My ex slept with a girl named after a season just weeks after we broke up. He went to her room to take a test, she was drunk. I had read thier text messages prior to their having sex. It was so obvious. She was drunk and calling him cute. How could he have not seen it? I saw it from a hundred miles away.
He said he then got crossed with her, drunk and high, and then it “just happened”. But I know better, I’ve had sex with him before. I know he had to have made moves on her. No one is “uncontrollably” horny yknow. We’re adults. We have self control. And for a guy who previously claimed to have virtually no sex drive, and couldn’t come without an “emotional connection”, it sure seemed like he did. And he did. I asked him. He told me.
You see I had made an agreement with him, that we would continue to have sex, and he would not be exclusive and if he had sex with someone then he would do it with a condom. This was before the girl named after a season. And then he tried to lie to me about them using a condom, until I tried to have sex with him and he guiltily confessed that they hadn’t. After that, I got him to tell her that he was still having sex with me, which I hope pushed her away from the idea of fucking him again. He said he wouldn’t fuck her again anyway becuase she wasn’t “his type” and wasn’t really attracted to her. But I wasn’t his type either when he started dating me so we know he doesn’t really care. He just wants pussy when he’s horny and what ever is available will do.
I am unlike him. I cannot fuck who I want because I only want to fuck with him. It’s not fair that he can use me and not feel anything for me at all. He says he still loves me, cares about me, and wants me. But clearly not enough to be exclusive with me. I know, not think, know, that I would be less anxious about this stuff if he would just say that he’s committed to me and 100% mine. But he won’t. He said he doesn’t feel worthy of my love. And he’s not. But right now, he’s the only one I want.
