female reader x matt sturniolo
summary: matts girl finds out the reason they are together is all because of a dare.
warnings: angst, yelling, swearing, use of y/n, no happy ending (matt is a fuckboy in this, at first) tons of dialog, back and forth povs
it all started a nine months ago when matt asked you out, it had shocked you when it felt almost out of the blue because frankly, it was. you weren't really friends in the first place, you two were completely different. he was a popular person and very known as a fuck boy and well you were to yourself. so you hanged with chris and nick mostly, so when matt asked you out, you were surprised at the sudden interest.
we were happy, at least you thought we were. matt, and you went on movies, drive-in, and beach dates. everything felt so simple and happy, you couldn't ask for anything better.
growing up was a bit difficult, always being the last pick for everything, a partner in class for a project, getting in groups for p.e, never asked out for hocoming or prom. you felt so small and alone, you never thought anyone would be interested in you as it showed no one wanted to be around you growing up. making matt your first boyfriend, he was first boy to ever really show "interest" in you. so when he had asked you out, you felt so loved and happy knowing someone finally wanted you.
but that feeling went away a month ago when you walked into the kitchen waking up from your nap to chris and nick talking about you. "so you're telling me the only reason matt and y/n are together because you dared him too?" nick said, crossing his arms. in that moment, your heart sank, but it made sense. of course, matt wouldn't just ask you out. that's why it was so out of the blue. matt didn't even try to conversate with you, not once before he even asked you out, but why you? why did he drag it out for this long.
it felt like forever that you were standing there, but you couldn't even move your feet. "... oh so it's my fault? i didn't know he was going to do it let alone drag it on for this long. chris says, running his hands through his hair. "yes, yes it is your fault and his. she's our bestfriend chris, you can't be playing with people's emotions like that. if matt doesn-" nick cuts off as he sees you.
"y/n.." nick says stepping towards me. "it was a dare?" i say with my voice trembling. "im so sorry-" nick trys to say before i put my hand up. "and you, your not going to say anything?" i say moving my head in chris's direction. "y/n-" chris speaking out as he stands up. "no, i don't want to hear it" i say before walking away back into matts room.
i grabbed everything i could carry and walked back out. nick and chris were talking, but it was like it was going through one ear and out the other. i grabbed my purse and walked out the front door. the horrid pain i felt in my heart stung. he hasn't really asked me out yet so i wasn't sure why that it hurt this bad, was it the fact it was a dare, or was it the fact he carried it on for this long? or was it the fact he actually made me feel loved?
that was shy of a month ago, nine months down the drain just like that, you thought. nick and chris must've said something to matt because matt called and texted nonstop, same with chris and nick. you ended up ignoring them. you were trying to move on, even though it felt so real with him. it wasn't real at all. it was a dare. you had to remember that.
matt on the other hand, he was determined to figure this out. "why did you say that shit out loud in the first place?!" matt snaps as he slams his hands down on the table. "how is this my fault? you could've you know not do the dare, it was just a card game anyway matt. you were the one that decided to carry that shit on!" chris snaps back, walking around the kitchen. "enough you two, so what are you going to do? you can't just sit around and yell at us for a month," nick says, joining the conversation.
"you could've told her any point of time, but you didn't and thanks to you, we lost a friend- one of our best friends matt," chris says, looking at nick hoping he would agree. "yeah matt, why didn't yo-" nick trys saying. "-because i fell inlove with her!" matt says having the two brothers look at each other and back and matt with a shock look. "woah woah, you fell inlove!?" nick and chris say together. "yes fuck inlove, but we were already like four months in, she's everything. everything for what i was looking for, she's so pure and everyone loves her, i didn't even want to mention it and fuck it up" matt says as he places his head on the table. "-but then you both decided to talk about it in the kitchen and look what happened" matt continues to say.
"woah no, so it's our fault?" nick says, lifting matts head up. "you should've said something the moment you felt something or sooner. she loves you- loved you! didn't you see how fucking happy she was! nick said snapping at matt. "yes! yes i fucking saw, that's why i didn't want to mention anything!" matt replys.
"so what are you going to do then?" chris says as he sets his phone down. "-it's clear she wants nothing to do with us now" he continues to say. "im going back over ther-" "no matt you can't keep doing that, you sat outside her apartment for four days straight, she's not going to let you speak to her" nick says cutting matt off. "well fuck nick i need to try something, i don't care if she never wants to speak to me again, i need her to know how i truly feel. how it wasn't just a dare" matt says getting up and walking towards the front door. leaving nick and chris to look at each other and shake their heads.
matt arrives about thirty minutes later, he was hesitant to knock on your door again as he relives what nick had said. "she's not going to let you speak to her, she's not going to let you speak to her, she's not going to let you speak to her" was all that played in matts head as he got out car and made his way to her apartment door. his hand moved before his brain can think as he's already knocking on your door.
"matt?" you say as it sounded almost as a whisper. matt felt as he could almost crumble, he hadn't heard your voice in so long, it felt almost heaven coated. matt forgot he was daydreaming as you began to close the door. having matt place his hand on the door blocking you from fully closing the door. "wait, i wanted to talk to you" matt trys to get out. "well i don't want to talk to you" you snapped. "i know your hurt-" "you don't know what hurt is matthew, having to grow up your whole life as nobody, no one wanting you, then finally making friends and getting a into something with someone, someone you felt a connection with, someone you felt safe with! you were that someone until i found out it was all fake. how could you do this to me matt? how could you!?" you say completely cutting matt off as tears roll down your face.
"i know it was originally a dare, but then you made me feel something. something i never felt before with anyone, i felt happy and loved for a change, i knew you were it" matt says feeling his eyes swell with tears. "you should've just told me, why did i have to hear it from nick and chris? why matthew? why couldn't you have just told me?" you try getting out. "may i come in? please i want to work this out" matt says adjusting his hoodie. "no because there's nothing else to say" you say as you begin to close your door again.
"please, please y/n" matt particularly crys out. " i should've known, should've known by how completely different we are! look at us, your mr popular and look at me!" you say waving your hands in the air. matt couldn't help but just look at you, you were right you both are different but that didn't stop him from falling inlove with you. he liked how different you both were, you are so sweet and pure. he loved that about you, even though you didn't like stepping out this bubble you created. you did sometimes and matt felt proud. he loved how passionate you were about your little hobbies and that even though everyone knew and labeled him as a fuckboy you still managed to look passed that and love him for the real him. that real matt that came out when he realized how much he wanted to be with you.
your heart craved for matt, it did this whole time. you were sure matt had probably already moved on, thinking back on his past. you were wrong though turns out he had a similar feeling. but you couldn't help but think about the fact it all started as a dare. matt didn't actually want you until later on. so is he playing with you still or is he genuine now? you felt so unsure with yourself, you don't know what was real and what wasn't.
"matt" you finally say bringing him out of train of thought once more. trying his hardest to scan your face, hoping good news would come out. you would give him his chance. "matt im sorry, but i can't do this with you" you say holding out your hand to take his. "you hurt me so much, you lied to me matthew. i just don't know when the the faking stopped or you wanting to be with me started or if it even did" you continue trying to contain yourself. "y/n you know i respect you and your decision but please, please don't do this. i want to be with you, i love you" matt finally says, feeling like some weight was lifted off but his heart still heavy. "and i loved you matthew, i just can't trust you. im so sorry" you say cupping matts face and kissing him on the cheek before turning around and closing your door.
leaving matt standing there. bringing his hands to his face and crying as he sat against your door, trying to take everything in. hearing his sobs as you slide down slowly against your door now trying to hold back your tears but not quick enough as they pour down your face. reaching out to the pictures you and matt took at the movies several weeks back, pulling them close to your chest. this was it. the end of you both, as much as you hated letting him go, you just couldn't trust him anymore. you loved him with your whole heart. and matt loved you, if only he could've just asked you out for you in the first place and never did the dare that started all of this.
a/n: abousltley hated writing this. brb about to go and cry my eyes out again. :( but if you have any requests please send me them. hopefully after this you have a great day, lol. i love you🧡
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