnât explain. doesnât elaborate. he just lets it sit in the air between them like secondhand smoke, warm, familiar, a little dangerous.
because it isnât like that.
not yet.
but toji doesnât push. just nods, takes another slow sip of his coffee, and claps choso on the shoulder with a rough hand.
âyouâre cool,â he says. âbut if you ever fuck that up, someone else wonât be.â
choso just exhales through his nose. shrugs.
he knows,
he knows.
~
choso slouches in his stool at station 4B, safety goggles pushed up into his messy hair, long fingers lazily rotating a test tube over the bunsen flame. heâs supposed to be running a titration, but heâs running on three hours of sleep and an edible that hasnât stopped hitting since breakfast.
thereâs a small chemical fire happening at the next table over. he doesnât care.
his partner, some girl from his gen chem section who only speaks in whispers and perfume, scribbles answers onto their worksheet like her life depends on it. sheâs never once asked him to help. chosoâs fine with that.
his phone buzzes in his hoodie pocket. he pulls it out without looking, thumb unlocking the screen by feel. itâs instinct. the way he always knows when itâs you.
[10:37am] you: what class r u in rn
[10:38am] choso: chem
[10:38am] you: ew
[10:38am] choso: yea
[10:39am] you: wanna meet up after?? iâm bored
[10:39am] choso: wya
the response comes fast.
[10:40am] you: bleachers behind the field. bring snacks or iâll cry.
choso smiles.
itâs the kind of smile he never shows anyone but you. lazy. lowkey. like a secret he doesnât need to say out loud.
he texts back a thumbs up emoji. tucks his phone away. watches the blue flame flicker under the test tube like itâs trying to tell him something.
~
the bleachers behind the athletic field are barely standing. rusted metal, cracked paint, half the steps warped from years of cleat-stomped abuse. itâs one of the only spots on campus that still feels untouched, still feels yours. people donât hang out here. itâs too open, too weird, too quiet.
perfect.
youâre already there when he shows up, sprawled across the middle row like itâs a chaise lounge, sunglasses perched low on your nose and a bag of kettle chips open in your lap.
you perk up when you see him. smile wide and lazy. âyou brought me snacks?â
he lifts a 7/11 bag in greeting.
âyouâre an angel,â you say, and you sound like you mean it. choso climbs up beside you, drops the bag between you, and sits with a long sigh like the weight of the whole morning finally got the memo that it can fuck off.
he lets himself lean back on his elbows, head tipped toward the sky. hoodie sleeves pushed up to the elbow. hands ringed in silver, knuckles faintly bruised from last night. jaw sharp, neck tattoo peeking just above his collar.
you glance over at him, bottom lip tucked between your teeth for a second too long.
he doesnât notice.
or maybe he does.
but he doesnât say anything.
âwhat happened in chem?â you ask, voice slow with sunlight.
âalmost set the bench on fire,â he says. âagain."
you laugh, and itâs the good kind, low and warm and familiar, like something soft you wrap yourself in. âyouâre gonna fail.â
ânah,â he murmurs. âi got you. youâll cry to shoko for me.â
you shrug. âprobably.â
he grins.
you eat chips together for a while in comfortable silence. people jog past on the track below, but itâs like the two of you exist in another timeline, quieter, slower, deeper. every time your shoulders bump, he doesnât move away. every time your fingers brush in the snack bag, he lets it linger.
you pull out a cherry lollipop from your tote. unwrap it with delicate, distracted fingers. stick it between your lips and suck thoughtfully.
choso looks over. blinks once.
his throat bobs. âyou eat candy like youâre in a music video.â
âduh,â you say. âgotta stay on brand.â
âyour brand is slutty candy princess?â
you flash him a wink. âyou know it.â
he groans into his hands. âyouâre gonna kill me.â
âyouâd like it.â
âmaybe.â
you both laugh.
but underneath it, thereâs a tension you donât touch. not yet. not today. not when the sun is this warm and the wind is this soft and the space between you feels like a bubble no one else can pop.
âso whatâd you tell toji?â you ask suddenly, pulling your legs up under you. âhe asked about us, right?â
choso blinks. shifts.
âhowâd you know that?â
âi just saw him talking to you this morning and you rushed of before i could catch up.â
he sighs. rubs a hand over his face. âjust asked about some dumb shit, was surprised we aren't fucking.â
âoh yeah?â
âyeah.â
you hum. âwhatâd you say?â
he shrugs. âtold him weâre just friends.â
you nod.
but your fingers are tight around your lollipop stick. âdid he buy it?â
choso looks over at you. eyes half-lidded, lazy. âdunno. didnât really care.â
you donât speak for a second.
thenâ
âyou know,â you say lightly, âif we were dating, people wouldnât question it.â
he raises a brow. âyou wanna date me?â
you laugh like itâs a joke. like the ideaâs crazy. âobviously not. iâd ruin your whole vibe.â
ânah,â he says, quiet and cool. âyou are my vibe.â
it knocks the air out of you a little.
you donât reply.
he doesnât push.
instead, he pulls a lighter from his pocket. a faded red bic with a sticker of a cartoon frog on the side.
âyou mind?â he asks.
you shake your head. âgo for it.â
he lights the joint behind the bleachers, careful to block the wind, and takes a slow hit like heâs been doing it his whole life. like breathing.
you watch the way his lips part. the way the smoke curls from his mouth. the way he blinks up at the sky, exhaling slow, like thereâs nothing in the world that could ruin this moment.
he passes it to you.
you hold it between two fingers. bring it to your lips, but donât inhale. you just like the closeness. the ritual. the rhythm of it.
âyou always smell like weed and coconuts,â you say absently.
âyou always smell like sleep and candy.â
âthat a compliment?â
âyou know it is.â
you smile.
and then, like always, you shift until your head is in his lap, knees bent, lollipop back between your lips.
he threads his fingers into your hair like itâs automatic. like muscle memory.
you donât say anything.
you donât have to.
âthereâs a party saturday,â choso says, like itâs just a passing thought. his voice is mellow, dragged slow with smoke and sun.
you squint up at him from his lap, one leg kicking idly off the edge of the bleachers. âyours?â
he shakes his head, dragging another pull from the joint before it sizzles low. ânah. kappaâs.â
âtojiâs place?â
âmhm. sukunaâs throwinâ it.â
you make a face. âew.â
he laughs, lazy and low. âyeah, i know.â
âwhat kinda party is it?â
he shrugs, flicking ash off to the side. âdunno. probly loud. messy. overrun with freshmen.â
âmy favorite,â you say sarcastically.
âcome anyway.â
you raise a brow. âyou want me to go?â
he nods, eyes still soft from the joint. âyeah. all our people are gonna be there. gojoâs bringing that speaker he stole from the rec center. suguruâs bringing weed from the plug that scares everyone but him. shoko said sheâs pre-gaming at yours.â
âshe didnât tell me that,â you mutter, amused.
âshe said quote, âiâm getting blackout on your floor so you better have mixers.ââ
âclassic.â
âmakiâs going too,â he adds. âand yuuji. megumi. nobara. yâall can take over the kitchen or whatever.â
you snort. âwe always end up doing that. turning some random frat kitchen into our private lounge.â
âbetter lighting.â
âless vomit.â
he taps his knuckle to your forehead. âso?â
you blink at him. âso what?â
âyou cominâ?â
you stretch your arms over your head, lollipop tucked in your cheek like a secret. âmmm, depends. whoâs walking me home if i black out?â
he gives you a look. âme."
âwhoâs holding my hair if i puke?â
âme.â
âwhoâs dancing with me when they put on early 2000s throwbacks?â
he smirks. âyou already know.â
you grin and nuzzle into his thigh dramatically. âugh, fine. i guess iâll go.â
âwhat an honor.â
âyouâre welcome.â
you stare up at him for a second, at the sharp angle of his jaw, the lashes curled against his cheeks, the faint bruises of exhaustion under his eyes.
thereâs something warm in your chest.
like always.
âwhat timeâs it at?â you ask.
âlate.â
âwhen are we getting there?â
âlater.â
you smile. âas always.â
âas always,â he echoes.
you reach over, fingers brushing the side of his hoodie pocket where his lighter peeks out, red and fading, sticker peeling at the edges.
he doesnât notice.
but you do.
you always do.
~
the sun has long since set when youâre back in your dorm.
shokoâs stuff is already half-scattered across your bed, a tote bag overflowing with lip gloss and tequila, her ripped denim skirt folded beside your pillow like it lives here. your bluetooth speaker is charging in the corner. your fairy lights are glowing dim, and the whole room smells like something between vanilla lotion and sharpie markers.
because youâre painting.
your desk is a mess of scattered brushes, scratched acrylics, and an empty matcha can youâve been using as a water cup. right in the center sits the new bic lighter you picked up after social, jet black, perfectly smooth, untouched.
youâre painting red spider lilies across the front, his favourite.
the petals curl across the plastic like veins, wet with gloss and attention. youâre careful with the details. youâve looked up references. youâve done this before.
but this timeâs different.
this oneâs for him.
you donât know why, exactly. maybe itâs because his old oneâs going dead.
maybe itâs because you love him.
not like that.
not yet.
but in the way you know exactly how he likes his ramen. in the way he texts you âhome?â when itâs late and doesnât sleep until you answer. in the way he rolls his blunts left-handed and always lights yours first. in the way he remembers your momâs birthday even though heâs never met her.
in the way he makes you feel safe in a room full of noise.
in the way he never tries to make you anything other than yourself.
you lean over the lighter, the brush held steady between your fingers, and add the final line of gold detailing around the petals. your breath fogs the surface. you wait for it to dry.
outside, someone blasts a bad edm remix. the partyâs already pulsing down the block.
you arenât ready yet.
but you will be.
because he asked.
because you always go when he asks.
by the time you and shoko step into the kappa house, itâs already hell in there.
thereâs music vibrating the walls, some mashup of jersey club and distorted britney spears, smoke curling from doorways, the reek of beer and weed and something you hope is a vape cloud drifting from the stairs. someoneâs already swinging a half-finished bottle of patrĂłn in the foyer, and a guy in a spiked collar is passed out half-naked on the pool table. red LEDs paint the room like a warning.
âjesus,â shoko mutters, pushing through a knot of people. âitâs worse than last time.â
âthatâs saying a lot,â you reply, laughing.
you pass a makeshift tattoo station set up in the kitchen, a foldable table, three guys with gloves and prison-grade guns, girls taking shots with their shirts off, someone yelling about cross-contamination. someone else is already screaming into a paper towel, gripping their friendâs thigh as ink bleeds into skin.
âhow much you wanna bet that guyâs not even licensed?â shoko asks, pointing with her cup.
a few feet away, a couple is practically devouring each other on the couch, hands in places that definitely shouldnât be public, their moans barely muffled over the bassline. you and shoko share a glance.
âten bucks says theyâll be upstairs in five,â she says.
âtwo,â you shoot back.
you find the rest of your girls near the island, makiâs drinking straight from a bottle of dark rum, nobaraâs yelling at some guy for calling her âsweetheart,â and miwa looks like sheâs trying to spiritually leave her body.
âthere you bitches are,â nobara says, throwing an arm over your shoulders. âi was gonna beat some freshmanâs ass for trying to say you werenât on the guest list.â
âi just got here!â you laugh, letting shoko pull you in tighter. âi havenât even taken my jacket off!"
âwell hurry up,â nobara insists, pouring something violently pink into a solo cup and handing it to you. âthis nightâs cursed already.â
you take a cautious sip, bubblegum and battery acid. âwhat the hell is this?â
âitâs called the thong dropper,â shoko says helpfully.
âgirl.â
you let the chaos swirl around you for a bit, settling into the rhythm of things, catching up on nonsense, swapping wild stories, dodging spilled drinks and clumsy hands. nobara starts talking about some guy she hooked up with last week, rolling her eyes and groaning dramatically.
âhis stroke game was so weak,â she says, slamming her cup down. âhe kept asking me âis that good?â like, cmon. do you not hear me faking it?â
maki snorts. âyou faked it?â
âof course i did. i had to get it over with.â
shoko leans in. ârookie mistake. just tell âem straight up.â
âi canât crush a manâs ego like that,â nobara defends.
âtheyâll live,â maki says.
you giggle into your drink, letting the warmth buzz up your spine.
âwhat about you?â shoko nudges. âyou getting any lately?â
you shrug, trying to hide your smirk. âdefine âgetting.ââ
they all ooh at that, but you wave them off.
ânah,â you add quickly. âjust been⊠chillinâ.â
nobara raises a brow. âchillinâ with who?â
you donât answer.
you donât have to.
because you just spotted him.
across the room, slouched low on the ratty couch like a king on a broken throne, hoodie slipping off one shoulder, blunt glowing between his fingers, is choso.
heâs got his head tipped back, laughing at something gojo just said, eyes heavy-lidded and hazy, lips pink and glossy from smoke. his legs are spread wide, rings catching the LED lights, and thereâs a plastic crown crooked on his head like someone dared him to wear it and he just went along with it.
you hand your cup to shoko. âback in a sec.â
you beeline straight to him.
he sees you coming, of course. always does.
âyo,â he says, voice syrup-thick, laced in that lazy drawl you know too well. âthere she is.â
you plop onto the couch next to him, thigh pressed to his instantly, as natural as breathing.
âhey, babe.â
he pulls the blunt from his lips and passes it to gojo. âyou look real hot,â he murmurs, eyes scanning over you. âlike⊠stupid hot.â
you grin. âyouâre high.â
âand youâre a fucking bombshell.â
âso high.â
gojo chuckles. âheâs been saying shit like that about everyone for the last twenty minutes. told sukuna his chains looked âshiny as fuckâ and that he would fuck him if he was gay.â
âand i meant it,â choso says, nodding solemnly.
âsukunas a menace,â you laugh.
âa sweet menace,â choso adds.
gojo tosses the blunt into an ashtray and stretches. âaight. iâm gonna go find the aux before someone puts on country again.â
âgodspeed,â you tell him.
choso watches him disappear into the crowd before turning back to you. âyou good?â
you nod. âthe girls are wild tonight.â
âwhen arenât they?â
you smile. âmmm. partyâs kinda gross, though.â
he grins. âyeah. itâs ass.â
âi miss your parties.â
he hums, dragging a slow breath through his nose. ânext week, tuesday.â
âa tuesday party?â
âhell yeah.â
you laugh softly, eyes dropping to the front pocket of his hoodie. his lighterâs there again, the red one. the same one from earlier, edges worn down like itâs been used a thousand times.
without saying anything, you reach into your jacket pocket.
he watches you curiously as you pull out the lighter you painted, black and glossy, the spider lilies blooming across the surface in blood-red ink and gold veins.
you hand it to him wordlessly.
his fingers brush yours as he takes it, and something in his face shifts, softens, quiets.
he turns it over slowly in his palm, eyes scanning every detail like heâs memorizing it.
âyou painted this?â
you nod.
âmaâŠâ he says under his breath, almost like itâs too much. âyo. this is⊠this is fucking beautiful.â
âyour other oneâs dying,â you say, a little shy now. âfigured you needed a new one.â
heâs quiet for a second, blinking slowly.
then,
âyouâre such a fuckinâ angel.â
you laugh. âitâs literally just a lighter.â
he doesnât let his gaze leave it. ânah. itâs you.â
you blink.
he says it so casually. so high. so him.
like itâs just a fact.
you donât say anything, and neither does he. the music swells. the lights flicker. people scream and laugh and break things somewhere in the background.
but right now, itâs just the two of you, and a lighter between your palms.
âyouâre gonna make me cry,â you joke, even though the way he keeps looking at the lighter makes your chest feel a little too full.
choso doesnât answer, just keeps running his thumb over the curves of it like itâs some delicate artifact, black with the glossy gleam of fresh paint, those red lilies blooming across the surface like blood in water.
he flicks it once. flame bursts up.
âperfect,â he mumbles.
âit works?â
âbetter than my soul, babe.â
you laugh, leaning your head against his shoulder, and for a few seconds everything around you falls away, just the throb of the music, the warm press of him, and the soft flicker of that tiny orange flame between his fingers.
you sit like that for a little while, talking about nothing. him complaining about a group project he hasnât started. you teasing him for skipping chem lab again. him promising you some ânext-level weedâ for tuesdayâs party that âtastes like peaches and existential dread.â
his voice is slow, syrup-thick, a little slurred at the ends. heâs stoned, clearly, but youâre used to this. used to the way he leans into you when heâs like this, heavy and unguarded, every thought coming out a little slower and more unfiltered. itâs a version of him that doesnât get tired of looking at you.
he tugs at the hem of your jacket playfully. âyou gonna stay with me tonight?â
you raise a brow. âdidnât plan on going anywhere else.â
he grins, that sleepy smile that makes your heart tick funny.
then your name cuts through the room, pitched over the music.
âoh shit,â you say, glancing over your shoulder. âtheyâre calling me.â
choso hums, not looking away. âtell âem i said hi.â
you hesitate for a second, not wanting to leave the warm bubble youâve curled into. but shokoâs waving you over, and makiâs already halfway across the room with a bottle in her hand and trouble in her eyes.
âiâll be back,â you say, giving his knee a squeeze as you get up.
he watches you go, eyes dragging over your silhouette, that sway in your hips, the flash of your smile as nobara yells something at you that makes you laugh and flip her off in the same breath.
then heâs alone.
not really, the house is packed, pulsing with bodies and music and smoke, but alone in the way that matters.
the lighterâs still in his hand.
and it wonât stop looking like you.
'she fuckinâ made this.'
that thought loops through his head in lazy spirals. he stares down at it like heâs still not fully processing that itâs his now, the way it fits so perfect in his palm, like you painted it with him in mind, like you know his hands that well.
(which you do.)
'what an angel', he thinks again, your face still ghosted in his mind.
heâs high. so high. his body feels like a heartbeat, slow and deep and pulsing warm. and the lighter, it keeps dragging him back to that moment on the couch, your thigh against his, your fingers brushing his, your quiet little smile when he lit it up for the first time.
'she always does shit like this. just makes stuff better. without even tryinâ.'
it hits him all at once, sudden and full-body.
he needs to mark this. this moment. this feeling.
heâs already pulling out his phone before the thoughtâs even fully formed, scrolling through the camera roll he swore he didnât care about but secretly checks too often. blurry candids, selfies with you curled against his chest, that pic from two weeks ago when you were looking up at him from the floor of his room with a red gummy in your mouth and sleep in your eyes.
he pauses there.
your eyes in that picture. big, soft, glassy, sexy.
his thumb hovers over the screen.
âyo,â a familiar voice calls, sauntering through the haze. âyou look fried.â
sukuna.
choso glances up. âam fried.â
sukuna grins. âfigured. that couch is cursed, by the way. guy got a blowie on it last week during pong night.â
choso shrugs. âadds flavor.â
they lean on the wall together, easy silence for a second.
âyou see the tat guys?â sukuna asks, chin-jerking toward the kitchen. âsomeone just got a fucking worm on their calf. like a literal earthworm. said it was âsymbolic.ââ
choso laughs, low and thick. âsymbolic of what?â
âdunno. being dirt, i guess.â
he doesnât respond. just looks back at his phone.
sukuna raises a brow. âyou good, dude?â
âyeah.â
âyou look like you just had a vision.â
choso finally meets his eye.
âyo,â he says slowly. âyou ever just feel something and know you gotta do somethinâ about it right now or youâll bitch out?â
sukuna squints. âuh. like what?â
choso doesnât answer.
instead, he pushes off the wall, hoodie slipping off one shoulder again, lighter still clutched in one hand, phone in the other, and starts walking.
sukuna watches him go, a little amused. âdamn. alright.â
the air is thick with smoke and bass as he weaves through the crowd, bumping shoulders, dodging a girl dancing with her heels off and her hair in her face.
he reaches the makeshift tattoo stand.
it smells like rubbing alcohol and regret.
âyo,â he says, voice smooth as silk and twice as slow.
the guy behind the table, ink sleeves up to the neck, black gloves, sunglasses indoors, glances up.
âwhatâs up, man?â
choso leans down slightly, eyes low-lidded and unreadable, body loose and stoned and sexy in that careless way he always carries.
he holds out his phone.
âcan you do this,â he asks, âon my arm?â
the artist blinks, then looks at the screen.
itâs a close-up of a girlâs eyes, wide, seductive, yet still glowing with laughter. looking up at the camera like whoever took the photo was the only thing in the world.
looking up at him.
choso taps the screen once. âthose are hers.â
the guy raises a brow. âlike⊠your girl?â
choso shrugs one shoulder. his eyes never leave the photo.
the buzz of the needle starts soft, a low, persistent hum, and choso doesnât even flinch. he just leans back, one arm draped lazily across the armrest, hoodie shoved halfway up his bicep where the artist wiped him down with alcohol. his eyes are half-lidded, bloodshot from whatever gojo rolled earlier, but locked on the phone heâs holding out in his opposite hand.
the pictureâs still up. her eyes, warm and wide, lashes curled, looking up at him like she trusts him with her whole heart.
âpretty,â the tattoo guy mutters, angling a small light to get a better look as he sketches the stencil. âyours?â
chosoâs mouth curves slow. doesnât answer right away. just flicks his lighter open and closed, click, click, click, the red spider lilies catching the light each time.
then finally:
ânah.â
the guy hums. âgirlfriend?â
he huffs a little, amused. ânot that either.â
he sets the lighter down on the table beside him, keeps his eyes on the screen.
âsheâs just,â he pauses, then shrugs, soft and slow, âher. yâknow?â
the artist side-eyes him. âdeep.â
choso smiles again, eyes unfocused. ânah, iâm just fuckinâ high.â the guy presses the warm stencil into chosoâs arm, smooths it into place.
âyou sure you wanna do this while youâre, uh,â he glances at chosoâs glassy expression, the faint grin still tugging at his mouth, âclearly not sober?â
âiâm not wasted,â choso says lazily. âand iâm not dumb. itâs not a mistake.â the artist nods once, respects it. âalright, man.â he flips on the machine again, lines it up.
âyou done this before?â choso grunts a laugh. âyâthink i got these in my sleep?â he gestures vaguely at the black ink already crawling across both arms, jagged, abstract lines, constellations and waves, some faded with age. some done in basements like this one. âfirst time sober was the weirdest one.â
the guy snorts. âfair.â
the needle hits skin.
choso exhales slow. doesnât flinch, doesnât shift, doesnât even blink hard. just stares at the wall across the room, jaw slack, hoodie sliding off his shoulder, the buzz settling into the meat of his arm like a low hum of intention. âyou ever tattoo someone like this before?â he murmurs after a beat.
âlike what?â
he shrugs again. âsomeone whoâs⊠yâknow.â the guy doesnât answer right away.
choso elaborates, voice softer this time. âsheâs not mine. i donât want her to be. not right now. itâs not like that. itâs justâŠâ he trails off, brows furrowing a little, tongue tucked against the inside of his cheek.
âshe just means somethinâ. donât got a word for it.â
the artist doesnât look up from his work, but his toneâs gentler when he speaks again. âyeah. iâve seen that before.â choso sinks deeper into the chair, breathing even. the painâs dull and constant, but it grounds him. keeps his thoughts from spiraling too far out, keeps his high in this exact moment.
âyou think sheâd be mad?â he asks, voice airy. âif she saw it?â
âdunno,â the guy says. âyou gonna tell her?â he blinks slow, head rolling back against the headrest.
ânah.â
another pause.
ânot now. itâs just for me.â the tattooer gives a small nod. âthatâs real.â
a silence settles between them, the steady hum of the needle, the sound of someone vomiting into a bush outside the window, a muffled scream from the beer pong table two rooms over.
âlooks good,â the artist murmurs, wiping excess ink from the forming lines of the eyes. âsheâs got crazy lashes.â
choso huffs out a small laugh. âsheâd fuckinâ love that you noticed that.â
âyeah?â
he smiles again, softer now. âtalked about lash serum for like a week. gave me a whole presentation.â
the guy chuckles under his breath. âsounds like she talks a lot.â
choso closes his eyes.
âshe talks just enough.â the buzz continues. the lines take shape. her eyes, right there, etched into his skin. not to claim. not to confess. just to remember.
just for him.
~
the buzz dies down gradually, tapering into a low hum before the artist finally flicks the switch and pulls back. the sudden quiet settles like a heavy blanket over the both of them, just the soft thud of bass from the next room and the subtle scrape of latex gloves against skin.
âalright, man,â the artist says, leaning back with a stretch. âdone.â
choso blinks slow, still slouched deep in the chair like heâs been there for hours, like the cushion molded around his bones. he lifts his head, eyes hazy but laser-locked on the strip of bandage being pressed to his upper arm.
âyo, hold up, lemme see it before you cover it,â he says, voice low and hoarse from either weed or reverence, maybe both.
the guy lifts a brow, but obliges. carefully wipes the skin one last time, blood and excess ink coming away in soft red-black smears. the roomâs fluorescent lights hit the raw lines at an angle, shining off the freshly tattooed skin like itâs something holy.
and fuck.
there it is.
your eyes.
wide and soft and open, curved lashes sweeping upward in a way no stencil shouldâve captured but somehow did. that quiet way you look at him, like he hung the stars, like heâs yours even if the two of you never say it out loud. inked permanent on the soft part of his bicep, nestled between a set of waves and the jagged edge of a half-finished constellation.
for a second, he doesnât speak. doesnât move.
he just stares.
it hits him slow, like a good edible, starts behind his eyes, low and warm in his chest, then spreads.
yo.
heâs obsessed.
like fully, all the way, brain-meltingly obsessed.
he turns his arm slightly under the light, eyes tracing the lines, the slight curve of your upper lid, the detail around the corners like you're mid-laugh or mid-thought or both. it looks exactly like you, his favorite version of you. the version that looks up at him like nothing else exists in the room.
god.
you look good on him. not in the possessive way. not even close. itâs not that.
itâs something else. something way quieter. something he canât even name when heâs sober, and definitely not now, baked out of his skull with his arm still tingling and his hoodie falling half off.
but still, heâs wearing you now. and it feels like something thatâs always been true, just waiting for the ink to make it real.
âyou good?â the artist asks, half amused, already reaching for the plastic wrap again. âyeah,â choso says, slow, mouth crooked into a lazy grin. âlooks fuckinâ sick, dude.â the guy chuckles under his breath. âkinda figured youâd say that.â
âyou killed it,â choso adds, finally dragging his eyes off the tattoo. âlike, actually.â
the artist nods, pleased. âappreciate it. was fun as hell to do, honestly. you sure you donât want her name or somethinâ? under it?â choso snorts. ânah. thatâd make it weird.â
âfair.â
he watches the guy gently press a clean dressing over the fresh ink, tape it up. the sensationâs a dull sting under his skin, not quite pain, just awareness. a reminder that itâs real now. that itâs his, for good.
she doesnât know. you might never know. and thatâs kinda the whole point. heâs not gonna flash it at you mid-party or say anything slick when you sit beside him later like you always do, throwing your legs over his lap and stealing his drink.
nah.
this oneâs just for him. a secret under his sleeve, tucked into the curve of his body like a memory.
âyou gonna keep it under wraps?â the guy asks, like he can read chosoâs whole plan off his face.
âyeah,â choso mutters, grabbing his hoodie and tugging the sleeve back down with a practiced flick. âat least for now. donât need her freakinâ out or nothing.â
âbet,â the guy says with a short laugh. âi get it.â
choso stands slow, body still heavy from sitting too long and smoking too much. he sways a bit but rights himself, shaking out his arms like heâs just come up from underwater. the whole basement smells like blood and rubbing alcohol and resin, but itâs warm, and the energy buzzes low and steady around him.
he digs in his pocket for a few bills, slaps them into the artistâs open palm.
âappreciate you, man.â
âanytime, bro. take care of that, donât go dunkinâ it in a keg or anything.â choso grins. âno promises.â
he walks out with his hoodie draped low, sleeve tugged all the way to his wrist despite the heat and the crowd and the chaotic press of bodies funneling in from the hallway. music floods back in slow, a pulse of bass syncing up with his own heartbeat.
but he canât stop thinking about it. every step he takes, every time the sleeve brushes against the fresh ink, it reminds him.
not of what they are.
but of what you mean.
upu didnât need to give him that lighter. you didnât have to think about him in that little quiet way you always did, like heâs more than just a weed plug or the guy you party with every weekend. that little moment, just you in your dorm, painting red spider lilies on a bic you knew heâd never throw away? that shit went straight to his chest. and now you're on his skin. maybe you'd freak out if you saw it. maybe you'd cry. maybe you'd laugh.
maybe you'd get real quiet and never say anything again. or maybe you'd look at him the way you did in that photo. maybe you'd look at him like you knew.
but all thatâs for later. for now, heâs just stoned as hell, arm warm and throbbing, and so unbelievably content that itâs almost embarrassing.
he spots gojo again across the room, already perched on the arm of someone elseâs couch with a red solo cup and a grin like he owns the house. choso veers toward him, slips back into the noise like he never left.
sleeve tugged down.
lighter in his pocket.
eyes on his arm, just for him.
~
later that night you navigate yourself back to choso after your banter with the girls.
you spot him sunk deep into the cushions, hood half up, curls falling into his face, a bottle of water in one hand and his eyes half-lidded and sleepy with that lazy high he wears better than anyone. heâs surrounded, gojo splayed on one armrest like he owns the place, sukuna lounged sideways with his feet on the table, and suguru perched on the edge, nursing a half-finished blunt.
âyo, look who it is,â gojo grins as you walk up, already clocking the way you move like youâre headed home, not just to a guy. âprincess finally found her prince.â
you donât say anything, just slide right into the little space at chosoâs side like it was made for you. his arm shifts automatically, pulling you in like itâs instinct, and you tuck your face into his shoulder, letting out the softest exhale. you can feel the thrum of his voice in your cheek when he speaks.
âhey, ma.â
his handâs warm against your hip, steady, grounding. he smells like weed and cedar and the faintest trace of paint from the lighter you gave him. itâs in his pocket now, safe like something sacred.
âso anyway,â suguru picks back up like you didnât just crash-land in chosoâs lap, âiâm telling you, the guy had no idea what he was doing. tried to roll with a swisher, no guts, just dumped the weed in and twisted the end like a fuckinâ lollipop.â
âgod, not the lollipop roll,â sukuna groans, dragging a hand over his face. âfreshman?â
âof course it was a freshman,â gojo says, grinning. âthose little guys think watching one youtube tutorial makes them bob marley.â
âyo, remember that one dude at the delta party?â choso says, head tilting back slightly. ârolled a joint with a bible page.â
âamen,â sukuna snorts.
ânah, for real,â choso laughs, hand tightening just slightly where it rests on your side. âhe said it made the high holier.â you huff against his hoodie, and his fingers flex like he felt it, like it was the best sound heâd heard all night.
they keep going, weed stories, party war stories, the dumbest shit theyâve ever seen in a frat house at 3am. itâs relentless, loud, chaotic, but you stay quiet, tucked against chosoâs side like heâs the only still thing in the room. his thumb runs in slow circles against your waist through the fabric of your top, and you feel the way he laughs before you hear it.
âyo,â gojo says, leaning across suguru to point at choso. âwhatâs the craziest thing youâve ever done at a party?â
âbesides adopt a girlfriend he doesnât kiss?â sukuna adds. choso blinks slow. doesnât rise to the bait, doesnât even twitch.
âprobably that time at theta when i fell asleep in the bathtub and woke up with a raccoon in my lap.â suguru chokes. âyou serious?â
âdeadass.â
âwas it⊠alive?â
âbro. it was chillinâ. just vibinâ with me.â
âyou probably hotboxed the tub,â gojo says, wiping tears of laughter from his eyes. âraccoon was just tryna get high.â
choso grins, soft and slow, and you nudge your nose into his hoodie like youâre hiding your own smile. âwhat about women?â sukuna says suddenly, eyes glinting like heâs fishing. âyâall ever hook up at your own party?â
âyouâre disgusting, that's against regâ gojo tells him cheerfully.
âdonât lie,â sukuna drawls. âyou know you have.â
âalright, once,â gojo admits. âbut i kicked her out after because she tried to name my bongs.â âyouâre heartless,â suguru says, deadpan.
âyou donât name the bongs,â gojo insists. âthey earn names. itâs sacred.â
âwhat about you, choso?â sukunaâs gaze cuts sideways. âyou got bodies stacked in your stoner dungeon?â choso hums, slow and easy. you feel the low sound in his chest, pressed flush to your cheek.
ânah,â he says. âi donât hook up with girls who donât know how to roll.â the boys howl, gojo nearly falling off the couch.
âthatâs so on brand,â suguru laughs. âyou need standards,â choso mumbles, amused, and leans his cheek briefly against the top of your head.
the lighterâs still in his pocket. his armâs still over your shoulders. and beneath the sleeve of his hoodie, hidden from the world, your eyes are inked into his skin.
you shift a little, just enough to tuck your legs under yourself, settling more fully into him, and he adjusts without thinking â arm around you tighter now, palm spread warm across your ribs, thumb grazing your side through the fabric. heâs careful. doesnât let the hoodie ride up. doesnât let anyone see. the tattooâs still fresh, still tender, and itâs just for him.
âyo, you good?â suguru asks, nodding at him. choso blinks slow. âyeah manâ.â
âthat weed hit hard,â gojo says. âi feel like iâm seeinâ sounds.â
âyou tryna kill someone?â suguru laughs. âevery time i hit one, i feel like my soulâs leaving my body.â
âshitâs a rite of passage,â sukuna shrugs.
ânah, a rite of passage is hosting a rager with a cop at your door and acting like you live there,â gojo grins. âhave you?â choso asks, amused.
âbro, iâve answered the door in a bathrobe before,â gojo says proudly. they all crack up again. you donât say anything, but your smileâs pressed right into chosoâs chest, and he dips his head for a second to nuzzle his nose into your hair.
âsheâs real quiet tonight,â suguru says, noticing. ânah, sheâs just comfy,â choso says easily. âshe donât need to talk when sheâs like this.â
you donât. not when youâve got his warmth, his arm around you, his voice rumbling low in your ear with every lazy joke. itâs always like this, like no one else in the room really matters, like you could fall asleep right here and heâd keep the world spinning while you did.
âthatâs love,â gojo says mock-serious.
âshut up,â choso mutters. but he doesnât stop smiling. and the lighterâs still warm in his pocket.
and your eyes are still inked into his arm, safe and secret beneath layers of cotton and smoke.
~
the house is still going when you two finally get up. itâs past 2am, maybe closer to 3, but the music hasnât let up and thereâs still people on the floor, drinks in hand, voices loud and slurred over each other. someoneâs passed out with a sharpie mustache, another guyâs making out with a pillow. classic kappa chaos.
chosoâs the one who moves first. you feel it in the way his arm shifts, in the soft brush of his thumb against your side like a nudge. he leans in close, voice barely above a murmur.
âyou good to dip?â
you nod into his hoodie, eyes half-lidded, heart heavy with warmth and weed.
he helps you up slow, palm steady at your back. when you stand, the cold air from the open back door hits your legs and you shiver a little, instinctively leaning back into his side. he shrugs his hoodie higher and throws an arm around your shoulders like he already knew itâd happen.
âyo,â choso calls out over the couch, voice scratchy and low. âwe out.â
gojo perks up from where heâs still posted with a half-spilled drink, eyes bright. âtell your girlfriend goodnight for us.â
you donât say anything, just press your face into chosoâs shoulder again, and he laughs under his breath.
ânight, man,â suguru says with a nod, already halfway into rolling another blunt.
sukuna lifts a hand lazily. âtext if you end up in a ditch.â
âif i do, iâm takinâ you with me,â choso mutters.
they all laugh again, and it follows you both out the front door, the porch light buzzing weak and yellow above you. the nightâs cooler now, quiet in a way that makes everything feel soft around the edges. your heels click against the pavement as you walk, but only for a second, choso notices and without a word, crouches down in front of you, glancing back over his shoulder.
âget on.â
you blink, amused. âseriously?â
âcâmon, ma,â he mumbles, tugging at your wrist. âyour feet hurt.â
you climb onto his back with a little laugh, arms wrapped loose around his shoulders, and he stands like itâs nothing, steady under your weight. his steps are slow and sure down the sidewalk, the frat house lights shrinking behind you, the sounds of the party fading with every step.
âyou always take care of me,â you mumble against his neck.
he hums low. ââcourse i do. you're my.. best friend.â
you walk like that for a while, his hoodie soft against your cheek, his hair brushing your face every time the wind shifts. he doesnât say much, just hums sometimes or comments on dumb shit you pass, a traffic cone in a bush, a raccoon on the curb that freezes when it sees you, like it knows choso somehow.
he sets you down once youâre close, only when his own buildingâs steps are in sight. his hand stays in yours as he leads you inside, up the stairs, past the other bedrooms where people are either passed out or definitely not sleeping. his door clicks shut behind you with a soft thud, and everything goes quiet.
his roomâs the same as always, warm, dim, the faint smell of weed and whatever incense he burned earlier in the week still lingering in the corners. one sock on the floor, a hoodie thrown over the back of his chair. youâve been here a hundred times, maybe more.
but tonight feels different. softer. warmer.
he pulls his hoodie off slow, careful of the sleeve, and tosses it toward the desk chair. the bandage underneath catches the light for a second, but he turns before you see too much.
you toe your shoes off and crawl onto the bed without thinking. he follows, slower, body still heavy with high and heat and something else he canât name.
youâre both under the blanket when he finally speaks.
âhey.â
you look over, curled on your side facing him.
his eyes are half-lidded, soft. one arm tucked behind his head, the other stretched toward you, palm open on the comforter like heâs offering it.
âi really fuckinâ love that lighter.â
your heart stutters a little. âyeah?â
he nods, slow. âlike⊠a lot. been using it all night. even switched pockets for it, kept checking to make sure it didnât fall out or get swiped.â
you smile, something small and full blooming in your chest. âgood. itâs supposed to be yours.â
âfeels like it.â
he looks at you for a long second. the space between you shrinks until his arm slides around your waist and pulls you in close.
you go easy, always do, settling into him like heâs your own bed, your own pillow, the place you always end up no matter how far you drift.
he breathes in slow, his nose brushing your hair.
âthe flowers⊠whyâd you paint those?â
you press your face into his chest.
âthey reminded me of you,â you say quietly. âred spider lilies. theyâre kind of⊠complicated. people think theyâre about death or goodbye, but they also mean memory. rebirth. starting over. they grow in all the places nothing else does.â
chosoâs quiet for a second.
then, soft, âyou think iâm like that?â
you shrug against him, voice even softer. âi think youâre the kind of person who sticks. who stays even when shit gets hard. and you donât always say how you feel but⊠youâre steady. like those flowers. like fire.â
he exhales slow.
âfuck, ma.â
âwhat?â
âyouâre gonna make me cry or some shit.â
you laugh, a quiet huff against his chest. he wraps both arms around you now, tucking you into the space beneath his chin, his hand sliding up into your hair.
his fingers stroke slow, gentle. again and again.
âyou can cry,â you mumble. âi wonât tell.â
he chuckles low, the sound vibrating through you.
ânah, iâm good. just⊠i dunno. not used to someone thinkinâ about me like that.â
you donât say anything. just curl closer, your fingers fisting lightly in the fabric of his shirt.
the room settles into silence. soft and slow. your breaths even out together.
his hand keeps stroking through your hair, steady and grounding. like he could do it forever. like maybe he will.
his voice comes again, quieter this time.
âgonna keep that lighter forever.â
you smile, eyes fluttering shut. âgood.â
ânot even gonna let gojo touch it."
âdefinitely good.â
his lips brush your hair, a ghost of a kiss.
you feel it all, the warmth, the safety, the way his body curls slightly to fit around yours like a shield, like a home.
his heartbeatâs slow against your cheek.
ânight, ma,â he whispers, already half-asleep.
you murmur it back, voice slurred with sleep, breath syncing with his.
his fingers keep moving, slow circles through your hair.
and in the soft dark, beneath the blanket, beneath the silence, his arm curls around you just enough to press the fresh ink on his bicep to your side, a quiet secret. a permanent truth.
just for him.
just for tonight.
just for you.
~
~
itâs been a chill afternoon, sunâs out, classes dragging, brain fried. chosoâs walking out of the lab building with his earbuds in, hoodie half-zipped, replaying your last message in his head. a pic of your shoes kicked off under a library table, captioned come save me, three broken hearts. made him smile. still does.
heâs almost past the quad when a shadow cuts across the sidewalk.
âyo, choso.â
doesnât need to look up to know who it is.
that voice, too smooth. familiar in the kind of way that feels like smoke curling up your back.
he pulls one earbud out and slows.
tojiâs leaned against the trunk of an oak tree like heâs been waiting. sunglasses on, black tee snug across his chest, arms crossed like heâs got all day. his smirkâs already half-there.
âwhatâs up?â choso mutters.
âyou got a sec?â
choso gives him a long look. he knows toji. knows the kind of calm that means somethingâs coming.
ââŠyeah,â he says anyway.
they walk.
theyâve done this before, that time a few weeks ago before his lab, once or twice after parties, when everyone else was loud and drunk and messy. tojiâs always been different. sharper. like he watches the room just to see where it bleeds.
âhowâs life at delta mu?â toji asks after a few steps. casual. fake.
âsame shit.â
âyeah?â he smirks. âyou still throwing those weed parties with your little mascot?â
chosoâs jaw ticks. âyou mean y/n?â
toji chuckles. âyeah. her.â
he tosses a glance sideways. too casual.
âsheâs got some energy, huh? always bouncing around, arms all over you. she like that with everybody or just you?â
choso doesnât answer. toji doesnât need one.
ânah, iâve seen it,â he continues. âalways tucked up next to you. on your lap. wrapped around your arm. clinging to your hoodie like itâs the last blunt in the world.â
he laughs under his breath. âkinda cute.â
chosoâs fists go deep in his pockets.
âsheâs just like that,â he says flatly.
toji hums. âyou sure?â
choso looks over.
âwhatâs your point?â
âjust wondering,â toji shrugs, still smiling like itâs harmless. âyouâve told me before, you two arenât dating.â
âweâre not.â
âbut you hang out every day.â
âyeah.â
âsleep in the same bed sometimes, right?â
chosoâs mouth tightens.
toji grins like he caught something.
âso sheâs single?â
choso stares straight ahead.
ââŠyeah.â
âgood to know.â
silence.
the wind brushes through the quad. students chatter behind them. someoneâs playing music from a bluetooth speaker in the grass, something smooth, almost romantic. it doesnât help.
âsheâs just real⊠open, you know?â toji says. âlike, warm. sweet as hell. makes you feel like youâve known her forever.â choso stays quiet.
âi ran into her the other day,â toji adds like itâs nothing. âoutside the gym. we talked for a sec.â his tone is lighter now. teasing. like heâs digging.
âshe remembered my name. smiled real nice, too. said she was headed to meet you.â
no surprise there. you always say where you're going. always talking about choso like heâs the center of your world. and maybe thatâs why this stings. and toji knows it.
âyou ever wonder if she does that for you?â he asks. âtells other guys sheâs headed to see you. uses your name like a shield.â
he doesnât wait for a reply.
âor maybe itâs just habit. maybe sheâs comfortable. you ever think about that?â
âdonât do this.â
chosoâs voice is low now. warning. toji just smirks.
âlook, man. iâm not trying to piss you off. just⊠trying to understand. âcause you act like youâre her boyfriend, but then you say youâre not.â
he tilts his head.
âso which is it?â
choso breathes slow through his nose.
âweâre close. weâve always been close. thatâs it.â toji nods. like he buys it.
but he doesnât.
âdamn,â he says. âyou got more patience than me.â
âwhatâs that mean?â
âmeans if a girl like that was pressed up on me every night, i wouldnât be wasting time calling her my friend.â he says it with a grin, but thereâs something sharp underneath.
âyou really never tried?â toji asks. ânever kissed her? not once?â choso doesnât respond. he canât. he kisses you all the time, on the head, never on the lips.
because the truthâs stuck in his throat, the way you fall asleep in his arms, the way you hold his lighter like it means something, the way you always come back to him like heâs home. and heâs the dumbass who never claimed you.
âso sheâs single, then?â toji repeats.
âyeah,â choso says, quieter than the first time, barely above a whisper.
toji gives him one last nod.
âfairs,â he says. âjust wanted to be sure.â and then he walks away. choso doesnât move. not for a long time.
just stands there, fists clenched, teeth gritted, watching tojiâs silhouette disappear down the path like itâs a threat, because it is. he knew.
he knew before he asked.
and now heâs coming.
because choso left the door wide open.
and you?
youâre free to walk through it.
~
chosoâs room, late in the afternoon.
your legs are curled under you on chosoâs bed, hoodie three sizes too big hanging off your shoulder, his, of course. the windows are cracked open, letting in the soft hum of birds and the echo of some guys yelling down at the basketball court. his room smells like incense, sage and something deeper, something him, warm, sleepy. youâve been here a hundred times like this. maybe more.
his hoodie sleeves keep sliding past your wrists as you text, thumbs quick, quiet smile pulling at your lips. heâs across the room, digging through a drawer for his rolling tray. you can feel his presence without even looking. you always do.
âyo, did you move my grinder?â he calls, glancing over his shoulder.
ânope,â you answer, distracted, fingers still flying over your screen. your phone lights again.
toji [3:04pm]: you looked cute at that mixer last night.
you bite your lip. thumbs hover.
then you type:
you [3:07pm]: oh, so ur stalking me noww?
you donât see choso pause. you donât see how long his eyes linger on your phone. you donât realize he saw the name, until he speaks.
âwho you texting?â
you blink up, tone of his voice unfamiliar.
âhm? ohââ you shift your phone in your hand, instinctive. âjust⊠someone.â
he tilts his head.
âsomeone, huh.â
you laugh a little. âwhy do you sound like that?â
he doesnât answer. he crosses the room instead, slow steps. plants himself at the edge of the bed, arms folded. you look up at him and that warm energyâs gone. replaced with something colder. sharp.
âthat toji?â
your breath stalls.
ââŠyeah.â
choso stares at you. unreadable.
âwhy?â
âwhat do you mean why?â you ask, eyebrows tugging. âhe messaged me. we were just talking.â
he hums, low.
'not buying it.'
âjust talking,â he echoes. âwhat about?â you sit up straighter. âwhatâs going on?â
âwhatâd he say?â
âchosoââ
âlemme see.â
he gestures at your phone. you clutch it instinctively. like muscle memory. like guilt? âare you serious right now?â he doesnât answer. jawâs tight. eyes dark.
âwhatâd he say?â he asks again. your fingers squeeze your phone. you feel a flush crawl up your neck. not from embarrassment, but shock.
âyouâre not serious,â you say again, this time quieter. he just looks at you. so you speak.
âhe said i was cute, that's it.â
his jaw ticks.
âyou flirting with him?â
âwhat?â
âyou heard me.â
you scoff. âno. i wasnât. it wasnât even- i didnât mean it like that.â choso steps back, runs a hand through his hair. pacing now.
âyou texting him while youâre in my bed?â
âwhat does that matter?â
âit matters.â
his voice is sharper now. rough around the edges. not loud, but tight, like itâs fighting to stay inside his chest. âyou know how i feel about that guy.â
âchoso, heâs been nothing but nice latelyââ
âheâs not nice. heâs not interested in being friends. heâs waiting, heâs circling, you donât see it?â
you blink.
âso what, youâre mad âcause i texted him back?â he looks at you like you just spit on the floor. âiâm mad âcause youâre in my fucking hoodie, in my bed, telling some other guy heâs got a shot.â
you freeze.
the silence that falls is loud.
so loud.
your eyes widen. you stare at him, lips parted. unsure if you heard that right. unsure if he meant to say it.
âa shot?â you echo. he looks away. exhales hard.
ânever mind.â
âno,â you say, voice firm now. âsay it again.â
he doesnât. but you both feel the truth echoing off the walls.
you look down. suddenly too warm. like the hoodieâs burning your skin. ââŠi didnât know youâd care,â you say, almost to yourself.
choso swallows. âi do.â you glance back up.
âwhy?â
he doesnât answer, but you already know. and now the air is thick with it. the unspoken thing. and for the first time, itâs not sweet. not warm. it hurts.
because it means everything heâs never said, everything heâs been, came with conditions you never agreed to. came with borders he never drew, but expected you not to cross.
you breathe slow. he watches you. you speak first.
âif you wanted to be the only one texting me like that, you shouldâve said something.â chosoâs face shifts. his mouth opens like heâs going to say something, defend himself, maybe, argue the way he always stays quiet because he doesnât want to lose you,but nothing comes out.
instead, his brows knit together, lips pressed in a tight line. his fingers curl at his sides.
âyou really think i donât wanna be that?â he says, voice rough. âyou think this shitâs been casual for me?â you blink at him. your breath catches.
âyouâve never said it was anything else, choso. what was i supposed to think?â
âfuck,â he growls, pacing again. âyou were supposed to know. i thought you knew.â
his voice rises, not yelling, but loud with frustration. heâs unraveling in real time, and itâs shaking something loose in you, too.
âhow was i supposed to know?â you shoot back. âyou flirt but you never say anything. you touch me like iâm yours but act like iâm just your best friendââ
âyou are mine.â your voice dies in your throat.
he stares at you. and when he speaks again, itâs quieter, but no less intense.
âyouâre mine,â he says again, like a confession. like a curse. âalways been mine.â your stomach flips.
âthen whyââ your voice cracks â âwhy didnât you say anything?â
choso runs a hand through his hair again, like heâs trying to physically hold himself together. like it hurts.
ââcause i was scared,â he snaps. âscared that if i said it out loud, itâd fuck everything up. that youâd look at me different. that youâd leave.â you stare.
âso youâd rather let someone else have me?â
he stiffens. you rise onto your knees on the bed, fire lighting behind your ribs now. âyouâd rather let toji of all people try it?â
his jaw clenches. âheâs not gonna have you.â your heartbeat skids.
he moves in fast, faster than he ever has, and grabs your wrist, firm but not rough, like he canât bear to let the distance exist any longer.
âiâm not letting him have you,â he mutters.
youâre still frozen, looking up at him. something between fear and thrill curling in your gut.
âchoso,â you whisper. he doesnât stop. he pushes you back gently onto the bed, one hand catching your waist, the other bracing against the mattress. he hovers over you, breath heavy, eyes searching your face like heâs begging you to see it, really see it this time.
âiâm fucking in love with you.â
your heart punches into your throat. his forehead dips, pressing against yours, voice hoarse.
âiâve been in love with you since you showed up to my first party and we listened to that dumb song together.â
you let out a shaky laugh, but your eyes are wet his thumb brushes your cheek.
âi never said it âcause i thought this was enough. thought just having you close was better than risking it all. but i canâtââ he pulls in a breath, voice shaking now too â âi canât sit quiet while other people try to take you from me.â
youâre blinking fast now. breath catching. every inch of your skin feels like itâs on fire beneath his touch.
âyouâre my girl,â he says again, softer this time. âyouâve always been mine.â
you donât answer right away. your chest rises and falls beneath his, shallow and unsteady. your palm is still on his cheek, but your eyes have shifted, staring past him now. unfocused. wet.
âyouâre only saying that,â you murmur, âbecause someone else finally had the balls to go after me.â
his breath catches. your voice is quieter, but sharp now, like youâre trying to convince yourself. like you want to believe it, but the cracks are there, and theyâre splitting open.
âyou didnât say anything until he got involved. until he started asking about me. texting me. seeing me.â your hand falls away from his face. âand now suddenly, iâm yours?â
his eyes widen. ânoââ
âyou had so long to tell me, choso. so many chances.â
ây/n, itâs not like thatââ
âthen what is it like?â you breathe. ââcause i donât get to be the girl you only want when someone else does.â
choso stares at you, heart hammering. like you just ripped something raw and bloody straight out of his chest.
he swallows.
and then, slowly, he pushes back, just far enough to sit up on his knees beside you. the mattress dips with the weight shift. his hands fumble for the hem of his hoodie.
he pulls it up and over his head in one quick move. your breath stutters.
there, inked into the inside of his upper arm, where heâd hidden it every time you curled up against him, is a tattoo.
of your eyes.
staring straight back at you.
your real breath, the one stuck in your throat, finally punches out of you.
choso watches your expression shift, eyes flicking from the ink to his face and back. he swallows once, hard, and says:
âgot it the night of the party. when you gave me the lighter.â you blink.
âyou were curled up on me. whole time i was talking with the boys, i couldnât stop thinking about you. how close you were. how you looked at me like that was your home.â he swipes a thumb under his nose, like he doesnât know what else to do with his hands. âso i got up, high as fuck, to the guy tatting people in the corner. told him to ink your eyes on me.â
your lips part, but nothing comes out. his voice softens.
âi didnât say anything âcause i thought it was enough. just having you near. but itâs not. not anymore.â
your heart pounds so hard you feel it in your ears.
he looks at you like youâre the only thing in the room. like he needs you to believe it. really believe it.
âthis isnât about toji. itâs never been about him. i wanted you long before he ever said your name.â
youâre still staring at the tattoo.
he moves closer again. his hand brushes your knee, gentle.
âyou think iâd get your fucking eyes tatted on me just âcause iâm jealous?â you blink fast.
his hand finds your face again. tender. grounding âyouâre it for me.â
his voice is low, raspy. not just from the emotion, but from how hard heâs holding it in, like if he lets go, everything heâs ever felt for you will come spilling out and drown him.
but he lets it go anyway.
âyouâre all i think about,â choso says, brushing his thumb over your cheek again. âwhen iâm high, when iâm sober, when youâre across the room and laughing at someoneâs stupid joke, when youâre asleep in my bed, wearing my shirt, youâre in my head all the time, ma.â your breath catches.
âevery song reminds me of you. every little thing you do drives me crazy. you donât even know how much of me youâve got.â
he leans closer, forehead nearly touching yours.
âyou gave me that lighter and i wanted to kiss you right there in the middle of that party. when you paint your nails i stare at your hands for hours. when you fall asleep on me at parties, i sit still like a statue so you donât move. iâm always lookinâ at you like ive already lost you, and it kills me.â
his hand finds your jaw, warm and steady, fingers curling behind your ear. your breath hitches, and heâs close enough to feel it.
âyouâve had my heart since freshman year. and i didnât say anything âcause i thought maybe you didnât want it. or maybe you already had it and didnât need to hear it out loud.â
you swallow, shaky. lips parted. cheeks flushed.
and choso looks down at them, your lips, like heâs been holding himself back from kissing you for a lifetime.
and then he doesnât anymore.
he crashes into you like heâs starving.
the kind of kiss that drags a sound out of your throat before you even realize it, all heat and pressure and ache, all the months and years and everything heâs shoved down, poured out into the way his lips mold against yours. he kisses you like heâs afraid youâll pull away, and like he knows you wonât.
your hands claw at his shoulders, winding into the mess of his hair, tugging him in even closer. and choso groans, deep in his throat, pressing you down into the bed, slotting his hips against yours.
his mouth moves fast, desperate, lips, tongue, teeth, like he canât get enough. like the taste of you is something he needs in his lungs.
âfuck,â he breathes against your mouth, dragging his lips down your jaw, âyou donât get it, do you?â
your back arches, lips parting when he sucks lightly under your ear.
âhow bad iâve wanted this. you.â
his hands roam, over your waist, under your shirt, up your sides like heâs trying to memorize all of you at once. and every place he touches leaves a trail of fire.
you moan his name, soft and shaky, and he loses it a little more, bites your bottom lip as he grinds his hips down into yours, heavy and hot and so there.
âsay it again,â he mutters, eyes half-lidded, forehead pressed to yours. âsay my name.â
âchoso.â
he shudders.
âagain.â
âcho!.â
he kisses you so deep it knocks the breath out of your lungs. kisses you like he owns you, like youâve always belonged to him, and like heâs finally letting himself claim whatâs already his.
and fuck, you let him.
youâve wanted this just as long, you've needed him just as bad.
and now, with your limbs tangled, your body burning under his, your heart thudding like a war drum in your chest, thereâs no more pretending.
youâre his. heâs yours. and itâs written all over his face.
choso looks at you like youâre the only thing heâs ever wanted, like heâs starved for you, but still savoring the moment. his eyes are dark, heavy-lidded, but soft. reverent. he cups your cheek with a hand thatâs just slightly trembling, brushing his thumb along your skin like he canât believe youâre real.
he kisses your forehead, slow and grounding, like a promise. then your nose. then your lips, and that one lingers. warm, aching, deep enough that it steals the air from your lungs. itâs not just desire. itâs everything heâs never said until now.
âplease let me see you, ma." he whispers, voice hoarse, like heâs been holding back forever.
you nod, lips parted, eyes locked with his. your breath stutters as his fingers ghost over the hem of your shirt, lifting it inch by inch like heâs unwrapping something precious. he tosses it aside, only to pull you in again. his palms spread wide across your ribs, thumbs brushing just beneath your chest.
âfuck,â he breathes, low and to himself. âso fucking beautiful.â
he leans in, mouth dragging hot and open along your neck, kissing and breathing you in, his lips trembling against your pulse like heâs drunk off you. he murmurs something there, a soft, almost desperate, âmine,â before he undoes your bra with one practiced flick.
and when it falls away, he doesnât touch you right away. he just stares, like the sight of you has knocked the wind out of him.
his hands come up slow, palms warm as they cup you like heâs afraid to break something delicate. âbeen dreaming about this,â he says. âabout you. here. like this. in my bed. lookinâ up at me like you already know iâd give you everything.â
you shiver under the weight of it all, his voice, his gaze, his touch. and then his mouth is on your chest, lips sealing around your nipple, tongue flicking before he sucks. slow, deep, just enough to make you arch into him with a needy whimper.
âchosoâŠâ
he groans, hand sliding lower, fingers hooking into the waistband of your shorts. he pulls them down with your panties in one motion, dragging his palms down your thighs on the way. and when he sits back, just to take you in, bare, breathless, flushed, his eyes go wide, like heâs trying to commit you to memory. âlook at you,â he murmurs, chest rising with each ragged breath. âyou donât even know what you do to me, do you?â
you reach for him, tugging his shirt up and over his head, palms skating down the strong lines of his chest, stopping only when your fingers find his arm. your breath catches.
your eyes. inked in black and red over his skin, etched like a confession. you won't ever get sick of seeing it.
he watches you take it in, sees the exact moment you understand, and he doesnât say anything. not at first. he just leans in, takes your hand in his, and presses it over his heart.
âsee?â he whispers. âbeen yours. always.â
your eyes brim, chest tight with something that has no name. and then he kisses you again, slow and deep, tongue stroking yours, hand sliding between your thighs. he groans into your mouth when he feels you, warm, wet, already trembling.
âso wet for me,â he mutters, lips brushing yours. âall this for me, huh?â
his fingers dip into you, one at first, then two, slow and deep, curling just right. your back arches, mouth falling open with a gasp as he starts to move them, watching every twitch and shiver you give him like heâs memorizing the way you come apart. âfuck, baby,â he breathes. âyou feel so good, been wantinâ this for so long. just wanted to take care of you. make you feel good.â
his lips trail back down, mouth closing around your nipple again as his fingers keep working you open, the room echoing with your broken gasps and soft moans. he kisses your sternum, your ribs, every inch of you he can reach like heâs trying to make up for every second he didnât have you.
and when your legs start to tremble, when your thighs squeeze around his hand and you whimper his name into the crook of his neck, he groans, low and sexy, and pulls back just enough to strip the last of his clothes.
his cock is flushed, hard, already leaking, and still, he pauses.
he leans in, pressing his forehead to yours, breathing hard. âyou sure you wanna do this hun?â
âi want you,â you whisper, voice cracking. âi want all of you.â
and when he slides in, slow, deliberate, itâs overwhelming. your nails dig into his shoulders, mouth open in a silent gasp, and he just groans, long and low, burying his face in your neck.
âfuck, sweetheart⊠you feel so fuckinâ good, made for me, huh?â
his hips rock into you, slow and deep, dragging along every sensitive inch inside you until youâre trembling again, mouth parted in helpless moans. he kisses you through it, messy and uncoordinated, full of teeth and tongue and need.
he doesnât hold back anymore. not his body, not his voice. heâs everywhere, his hands, his mouth, his words, and every thrust is rougher, deeper, hotter than the last.
âbeen yours since the day i met you,â he breathes against your skin. âyouâre mine, baby. mine. no one else gets to have you like this. no one else even fuckinâ compares.â
you believe him. how could you not, when heâs saying it like heâs been waiting years to let it out?
you fall apart first, clenching around him with a strangled moan, whole body trembling as your orgasm crashes through you, and choso follows, grinding into you with a low growl, holding you close as he spills into you.
he doesnât let go. not even after. he stays buried deep, forehead to yours, one hand cradling your jaw like itâs fragile.
ânot lettinâ you go,â he whispers. ânot now. not ever.â
~
raging music throbs and the partyâs already in full swing when you two walk in. the bass thrums under your feet, bodies packed tight in the kappa house. familiar faces flash by in strobes of color and sound, solo cups raised, someone laughing too loud, gojo shouting across the room with a bottle in each hand.
and then you and choso step into the chaos like itâs nothing. except tonight, itâs not nothing. itâs everything. your hand is in his. his thumb strokes over your knuckles like itâs second nature, and youâre tucked into his side like youâve always belonged there. heâs wearing that hoodie you love, and youâve got it slung off your shoulder like itâs yours now. he hasnât let go of you since you walked through the door, and he doesnât plan to. people notice.
gojo sees first. his mouth falls open around the mouth of a beer can, and he drops it on the counter with a dramatic gasp. âoh my god.â choso raises an eyebrow, smirking. âno fuckin way,â sukuna mutters, eyes narrowing. âthis for real?â you donât say anything. just smile, nuzzling into chosoâs chest. and choso, god, he melts. his arm tightens around you like instinct, like heâs not even thinking about it. âyouâre kidding,â maki blurts from across the room. sheâs half-drunk and squinting, pointing her beer bottle at you two like sheâs trying to make sense of a mirage. âyou finally fucked?â
âmaki,â shoko hisses, slapping her arm, but sheâs already grinning. âi knew it. i knew it.â suguru lifts his drink with a slow, knowing smile. âtook you long enough.â gojo, meanwhile, is spinning in a circle like he just witnessed a miracle. âwait wait wait,â he says, pointing between the two of you. âyouâre telling me this entire time, weâve been watching you two eye-fuck each other across every frat house on campus, and now youâre just casually showing up like this?â
âwhat can i say,â choso murmurs, pulling you even closer, âi figured it was time.â âlook at his hand placement,â shoko says, leaning into maki. âthatâs not friends. thatâs boyfriend hand placement.â
âyeah and look at her,â maki laughs. âshe looks like she just got dicked down and praised like a goddess.â you duck your head a little, embarrassed, but choso leans in and kisses your cheek, then your temple. itâs so soft, so easy, and when he pulls back, he looks straight at toji whoâs staring wide eyed, steady, calm, but with a flicker of challenge in his eyes.
âdonât look at her like that,â he says, voice low. ânot tonight. not ever.â toji scoffs, raising his hands in mock surrender, but his grin is sharp. âdamn. someoneâs possessive now.â
âbeen possessive,â choso mutters, like itâs not even up for debate. he turns his attention back to you instantly, brushing your hair behind your ear.
âyou okay?â
you nod. âiâm perfect.â and then he kisses you. not a peck. not for show. itâs slow, unhurried, with his hand cupping your jaw and his lips moving with the kind of tenderness that makes your knees weak. the room could be burning down and he wouldnât stop. you donât even hear gojoâs dramatic screech until you break apart.
âyo this is crazy,â he says, spinning around and yelling to no one in particular. âchoso is off the market. choso kamo, resident stoner-lover of no one but his weed and his hoodie collection, is now cuffed.â
âwhatâs it feel like,â suguru asks with a smirk, raising an eyebrow at choso, âto be someoneâs boyfriend?â
âfeels like i shoulda done it years ago,â choso says. you blink up at him, heart catching in your throat. âyo,â yuuji calls from the other side of the room. âdoes this mean weâre finally allowed to say you two have been in love since freshman year?â âi always said it,â nobara yells, shoving through the crowd with a drink. âdonât act like yâall didnât see them cuddled up at every party like an old married couple.â
âwait does this mean sheâs moving into his room?â gojo asks, visibly spiraling. âwhatâs gonna happen to the guest bed? whoâs gonna roll for me when chosoâs too busy being in love?â
âdie mad,â choso says flatly, and everyone laughs. but even through all the noise and teasing and attention, his focus never strays from you. his hand stays on your waist. his eyes keep dropping to your mouth like heâs remembering exactly what it feels like.
âyou good?â he murmurs again, like he just wants to hear you say it.
you press your nose to his chest and nod, smiling. âmore than good.â
he kisses you again, slower this time, like itâs just for you. like no one else is in the room. like heâs exactly where heâs always wanted to be.
genuinely the best written fic ive ever read in my whole life, genuinely the emotion and tension THE BUILD UP???? holy fuck i could feel it in my chest
10/10 phenomenal work, worth ruining my sleep schedule for
unfortunately that also meant he had missed his wifeâs nightly yap session in which you talked his ear off about everything but also nothingâââmundanity that nanami insisted was a necessary part of his day.
so instead what welcomed him that day after a late shower was his adorable, sleepy love of his life, five blinks away from slumber as you patted the empty spot beside you, rushing the blond to lie down.
nanami heart swelled two times bigger, the exhaustment that had seeped deep within his bones slowly melted away as he embraced you, filling his entire body with warmth that he knew only you could provide.
âhi there,â he greeted softly, kissing the side of your temple. you hummed a response, the steady beat of his heart lulled you deeper into a dazed state, barely hanging on to your conciousness. âhow was your day?â he whispered, couldnât help but wanting to be in your presence a minute longer. the man had an entirely wrong idea if he thought the comforting low rumble of his voice helped you be awake at all.
ââs good,â you mumbled through his shirt, the scent of his freshly laundered shirt made you sniff deeper, giddy in having him so close. then you felt his hand rubbed your side, his thumb rubbed a spot just under the curve of your chest.
unexpectedly, nanami started to sprinkle little kisses across your shoulder blade. you let out a low chuckle as his breath ghosted the side of your neck. âstay up a little more for me? missed your voice,â he breathed, resting his head there.
you tried to open your eyes once and stared at him, as he flashed the sweetest smile. âthereâs my pretty wife.â
âyour flirting wonât get me any less sleepy, silly man.â
âworth a try, donât you think?â he relented easily, fully under the impression that he will never force you to sacrifice your rest for his selfish deed.
you did not even realize that your eyelids had closed themselves, nanamiâs voice sounded like as though you were underwater. and the last thing you registered as he felt like audibly further was a kiss to your nose.
nanami narrowed his eyes affectionately, chuckling to himself as he held his entire world. âsleep tight, love. but you still owe me a talk about how your day went, okay?â he said, to no one particulary as youâre already off to the dreamland.
but it was a small matter, heâll remind you again tomorrow. and the day after that too.
đđ: P in V, Oral (M! Receiving), Oral (F! Receiving), Clit stimulation, Cum swallowing, Threesome, Drunk sex, Vincent has no shame, Alastor cares for you, This takes place during the 1930s even though itâs not stated, Allusions to murder and cheating, Alastor speaks French (I used a translator)
Ah, February the 14th, the day youâd come to dread the most since a friend of yours visited you at work to hit you with a gut-wrenching revelation â that sheâd seen your boyfriend having dinner with a woman at a restaurant in the outskirts of town, when he was supposed to be miles away in Baton Rouge on a 5-day business trip.
You had thanked her for letting you know, even though you had been overcome with anger, grief, the timing being nothing short of unfortunate.
The bastard had cheated on you a week before Valentineâs Day. A damned week.
âI donât get it. I gave him everything I had. I was⊠I was a good girlfriend,â You ranted, waving your hands around. âUnless thereâs something wrong with meâŠ? Maybe Iâm⊠God, no. I canât believe this. The asshole has me belittling myself!â
Luckily, your two best friends had swung by your apartment at 7 PM, spontaneous and unannounced.
They had linked their arms with yours and dragged you to their favorite bar to catch up over some drinks on the most romantic day of the year.
And though you were grateful to not spend Valentineâs Day alone, to not spend it with that cheating son-of-a-bitch, you still felt pretty awful. It didnât help that your boyfriend had yet to return home from his business trip, exacerbating your anger, your grief. He was supposed to be gone for 5 days, not 7. Not an entire week.
âTo make matters worse, he hasnât come back home,â You continued, absentmindedly tracing the rim of your empty glass with a singular finger. âAnd Iâve been waiting for him like a goddamn dog ââ
âWait, wait, wait,â Vincent sputtered, confused. âAre you planning on hashing things out with him? Because youâd told us on the day of ââ
You vigorously shook your head.
âChrist, no! In fact, I donât want to see him and his stupid face again,â You told him. âI really donât, but⊠the curiosity is gnawing at me, you know?â
A hum sounded from beside you.
âWell, get used to it, my dear,â Alastor chimed in. âI have a feeling heâs not coming back. Men like him typically do not, at least.â
âBut he has to come back. His clothes, his belongings, he needs them. I mean, sure, he packed a bunch of his suits before he left⊠but thatâs because he needs to change hisâŠâ
Your words trailed off to a whisper, realization settling in your gut, where your heart already sat. The business trip wasnât real. It was a dirty lie, a pretense. Your boyfriend had packed a hefty suitcase of his best clothes to run off with this new gal to God-knows-where. They had probably just grabbed themselves a bite to eat on the way out.
âI need another drink.â
âWhy, of course! Iâll head over to the bar and ââ
âNo, Al. I need a drink, like, now.â
You turned away from Alastor and plucked the glass of whiskey Vincent was nursing, plush lips latching onto the rim, mismatched eyes narrowing in displeasure. You didnât care, though, not in the slightest. In fact, you locked eyes with him as you tipped your head back, the thick, amber liquid steadily trickling down your throat.
âOh yeah, go ahead! Help yourself to my drink! Itâs not like I was trying to finish it or whatever.â
It was hot and bitter on your tongue, the edges of your vision growing blurry with tears, but you forcefully swallowed each and every drop Vincent had left in his glass. The astringent burn felt infinitely better than the ache of being cheated on, of being abandoned by someone you had invested 3 years on by a long stretch.
âMy, my! Look at you, pounding whisky like a sailor,â Alastor chuckled, downing whatever was left of his own drink. âAnd here I thought you were the one who had served in the Navy, Whittman.â
âHa-Ha, very funny,â Vincent drawled, clearly unamused. âIn fact, how about you go and enlist in the circus right now? Iâm sure theyâd love you!â
âSays the one who aspires to embarrass himself on some noisy picture box,â Alastor waved him off as he pushed his chair back. âAnywho, Iâll be back with another round of drinks for us, too-da-loo!â
You dropped your head and gently lowered the empty glass, placing it in front of you on the table, where only you and Vincent sat now. The table was situated in the furthest corner of the bar, right next to one of the exits, which nobody used because it led straight to a dark, inconspicuous alleyway instead of the brightly-lit main street.
âAsshole,â Vincent muttered under his breath.
âHeâs getting us a round of drinks on his own dime,â You shrugged as you turned to look at him. âI donât think that constitutes asshole behavior.â
âOh, Iâm sure youâd know.â
You narrowed your eyes in a glare, liquid courage churning in your belly, making you bolder.
âFuck you.â
He planted his elbows on the table, leaning in, voice lowering to something low and gravely.
âIs that a threat or a promise?â
You slowly blinked, lips curling upwards in a smile that was a mix of amusement and mild disbelief.
The audacity he had to hit on you.
If the whiskey wasnât so strong, you probably would have told him an unsavory thing or two.
âNeither. Keep dreaming, Whittman.â
He leaned in further, mismatched eyes fleetingly darting down to your lips.
âI donât need to,â Vincent admitted under a sultry whisper, as if the bar wasnât bustling with music and chatter. âNot anymore.â
âIâm sorry, what?â
Ever since Alastor introduced you to Vincent, almost each and every exchange between you two had a suggestive undertone to it. At first, you thought it was a similarity he and Alastor held, that their unbridled charisma came off as flirtatious. But with time, you realized that Vincentâs words were purposefully insinuating, not accidentally flirty.
You always brushed off his not-so-subtle advances, and when your boyfriend came into the picture, you just ignored them altogether.
However, you couldnât do that now.
The man had you all to his own, something that rarely transpired in your friend group. The three of you always hung out together, never one on one.
And, to make matters worse, Vincent was handsome. You would be as big of a liar as your boyfriend if you said that he wasnât. He had streaks of silver in his hair, sharp brows, green-blue eyes, a roman nose, a cleft chin, a jaw that could cut into stone, and you were certain that the rest of him wouldnât disappoint you. Still, he was your friend.
Youâd known him and Alastor for years. You couldnât risk ruining your friendship for a romp in the hay, even if it happened to be a one and done kind of thing. God knows what the repercussions of allowing Vincent to get in between your knees would be, especially on Alastor, who was particularly fond of your strange dynamic as a trio.
âHey, one night wouldnât hurt,â Vincent shrugged, moving back and relaxing in his seat. âIâd make it worth your while, doll.â
âYouâre kidding me,â You shook your head. âItâs been one week. One. Fucking. Week. Why would you try to make a move on me now?â
âIâve known you long enough to know that it takes you a while to get over things,â Vincent drawled. âWaiting would have hardly made a difference.â
âYouâre⊠God, youâre such a dog⊠you have no shame,â You snorted in disbelief. âSeriously, you need to keep that ego in check, Whittman.â
âLook, I donât hear you saying no. And besides, if that asshole does show up â which I doubt â Iâm sure itâd feel great knowing you stuck it to him.â
You had every intention of breaking up with your boyfriend if he wound up returning to your shared apartment, of course. Thereâs nothing more you wanted to do than confront him, to find out why heâd decided to betray you after 3 years worth of what you once thought to be a happy relationship. Closure would help you heal much quicker.
Revenge sex with your best friend, on the other hand, would certainly not.
However, as Alastor announced himself with a whistle, you sat back and found yourself mulling his words over. Perhaps it was the whiskey thinking for you. Straight liquor always clouded your better judgement, and it didnât help that you had another drink placed in front of you⊠that or you were simply searching to stave off the ache in your heart.
Whatever it was, Alastor noticed it.
Rich brown eyes carefully regarded you, taking notice of the contemplative creases etched into your features, the said air around you all but gone.
Taking notice of the tension in your muscles, shoulders squared instead of slumped in grief, piquing his curiosity.
Vincent also wasnât trying to be discreet.
He was already awful at concealing his true sentiments in the face of excitement. Last night was a testament of that. Alastor swore the corners of Vincentâs lips had touched his ears while he helped him hack your unfaithful lover into pieces, mirroring the same maniacal grin heâd greeted him with on the day he was hired at the new TV station.
Since his dismembered body and the evidence of his murder was properly disposed of, this was the first time you had been single in 3 years.
Like an impatient hawk, Vincent swooped in and asked you for a chance.
A chance at what? Alastor didnât know.
He just knew that Vincent had always held a soft spot for you, he was no oblivious fool.
Tonight was the first time heâd seen you entertain him, and he was eager to find out why because, between you two, you mattered to him the most.
So, once you all had a fair share of liquor churning in your belly, and you decided you wanted to head back home, Alastor refused to let Vincent take you. Not alone. He saw how you immediately went to link your arm with his, skin flushed, pupils blown to giant saucers. It wasnât just the dazed look of an alcohol-induced haze. It couldnât be.
The two of you had clearly discussed something in the small time frame heâd left the table to grab another round of drinks, but what?
As the door that led to the alleyway shut behind him, he reached for your other arm.
âWhat are you doing?â Vincent whispered under his breath, brows furrowing and mismatched eyes narrowing, brimming with obvious displeasure.
âI could ask you the same thing, pal,â Alastor whispered back with a sarcastic bite.
They jostled you around as they spoke in hushed tones, your back meeting Alastorâs chest.
Even through his vest, even through your blouse, the warmth of his body penetrated your skin, a shiver wracking your spine.
Still, you craned your neck and looked up at them, tipsy, curious, and confused.
âIâm taking her home, thatâs what Iâm doing, pal,â Vincent told him. âSo, why donât you ââ
âOh, is that so?â Alastor interrupted him, leaning in, sharp nose grazing his hooked one, making him bristle. âWell, how about I accompany you two?â
You opened your mouth to say something, however, Vincent was faster than you.
âThat wonât be necessary.â
He tried to pry you away from Alastorâs grip, but because he refused to let go, you wound up being caught between their bodies instead.
Your breath hitched, your chest pushing up against Vincentâs stomach.
The ache in your heart was suddenly replaced with something else, something debauched and forbidden but excitable all the same.
âBĂątard sordide, profiter d'elle.â
âYou know I donât understand a lick of French, you tacky piece of shit,â Vincent hissed, tone rising, pale skin flushing in frustration and annoyance.
âSleazy bastard, taking advantage of her,â Alastor translated for him with a snarl. âYouâve no shame.â
They started to bicker with each other, both of them still holding onto one of your arms.
And yet, the only thing you could focus on was the hard press of their bodies against yours, arousal rippling through your skin.
The alcohol in your belly, the betrayal of your lover, it made everything infinitely worse.
âLet. Go,â Vincent demanded, placing his other hand on top of Alastorâs bicep, warning him.
âHa! Over my dead body,â Alastor flashed him his canines in defiance, hardly flinching at the harsh grip the other man had on him.
Your best friends were the most insufferable people you knew, in their own respective ways, of course.
And though it was irritating, you didnât put it to a halt because of their arguing. You put it to a halt because you decided to cast your friendship aside.
You didnât want Vincent to take you, not alone. You wanted both Vincent and Alastor to take you, to unashamedly have their way with you, the arm in Alastorâs grip moving back to grasp at the top of his thigh. The one in Vincent's grip moved forward, the tips of your fingers grazing his crotch through his slacks, immediately catching their attention.
You felt their bodies stiffen against you.
The dark alleyway was ensnared by a deafening bout of silence. Alastor, from shock, and Vincent, from obvious gratification.
âPlease,â You merely said, chest heaving, voice high-pitched and indisputably needy.
Mismatched eyes stared into rich brown ones with an âI told you soâ look.
âYou heard that, Alastor?â Vincent grinned, dropping his hand from his bicep.âStill think Iâm taking advantage of her?â
Despite your grip on his thigh, he steeled himself, nostrils flaring in irritation.
âSheâs inebriated and heartbroken, what do you think, Vincent?â Alastor bit back.
A curse seeped past Vincentâs lips as you tossed your head back against Alastorâs shoulders to gaze up at him with a silent plea.
His eyes flitted down, heart lurching in his chest.
Blown pupils stared up at him through thick lashes, shooting him a look only his admirers who tuned into his radio broadcasts had ever expressed â desire. And though it slightly intimidated him, your friendship being something he held dearly to his cold, wicked heart, he couldnât bear the thought of leaving you alone with Vincent.
The man was the epitome of what he constantly praised and admired, a predator. A shark.
Vincent wanted to have his fill of you, and you surprisingly became his willing prey.
He looked up to meet mismatched eyes, the corners of his lips twisting to form a scowl.
The bastard had the audacity to toss him a shit-eating grin, but the only reason why Alastor found himself nodding his head in determination in lieu of resignation was because he noticed traces of displeasure on Vincentâs features. He probably wasnât overtly fond of the idea of sharing you. However, he had no say in the matter.
And he wasnât idiotic enough to open his mouth and start protesting, not after years of pining.
âVery well, then,â Alastor hummed. âLetâs take her home, shall we, Vincent?â
He hissed a âYesâ through gritted teeth, swallowing the urge to argue.
And Vincent continued to do so long after you had made it to your apartment, shooting occasional daggers at the other man as you writhed against them, bare skin highlighted by the moonlight filtering through the gap between your curtains, your labored breaths and bodies colliding together resonating throughout your bedroom.
âFuck, Vinny, please! That feels so good.â
Two pairs of hands glided across your bare skin, feeling, squeezing everywhere they traversed, one more eager than the other.
âYeah? You like that? You like when I do that?â
You found yourself on all fours on the bed, your eyes screwed shut and cheek plastered against Alastorâs slacks as Vincent plowed into you from behind, his cockhead relentlessly abusing that sweet spot nestled deep within your walls. He also had two fingers rubbing your clit in quick circles, a familiar pressure already coiling in your belly.
You couldnât remember the last time you had been screwed this good, one of your hands scrambling to clutch at Alastorâs thigh as Vincent pushed into your cunt with a particularly harsh thrust, your nose squashing into a clothed erection.
Vincent had been plowing into you from behind for a few minutes already, yet Alastor patiently stood in front you, mostly clothed. He had his vest folded neatly on your dresser, his shirt completely unbuttoned, and his suspenders hung at his sides, his slacks still fully done. Even though this was your first time with him, you werenât surprised.
Unlike Vincent, Alastor was patient, long, slender fingers threading into your hair to caress your scalp, gently coaxing you to the tent in his slacks.
Your eyes fluttered open, the hand on his thigh sliding up, fingers finding the button on his slacks.
It was hard, trying to pull his erection out with Vincentâs cock sliding in and out of your slick cunt, but you eventually managed to do it.
Your eyes flitted up, thin rings of rich brown staring down at you as you wrapped your fingers around the base of his length, thumb and middle finger barely meeting from how girthy he was. With your other hand, you reached out to steel yourself on his thigh, body lurching forward from how often Vincentâs hips rudely collided with your ass.
âSlow down, you damned animal,â Alastor hissed, skin flushed in a mixture of arousal and irritation.
As your tongue laved across the side of his length, tracing the vein leading to his cockhead, you felt Vincentâs pace slightly stutter.
âFuck you, donât you tell me what to do.â
The fingers scratching your scalp suddenly gripped your hair, tugging. It stung a bit, chest vibrating with a small mewl, but you didnât stop.
âWhy do you have to be so insufferable?â
Despite his words, Vincent slowed down, allowing you to move your head back and guide Alastorâs length to your mouth.
âOnly because Iâm getting close,â Vincent muttered, the fingers on your clit moving away.
As you wrapped your lips around Alastorâs cock, your hand slowly pumping the base in a corkscrew motion, you tried not to protest. The pressure in your belly slowly subsided, clit throbbing in longing, but upon hearing the man above you emit a shaky breath, you remembered that giving pleasure was just as delicious as receiving it.
Your eyes fell shut, cheeks hollowing, slick sounds filling the room as you reverently sucked what you could of his length.
âMerde,â Alastor huffed, the muscles in his abdomen flexing, the grip on your hair loosening.
You felt Vincent throb inside of you, and it made you wonder if he was watching. Your eyes fluttered open, Alastorâs cock falling out of your mouth, tongue trailing down his length as you stole a peek.
âOh, fuckâŠâ Vincent muttered under his breath, pale skin flushing red. âWhy am I watching?â
How curious. That was something you also wanted to know the answer to, but he was just as clueless as you were, apparently.
Either way, you took Alastorâs cock back in your mouth, wiggling your hips before pushing them back, fucking yourself on Vincentâs length. Despite how riveting it was to pull grunts and groans from such a usually composed man with only your mouth, you still wanted to be screwed, and Vincent had promised to make it worth your while.
âWell, what are you waiting for?â
Ultimately, it was Alastor who snapped him back to reality.
âAre you going to make yourself useful?â
A hiss sounded from behind you.
âUseful? Listen here, you tacky piece of shit. Iâm always useful, remember last night? I did most ââ
Alastor quickly interjected.
âLast night, what? Last night, nothing. Now, either you fuck her properly or I will.â
The bastard almost let it slip.
âShit, sorry â I mean yeah, sure, whatever.â
He almost let the true fate of your unfaithful lover tumble from his lips in a petty fit.
âChrist, Vincent. Just do it.â
You tried to pick up your head to say something, to inquire about their exchange, especially because Vincent wasnât one to apologize, even when he was clearly in the wrong. But they were both quick to dive back into your debauched affair, Alastor suddenly forcing his cock down your throat, Vincentâs hips colliding with your ass once more.
And soon, your bedroom resonated with the filthy sound of two men grunting and groaning in tandem, including your muffled cries and whines.
The pressure in your belly eventually returned, too, their exchange growing distant with each thrust that drove you closer and closer to tipping over the brink of ecstasy, your mouth slowing down.
Alastor noticed it. The muscles in your body had tensed up. So, he pulled his cock out of your mouth, replacing your hand with his own.
With his other hand, which was still buried in your hair, he pulled your head back and instructed you to open your mouth. Despite how harsh, how unforgiving Vincent was as he rammed his cock into that sweet spot in your walls, you complied, parting your lips to allow Alastor to pump himself to completion on your tongue.
âAtta girl,â Alastor praised you, his breath stuttering, length stiffening and cockhead pulsing.
Thick ropes of his spend painted your tongue, the inside of your mouth, tears pricking at the corners of your eyes at the bitter taste.
Still, you sealed your lips shut and swallowed, earning yourself another praise from Alastor, including an affectionate pat on the cheek.
âF-Fuck⊠thatâs it,â Vincent huffed, following closely behind, his thrusts growing sloppy.
You were close, so, so close, but it seemed as if the man behind you was far closer than you to coming undone, yet another thing Alastor noticed. So, after he tucked himself away, he clambered onto the bed and promptly encouraged Vincent to take you on your back instead of all fours, leaving you both equal parts confused.
âWhy do you want me to ââ
âJesus H. Christ, Whittman! Why is it such a challenge for you to do anything?â
âFuck, I was so close, but fine!â
Vincent complied, cock sliding out of you and hands seizing your waist, a gasp tearing from your throat as you were flipped onto your back. Alastor wasted no time, not even a millisecond, leaning down and resting his cheek against your mound, hot breath ghosting over your clit. It was then that Vincent understood what his intentions were.
And so did you, your legs falling wide open, a hand flying down to pet at the mess of curls on top of Alastorâs head.
The tip of his tongue grazed your clit, the muscles in your belly flexing with a moan.
âOh, okay, Iâll just try to pretend as if this isnât weird,â Vincent shakily said, grabbing the base of his length and tentatively guiding himself to your entrance. âAs if youâre not close toâŠâ
As his cockhead parted your folds, sinking back into your walls, Alastor hissed at him to shut up.
And, for once in his life, Vincent kept his mouth sealed in a fine line, his hands closing around the back of your knees, casting his gaze to the ceiling.
He resumed his previous pace, but with each slick drag of his cock, he swore he felt Alastorâs tongue graze his flesh as he massaged your clit with quick circles. It felt⊠wrong, but Vincent couldnât muster a single protest, driving his hips into yours and focusing on the delicious sound of your labored breaths instead of the warm muscle.
Thankfully, the coil in your belly quickly snapped with the combined efforts of Vincentâs cock and Alastorâs tongue, your head tipping back against the mattress with a long, obscene whine.
âOh, oh my⊠fuckkk! Vinny, Al, please,â You chanted, your pleasured noises coaxing the man inside of you over the edge. âFuck, fuck, fuck.â
Alastor lifted his head from your pulsing clit at the same time Vincent pulled out of your fluttering walls, a strangled moan leaving his lips, thick, hot ropes of his spend coating the inside of your thighs.
The hands gripping the back of your knees let go, your legs falling limp with the rest of your body. You felt the mattress dip beside you. It was Alastor, splaying himself out, his chest heaving with a tired sigh. Vincent, on the other hand, stumbled back into the wall, muttering something about getting a towel for you in a second.
âShit, Iâm sorry, doll. Iâll clean that up in a bit, I promise, just let me⊠doll?â
However, you didnât respond.
Apparently, you had knocked out, an amused hum seeping past Alastorâs lips.
Vincent blinked.
âI thought your performance was⊠subpar, but I guess she felt otherwise.â
âShut the fuck up.â
âTake your own advice, Whittman. You were this close to slipping up. This. Close. And under no pressure, too. How pathetic.â
âIt was the liquor, it loosened my tongue.â
âIf she ever finds out what you did, what we did, this will never happen again.â
âGood. Fine! I donât want to share her with you.â
âThatâs not what I meant, you buffoon! The next time you slip up, rest assured, this will never happen again. I wonât have any liabilities.â
âAre you fucking threatening me?â
âYes, so clean up the mess you made and show me that I can trust you to be alone with her.â
Why did he listen?
Why did he leave the room to get a towel from your bathroom to clean you up?
He scowled at Alastor.
âWhy do I have to prove myself to you? I mean, what? Who the fuck do you think you are?â
Whatever it was that Alastor was trying to do, Vincent loathed it. All three of you were friends, and though he recognized that his move had been poorly-timed and a tad bit sleazy, his intentions with you were pure. He wanted you. He had wanted you for the longest time, and now that your boyfriend was⊠gone, he needed you.
The way he had vigorously stabbed your unfaithful lover last night testified to his impatience.
And impatience made people sloppy.
Sloppiness would lead to them losing everything they had worked for, which Alastor dreaded.
âShe cannot find out what we did,â Alastor reminded him later, but in a way that would not inspire offense. âYou will lose her, and after all these years, well⊠I doubt thatâs what you want.â
Your cheek rested against Vincentâs chest, arms wound around his waist, sleeping.
They had rummaged through your dresser for a fresh pair of clothes, making you decent enough for bed before tucking you in.
Alastor sat on the edge of the bed, arm behind him, fingers playing with the strands of your hair.
âI know, I know, Al,â Vincent huffed, mismatched eyes trained on the ceiling, his own fingers absentmindedly running up and down your sides. âTrust me, pal, she wonât.â
Desperate for a job, you tried your luck at this booming company that specialised in hosting shows for the peopleâs entertainment. Luckily enough, your resume was pure perfection, fit what they were looking for and.. you got in!
You could pay rent this month, thank goodness. And your colleague was handsome. An esteemed gentleman by the name of Vincent Whittman was in charge of showing you the ropes. Youâd see his face here and there on television as a host, drawing all eyes onto him with his excellent stage presence and strong voice. Is this where your priorities should be? However I wouldnât blame you; with slick black hair and a charming smile that nobody could resist, itâs hard to believe heâs even real.
Despite being in his late 30âs or early 40âs, he still has that charm of an actor.
âWelcome to the company, miss.â He combs his hand through his brown-mixed-with-grey strands back, pushing his glasses up as he walks elegantly. âIâll be your guide. Donât be afraid to ask me anything.â
Vincent suddenly spins around, takes your hand and places an intricate kiss, making you fluster. He smirks, satisfied with your reaction. You are so much different than the tiger girls he woos; your expression or could it be that sweet perfume youâre wearing? It attacks his nostrils, and makes him want to lean in closer to get a good inhale of you.
Heâs tasked with showing you the ropes, and you end up watching him direct and lead the audience and his team â oh what a delightful man. His hands guide the camera, eyes glued to its output, it was as if he were born to be a leader.
Youâre impressed, to say the least. Perhaps experience comes with age.
Vincent takes you to your first set. This is where youâll be performing your first cooking show, live on television. For a moment you feel nervous at the idea of your face being on video, however Whittman comforts you and cheers you up with sugary words.
Shining wooden cabinets and neatly placed knives and cutlery, a brand new kitchen for you.
âThereâs no need to be nervous, miss.â Vincent whispers in your ear, hands whispering over your hips. Too close, so close, and felt as if it were on purpose â with the way his broad shoulders shield you and how he has to bend down to get close to you, how his breath hovers over the sensitive lobe. He wants to tease you. âYouâll enjoy being on air. Iâll be right there with you, every single step.â
His face was so close to yours. You fluster, and he grins, tongue grazing over the sharp edge of his teeth. His low voice was like a gentle, jazzy trumpet to alleviate your nerves. To ease you, he hands you a script and even goes over the lines alongside you, keeping you company. An angel sent from heaven, and it didnât take long for you to fall swoon. A lonely woman like you just trying to get by shouldâve known youâd fall victim to ruthless charm like this, however you can tell he favoured you more than those other girls who liked to cling onto him.
Tonight was now the night. 6pm, after rush hour and everybody is home from their tiring jobs, the cameras shut on and now you are the face on everybodyâs screens. Your gaze flickers to Vincentâs, who gives you an approving smile, and you follow your lines.
âI welcome you to 666âs new cooking channel, where we will be presenting new recipes for our viewers at home.â You project, eyeing the ingredients on the table. âI present to you, our special guest â Vincent Whittman, your esteemed weatherman.â
Vincent walks onto stage, and rests an arm on your hip, where the camera cannot see. You lean into his touch, and he gives your hips a little pat to soothe. Vincent has the most perfect poker face â while youâre not trying to flush at the familiar scent of his masculine cologne alongside his least professional affection.
ââRemember, you can trust us with your weather and your dinner, am I right?â He turns to you, pulling you out of your dreamland.
âOf course. Trust us with your recipes. Now, tonight weâll be making..â
Vincent gently guides you, and with every movement itâs as if his hands follow your waist, caressing just in the boundaries of normal. You both could feel the spark between you, that tension, the way he would wink and stare at your rosy lips. He seemed to find an excuse to make contact with you â assist with the knife, get ingredients, a âcasualâ shoulder touch â all while staying professional. Heâd lean in close while holding your hand while slicing vegetables and whisper: âCarefully now, sweetheart,â making your heart rate boom.
In retort, you would pretend to adjust his tie, clean his suit if heâd spill anything or even fork-feed him samples of the food while it was cooking. At some point the directors had noticed, however, they stayed silent as they believed this would bring in âmore viewersâ acting like husband and wife.
This show didnât feel professional. After an hour of mutual pining and tactics, hands where they probably shouldnât have been, it came to an end. You wave at the camera, and it finally shuts off. Directors, employees and interns start to wrap up, taking leave to go do other tasks or resign for the night.
âGood job tonight, Whittman and..?â
You quickly gave your name, and chuckled.
âWell done nonetheless. I must say, you two seem like the perfect husband and wife, especially on stage. Those secret smiles and glances â donât think we didnât notice.â The director laughed, and you two filled in the almost awkwardness with the same laughter.
âDirector. I didnât know you saw it that way. I wanted to ease the nerves. Sheâs new, arenât you?â Vincent smirked, his usual charm shining through as he winked at you through his peripheral.
âOf course. I must go, and so must you two.â
He finally leaves along with the rest of the crew, simultaneously leaving just the two of you together. You start to clean up around the kitchen, doing the last of the dirty dishes used to cook and whatnot.
âHow was it, did it make you more confident on stage?â Vincent crosses his arms, smug.
You dry your hands and look up at him. âYesâ Iâm glad to have you by my side.â
Those heterochromic eyes peer into yours, and you do so as well. The air between you feels warm, your fingers twitch as they want to move elsewhere andâ getting too flustered, you navigate your eyes anywhere else. Until, his hand takes your chin into its palm, dragging your head up to meet his gaze. Suddenly his face was so much closer, and instead of his eyes on yours, they cornered themselves onto your lips once more, then back to your eyes as if asking permission.
âWhittman..â You murmur and his cheeks visibly redden. Hesitating for just a moment, you take your lips into his. He immediately reciprocates, deepening the kiss and cupping your cheek with his palm. Like usual, his hands wander down your body, however it felt so much different â undoing the apron wrapped around your hips and feasting on the top buttons on your shirt. His way with your clothes was thirsty, however his hands on your skin were so gentle, almost intimate.
Lifting you by the hip, he rests you atop the counter, where he leaned in once more to kiss you. You humbly place a finger upon his lips, pausing him before talking:
âWhat if someone catches us? What if weâre too loud andââ
âWe wonât get caught, just.. keep quiet. Everyone else is busy, baby.â Vincent purrs, hand trailing up your thigh. âItâs just you, and me.â
He leans in close to whisper into your ear, his warm breath sending shivers down your back. Your hands steady themselves upon his shoulders as he kisses his way down your neck, undoing the rest of your shirt.
Taking a deep breath, he leans back, lifting your legs up, scowling at the pantyhose thatâs between you and your meal. Pulling up that pesky skirt, he frowns and pulls apart the thin fabric with a loud rip, making you jolt. Before you could protest, your panties are pulled to the side and his fingers spread you wide, his tongue making kitty licks at your clit.
Perhaps experience does come from age â no guy your age could treat you like this, devouring you inside out. His tongue slurped and lapped up every last taste of you, causing your pussy to salivate hungrily. Every time youâd squirm and tremble, heâd grab your thighs and pull your body right back against his face.
Your hands tangle within his hair strands, tugging him closer while you grind your hips all over his tongue. That pot in your stomach began to grow, that orgasm rising in you â you pant as you can feel yourself tipping over the edge. Vincent only goes harder, plugging your holes with his fingers and suckling your clit before you let loose. Thighs tremble and a splurge of juices expel from your cunt, drenching his face, glasses and shirt.
Vincent chuckles, pulling himself away, his glasses all crooked and soaked from the⊠intimate session. Licking his lips, he pulls them off, throws them across the table as he tugs at his belt. His own dick is throbbing at you; that face of yours, irresistible body and that gorgeous demeanour.
You lean in and undo his dress shirt, pull off his jacket, eager to see more of him â and he obliges. Each button he pops off gives you a clearer view of his bare body, all the way down to his v-line. What could be below that belt? And that thought made the blood run up to your cheeks. Vincent places a kiss upon the warmth and grasps your wrists, dragging them down his body, letting your fingers run over every ridge and curve of his muscles. Your mind swirls until you feel the fabric of the waistband of his boxers â he drops them even lower, allowing you to feel the warmth beneath them.
He leans in close, takes a small nibble of your ear love before whispering: âFeel how good you make me feel. How about you pull them down?â
Blushing, you tug at the waistband sheepishly, and with a bit of assistance, his cock bobs and nuzzles in your hand. Perhaps your hands are dainty, or his dick is just big.
âCute.â He murmurs, before pulling you into a kiss. His kisses stifle your moans as he plays with your pussy, making sure youâre nice and wet for him. Tracing kisses down your neck, he steadies himself on your hips before licking his lips.
âVincent.. slowly,â You whine, holding onto his shoulders. Lining his cock his dick up to your pussy, he gently, no, teasingly thrusts in between your folds, his tip rubbing at the sensitive nub. Deep, long breathes and slow moans, becoming more desperate by the second. He knows this; however the sadist in him continues to tease you, fingers ghosting over your clit before gently torturing the sensitive nub. Then heâd slowly push his fingers in while breathlessly whimpering sweet nothings into your ear.
âHurry up!â You whine, now impatiently, reaching your limits.
âHurry up and what, hm?â He babbles, taunting you.
âYou know what.â
âTell me. Use your wordsâ
Hesitating, you yield: âFuck me, Vincent. I want to feel you so, so deep.â
A hint of pink laces his cheeks from the shock, his lips stuttering without saying a word. Composing himself, he obliges what you both desperately want and pushes his tip into you. Finally youâre both connected. He groans, feeling your walls clench around him, stretching to accommodate his length.
âSo tight..â He chuckles. âI thought I'd already teased you enough.â
Whittman pushes in deeper, retracting his hips before slamming his cock as deep as he can, earning a pathetically loud squeal from you. Satisfied, he grinds his cock deep inside of you, stirring uncontrollable moans out of you. Your shoulders stiffen as you grip onto him for support.
Suddenly, a knock alerts you both.
âI heard a noise. Is anyone there?â One of the co-workers mustâve been heading to the printer orâ who cares! You donât have long to act at all. Vincent only smirks, daring you to keep quiet.
âIf you be quiet, he wonât come in. Trust me.â Vincent lowers his voice to an audacious whisper. âYou can do that for me. Be a good girl.â
Your attempt to even start to complain is interrupted by another sudden jolt of knocks. Teasingly, he places a finger over his lips and grins, then slowly rocks his hips inside of you.
Your attempt to even start to complain is interrupted by another sudden jolt of knocks. Teasingly, he places a finger over his lips and grins, then slowly rocks his hips inside of you. With all efforts, you try to mute your moans with your palm, your whole body shaking from it all. Itâs evident on Whitmanâs face as well heâs having to constrain himself.
Strong hands grip around your waist as he starts to increase his pace, making it increasingly difficult for the both of you. Soft whimpers and long breathes are forced out by your own throat, and Vincent intertwined his lips with yours to shut you up.
âNobodyâs there? Alright. Thought Iâd.. heard something..â The voice outside ends up fading and the footsteps gets further and further away.
Sighing in relief, Vincent leans back to comb his hair back with his fingers. âFinally. I could barely hold on. Your pussy is driving me crazy.â
He scowls, before slamming his cock deep back into you again Your moans echo throughout the room as his roughness takes you by surprise, and he stuffs four fingers into your mouth for you to bite on, to atleast shut you up.
âShh, you can take it.â Vincent chuckles, landing a spank on the side of your ass. Your legs are now loosely hung over his shoulder, back sprawled out on the counter, helpless to his will. Itâd be shameful to admit it but, the thought of getting caught turned you on even more. Oh the rumours, the mess of it all â having Vincent deep in your sheetsâŠ
Whittman kisses you, his tongue brushing against your lip. âMaybe I should fuck you like this.â
Pulling out, he flips you over onto your stomach, pushing his dick in from behind. In this angle, his cock directly rubs against your g spot, driving you crazy. To his satisfaction you whine, and he gives you a teasing spank before fucking you with vigour.
âYou like it when I fuck you a bit rougher, donât you?â He teases, watching your legs squirm in pleasure. âYou can try to squirm and struggle and it wouldnât do a thing!â
Vincent purrs, placing hickeys upon his younger assistants' backs. A pit in your stomach started to grow â you started to wish he could fuck you like this forever. So good, so deep, hitting all your little sweet spots. Before you know it, a bicep is wrapped around your neck, the muscle cushioning your face as he fucks you to orgasm. You could feel it coming, building, rising.
By the way your body trembled, he could tell.
âAbout to cum? Thatâs it,â Vincent grinds his cock as deep as he could go, rubbing exactly against your g-spot. Your eyes roll back, legs trembling and kicking as you release a torrent of juices all over his abdomen, dripping onto the floor. Vincent pulls out, panting as he watches you try to grip the marbled table, not very smart, are you?
âWhat a good girl.â Like a puzzle piece your chin fits perfectly in his palm, and he turns your head to look at him. ââBut i havenât came yet. Letâs keep going.â
Summary: You only chose not to speak, your stutter humiliating you in life. Vox found himself intrigued with you, hovering and getting close to you.
Warnings: Tooth rotting fluff, Vox is a softie for you, reader has a stutter, mentions of sharks (A lot. Of sharks.), Slight slow burn, Vees are mentioned,
Note: This has been sitting in my drafts and I just need to get it out (sigh)
When you first got offered a normal office job at the V Tower, you werenât expecting to be the Veesâ favorites. You were selectively mute, something not many people in hell experienced. You had a stutter and often got teased for it, so you went mute. Even in death, it remained that same. But you knew you had a voice. The Vees liked the fact that you didnât talk and didnât complain about the tasks theyâd make you do, seeing as you verbally didnât want to protest.Â
Vox however, had his eyes on you often. It wasnât a bad thing, you didnât mind him watching. You noticed how he kind of just hovered whenever you were working. You thought that maybe he was just making sure you didnât fuck up on anything.Â
He was intrigued by you. He was curious about the way that you squeaked when you turned too quickly and almost run into him. Or the way you got so invested in writing something just to have a whole conversation with someone. He treated you gently, like you were a porcelain doll that would break at a single drop. He would talk and you would just listen, one of the things he enjoyed about your company.
At one point, Vox had even handed you the latest tech stuff, one where it could be linked up to the words you plan on saying. But you never used it, finding it too complicated. You set it on your shelf in your room, amongst the small things heâd leave at your desk.
You had a strange assortment of trinkets from Vox. Some was tech, some was things you liked, and sharks. So. Many. Sharks.
Even though he had never once been to your home, it was like he was already there. The squishmallow shark sitting in the center of your bed, one that was dropped off to your house because he didnât want to make a scene with the fact it wasnât that small. It was the perfect cuddle size. And it smelled like him.Â
Oh god how it smelled like him.
When he started to get closer to you, the physical touch happened. You often felt his hand on the small of your back, on your shoulders, or an arm was wrapped around your waist as you walked. Sometimes he even offered his arm like he wanted to show you off. Like you were a couple.
You thought about asking him why he treated you like that. You honestly thought it was just something to buy time for himself. But when you did ask him, he was a sputtering mess.
âWhy do you treat me so nicely, Sir?â You wrote on your notepad, showing it to him with nervousness.Â
You were both in his penthouse, he was making dinner, something that he started to do when Velvette requested you take him home after a long night of drinking. He said something about feeling bad and wanting to repay you for dealing with all that. You wouldnât accept money, so he opted for food.Â
He was a damn good cook too.
âWhat do you mean?â Vox asked, mixing up ingredients as he cooked. He had an Island stove, so it was easy for the two of you to chat.
You huffed a bit, earning him a small smile. You scribbled down another question, âLike, why do you treat me like we're dating?â You hid behind your notebook with pink dusting your cheeks. He paused from cooking to practically melt, his antennaâs connecting with static.
He then turned a bright blue at the question, âIâ Wellâ You knowâ You're ourââ He sputtered out, and you peered over your notebook, smiling at his reaction.Â
He covered his face, âI justâ You have to deal withâ ALL three of us and I feel as though you need compensation.â He explained, looking back at you with nervousness, hoping youâd buy it. He couldnât admit it to you yet.
You snorted a bit, making him melt a little more. Every single tiny noise you made had him soft.
âItâs not THAT bad.â You wrote, making him scoff a bit.
âYou have to deal with Val, who is probably the most sexual fucking sinner here. And then there's Velvette who constantly makes you go out on errands for new fabric, or making you her model. And then there's me..â He paused at himself, not sure what heâd use as an example.
You watch him try to think of a way to piece it together.
âIâm kind of an asshole most of the time, and I see you wince when I get loud.â Your heart skipped a beat at the fact he noticed that.
âThank you, Sir.â You decided to get his mind off of it, wanting to make sure he knew you were thankful.
âWhat for, hon?â He asked, going back to working on the food.
You smile, writing down something long, âFor everything, for this job. This opportunity makes me feel human again.. Somehow.âÂ
When you had to excuse yourself to the bathroom, he tore that piece out and hid it away. You never once thought about it.
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After that conversation he got even closer with you. As often as he could, heâd greet you with a kiss on your hand. Whether it be Palm or Knuckles, he always tried to. You blushed every time, which was exactly why he did it.
Valentino picked up on his behavior, and as much as he didnât like it, there wasnât much he could say. When he had a conversation with Vox about it, he was snapped at. He just continued his work, with a moderate hatred for you.
Velvette couldnât care much, but it did make her a bit curious about what was so special about you. She tried not to question you, trying to keep it business between you two.
Vox had just found a way to slide himself into your every day routine. He often took lunch breaks with you, or heâd cancel meetings if you wanted to go do something that wasnât work related. You came first, whether it confused you or not.
So when you asked him to come over, he cleared his whole entire schedule. He wanted to make sure you had his full attention. He even put all of his messages on mute because of it.Â
And when Vox had finally arrived at your house, he realized how absolutely cozy it was, and that if he asked you to move to the penthouse, youâd feel out of place. He hadnât even seen the inside yet.
Walking up to the door, he got ready to knock before the door swung open, greeting him with an excited you. He smiled at you, a silent greeting again as he pressed a kiss to your knuckles. You blushed like you usually did before your grip tightened on his hand and you pulled him inside.
âOh goodness you really need to change out of that business attire.â You wrote quickly on your phone, one you had started to get used to using because of him.
âWhatâs so bad about my suit?â He questioned, fixing up his bowtie like he was offended. You snorted like you usually did, before typing again.
âI invited you over to be cozy, didnât I?â You wrote, a brow raising. Vox then looked at your attire. You were absolutely cozy. Socks, Shorts, an oversized t-shirt that had some sort of TV show. Your hair was rustled like you had been running your fingers through it constantly.
âOhâŠâ He then looked at himself, realizing how out of place it was, just before he looked away.
âItâs okay, I have some spares you can use.â You took him towards your room, walking upstairs as you guided him. When you opened it, his mechanical heart skipped a beat.
He was littered everywhere. And by he, it was the sharks that he got you. You kept every single one.Â
He saw the squishmallow on your bed and he nearly glitched. Trying to keep his composure, he walks over towards you to see what you had for him.
âThese are clothes that are either too big for me, or from old friends. I hope theyâre okayâ He nods gently at your words, taking the articles of clothing you handed him.
âThank you, dear.â He smiled at you, watching you nod before walking him to the bathroom, and just before he closed the door, you wrote,Â
âMeet me in the living room.â
After he changed, he walked towards the living room, where it was just as cozy as the rest of your house. You had snacks laid out for the both of you, and it looked like you were preparing for movie night.
You were already sat on the couch, movie ready, and waiting for Vox. He sat next to you, making you jump a bit before settling down and wrapping a blanket around yourself.
âReady for movie night?â You wrote, smiling excitedly as you sipped from your drink.
âMore than ever.â
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At some point during the movie night, you had ended up laying on top of him on the couch, using him as a pillow as he stared off at the movie. He had a lingering question he wanted to ask desperately, but didnât know how to word it.
You knew he had a question, and you knew exactly what he was going to ask.Â
âDo you ever speak?â He asked, head tilting down towards you, hoping that it didnât come out rude.
You smiled a bit, nodding gently, phone too far away to write.
Vox nodded, hand gently rubbing circles on your back, âHave you ever thought about speaking more?â You nodded once more, smile softening a bit.
You reach for your phone, getting ready to type, âVery often, but I have a stutter.â Your expression seemed to get a little sad, causing his brows to furrow.
âA stutter? Howâd you get that?â
âGenetics. Apparently my great grandpa had one or something.â
He nodded at what you wrote, watching you set your phone down, âFor what itâs worth, I wouldnât mind you speaking. A stutter is just something that makes you.. You.â
You tilted your head to the side, questioning what that meant.
âI mean that it suits you. It makes sense for you. I think that even without it, youâd still be the same.â You smiled at his kind words, shoving your face into his chest before letting out a small whine of embarrassment.
That was new.
The two of you remained in silence for a little while longer, before he felt your head shift and you sat up. He sat up as well, wondering if you were suddenly uncomfortable, âSomething wrong?â
You shook your head no, lips pressing together nervously. You looked down at your hands as you fidgeted with the blanket wrapped around you.
Vox looked at you with confusion, wondering what you needed to say. What you wanted to say.
You opened your mouth, taking a breath in like you were getting ready to say something before you closed your mouth again. Your face flushed red with frustration. You really didnât know how to say it.
He waited so patiently, something that no one else got. Something that no one else saw. When you finally spoke, he short circuited.
âI-I think thâthat.. I-I want to,â You paused, noticing the error screen, your eyes widening.
âV-Vox? Shoot! Iâm sorry!â You frantically tried to get him back to himself, shaking his shoulder.
âI-I broâ broke you..â You whined, hiding your face in your hands.
When Vox finally came back to normal, he smiled at you and quickly took your hands off your face, âFinish what you needed to say, darling.â
You stared at him with a red face, fingers wrapping around his. âI-I think I want toâto be something moâmore with you..â You looked at him nervously, hoping that you werenât delusional.
Vox smiled at you more, cupping your cheeks, âI want to be something more with you too..â