[lyssyspam]

This is my spam blog. Venting and ranting and rambling will be common. Don't follow if you don't want to see it

[dykemd]

what a typical wednesday looks like

[aropride]

ive made peace with it

[lyssyspam]

It pisses me off so much that 80s music reminds me of my ex, I LOVE 80s music but it was always what we listened to and one song in particular was like.. our song and I’m so mad I can’t listen to it the same way

[lyssyspam]

Uh oh

[lyssyspam]

When I’m trying to talk someone out of making the same mistake I did and they tell me to fuck off ahdhfuidjfnfddnfj like ok learn the lesson the hard way then ig??? I’m just trying to help

[hues-of-purple]

So I just had a thought…

Just because a spec people may not feel the same attraction you do (you in general asfjhcj) doesn’t mean our attraction feels less than yours. Our attraction is just different from the allosexual and/or alloromantic people.

So, whether or not a-spec people feel ‘only’ romantic and aesthetic attraction or sensual and romantic, or sexual attraction, but not romantic, etc. or whether they feel platonic attraction and sensual etc. (a mixture or non) doesn’t mean our attraction is worthless. One form of attraction isn’t more important than the other.

Everyone has a variety of different combinations of attraction.

Also romantic/sexual orientation can fluctuate like greysexual/romantic, demisexual/romantic, or (among others) ace/aro flux

Feel free to add… (Aphobes fuck off)

[text-post-rants]

The thing about being aro-spec that I think allos need to know is how the romantic world hurts you. Like they make you feel broken and left out and then once in a blue moon you get a romantic feeling and they get excited for you and encourage you. And they decide you’re finally not broken. They make you fantasize about all the things they want for you: dates and kisses and all that shit you usually don’t care about. They do it until you like the idea of being attracted to a person more than you’re actually attracted to the person. And then when it all crumbles because you’re not built for this. You are back to broken and more than anything you are angry because you fell for it again. That you gave up on the deconstruction you had been working on. You fell for someone else’s dream again. And it crumbled to ash in your hands because it’s not yours to have.

[lyssyspam]

Me telling someone I want them to be more confident might’ve just ended our relationship hm

[lyssyspam]

I thought by now We would learn to work together I thought somehow We were changing for the better You ran back, back to Arizona I guess it was nice to know ya I thought by now You would understand sonder

[lyssys-archived]

The song normal by the wrecks still fucking RUINS me every time I hear it like it’s the first time

The first time I heard it was the very first day it came out. I had a job where I could listen to music while I worked and I was listening to the album for the first time and when it came on I had to stop from the very first line and just sit and listen. It made me cry.

[lyssys-archived]

The bridge though… “is it really that bad?”

[lyssys-archived]

Like…. I wanted to chose a specific line to sum up how good this song is but I couldn’t do here’s all of it

The verse about the shirt…. Like. Goddamn ya know. There’s not a single line here that I don’t relate to

Please listen to it for the full experience I could write essays on this song/album

[lyssyspam]

I’m so fucking tired of everything ah

[lyssyspam]

Why does today suck

[lyssyspam]

Hi I’ve never felt more ace than now

[lyssyspam]

“Growl at the sadness that's been eating you I watch you disappear I don't know what I should do When every little thing seems to set you off”

[lyssyspam]

Everything goes wrong when I’m honest I’m just gonna start lying lol

[lyssyspam]

Why is everything so difficult