LunaSky

𖤓 she/her ✮ lunasky2491 on ao3 ☾✧ Addicted to the marauders ♡ ✯ ࣪I am surrounded by people yet I stand alone𖤐

[lunasky2491]

Alright my obsession with ao3 runs deep so i’m going to try something…

This year i’m going to document how many words of fanfiction i read from now until the 31/12/2026 and see how far the addiction runs (so very deep as we already know)

Edit: JANUARY

So now January has come to a close i can conclude that i’ve officially got a spider-man obsession. Because who else has read 1,118,480 million words worth of primarily irondad&spiderson fics in 31 days…

not me definitely 😅 and i most certainly haven’t read 234,306 words worth of merlin fics on top of that.

[cherriielle]

bbc merlin you will ALWAYS be famous

[onceandfuturehighpriestess]

[gonna-need-you-to-not]

[andromaex]

okay but we need to TALK about how Merlin just casually gives merlin the most insane, compounding trauma and then expects him to go back to polishing boots like nothing happened

like. this is a BOY.

this is a teenager who shows up in camelot and within approximately five minutes is told by Gaius: “hey so you have world-ending levels of power :) also if anyone finds out you will be executed :) have fun!”

and then Kilgharrah is like: “your destiny is everything. your feelings are irrelevant.”

???????

so now we have merlin:

cannot tell anyone who he is

cannot be fully known by anyone

cannot even react honestly to the things happening to him

and THEN

Will dies protecting merlin’s secret → merlin learns: people die if they know me

Freya dies in his arms right after he allows himself to love someone → merlin learns: if i love someone, they die

Balinor (his father!!) dies basically immediately → merlin learns: i don’t get to keep family

Lancelot sacrifices himself → merlin learns: good people die for me

Gwaine is tortured and dies → merlin learns: i can’t save everyone, even when i try

and then. THEN.

Arthur Pendragon dies.

after YEARS of merlin:

saving his life in secret

sacrificing everything

shaping his entire existence around this ONE destiny

and what does merlin get?

arthur finding out the truth for like five minutes and then dying in his arms.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME.

and the show just— ends.

no processing. no support system. no “hey maybe this boy has severe survivor’s guilt and complex trauma”

because merlin can’t even GRIEVE properly.

he can’t tell anyone:

why will died

who freya was to him

that balinor was his father

what lancelot actually did

how many times he saved arthur

so all of that grief just sits there. unspoken. unacknowledged. unresolved.

like imagine carrying:

the weight of destiny

the responsibility for a kingdom

the knowledge that your loved ones died for or because of you

and the fact that the ONE person it was all for is gone anyway

[lunasky2491]

oh and this all does NOT include the weight of:

.how his entire culture was eradicated

.how he is expected to be the druids and all of magics saviour (i’m classing this as a separate part of his destiny)

.his repressed emotions

.how half of the remainder of his kind consider him a traitor

.the guilt of killing (or helping arthur kill) so many creatures of magic despite himself also being a creature of magic

.the guilt of poisoning morgana “i blame myself for what you have become” 😭

.daegal’s death

.finna’s death

.alator’s death

.gaius being tortured

.releasing kilgharrah who caused so many deaths

.killing multiple high priestesses who were probably the very few people alive to remember any kind of history and knowledge of magic’s history (counting morgause as she was going to die anyway)

.mordred… (need i say more)

.any additional emotional damage arthur has sustained from merlin’s secrets like lying about arthur’s mother’s death “morgause is lying!!!”

.him killing the rest of arthur’s family, uther (although unintentional), agravaine and morgana despite arthur already having lost his mother and having a shit ton of family issues

.all the additional people merlin has killed for the sake of protecting arthur (remember that big army chasing them at the end of season four…)

.his immortality is a whole can of worms i don’t even want to think of diving into

and there is definitely more but those additional are just off the top of my head

[whorey-bat]

and happy pride to colin morgan’s “if merlin gets a love they’ll kill him— or her”

[princsstwilightsparkl]

possibly my favorite thing about the irondad and spiderson relationship is that tony has an obvious fear of becoming his own father, of being to peter what howard was to him, and even outright says that to peter ("my father was never there for me so i'm just trying to break the cycle") but he seriously doesn't realize that he's already become exactly that.

howard was cold, mean, and distant but tony finds out later in life, decades after howard's death, that howard was actually very proud of him even before he actually did anything; he viewed tony as his "greatest creation" and believed he'd "change the world" with howard's life's work that he was making FOR TONY and leaving behind FOR TONY. but again, he didn't know this until way after howard was gone because the man never bothered to tell him to his face.

in homecoming, tony has already developed a one-sided relationship with peter in a sense- he listens to peter's voicemails, cares about peter's input, and remembers little details about him, to the point where HE already believes they have a father/son bond and compares his relationship with peter to his own relationship with his father TWO separate times... but he does all of it from afar and doesn't actually show peter (except for when he drops little bombs only after the fact- "like that lady that bought you the churro" "i did listen, kid") and this causes a lot of major miscommunication between them and leads peter to believe that tony doesn't really care about him at all.

and this is why it'll always be sad to me that we only got hints about how their relationship changed in between homecoming and infinity war. so much potential, so much we could've and should've seen. but from what we can infer, while they definitely did have a better relationship than howard and tony (the end of hoco definitely slapped some sense into tony, they both trusted each other a lot more by iw and were visibly more familiar), their communication was still limited. like, the hug tony gives him in endgame seems like it was the first time they'd ever actually hugged based on peter's reaction ? so they loved each other very much, we know that for a fact, but they didn't show it to each other much.

so when tony dies and literally leaves his legacy to peter with a little note about how he trusts him and wants him to be the next tony stark... it's basically the exact experience that he had with howard. and he doesn't even fucking know it.

[count-pudding]

i don't want you to change

[exyzedd]

BRADLEY JAMES POST MAKING ME CRY LIKE A MF IN OUR LORD'S YEAR OF 2026😭😭😭😭😭😭

[bebravedearheart]

Some old school memery about the Merlin ending

[syemoria]

as you can tell. i can’t draw guitars… also im here to spread my remus with eyeliner agenda

[jethroq]

[wettestwraith]

prev dont leave this in the tags

[silvergryphonart]

Literally the definition of imperialism and classism. Doesn’t matter how many peasants you sacrifice as long as the most powerful piece is left standing

[musicalhell]

Proximity of bishops to the rulers promotes theocratic oppression

[juh-was-deactivated19691231-dea]

the horse is so fuckable

[tonys-arcreactor]

Tony who saw so much of himself in Peter. He saw this kid and saw who he would be if he was better. He never told Peter because he didn’t want him to carry that kind of responsibility unlike his father did to him. Tony looked at Peter and saw so much of himself.

After he died, Tony saw much more of himself in Peter. He saw the anxiety, the panic, the guilt. He saw the responsibility the world put on Peter’s shoulders, more than he himself ever had to carry. Tony looked at Peter and saw himself. Who he would be if his life would’ve been 30 times worse. He saw that his death was the cause for most of it. And he wishes for nothing more than to find a way back to Peter.

Tony Stark’s death made the world a better place. But it made Peter Parker’s world into hell.

[dracofidus-deactivated20200523]

If you EVER think Anthony Head is anything less than an angel then you’d best remember that I have always been a huge fan of his and we’ve always had a little contact over the years and he heard I’d come out as Trans and was having a hard time and that I was kind of sad that the photos I had from conventions with him were of me with long hair and no binder and they were all signed to “Sarah” and so he invited me to spend the day with him at his farm and he picked me up from the station and we just hung out and had lunch and he insisted on paying and took loads of photos and had them printed on photo paper the same day so he could sign them to Jay, along with other photos of him as Giles and Uther and he literally spent five hours chatting with me and got all of the pronoun stuff right every time and then he dropped me off at the station, gave me a final massive hug, waved me through the ticket barrier and insisted I message him when I got home so he knew I got back safe. (More HERE)

[politelymenacing]

Feel like now is a good time to remind people of this.

[failedjovi]

pov: my aroace life

[second-stixs]

Relationships and sex irl: YUCKY EWWW!!!!

Relationships and sex in media: YAY YAY I LOVE THIS CONTENT YAY

[witless-winion1]

Aeolus giving Odysseus the wind bag and telling him it to let anybody open it was the epic equivalent of a DM giving a player a secret note in front of the whole table that said “if you don’t tell anybody what this note says, I’ll give you an advantage”

And then the DM sits back and watches trust sparkle and burn like fireworks