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I'm Selene! 33, autistic polyam trans lesbian in the PNW. This is my main blog which I don't use as much anymore. I tend to put memey or political stuff here. Feel free to ask me for my other blog, that's where I post most things, particularly nsfw or sapphic things. I don't mind if people follow me back or not. Let me know if there's anything I can do to help! Feel free to ask me anything! 💙

[victusinveritas]

[zombblehh]

Shout out to the autistic who’s abilities have regressed as they’ve gotten older.

“You didn’t used to be like this when you were a kid.” I know please don’t remind me

[theconcealedweapon]

"This never bothered you when you were a kid."

Yes it did. I just let it slide because I was taught that I'm "too sensitive" anytime something bothered me. But now I'm finally standing up for myself.

"You never struggled with this when you were a kid."

Yes I did. I just burned myself out in order to do it so I wouldn't be punished. But now I'm accepting myself enough to not force myself to do what I was never meant to do.

[countessravengrey]

"You didn't have these problems when you were younger."

Yes, I did. I just spent my child/teen years with structured institutions like school while not having to worry about whether I had a roof over my head or food to eat and spent my early adult years using up every bit of adrenaline I will ever have to ignore the fact that I've been chronically burnt out my whole life.

[forestgreenandgray]

Hey do you know what rumination is?

Rumination is probably the most common type of OCD compulsion, but I rarely see anyone talking about it. I've talked to multiple people diagnosed with OCD who didn't even recognize it as a compulsion.

Basically, if you have OCD you have terrible intrusive thoughts. They can be about anything, but common themes are fear of being a bad person, fear of hurting someone, fear of contamination. etc.

Rumination is when you get stuck in a spiral. Rumination is when you spend hours catastrophizing, overthinking, analyzing, telling yourself it's going to be okay.

I'll say it again:

Rumination is a compulsion.

Rumination is a compulsion, and that means you have to stop doing it.

I did ERP (exposure response prevention) for my OCD with a therapist! For 9 months! And it did help, but the idea didn't really click until I found this website a couple years later.

And Oh My God. It made things make so much more sense, and I was able to pull myself out of an episode even though I wasn't in therapy or on meds at the time.

Genuinely if you have OCD, or even if you suspect you have OCD, I'm begging you to read some of these articles.

Like this was genuinely life changing for me.

Here are some of the ones that were most helpful to me:

Defining Rumination

How to Stop Ruminating

ERP Exercises for Compulsive Rumination

What to Do When You're Triggered

[tikkunolamorgtfo]

Just want to add that if you're on the spectrum, you may also experience Autistic Rumination, which is distinct from the obsessive variety, despite the two having some overlapping characteristics!

[animentality]

[wayward-quartz]

[macabrekawaii]

Sailor Moon is so important

[hometoursandotherstuff]

[crabussy]

what even is a hamster. that can't be real. no wonder they're illegal where I live. unauthorised fucking thing

[crabussy]

seriously

[cat-mermaid]

was speeding up this footage to make a gif, but the audio is fucking golden, so its staying a video

[tieflingkisser]

[lesbianslimefriend]

here's where to find it on windows 10

[dozydawn]

[two-goblins-in-a-trench-coat]

a CRITTER? Carrying a BERRY?? Across a BRAMBLE VINE?????

[flashcs5]

gay meth

[cartoon-fanaticism]

GLaDOS voice: "Would you like to see some artwork I generated? I've heard from other test subjects that AI-generated artwork produces an uncanny valley response in human viewers because they can't perceive it as fully real. They've told me that it looks absolutely hideous to them, that they can't imagine anything more disgusting than AI art. But, well I've been practicing and wanted your honest opinion. Feel free to let me know how ugly you find this by ranking it on a scale from 'vomit-inducing' to 'eye-bleeding'." A robotic arm lowers from the ceiling holding a hand mirror up to Chell's face

[catgirltitties]

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[paper-mario-wiki]

The Taoyuan Walker

[paper-mario-wiki]

taiwan is cool as fuck theyve got Free Playing here at the public park

[squonkcity]

how is there absolutely not a single sign of active human life in either of those pictures ?

[paper-mario-wiki]

as a photographer, it is important that i respect the anonymity of private citizens when pursuing my passion. to do this, i vaporize all organic life within a 2 block radius before taking a picture.

[hauntingfaerie]

[greenlabcoat]

can you let me in pleeeeeaase. i promise i wont use my raptorial limbs to attack and kill you

[transmechanicus]

Times are hard at the cafe so they only got Something bagels

[lastoneout]