Summary: The Reader prepares for Negan to return and when he finally does, he is not happy. But it's all up to her to put him back in a good mood. That is until everyone at Alexandria wages a war. And the Reader begins to question where her loyalty lies.
Warnings: NSFW, Explicit language,triggering flashback of parental abuse, smut, fingering, Negan playing his mind games, humiliation, violence, Dub-Con,
You looked at her and nodded your head. "Thank you."
She didn't move. She just stood there.
"Did you need to use the bathroom? I can go somewhere-"
"No!" She nearly shouted and quickly brought her hand up. "No. Sorry. I think I'm just really drunk right now. Do you know what you're doing? I don't think you know what you're doing." She began speaking in a drunken ramble.
You brought your hands together and leaned forward so your elbows leaned on your knees. It was no point in trying to start an argument with someone like her. Especially when she was reeking of booze. You stayed quiet as your heart suddenly pounded and your chest tighten. It felt like you couldn't breathe.
Despite the circumstances, you didn't freak out. Somethings were inevitable. And you could feel it coming before it arrived. The memories flashed before your eyes and it was as if you weren't even in the present anymore.
(("Dad, what are you doing?!" You reached out to grab your pocketbook from your father.
He was barely standing on his own 2 feet. His eyes were glazed and the dark bags under them told you he had been at it all day.
"Where's the money! I know you got paid today!" He began shuffling through your contents in the bag.
"No, Dad! We need that money for rent!" You argued as you pulled on a strap.
"Don't give your father a had time, Y/N! I'm entitled to a little something for bringing you on this earth!" He shouted.
"You have your own money to spend, it's not my fault if you spent it all at the bar, now stop!!!" You planted your feet and used all your strength to tug on the strap.
Your Father reciprocated by yanking the bag so hard, your feet came right off the floor and you stumbled right into his fist. Thanks to your adrenaline, you didn't even feel it at first. All you remembered was your head knocking back and your body collapsing against the tiled floor. You groaned as you tried to blink. One eye worked fine, the other felt like it was begining to swell shut with a firey throb.
"You know, you should really be happy your mother isn't here! What would she think if she saw you acting so rude!"
You slowly got back to your feet and ripped the bag out of your father's hands. It was too late. He already had some money in his hand.
"The fuck would I care what she thinks? She left us! She's never fucking here! She hasn't been here since I was 10!" You snapped.
"Don't you ever talk about your mother like that! You want to know why she left? Because she was too good for you!" He pointed his finger in your face and began walking around you.
You heard the door slam shut behind you. It was silent for a minute before you finally decided, you wanted to get lost again. You pulled out your mp3 player and put your headphones over your ears.))
"Are you even listening to me?" Amber's voice brought you out of your memory.
You blinked. "Amber, I know what I'm doing. I will survive this. He's not the first pervert I encountered and he won't be the last."
She looked at you with teary eyes.
"Sometimes, we need to find an escape route from all the fucked up things that happen. My dad used to drink and do. . . Anything that got him high. I found my own escape in music. After I finish getting ready for Negan, do you want me to sing for you? It might help make you at ease." You offered.
She shrugged her shoulders. "I don't know. . ."
You looked at all the different scented lotions and began smelling each one. There was one that was kind of a cherry blossom scent, one that had a salty beach scent, and then there was one that really grabbed your attention. It was like a fruity mix with a little bit of sandalwood and maybe there was a hint of some kind of flower but it wasn't too much.
You picked the third bottle and began rubbing the lotion all over your legs.
"And you already had Dr. Carson do a check-up?" She suddenly asked.
You slowly dragged your palm from your ankle, up to your thigh. "Yes. He said everything checked out. I asked about any kind of birth control, but given the circumstances, I'm kind of shit outta luck."
She chuckled. "Maybe he'll use a condom if he's in the mood."
You couldn't tell if she was joking but her words made a small tickle grow in your stomach. You giggled and slowly shook your head.
"You guys have been with him for a while. . . Has he ever gotten any of you ladies pregnant?" You wondered.
"You mean has he gotten any of US pregnant. And no. So far he hasn't." Amber responded.
Your shoulders slumped down and let out a sigh of relief. Thank God for that. You weren't sure how you felt about having a baby. But you never wanted to feel the same fear as every parent felt in the current situation. You could take abuse both physical and emotional, but you weren't sure if you would ever survive loosing a baby. Especially to those damn walkers outside.
"I hope it stays that way. I don't think I could ever live with constantly worrying about a baby's safety. And if something ever happened. . ."
Amber simply nodded her head. "Well, I'm going to get another drink. You know where to find us when you're done."
"Yep." You began to rub lotion on your arms.
Apparently Negan liked his women "soft". After you brushed your teeth and fixed your hair you put the dress back on and discarded your panties. Sherry had mentioned that there was a "no panties" rule when he called upon a wife. He sure was high maintenance for a man in a world where everything went to shit.
It was finally done. You were all ready for him. It only took you a couple of hours. It felt strange. Before there were walkers you didn't even spend that much time getting ready for a man.
You emerged out of the bathroom and Dwight was leaning against a wall, waiting for you, obviously. You sighed and began walking towards the parlor.
"Dwight, is it really necessary that you follow me around like a little lost puppy?" You questioned.
"Your one of Negan's wives now. He doesn't want me to let you out of my sight until he returns."
"You don't follow the other wives." You quipped.
He scowled. "Did you manage to miss the guards in the corner of the room? Besides you're new so Negan doesn't trust you yet."
You rolled your eyes. "I'm not stupid. I know there are guards everywhere. I'm very attuned to my surroundings. Trying to escape will only make him mad. And that is the one thing I do not want to do."
You opened the door to the parlor as you sent glared at Dwight.
"Are you sure about that? Because I'm sure my other wives explained to you that I don't like waiting." Negan's voice came from inside the parlor.
You became frozen at first but forced yourself to look at him. He had shaved since he been gone. His face now all smooth and his jawline was more visible. Then you noticed the blood splattered on his white shirt and on his face.
"I'm sorry, Negan. I didn't realize you were back." You replied.
He waved his finger at you in a 'come here' motion. You felt a cold chill run down your spine. He was pissed. You could tell just by the angry glint in his eyes.
"So, Little Bird, I did as you asked. I brought Carl home. Even fed him spaghetti. And you want to know what happened afterwards? I thought it was such a lovely day, I decided to play pool with a pussy of a man. Went by the name of Spencer, I think. And he tells me he wants me to kill Rick!" Negan spoke with a loud an authoritative voice.
You swallowed the lump in your throat and kept your eyes locked on to his.
"So I did Rick a solid and gutted that pussy. And you know what happened next?" He questioned.
"No, Husband. What happened next?" You wondered.
"Some Bitch tried to kill me! With a gun! And lucky for me, Lucille got in the way!" He shoved Lucille right in your face. "Now look at her! Her nice, smooth surfice will never be the same again!" He shouted.
You closed your eyes and tried to control your breathing. It was imperative that you stayed calm.
"Look at what they did to my poor Lucille!" He demanded.
You slowly opened your eyes and noticed a chunk of her wood was missing. He slowly inched her closer to your face.
"Kiss her better." Negan ordered through clenched teeth.
You could barley respond to his demands. He wanted you to kiss Lucille? A fucking wooden bat wrapped in barbed wire? But this was his game and you agreed to play it. It was the humiliation he wanted from you because of the shit everyone back Alexandria pulled.
He was making you pay for it in the worst ways.
"Come on, Little Bird. You wanted me to bring Carl home and I did. And if I didn't Lucille wouldn't look like this. So, now your gonna give her a kiss and tell her you're sorry." He taunted.
You slowly leaned forward and pressed your lips into the wooden bat. "I'm sorry, Lucille."
"There! See? That wasn't so hard." He finally lowered her away from your face and inched in closer to you. "No where near as hard as you just made me by the way."
His breath scortched the side of your neck and you felt hot sparks shoot right down to your nether regions. A warmth moisture began to grow between your thighs.
"You have a lot of making up to do for this, Little Bird and my cock is ready to rock. Let's go." He whispered as he draped an arm around your shoulder and began walking you to his office.
"But first, I wanna hear you sing." He pointed Lucille at the piano. "Something to set the mood, if you catch my drift." He grinned.
This man just loved torturing you.
You sat down on the wooden bench and thought back to the time you lost your virginity to some guy at a party. There was this really strange song playing and the beat of it just wrnt right with the moment. You started working on the higher keys then quickly switched to the lower tuned keys. Then went back to the lighter keys and after a few seconds you switched to the lower sound again.
"No one said it would be easy
Did anyone tell you the road would be straight and long
Relax your mind and give it all to me
'Cause you know and I know our love is strong enough."
Negan placed his hand on your knee and gave it a gentle squeeze. The touch alone sent bolts of excitement steaight to your core and your clit began to tingle. You brought your eyes up to his.
"Keep singing, Little Bird." He urged as his fingers slowly trailed up your thigh.
"To weather the rain
To weather the snow
To weather the storm
To weather the rain
To weather the snow
To weather the storm."
His hand kept moving further up, until you felt his finger tips brush against your drenched mound. It had been so long since you felt a man's touch, the simple whisper touch made your whole body flinch. Dare you say, you forgot how good it felt.
"Go on, keep singing. I'm gonna make you cum on my fingers." He whispered and pressed his lips to the patch of skin right behind your ear.
Fuck. Another one of his games. Granted it was going to be a challenge, you couldn't deny that it kind of intrigued you.
"Often I see fear in your eyes
And sometimes I know, your heart is full of little arrows."
You felt the tip of his fingers press against your clit and you immediately gasped. He chuckled and dipped his tongue out between his lips. His lips curled in a smirk of satisfaction as you released a quiet moan.
It was getting harder to concentrate. Your hands were trembling and his fingers began moving in fast counter clockwise circles.
"But trust in me and no one can do you wrong
'Cause I know and you know our love is strong enough."
You felt his fingers trail down your folds and slowly dip into your entrance. He used the tip of his thumb to rub your aching clit as he slowly thrusted his middle finger inside you.
How the fuck where you supposed to sing when the pleasure of his fingers clouded your mind. Your hips began rolling and your breathing grew heavy. Another moan spilled from your lips and your fingers pressed hard on the keys.
Meanwhile, Negan had his eyes on you the whole time. As if he was drinking in every inch of your face.
"To weather the rain
To weather the snow
To weather the storm."
Your body constricted. All your muscles tightened and your legs trembled. And the lyrics disappeared from your mind. All you could focus on was the feeling of his finger inside you.
"Fuck, you're just a little tight thing, aren't you? Look at this, you can barely sing now." Negan chuckled as he slid in a second finger.
You couldn't even finish the last 3 lines of the song. Your hands fell from the keys and gripped the edge of the bench as he curled his fingers inside you.
"Oh, fuck. Negan!" You moaned and bucked your hips forward.
The final moment pushed you over the edge and your entire body trembled as wet tingles flooded your stomach. Ripples of warmth and pleasure traveled down to your thighs.
"That a girl." Negan praised as he pulled his fingers out of your drenched opening.
He brought his fingers to his lips and used his tongue to clean off all the juices. You practically became hypnotized by him. It was just constant hot sparks shooting to your core. You had to swallow the moan that almost came out. Just from watching him lick his fingers.
His eyes caught yours and they seemed dark, his pupils blown wide with lust. One second everything was quiet and still, then the next he heaved you up on the piano. The piano made a spontaneous sound of both high and low sounds and you felt a small vibration through the wood.
"Now that your pussy is all wet, I'm gonna fuck your brains out." He stated as his hands went to his belt.
You stomach clenched tight at his words. And despite the over gruesome history of this man, you could feel a pleasuring hum course through your viens.
Just the sound of his zipper coming undone made you want to moan. Was this man a god or what?
"Now, I know I got a big dick and all, but I hope you already know that participation is a fucking requirement in this arrangement." His pants fell down his hips and he pulled his blood-stained shirt off.
He had tattoos. Sexy. Your eyes trailed down his sculpted body and oh. . . He was right to brag. His cock was swelled and standing flushed against his lower abdomen. And his girth. . . It made your mouth water.
You moved to unzip your dress but Negan grasped your wrist. You flinched with an involuntary gasp. But his grip was loose. He brought your hand close to his face and kissed the palm of your hand while keeping eye contact.
"Leave the dress on, Little Bird. I'll take it off when I'm ready." He spoke in a gravelly voice.
You nodded your head as he released your wrist and leaned down to press his lips against yours. Your hands traveled to the nape of his neck and your lips parted slightly. His tongue brushed against yours and his hands began pulling your dress up. But you didn't even notice. You were too busy melting in the heated kiss.
Then, you felt a sudden yank of the material and the piano let out some more random high sounds as Negan parted your legs. You could feel the tip of his erection press between your moistened folds. He lunged his hips forward and you felt yourself stretch around him.
You let out a loud and sudden cry against his lips. He didn't offer you the chance to get adjusted to his size. His hips immediately began thrusting with a strong force. You could feel his lips curl into a smirk as he threaded his fingers through your hair. He tugged on your hair hard enough to yank your head back. Just like that the sweet and divine kiss was over. And so wasn't that kind and gentle Negan phase.
The look in his eyes was almost murderous.
"You didn't think I'd take it easy on you after the fucked up shit your friends pulled on me. Did you?" He questioned with a smile.
It was like a real life case of Dr. Jenkyl and Mr. Hyde. You barely had time to register all his words because he snapped his hips forward and you let out a sound that was a mix between a whimper and a moan. He chuckled and dragged his tongue across his lip and then he smiled as if he was proud of himself.
With every thrust of his hips came a pulse mixed with pleasure and a little bit of pain. Maybe you shouldn't have enjoyed it. You should have been filled with disgust, but you couldn't help it. He knew all the places to hit. Your legs began to tremble as he tilted his head down and mashed his lips ontop of yours.
It only lasted a second. Your moans were muffled his lips but he quickly straightened himself up and continued pumping in you with all his strength.
"Come on, Little Bird. I wanna hear you scream and don't be shy. Let everyone around us know who you belong to." He groaned.
"Oh, fuck! Negan!" You moaned as he yanked your legs up on his hips.
With your hips tilted up, you felt the tip of his cock brush against a delicious patch deep inside you. It made you mewl and your legs trembled.
"And this is how I know you're working your way up on my favorite list. Taking it like a champ! I fucking love it!" He growled as his thrusts became faster.
You felt your whole body tighten and your back arched as little wisps of tingling heat swept across your thighs and traveled further up. Negan let out a loud groan.
"Ahh, fuck. That feels good." He grunted.
Your toes curled and you moaned his name one final time before he tilted his head down and pressed his forehead into yours. His whole body trembled against yours and with one final thrust he hissed in pleasure. But he didn't pull out. He stayed buried deep inside you as he released hot spurts of his seed.
You shivered as he pulled himself out of you and your eyes dropped to the floor.
"Now that is exactly how you make up for your friends fuck-ups." He grasped your chin and forced you to look up at him. "You know what the bad part is? I probably would have been all nice and sweet on you. Hell, I probably would have done you the courtesy of using a rubber, but your friends just had to go and piss me off. But that's okay. I got to come in your pussy! And if that isn't revenge with a dish served cold, I don't fucking know what is."
He was smiling at you. This man was not only a pyscho but he was an enigma. Just moments ago you thought there could have been a small glimmer of hope that he was a decent man. But, like a small flame he stomped it out with his taunting.
"Would you like me to leave now?" You asked.
"Leave? Oh, no Little Bird." He released your chin and pressed both of his hands down on the piano keys.
The piano made another random sound of a higher tune mixed with a lower tune. You tilted your head down and noticed that he had both hands right next to your legs. When you looked back up, his face was mere inches from yours.
"I wasn't lying when I said you had A LOT of making up to do." He reminded you. "Now, I'm still a decent guy, despite the bullshit your fucking friends put me through. So I'll grant you a couple of minutes to clean yourself, give your pussy a break. But when I'm good and ready it is going to be one fuck of a cock-sucking, pussy-eating, fuck fest. You get what I'm saying?"
You swallowed the lump in your throat. Negan laughed and leaned even closer until his nose pressed into your.
"Don't look so scared. I know you like it. I can see it in your eyes." He commented.
***
The word 'sore' was a fucking understatement of the year. When your eyes blinked open a small groan slipped from your lips. No doubt about it, Negan had pounded you ruthlessly. All the memories of the night before were still fresh in your mind. You remembered how hard he thrusted inside you, how hard he pulled your hair and how far he forced his cock down your throat.
But despite still being in pain, your whole body had a strange hum of pleasure. You liked it. And it didn't just end with your orgasms. This was something that was now stuck on you. Going even deeper than a tattoo.
You slowly brought your eyes to Negan. He looked so peaceful with his eyes closed and his lips parted slightly open. You dragged your eyes down to his bare chest and noticed the small patch of hair right in the middle. Without another thought, you slowly lifted your hand and gently traced over the tattoo on the left side of his chest.
Your finger barely skimmed across his skin and you suddenly felt his hand grasp your wrist. He was good. You didn't even know he had woken up. When you turned to look at him again, his eyes were open and they locked into yours.
"Goodmorning." He smiled and tugged on your wrist.
You pushed yourself closer to him and felt his lips press into yours. It was quick and over with before you could even blink.
"Goodmorning, Negan." You forced a warm smile.
He brushed your hair back and turned on his side. "As much as I love seeing you naked in my bed, we got to get up. Get this shit show started." He climbed out of bed and you followed suit.
You pulled your dress over your body and cleared your throat. "So, what do I do for the day? Is there any minor chores to do or something?"
Negan chuckled. "No, your only job is to come when I call."
His hands gripped your hips as he pushed himself into your backside. "And - uh, just so we're fucking clear, I don't want any more of my men telling me that you tried to talk to Daryl." He whispered in your ear. "Do you understand?"
There it was. His need to control you. To own you. And you had to continue playing his game. No matter what vile words cane to your mind, you had to swallow them and make them sweet.
"Yes, Husband. I understand." You tilted your head back and leaned into his chest.
"Good, now be a good little bird and go get ready for breakfast with the test of the wives."
He smacked your ass and sent you on your way.
As soon as you exited the room Sherry came into your vision. She stayed silent as the two of you walked back to join the other wives. She kept looking at you with a sympathetic look and it only made you irritated.
"You don't have to worry about me. I'm fine." You muttered.
"Are you?" She questioned.
You stopped right outside the door and turned to her. "He's never gotten you pregnant right? What do you girls do for birth control?"
Sherry raised her eyebrows. "He didn't use protection?"
You shook your head. "No. And he didn't pull out." You whispered.
The look on Sherry's face alone frightened you.
"There is something that you girls do when he doesn't pull out. . . Right?" You spoke a little louder.
She didn't reply.
"Sherry, say something!" You pleaded.
"We've never had to do anything like that before."
The moment her words reached your ears you felt your knees shake and the urge to vomit appeared. Your head started to feel really light and - and you were hyperventilating!
"Calm down before you-"
Sherry suddenly reached for you and then your vision went all black.