[thegayfleet]

When there was me and you

[lyricky-a]

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[lyricky-a]

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[razorbladeromantics]

i have feelings for u. not telling u which ones.

[wigglytuffer]

sorry i can’t go to school my earphones aren’t working

[isakvaltzrsen]

This is a nightmare. Everything is terrible. Love is dead.

[lyricky-a]

where    do    you    go    when    you    close    your    eyes?

SMILE

everyone you've ever known has an arm reaching out to grab ahold of you before you leave. each and every one of them is ice - cold -- it hurts to be loved so much. even now, you feel your mask slipping and hear yourself practically begging for it to stay in place. nobody is allowed to see you as anything other than what you think they should see. curiosity did kill the cat, after all.

tagged by: stole it from @risenwtch tagging: tag, you’re it !!

[lyricky-a]

okay the tea is that ricky used the drama club / musical as an escape from his home life and everything that’s falling apart in his personal life.  it was a place he can go to forget about all of his problems and just have fun focusing on something else for a few hours.  ricky seeing both of his parents together smiling, laughing, enjoying the show gave him a sense of hope that maybe things could go back to normal.  when his mom’s new boyfriend showed up to the show ( LATE MIGHT I FUCKIN ADD ) it shattered that hope.  not only that but suddenly his problems invaded his safe space.  it ruined everything and clearly sent ricky into a state of panic.  not to mention, he finds out there’s talent scout for a fine arts conservatory in the audience.  yes, ricky doesn’t want to ruin nini’s chances of getting into the school but i think it’s more than that.  throughout the season ricky’s been getting hurt and kicked while he’s down.  nini breaks it off with him and says she has a new boyfriend, effectively destroying their relationship and friendship.  his mom comes home only to announce she and his dad are getting a divorece.  ricky makes a new friend or flirtation whatever and finally thinks he’s found someone who really gets him ( aside from nini ), except now she’s moving away.  all of these blows finally come crashing down in the middle of a performance and so ricky ends up doing what he does best:  backs out and leaves when things get too difficult.

[lyricky-a]

♪ ♫  *   NINI ♡ / 001.

RANDOM STARTER I’VE OWED SINCE RINI EXISTED.

        it    was    dark,      you    knew    that.        the      exact    time,    you    weren’t    quite    sure    on.          it’d    been    at    least    four    hours,        since    you’d    last    eaten.      yet    more    hours    since,    a    bigger    dent    in    this    song,        “    if    i -,    could    just    finish    this    song.      i    promise    to    let    you    return    to    your    life.    ”

      a    light    laugh,      as    you    face    the    computer    screen.        you’d    been    talking    to    him,    for    almost    half    the    day.          asking    for    help,      then    some    more    &    more,    until    you’d    figure    he’d    just    want    to    stay.                /          @lyricky​           .

NINE   PM   AND   READY   FOR   A   LONG   NIGHT   .         homework   glares   at   him   from   the   corner   of   his   dorm   .     he   doesn’t   mind   at  all   .     nini   takes   priority   .      it’s    the   most   time   they’ve   spent   talking   in   months   .     sleepy   smile   ,    it’s   endearing   watching   her   fixate   on   the   song   .      “     .   .   .     nini   ,    it’s   midnight   .         ”      he    knows    better    than    to    think    this    bit    of   information   will   stop   her   .     still   he   has   to   try   .

“     you   need   to   eat   .     you   need   to   sleep   .     the   song   will   still   be   there   tomorrow   .         ”

[lyricky-a]

[zkac-deactivated20200610]

*makes a jerking off motion every time someone with authority talks*

[isakvaltzrsen]

This is a nightmare. Everything is terrible. Love is dead.

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[lovestereo]

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[lyricky-a]

before anything is finalized in the divorce, ricky makes it very clear that he does not want to leave slc. ricky loves his hometown and everyone in it and refuses to start over in chicago. not to mention he just got back together with nini. not wanting to disrupt his life completely, ricky’s parents agree to let him stay in slc during the school year. only during christmas and spring breaks does he make the trip to chicago. his parents agreed to alternate summers, but considering ricky is graduating in a year it won’t matter as he’ll be away at college (and also 18 and able to do what he wants).

[lyricky-a]

♪ ♫  *   RICKY + NINI EDITS ( 001 / ??? )

[lowkey-suggestion]

Someone please kiss me softly and tell me I’m good enough.