melancholy town

[luxfmd404]

hi everybody, it’s ya boi ruby back at it again with another muse! some of you will remember lux as 7rophy’s emo main rapper once upon a time, but i’ve brought them back as the main vocalist! apart from the role change, they’re still very similar. i’ve dropped some info below the cut, feel free to read (i didn’t make it terribly long) or just click the heart or drop an im for me to bug you for plots!

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lux was born in thailand and has a mom, dad and younger brother

moved to korea when they were scouted by dimensions, seeing it as a way to get their music heard

debuted in 7rophy without much fanfare 

is salty af they never get to participate in production or anything for 7rophy’s music, never gets solo opportunities, etc

!!PARENT ILLNESS TW!! in 2020 their younger brother, with whom they have a strained relationship, called and told them their father had had a major stroke leaving him partially paralyzed. their parents had been actively keeping it a secret from them.

now lux is trying to balance work with rebuilding their relationship with their family, and considering how well 7rophy is doing, work may well get an awful lot busier

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jackie

he couldn’t help but tilt his head to the side in agreement. to be honest, attitude problems were not something he had. there were times, back in the good old day when origin was struggling, where jackie had a headline or two about how he was missing from activities and not giving his all. he still doesn’t talk about his anxiety, people didn’t need to know. “i can’t blame you, we all get frustrated at times.”

it was rough, dealing with managers. you either liked them or you didn’t. there was no in between if you asked jakyung. it wasn’t like origin had to go through many managers over the years, but he definitely had his favorites. it was normal to cross the line. there was only so much idols could handle behind closed doors before it surfaced. he didn’t blame them for anything that she had done in that regard.

without missing a beat, the rapper follows her. “the general public is weird, it was an awesome song. you gotta sign the album i got, the oh my god one. didn’t get your photocard, which is a shame.” he answers milk, he would have bought the uh oh one as well, too bad it was a digital single only. smile pulles on his lips as they talk about origin’s situation currently “wanna hear the secret?” he asks, leaning closer to them, voice lowering “we’re gonna release our first english only song.” he finishes, pulling away “fucking wild if you ask me. that’s why im in seoul right now actually, had the fittings yesterday. ”

“i’m also kind of a bitch, though.” milk conceded. many an argument had ended with that word thrown their way, after all. mostly the arguments started with them breaking some stupid social rule no one had told them about, to be fair. it wasn’t always as easy as looking into someone’s eyebrows to simulate eye contact or counting the seconds they smiled for. 

7rophy had one exceptional manager, one who actually tried to see things their way and who milk would consider a friend. the rest? unnecessary, rude, and generally not big fans of them, even when they were trying their hardest to be their image of a perfect idol. fuck them. they were beyond trying for them, now it was her members they made the attempt for, 

“dude, totally, but if you want a fully signed version from everyone, let me know. well, eunah’s home, but still.” eunah would probably sign the album then and there if jackie really wanted. “ooh, who’d you get, though?” they asked - surely the member would sign the photocard too, if he really wanted. they nod at the question, leaning in to hear, and gasped, pulling back. “no, really? that’s awesome!” they were genuinely excited - it was sure to be a hit overseas. “i hope it’s a great experience.” they said genuinely as they walked, the restaurant coming into sight.

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eunah

@luxfmd!

“you’re home.”

it’s a funny kind of greeting, uncharacteristic of the kind usually exchanged between the two of them. but eunah’s barely in the door herself, her thin cardigan still wrapped tightly around her beneath her folded arms. the cat rubbing against her legs quickly abandons her to do the same to lux. she watches crys cross the room with a smile, and then turns away, preferring to stare at her reflection in their blacked out tv screen than at her best friend and roommate of over six years. they’d seen each other earlier that day – dumdi dumdi dance rehearsals were inescapable, even for eunah, who’s already missing half of them for her solo promotions. 

she’ll make up for it though, through no voluntary effort of her own, of course. the manager assigned to eunah these days is the strict kind, the overbearing sort that eunah hates so much.

with a fresh smile, painstakingly painted onto her features, eunah whips back around to face lux. she knows they won’t believe her, but she does her best to put her best foot forward. for an actor, she’s one terrible liar. 

“how are those long limbs of yours faring?”

“i am,” milk acknowledges, noting how thin, how tired their best friend looks. eunah was always a tiny thing issues notwithstanding, but milk’s worried. dimensions is obsessed with keeping her busy, it seems, and the toll is showing even in the smile she tries to offer.

dumdi dumdi is no great feat, though with the way eunah is working, they’re glad the line distribution doesn’t entirely fall on her this time around. any preparations are exhausting, and the girl is working doubly hard. 

leaning down to gingerly stroke crys, milk considers the question, though not half as much as she considers the smile and the worry it brings forth in them. they wished dearly for it to be genuine, but no part of them believed it. 

“about as well as expected, i guess. i’m no seola, but i think i’m getting the dance.” they said, glancing down at crys then back up to study eunah again. “how was today?” one day at a time - they didn’t expect full disclosure, but they wanted to give her room to speak. they knew eunah would see the question for what it really was - how can i help you?

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jackie​

“that long.“ jakyung confirm with pursed lips and a nod of his head. in all honesty, he couldn’t complain about the fact how well they were doing in the past few years. he didn’t. he just wished he could be in seoul more often, he missed his friends. these next months he was planning on spending as much time with them as he could. he was definitely gonna attempt to at least give them a heads up, instead of going almost fully radio silent for months.

milks statement makes the origin leader burst out in laughing, loud and vibrant as usual “how hard indeed.” he jokes, shoving his hands in his pockets. at their next question he shrugs, shoulders lifted higher than they should, physically explaining he had no idea. “who said i don’t get cranky?” jack asks, brows raised. as calm and collected he is, there were times when he has spoken his mind about how fucking disrespectful their company had been to them. and when he wanted to be heard, if not for his sake but his members, he got loud.

“can we go to the bbq place? the ones in the states were horrible.“ the origin leader asked, just to make sure. it wasn’t like they were the worst, but nothing could really top a korean barbecue. “oh yeah, you definitely do. uh-oh was a bop by the way, its on my regular playlist.“

at jakyung’s laughter, milk grinned at the ground, stuffing their hands in their pockets to mirror his stance. it was a welcome sound, after all this time. “your idea of cranky doesn’t get you canceled, though.” milk had come close to an attitude scandal more than once specifically for how they interacted with managers when they were at their worst, and while they still didn’t necessarily think they were wrong for toeing the line of disrespect, they’d had to apologize privately as many times. 

they didn’t mean to be rude, really, but managers didn’t ever seem to want to explain themselves to their lowly wards, and one too many times milk’s frustration had boiled over into their words. it was as simple as that, really - all they wanted was a little communication, maybe a little understanding, but that was scarce as gold. 

“‘course we can.” milk agreed easily, getting ready to lead the way. fortunately, it was just a couple of blocks from their apartment. much as thai food owned their heart, you really couldn’t beat korean bbq with much. “ah, thanks. the general public doesn’t seem too fond of it, but i like the 90s feel it has, and i think the group carries hip hop really well. i haven’t heard anything new from you guys, but you’re killing it internationally, from what i hear. good for you, honestly. you working on anything new, though?”

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yoojin​

recording for music videos is always annoying in yoojin’s opinion, if only because she doesn’t really care for all attention to be on her. having to perform in front of the camera is different from getting to perform onstage. after all, if yoojin could be completely behind the scenes, she would almost prefer that. however, she doesn’t exactly have that choice at this point. instead, she spends most of her time dancing like a puppet in front of cameras for the entertainment of others. however, the situation like what happened with ‘ dumdi dumdi ’ was just another reason her mood was a bit soured this time around. but she tried to keep her head up for the time being. however, the moment lux mentions the song, she can feel herself internally flinch. 

“ is it that obvious ? ” yoojin asks, chuckling lightly. the two are taking a quiet moment to themselves before they begin shooting a scene together, and yoojin’s scrolling through her phone idly. not really processing anything she was seeing, more just doing something with her hands to keep them busy. “ the company specifically wanted me to write something … summery … i didn’t really know how to go about that. ” yoojin explains with a sigh as she lowers her phone into her lap and turns to the other. “ we had a new producer too, who did a lot of the work. they were supposed to ‘ boost the summer sound ’ … whatever that means. ” she shrugs.

“ is it bad ? ” yoojin asks, hopeful that lux wouldn’t lie to her ( perhaps not completely honest, yoojin didn’t want to be told it sucked, but they could tell her whether or not it was decent at least. ) “ i guess this is what dimensions gets for making me write a song specifically for a comeback instead of just going with anything i’ve submitted … ” yoojin mumbles. “ or maybe we’ll get lucky and they’ll take it as bait to finally ask you to write ? ” she asks, brows raised and voice sounding hopeful. quite honestly, she wished they’d bite the bullet and do it. after yoojin had started writing, the group had done leagues better – who’s to say the same wouldn’t happen if lux started writing for them ? yoojin was careful, though, voice soft and tentative as she knew it was a tender spot for lux. it had been years now, but yoojin was aware of how they felt about the situation. “ i don’t know … it something, but i’m not sure 7ROPHY’s going to have the smash summer hit or anything. ” they probably weren’t even popular enough to manage that. 

lux, on the other hand, doesn't particularly mind filming music videos. they aren't opposed to the attention (not that 7rophy's music videos ever really center around them anyway). it's not as good as performing, but it's better than a fansign or hi-touch. it's better than the interaction with strangers, overwhelming, loud, and uncontrollable. lux isn't the best dancer in 7rophy, not even possibly dance line, if you stood them next to the actual dancers of the group and gave them all the same choreography. lux blames their long, thin limbs, finding that they make them look awkward as a baby foal and just as lost. in the end, it didn't matter - lux was there for their voice. their appearance, maybe. dancing wasn't something they needed to be good at.

lux nodded mildly, not having meant the observation as any sort of drag, but it was certainly noticably different from yoojin's usual clever lyrics and inspired sound. much as they might have wished it was them that dimensions had chosen as a producer idol, it wasn't as if yoojin lacked the talent to carry the role. they scoff at dimensions' apparent demands for yoojin. maybe that was why they never picked u their songs - if they'd asked something so stupid of them, lux thought they'd simply return with the lyrics to a bee song. better to straight up cover something than to try to force marketability into 7rophy's sound. "that's ridiculous. you've been nothing but successful so far, why can't they just let you do your thing?" certainly it was a little less of a fantasy now, to be dimensions' prize producedol.

"it's not, it just doesn't feel like your writing, so it doesn't really feel like 7rophy." lux admitted bluntly. "it sounds like 7rophy covering someone else. i don't think the new producer should be part of the regular team of people who have a hand in our music, to be honest with you, but i don't hate the song." contrary as the statements seemed, the connection made sense in lux's head. the song wasn't bad, it just didn't fit the image of 7rophy lux had in their head. again they scoffed. "i dooubt it, but you're sweet. maybe they'll give my songs to other groups someday, but i feel like they're going out of their way to keep me away from 7rophy's production process." lux held their jealousy of yoojin's position out for all to see, after all, though they harbored no ill will toward the girl. it wasn't her fault she'd been chosen, and if the roles were reversed, lux was certain yoojin would feel much the same way. "i get what you mean. i guess you never know, but i'm not holding my breath, honestly."

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jackie​

it somewhat always surprised jakyung by how quickly milk picked up the phone. he himself was a little guilty of putting it on flight mode when he got overwhelmed with work and go back to hundreds of messages and missed phone calls. he still did it nowadays, it it worked it worked. their manager always knew where to find him either way.

“yeah, no worries. take your time.“ he states, sliding the phone in his hoodie’s pocket and leaning against the wall next to their door. it was probably the first time he heard so much peace and quiet. maybe he was starting to have issues with how loud the concerts were. it seemed like on the dot, the other walked out of their flat and jakyung can’t help but smile as brightly as he could at them. “hey hey. been months actually.“ he is a tad too scared to say it had been nearly half a year, but it happened. he didn’t have any control over his schedule.

“oh my god, you have no idea how many flights ive been on this year.“ jackie says, maybe slightly overdramatic as his shoulders slump. “i’m literally only in seoul for like, a week before flying back to osaka for a day and then heading back to seoul the next one. gold star has outdone themselves so far this year.“ he wasn’t the type to complain, really. he was sure milk was very aware of that, but they happened to be one of the few people he could vent out some of the build up tension. he waves his hand in a dismissive manner. 

“i’ll get into more detail, but first. i’m starving. what do you wanna eat?“ he asks, head tilting to the side as he waits for them to answer. “you also need to fill me in.“ he adds quickly.

milk had a little more anxiety about missing something important since that all-important call from their brother. they made it a point to be reachable, just in case. they couldn’t justify taking any chances of something going wrong with their father. 

“that long?” milk is fully aware of how long it’s been, but they aren’t about to blame jackie for it. they hadn’t even tried to pick up the phone, after all. whether it would have been answered r not was a whole other can of worms, but they weren’t pressed. he was here now, after all. 

“ah, how hard at the top.” they say bluntly, but with a note of sympathy. it had to be a pain in the ass, flying off every other day to a new place so the locals could scream your name. fan interactions were one of the harder parts of being an idol to them anyway, and for origin it seemed all but inescapable. “seriously, though, how do you do it? i’d be the crankiest person alive.”

“ah, fair... maybe mandu? or if you’re really hungry, there’s a pretty good bbq place near here. up to you.” mandu wasn’t the most filling meal, of course, so they offered the alternative. “ah, yeah, i’ve got a fair bit to tell you about too.”

[luxfmd404]

turn up my summer

starter for @fmdyoojin​

it wasn’t that dumdi dumdi was a bad song by any means, in fact lux enjoyed the summery feeling the song gave, but it felt like it had been selected specifically to sell well. none of yoojin’s usual artistry was present to lux’s ear, forgiving perhaps the rap verses. it wasn’t inherently bad, but it was something of note. granted, lux actually got the lion’s share of ines this time around, so they weren’t going to complain. 

they were on set of the music video, preparing for a scene, when lux nudged the main rapper. “how’re you feeling about the song?” they questioned. “it’s something different for you, i noticed.” 

[luxfmd404]

aesthetic: uh oh

uh oh is 7rophy’s latest effort, an attempt at a summer hit. it’s not that, but it is an intriguing track with a boom bap style, incorporating a 90s vibe into the group’s signature sound.

@fmdseola @fmdyuzu @fmdyoojin @eunahfmd

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jackie​

❮ tell me i'm a wreck

❝ i could have been easier on you i could have been all you held onto i know I wasn’t fair i tried my best to care about you open, july 21st 

jakyung was more than aware that he was a horrible friend at times. sure, he picked and choose on who to focus and at times, he chose to focus on himself rather than the people around him. but sometimes, that was needed, to just take a step back, focus on himself and his closest.

however, once he recovered from that slump, he was back on tract with getting on with his friends. maybe a bit too annoying, because that’s how he found himself in front of your door. with his phone pressed against his ear, he waited patiently for the other to pick up, it had been a few months, with the whole world tour going on and what not, it was hard to keep up with anyone and everyone with at the same time. as soon as the other picked up, jackie didn’t even let him have the first word.

“i’m not being a creep or anything, but i’m in front of your front door. wanna go grab dinner or something? it’s on me.“ he states, more than asks, tapping his foot lightly against the floor as he waited for an answer.

milk wasn’t always the best friend themself. often drained lately, they couldn’t say they were really up for reaching out lately. they didn’t blame jakyung for doing what they presumed was the same. still, after a few moths, they weren’t exactly expecting a phone call.

verbatim by mother mother sang out from their phone as it rang, their ring tone of choice. confusedly, they read the caller id and chose to answer. “hello?” ah, he wanted to hang. it was a little inconvenient, considering they were dressed rather comfortably in their sweatpants and white tank top, but there was nothing preventing them from changing, “uh, sure, i guess. give me five to get ready.” they said, then hung up.

five minutes later they emerged in black jeans, a crop top and high tops. “hey,” they greeted. “’s’been a while.” it wasn’t an accusation or even a statement of displeasure. just an observation. “catch me up, how’ve you been?”

[luxfmd404]

headcanon: image

summary: lux’s image as dictated by dimensions entertainment and how they feel about it. 

word count: 451

lux is pretty. it’s as much of a reason they’re in 7rophy as their voice is. a lot of the time, dimensions is happy to allow them to play the icy beauty with a cold heart that needs thawing. it’s an attractive look on them, but it’s hardly the first, last or only image dimensions has foisted upon them.

at debut, they were the foreigner with the golden voice. emphasis was on how unique they were, how wonderful it was that dimensions was so inclusive, et cetera. this was lux’s least favorite image.

they continued to ride that lux was a foreigner through pepe, like, high heels, and no oh oh, forcing them to be cute to the korean standard for each. after no oh oh, however, there was a change in the way dimensions viewed them.

hobgoblin brought about a new era of styling, which lended to a far more interesting image on the whole. no longer cute, the new concept meant a sexy new side to lux. highlighter yellow hair, ab-bearing crop tops, and hip-hugging pants left people viewing lux as a fierce girl from far away. girl crush came to mind for most, but it was all so horribly forced. 

where are you? meant a softer image yet again. loveliness wasn’t exactly in their ballpark, but in the end 7rophy lost most of their momentum gained from hobgoblin, so it didn’t much matter. there was very little talking from lux this era.

black dress was one era they actually felt good about their image in. sleek, sexy, and seductive, lux played up the femme fatale role well. 

latata was an odd time. dimensions plainly hadn’t expected the song to blow up the way it did, and as such hadn’t formed an exact image for the group. lux was most themselves this era, resulting in a surge of popularity for them personally as the group gained notoriety. lux was funny, honest and obviously cared for their members, after all. on top of that, their golden voice was still intact - what wasn’t to like?

hann brought back a sexy image for the group and lux in particular was pushed to lean into it, resulting in many fanservicey moments, which they look back at and cringe. 

from senorita era to the present, dimensions has cultivated a very specific facet of lux’s personality to focus in on. savage, sexy, flirtatious, and expensive are words that come to mind for people when they think of 7rophy’s main vocalist. in truth, milk just wants their songs heard and is getting more unruly with each comeback as dimensions shows it has no intentions of making the relationship between artist and company anything but strict. 

[luxfmd404]

hi everybody, it’s ya boi ruby back at it again with another muse! some of you will remember lux as 7rophy’s emo main rapper once upon a time, but i’ve brought them back as the main vocalist! apart from the role change, they’re still very similar. i’ve dropped some info below the cut, feel free to read (i didn’t make it terribly long) or just click the heart or drop an im for me to bug you for plots!

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