The Numbers

JASON BECKETT//THIRTY-SIX//MAINTENANCEBut even Es and cocaine, over the years they blow H O L E S in your brain rob you of your memories your past which is fair enough ——— convenient, even.

[lxctus-blog]

deserves better tbh:

           ‘ i wasn’t alone ? i had NO ONE ! how can you even stand and justify leaving a kid to just… take care of themselves ? it wasn’t the right thing to do, –– it was the coward’s way out. you know, you could’ve at least–– told me ? let me know beforehand that i was just going to be completely fucking left behind without second thought ! ’

          ‘ you’ve got to believe me when i tell you i didn’t have a CHOICE. i wasn’t well enough to take care of you, and i TRUSTED that the people here could do a better job. and it wasn’t my original plan, b. i wanted to be able to take care of you, to do better than i did, but i realised somewhere along the way that you were better off without me. and i thought about you every day, alright ? why’d you think i came back here ? ’

[lxctus-blog]

2 cool 4 school:

     ❝     shut up you muppet, you can go HOME if you want, see if i care.     ❞

          ‘ alright, alright. maybe i will. i’m jus’ sayin’, an invitation would be nice, kiddo. ’

[lxctus-blog]

( @bloodiedpup sent a ‘  ᕤ  ‘ )

          ‘ you do that. i’ll just sit here, vegetate... ’

[perditvs]

            ‘ oh, i’m sorry––– i must’ve missed the chapter in PARENTING 101; about how leaving a thirteen year old, traumatised by the freakin’ zombie apocalypse, all alone would be the BETTER option ! ’

[lxctus-blog]

          ‘ you weren’t alone, b. you were HERE, you were SAFE. and you weren’t going to be with me. maybe it’s hard to understand but –– you really were better off without me. i didn’t leave because i wanted to, i left because it was the right thing to do. ’

[bloodiedpup]

     ❝     yeah well, your FACE is a joke — and i’m not a little one, if i was LITTLE i’d still be pissing in my PANTS —— old man.     ❞

[lxctus-blog]

          ‘ oh, that’s COLD. c’mon, i’m not that old.  ––– alright, alright. i’m sorry, okay ? how about we come to a deal. i won’t call you a little one if you don’t call me an old man. at least wait until my hair starts greying for that shit. ’

[lxctus-blog]

( @kavlees said: ‘ but did you do it ? ’ )

          ‘ sure i did, nothing else to lose, right ? ’

[lxctus-blog]

( @perditvs said ‘ forget it, you fucking suck. ’ )

          ‘ i had my reasons, b. and yeah, you’re right, i do fucking suck. but trust me –– it would’ve been a hell of a lot worse if i’d stayed. ’

[lxctus-blog]

( @bloodiedpup said: ‘ bro... that’s so... not cool... ’ )

          ‘ it was just a joke, little one. ’

[kylo-rennn]

I’m trying to come up with a plan!

[zibvs-blog]

“ what makes you think that is a good idea? ” | @lxctus !

    ‘ first days here and you’re already under the assumption your insight makes any difference? bold move. ’

[lxctus-blog]

          ‘ hey, i’m just sayin’. i mean, is that any way to treat an old friend, huh ? you could at least pretend you’re happy to see me, zibs. ’

[rcsilicnt]

‘ so like, that’s when the big spaceship came down and captured me - yeah, i was like seven years old when it happened. anyway - there were these big ass lights and they were super bright and the aliens weren’t like - little green men, they were like these weirdly shaped grey creature things and they kept p o k i n g me and taking blood from me and when i woke up i was like, back in my bed but i had these weird circular marks, ya know ?? anyway, the moms in the neighborhood wouldn’t let their kids play with me after that. ’ @lxctus

[lxctus-blog]

          ‘ right, yeah. aliens. okay. so... did they, uh, come back ? or was that your first and only encounter ? that whole neighbourhood kids thing sucks ass though, that’s like — alien victim discrimination or something. ’

[wildandwild]

[nathnwurnos-blog]

[tomshardy]