I realized I've never made like an "intro" post so here I am writing one!
So Hi! Most people call me Luna, and I go by variations of Luna3323 on Most socials (there's exceptions for a reason) and my Pronouns are She/They!
Im into a bunch of things, but many gaming, specifically related to Minecraft, Minecraft roleplays and whatnot,aswell as working on OCs ,I enjoy writing(and reading) and watching the occasional ARG. I also work on computers for fun, and also as a future Job!
Just for organizational sakes for me, some of the most frequent tags I use for my own posts
#ramblingwithluna is for literally anything random or most of my things will be tagged this, whether it be my personal life (which ill tag personal) to silly shit i think of
#writingwithluna is all of my written work, whether it be Fandom (if I ever do write fandom ill tag probably) but it'll probably be original works and whatnot :D
#lavenderfields is the tag I use for anything related to the mc shorts I make on YouTube!
Theres a few different Minecraft tags I use, Cinematics and films are for like formally filmed things that usually have a story, Roleplay is similar, but is more broad, so anything from films, to stories ive written that used Minecraft as a medium, and edits are for well.. edits
This might update so yknow, but id say im friendly, I don't bite :D and I love rambling / talking about things I love!
I love all of you (/p) and I'm so proud of everyone for being here and existing <333 everyone take care of yourselves this month you are awesome and valid and you deserve to be happy with who you are <3333
So, I found out today senior ditch day was tommorow, and I wasnt planning on ditching until my mom basically told me I was, and to come up with something to email the school what I was doing as it was was well. Ditch day.
So i guess im jumanjing myself into Minecraft and I need to beat it in a day lmao
So, this assignment in my creative writing class, we've had since last week and its due Wednesday, now ive been struggling with it, as we're supposed to use a character from one of our previous assignments, and most im not particularly connected to but two, snd one ive wrote like 4 times already
And as I was heading out the door I mentioned how much I wanted to write angst, I ended up bring convinced
I csn write angst and gore for thr assignment who cares (its senior level)
And i can use the same character if it works, and who cares!
Got a fucking brainblast of Ze related character analysis thoughts (and a bit of speculation on themes of the series as a whole) and it’s driving me insane even so I’m writing this in my drafts at almost midnight.
Strap in gang cause this is a sorta long one. Also content warnings for suicidal ideation (that’s the main one) and non-detailed mentions of Ze’s father being verbally abusive.
Ze as a character drives me fucking INSANE. He’s a young adult who seemingly spends most of his time playing Minecraft. He has an absent family from the little we know about him outside the game, and his dad was very clearly verbally abusive in some way with how he catches himself almost sounding like him when talking to Moe in the Eyes’ domain and is distressed by it.
He was sent to boot camp probably in his teens to “toughen him up” and it scarred him mentally and probably physically too. He’s insecure about being “man enough” and compensates with his aggressive attitude and obsession with weapons and guns.
He masks how much he cares about the people around him but would do ANYTHING for them, even if it meant throwing himself into danger or reliving his own trauma. He doesn’t give a shit about his own life or safety, verbally saying to Regect that he has nothing to lose. He clearly does with how much he’s risking for the very slim chance of Micha being alive, but he cares so little about himself that he sees his own life as disposable when it could be used to even possibly help someone else.
Ze’s passive suicidal ideation is something that we’ve seen so much of throughout the series and it is PAINFUL to see as someone who struggles with it too. From one of the earlier episodes when he’s lamenting that this world is hell and he wants it to end, to the Rift Remover guy telling him to take his own life if the rift remover doesn’t work and Ze not reacting strongly at all to it other than a “that’s morbid.” It’s a thought that crosses his mind often and is one that he isn’t really disturbed by.
It all culminated in the newest episode with Ze’s confrontation with Regect. He knows the risks and the dangers, he barely made it out of the Hole the first time. Regect tells him directly that it’s a suicide mission, that the place he’s going to is just death. But Ze doesn’t care. His own life is a worthy sacrifice in his eyes, and whether he realizes or not that doing this is going to hurt Regect and Moe, he still does it because he puts others over himself so much and has so little self worth.
Honestly the themes of suicide are really heavy throughout the series not just with Ze, but with the Eyes/Daemon in general. Remember in the Valentines episode when it influenced Micha to jump (only in Minecraft, thankfully)? Or when it almost convinced Moe to do it too a few episodes later? Theres something going on there and I have a feeling that it’s influenced Ze as well to make his existing ideation worse. Thats veering more into theory territory though so I’m leaving it there for now.
I’m curious if anyone has any other thoughts on this or wants to add on, so feel free to leave your thoughts in comments/reblogs, I’d love to hear them!
Putting this here since its kind of a vent? And I don't want people who dont want to see it to see it
You know the complicated feelings/stress is starting to happen when im actively thinking up Lavender fields ideas (aka my Minecraft film series thats my vents in a different form.)
HELLO MY WONDERFUL FUCKERS, i have recently rediscovered my love for the SCP fandom and have been watching a lot of videos (well more listening), but i haven't actually read an actual SCP because of [INSERT MENTAL ILLNESS HERE]
i have a learning disability which means i have a heard time with reading and writing :P
HOWEVER, i would really like to immerse myself in the SCP fandom and actually want to read for the first time in my life, SO i want you YES YOU, to give me SCPs to read, and i will read them and make a post rating my thoughts on them. i would say keep them to shorter SCPs but i actually dont care, ill read whatever you give me, though it might take a while...
so leave SCPs you want me to read in the comments of this post or put them in my ask me
(which is probably the better way idk)
