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[lypsys]

> 18, he/they, ꒰ :🇵🇭: ꒱

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> MISC

boundaries:

refrain from tagging me in donation posts, I can only reblog

no flirting please

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homophobes, transphobes, acephobes, etc. (be a decent human being)

[transmascmarypoppins]

why is this post completely broken in every way imaginable

[cecilsrandomeverything]

Broken notes… deactivated account… removed image….

Finally, we have them all.

[spacefinch]

In addition: OP’s name is just… gone. No “[insert username]-deactivated[insert a bunch of numbers]” as is the standard for deactivated blogs.

Just the world “deactivated.” Look upon their post, ye mighty, and despair.

[chatblancofficial]

It’ll be almost impossible to find this post unless it wanders across your dash.

[huewrite]

It wandered across mine. I shall help it travel forward.

[gossamermouse]

this is not a place of honor

[jackviator]

[dinosaurana]

Oh hey post of Ozymandius, good to see you again standing on your feet in a desert where no one remembers you

[illi-tism]

okay wait here’s a mega fucking long [positive] rant about some abstraction related things also it probably sucks because it’s past midnight and i’m oh so sleepy . but i’m also fixated and COULD NOT go to bed without writing this down . okay gnight [spoilers obvs]

okay so the idea of jax coming back from her abstraction makes a lot of sense to me BECAUSE to me the concept of abstraction is less of a metaphor for suicide and more of a metaphor for severe depression and suicidal IDEATIONS and/or attempts. because……it’s been shown that abstracted people are still…..there. they’re not dead. they are in their minds still, it’s just difficult to get to them. it simply means that they give up. now, it makes SENSE to consider it a metaphor for suicide. and i do think that it still is that in some capacity. but, because we know that they aren’t dead, i think it leans more towards the depression/attempts idea. i can speak on this from experience, obviously. everything is so horrible, you decide to finally just….give up. everything is peaceful. nobody can reach you, not truly. you’re much too far gone. but you aren’t. you think you are, but you’re not. and if you keep fighting, and fighting, and fighting, and fighting…sometimes you can get out. i remember when i was at my worst and my loved ones would reach out. try to talk to me. try to do anything they could to bring my own self out of me. and, for a long time, it did nothing. i couldn’t do it. but eventually, i started healing. and it clicked. it finally clicked. and i was back. i was me again. i could do things. i could talk to people. i was finally, finally alive again. and to me, that’s my idea of what escaping abstraction would be. you might seem too far gone, but you’re not.

i DO think that abstraction as a suicide ATTEMPT lines up so so well for jax though. because she’s NOT dead. she’s still there. she’s just not quite the same. and how can you be the same after something like that? i’m certainly not. i tried to kill myself at 13 years old. and the only reason i failed? because at the last second, i sat up, gasped a breath of air, and thought…i don’t wanna die. it’s easy to regret it during the process even when it was everything you wanted in theory. when jax, while abstracted, said “i don’t wanna go”…..let’s just say it hit home. in a metaphorical sense, she did try to kill herself. but i don’t think she succeeded. i mean, she CLEARLY didn’t. because she’s there. pomni spoke to her. found her through all of it. she’s different now, sure. maybe she’ll never recover. maybe she’ll recover, but she’ll be vastly different. maybe her body will be different. her mind, too. but she’s still with them. and they’re still with her. no matter what, they aren’t leaving her side. they aren’t letting her deal with this alone. 

and it’s such a beautiful metaphor. a gut-wrenching one, too. not all of us make it. that’s the truth of being trans. not all of us get to be ourselves before it’s too late. and that’s exactly what jax’s story is trying to tell us. it isn’t too late. it will never be too late. not unless you let it. for too many of us, not transitioning is a death sentence. jax’s story captures that perfectly and it means so so much to me. she almost doesn’t make it. and even though she’s still here, she’s not quite the same. but she’s still just as loved. she’s still cared for. she still gets to exist. to live. and maybe that’s enough.

i adore that, after her abstraction, they don’t see her as some terrifying monster at all. that’s just jax. she’s our friend and we love her. and that is YET AGAIN so lovely in the context of a depression metaphor. because when you’re intensely depressed and suicidal you feel like this disgusting worthless shell of yourself and you’re so convinced that everyone else must feel the same. but people love you regardless. and they don’t think you’re strange or scary. and they’ll still be with you through the worst of it.

do i think that, in the context of the circus, with all the metaphors aside, that jax could essentially….unabstract? yes, actually!! my thing is…..in the past, nobody has unabstracted. BUT. nobody has been given a fighting chance before! they’ve all been in very scary and unstable mental conditions, then are sent to the cellar when they have a mental break. psych ward metaphor? perhaps. that’s besides my point. they’ve all been living completely alone and been treated like monsters. nobody has reached out to them, nobody has talked to them regularly, nobody has given them comfortable and safe living conditions. jax has all of those things. if she keeps being supported in that way, her mind could make a recovery. who knows what can happen then? like many people have said, they have an eternity to find out. okay and going back to the depression metaphor for a second. recovery takes a long time. you have to be patient, and it’s going to be messy, and it definitely isn’t going to be linear. so, to me, the same could be said about abstraction. if you take a severely depressed person and put them in an environment where they don’t have any support or comfort or chances for happiness and growth……yeah they’re not gonna fucking recover. but if you support a severely depressed person and genuinely help them and care for them and do what you can to bring them joy? they have much better chances!! so, i think that, even after a horrible and traumatic thing like abstraction, jax could still bounce back. it would take time, sure. but she has so much love around her. so much support and so much comfort and so many people who want to bring her joy. and, if abstraction is a physical manifestation of a mental break / a severe depression, then her improved mental state could realistically bring her back to a more stable physical state over time. just my opinion on it. and the rubric i’m using for my post-canon lol. 

[lypsys]

Tadc spoilers

People be like "we want messy women!!!" And "we need more trans rep!!!" then proceed to not understand what Jax's character is trying to say. Trans women are women f u !!! Woman comprehension boss lvl 100 happy pride

[the-hms-autistic]

MOD mod did yuo see lypsys’ heart(?) art,,,,,

OUHHH NO?? AWERGWHAGHH I WANNA SEE

[lypsys]

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Hello yes its me lypsys. I have the green one

[lypsys]

@the-hms-autistic the green one :]

[aropride]

realizing there's no logical reason for the characters to be doing the thing you want them to be doing

realizing that just means you can find an illogical reason instead

[lypsys]

K

[lypsys]

Atrial is so me. I love your heart design bro

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[lypsys]

Gillianne Ceridwen

[lypsys]

“So this is you.”

[lypsys]

Guy who has a horrible relationship with art: i wanna open commissions

[adhd-vibes]

i need to change my whole life in one day. watch out world. i'm about to rearrange my furniture and cut my hair and develop new yet fully formed healthy habits all in the span of 24 glorious hours. i will also be buying groceries.

[lypsys]

Recognition is a privilege . Not jelly at all :[

[tenragthekatt]

This aint the best but whhatever

Wii 20xx and DS Blue yesyes

[lypsys]

Your arts so Cool And cute . Send tweet UWHDUHEUDHEUEEUUEU THEYRE ADORABLE

[zoesupreme]

I think overall there will probably be devastating long term effects on the movie industry from a horror movie based on a youtube video based on a 4chan post making 7 times it's budget on opening weekend but I think the movie itself is probably preddy good

[zoesupreme]

what studios are going to take away from this, unfortunately, is not that building practical sets instead of green screen stages and taking a risk on a 20 year old first time director can sometimes pay off and elevate a really thin script into something more substantial. they are going to start asking themselves how do we make a movie out of that one post that says notice how there was no wednesday this week

[lypsys]

This has been happening though since like the 2010s with slenderman. At the very least I think because of Backrooms and Iron lung, studios will be taking more notice of what an who is popular online (for better or for worse)