The Church of Man, love

What up, I'm Kaly, I'm 21, and I never fucking learned how to read.

[jung-koook]

「map of the soul : 7 ~ the journey ~」

[peace-love-colbert]

[jumpingjacktrash]

oh my god.

let me share a memory with y’all. it’s from i guess 1978 or thereabouts. it’s high summer. i don’t remember where my mom was driving me, in our avocado green chevette, i just know there was a traffic jam that turned 35w northbound into a parking lot from horizon to horizon.

picture it – wait, you don’t have to use your imagination, this happened all the damn time back then.

every one of those damn cars was burning leaded gasoline. there were no emissions regulations. there were no safety regulations. there were just thousands and thousands of detroit steel shoeboxes belching visible smoke as they idled, engines loud and hot, here and there a radiator giving up in the heat, a cloud of burning oil rising.

i, a smeet of five or six, was choking on toxic smog.

i reckon it was about a half hour into the traffic jam that i first threw up. i remember a blinding headache, i remember being confused, i remember dry heaving with my arms and head hanging out the window, the green metal of the car burning my hands and my chin. i don’t remember passing out, but i’m told i lost consciousness before mom was able to get to an off-ramp, because there were no emergency lanes on the highways back then.

i lived. and life went on. what were we going to do, complain? if i’d died, the cause of death probably would’ve been recorded as heatstroke, not carbon monoxide poisoning.

i know i’m probably preaching to the choir here on tumblr. but i really wish i could tell that story to the people who think deregulation is no big deal. i wish they’d put themselves in my mom’s shoes.

or even just look at some old pictures, then look out the window.

ever notice how cityscapes used to have that orange tint and hazy aura? yeah, that’s poison gas.

remember how the mississippi river used to be a stinking soup of baby-shit yellow sludge covered with disturbingly stiff rafts of light orange foam?

i can’t even find pictures of the sludge and foam, i guess they didn’t end up on the internet. the smell was indescribable. that oily shimmer. the reek of dead things. people didn’t boat on the river for pleasure; it smelled too bad, it was too ugly, and you could get super super sick if you touched the water.

and now look at it.

i still wouldn’t want to drink it, but if i fell in i wouldn’t bolt for the shower in a panic, you know?

if the thieving billionaires get their way, we can kiss those sailboats goodbye, and learn the smell of toxic foam once more. the ultra-rich won’t even feel the extra money, they’ve already got more than they could ever touch, they just stash it in offshore accounts to rot, but the rest of us will return to a time of neverending nausea and weird cancers. a time when every elementary school class had at least one kind who’d been born with no fingers or their heart outside their body, and this was just… the way things were.

i’m sorry. i didn’t mean to longpost. it’s just. god. y’all have no idea how CLEAN everything is now, compared to when i was a kid. and these rich old men are counting on that, on people not knowing or not remembering how bad it was before regulation, not realizing how much we need these protections until it’s too late.

[themightyglamazon]

I enforce federal worker health and safety and pollution regulations. 

When I was learning my trade, when my classmates and I were having a chuckle over the “well duh” level of specificity written into the Code of Federal Regulations (try “no hazardous material shall be stored in crew berthing” on for size), I will never forget the silence that followed when our instructor spoke these words:

“Your regulations are written in blood.”

These regulations were not written on a whim. They were written because someone thought they could cut costs by storing however many more pounds of a radioactive, toxic, carcinogenic, or whatever else material in the same rooms where the human beings they paid to transport those materials slept, and then did that, because no one was telling them not to. 

They were written because people died. Horrifically. Because unregulated capitalism values profit over human life and suffering. 

Can I say it again, for those not paying attention? 

Unregulated capitalism values profit over human life and suffering.

[imathers]

Please note the recalls etc. we’re already seeing with the current US government going after those regulations, and please see Doug Ford up here trying to weaken our water safety regulations again - the last time that happened, under another Conservative government, Walkerton happened and people died. Some died quickly, some lived for years with debilitating illnesses and then died.

[flowisaconstruct-deactivated202]

Are there occasionally some regulations that seem arbitrary? Sure. But the only people who profit from deregulation as a general philosophy are companies that want to cut corners. The Koch brothers fight to deregulate oil pipelines, and theirs fail PLENTY. They don’t give a fuck.

[fuckingconversations]

When I was in middle and highschool, Acid Rain was a VERY BIG issue that we covered in EVERY science class. 

Cement buildings and marble historic statues were warped smooth from acid eating off the details. Paint was steadily stripped off cars. Sidewalks had fun little rivulets where lots of water flowed. 

The rain around big cities, due to the poisonous, low-PH smog, was literally acidic. 

Sulfur- and nitrogen-based air pollution and acid precipitation as well as the dissolution of important nutrients from the soil are still causing the spruce and fir trees of the forests to die, while brush and other forms of wildlife struggled to survive in the areas where the water cycle pushed city smog and precipitated it into rainfall.

The first phase of emission reductions ordered by the U.S. Clean Air Act Amendments of 1990 was begun in 1995 - So, I was 4 years old when we STARTED regulating coal-fired power plants and vehicles. 

Sulfur dioxide and nitrogen oxide smog was reduced by about 88%, and Hey! It’s 2020 and there’s no ACID falling from the SKY! 

Environmental Regulations are IMPORTANT. 

[mothershroom-deactivated2021031]

extensive thread of blm related petitions that still haven’t reached their goal

[carlyleverdeservesbetter-deacti]

So I’ve been keeping track of the Chrystul Kizer case (a 19 year old black woman charged with killing her abuser when she was 17). You can find the full story here: https://nypost.com/2019/12/18/chrystul-kizer-faces-life-in-prison-for-killing-her-alleged-pedophile-abuser-randy-volar/. In case anyone didn’t know:

-her hearing is set for June 8, 2020

-her bail is set for $400,000 

-you can keep updates on her here: https://freechrystul.wordpress.com/2020/03/05/some-good-news-for-chrystul/, as well as find resources to support her. You can write her a letter, sign petitions, etc.

-her family has set up a fundraiser for her here: https://fundrazr.com/FreeChrystulKizer?ref=ab_AdkL5uoLQcdAdkL5uoLQcd I’ve been keeping track of it often, but hardly anyone has contributed! This is what it looks like now:

Not even close to the $45K goal. She needs money not only for court and bail, but also for things afterwards, like therapy. 

If you could reblog and share this, that would be great!

[carlyleverdeservesbetter-deacti]

Thank you so much for everyone who reblogged this! I was worried, because this post wasn’t showing up in the tags, that it would go unnoticed (special thanks to @sugarbooty​ for kickstarting this) Here’s what the fundraising page looks like now:

$9,680. 22% of the goal. Nowhere close, but it’s a start. If you guys could continue reblogging and spreading the word, maybe spare a few dollars, maybe send Chrystul a nice letter, that would be great!

[carlyleverdeservesbetter-deacti]

25% of the way to go! I’ve noticed not as many reblogs today. Please, please don’t let this die before the 8th. Her defence lawyer needs paid, and she deserves to be free!

[carlyleverdeservesbetter-deacti]

27% of the way to go. Please don’t stop reblogging.

[odddior-deactivated20200814]

i know there’s a lot going on but ICE are now one step closer to literally creating gas chambers. they are spraying a chemical called HDQ neutral roughly 100 times a day, every 15 minutes at the adelanto detention center (one of the biggest in the country). people are getting rashes, headaches, their insides are bleeding, etc. the guards are wearing gloves and masks but the detainees have NOTHING. and here’s a quick reminder - america inspired the nazis to create gas chambers when they gassed latino people during the 1917 bath riots. 

here’s a petition to sign. it’s close to it’s goal. if there’s anything else we can do to help i’ll update this post.

[your-url-is-problematic]

I don’t have the words to properly explain how horrifying this is. In April, the advocacy group Freedom For Immigrants published a report about unsanitary conditions at the detention center, where the immigrants were made to clean the facilities with only water, or shampoo. According to their report, there were sick detainees there - possibly with COVID-19, but it’s unclear since they weren’t being tested - and the conditions could easily lead to a situation in which the virus exploded among those there.

The guards are spraying this disinfectant in retaliation for the report. To be clear - HDQ is an industrial-strength disinfectant, which according to the manufacturer is “harmful if inhaled” and “causes severe skin burns and serious eye damage.” The guards are spraying it on everything every 15-30 minutes, according to sources, and immigrants in the center have already experienced severe symptoms including blisters, rashes, bleeding, fainting, breathing difficulties, headaches, stomach pain, and nausea.

And let’s be real - ICE doesn’t give a shit, either about protecting these people or about preventing a COVID outbreak. ICE, according to their own reports, currently has 25,911 people in custody, of which only 2,670 have been tested. 1,392 of those were positive. In simple terms - less than 10% of detainees have been tested. Of those, more than half are positive. We cannot estimate how many sick people ICE is currently holding, or how many more will get sick without any kind of prevention or care.

ICE is killing people through neglect, and when they dared complain - they started gassing them.

Unfortunately, with Trump in the white house, petitions aren’t doing much. What we can do, however, is donate to the advocacy group that is bringing these things to light, allowing them to continue their work and hopefully free more immigrants. Their donation page is here. Please spread this.

[whale-eggs]

The chemical they are spraying, HDQ, is manufactured by Spartan Chemical.

Spartan Chemical also holds responsibility for allowing this to happen. They should not get to have a shiny, clean brand image.

Spartan’s phone number is [phone]. They have a facebook page here, where you can leave them a review saying what you think of them supplying ICE.

They also have a contact us page on their website.

They follow/repost stuff from the hashtag #spartanchemical on Facebook and Instagram.

Please contact them through one of these means and ask them to denounce this abuse and stop supplying ICE (or stop supplying the distributor who is then selling to ICE). Post publicly on their facebook and in their hashtags so that their brandname is tied to these atrocities.

[wasirauhlpsds]

#BlackLivesMatter - Petitions to sign.

14-year-old Joāo Pedro was killed by the Rio de Janeiro police. Joāo was shot at his home and his body was taken by the Rio de Janeiro police. His family waited 17 hours until receiving news of his whereabouts. They finally found his dead body at a medical examiner’s office. The family counted 72 bullet marks on the walls of the house.

George Floyd was murdered by a Minneapolis police officer.

George was handcuffed and restrained and being completely cooperative when this all went down. The officer put his knee on George’s neck choking him for minutes on minutes while George screamed that he could not breathe. 

Bystanders beg for the police officer to take his knee off George’s neck, but the officer didn’t listen and continued to choke him. 

Petition for the punishment of Minneapolis police officers after the assassination of George Floyd.

Julius Jones has only 122 days before being executed for a crime he DIDN’T COMMIT. Julius has lived on death row for almost 20 years, and is held in solitary confinement for 23 hours a day. He is allowed one hour of sunlight a day, and three showers a week. Every minute we wait to take action, Julius is suffering. Every second that goes by brings Julius closer to being executed for a crime he didn’t commit.

Tony McDade was a transgender black man who got killed by police in Tallahassee. No one is talking about it.

A 12-year-old girl has drowned in the River Irwell in Greater Manchester.

Greater Manchester Police said it was treating what happened as a “tragic incident” and did not believe there were any suspicious circumstances.

Ahmaud Arbery was chased and gunned down by Travis McMichael, son of retired Brunswick investigator Greg McMichael, under the father’s and son’s pretenses of witnessing a burglary in Satilla Shores of Glynn County.

Jennifer Jeffley was 15 years old when she was arrested for the murder of Maria Palomina. A murder that she did not commit. Innocent of the crime that she was convicted of, Jennifer has been behind bars more than 20 years serving a life sentence.

Regis Korchinski-Paquet was murdered by Toronto Police. A call was made for a domestic incident and Toronto police officers were present on the 24th floor in a High Park apartment building to “observe” 29-year old, Regis. Shortly after, she allegedly fell off the balcony.

Sean was a victim of police brutality. He was running from the police and was on Facebook live. The police officer tased him while he was going down and then shot the man 14 times in the back.

On October 4th 2016 Amiya was stepping off of  her school bus and was hit and killed by a car.

11 months later my family and I met with the District Attorney John Weddle and Sadie Gardener. Neither of them took the case seriously and it showed because shortly after that my family was informed that Karen Carpenter would not be charged.

On June 7th, 2019, Emerald Black a pregnant, black woman, and her fiance were pulled over by police officers after coming from a doctors appointment.

The officers spoke to Ms. Black’s fiance while she stayed in the car.

The officers began to order her out of the car. Ms. Black was clearly pregnant and she had let them know  that she had just gotten back from a doctors appointment where she was also  informed that she was at a high risk for a miscarriage. Despite this, the officers yanked Ms. Black, still in her hospital clothes, and threw her to the ground. They taunted her, piled on top of her, and stomped on her stomach causing her to miscarry. The stomp had  also left a shoe mark.

Chrystul Kizer is an incarcerated trafficking survivor who is being charged with life in prison for acting in self-defense against her trafficker.

The punishment that Chrystul is facing for defending her own life signals that black women and girls have no selves to defend.

Tamir was only 12-years-old when he was shot and killed last year by a Cleveland police officer as he played in a park with a toy gun. Timothy Loehmann, an officer in training, shot and killed Tamir within two seconds of arriving at the park. The police car hadn’t even fully stopped before he began shooting.

Siyanda was racially abused and beaten by a group of people. After defending herself - instead of being protected by the justice system - she was sentenced to 4 ½ years of prision.

One month ago, a division of the Louisville Police Department. performed an illegal, unannounced drug raid on Breonna’s home. Not a single officer announced themselves before ramming down her door and firing 22 shots, shooting Breonna 8 times, killing her.

Alejandro is a innocent 15 year old, African American who got shot 7 times while walking to Boone High School, in December of 2018. NO ARREST HAVE BEEN MADE!!!

We need legislation now that prohibits police officers from shooting unarmed citizens!!!

[cottonbu-deactivated20200815]

Sean Monterrosa was a 22 year old hispanic man. He was shot and killed yesterday by a police officer who fired through his squad car windshield 5 times, killing Sean while he was kneeling on the ground with his HANDS UP. The officer "mistook the hammer in his pocket for a gun" and decided to shoot him with no reasoning. His hands were up, he was complying.

[cottonbu-deactivated20200815]

This is for funeral costs and legal fees:

Sean Monterrosa Funeral Cost organized by Wendy Tavares

Dear family and friends,We are deeply saddened by the loss of our beloved, Sean Monterrosa,… Wendy Tavares needs your support for Sean Monte

[destroyboydestroy]

#HisNameIsJustinHowell

Donate if you can.

[movebytaemin]

fundraiser link

[madguth]

What did he expect to happen

[adhd-headcanons]

ADHD Aang from Avatar:  The Last Airbender

Easily distracted from important mission things by more fun things, especially toward the beginning of the series.

Strong guilt reaction to anyone telling him that the Avatar failed them by disappearing

Primarily hyperactive and in many ways fits the stereotypes of hyperactive ADHD.

Silly and charming when he’s just being himself, but doesn’t fit in; when he tries to fit in, he definitely sticks out and sometimes puts people off.

Feels every emotion strongly and sometimes has trouble regulating what he feels.

Generally talks at high volume and can sound like he’s shouting without meaning to.

When he has to clear his chakras at the Eastern air temple, it’s almost torturous for him to sit still and quietly meditate.

[robsource]

Robert Pattinson photographed on the set of The Lighthouse (2019)

[dat-soldier]

[nothereanymore999-deactivated20]

someone make the other guy luigi

[ambulatoryhoodie]

@dork-still-alive​ say no more

[zamisriza-the-resurrection]

Reblog the 500,000 dollar written check from Seto Kaiba and money will come your way.

[heartbroken-ghost]

I feel like more things make sense after reading other people's experiences with adhd so I thought I'd post things and see if other people relate to my experiences too.

🖤 Being told you never stop talking then getting Hella depressed (even suicidal) and thinking "fine I'll never talk again then" but knowing you can only do that until something makes you excited again (Rejection sensitive dysphoria?)

🖤 Feeling less able to talk when that happens and shutting down then getting overwhelmed and feeling frustrated when people keep asking what's wrong or why you completely stopped talking (RSD part II?)

🖤 Feeling like a failure when having a better time with executive functioning & doing mundane tasks or chores like cleaning the dishes because you feel guilty for celebrating doing them and for feeling proud that you did something that a lot of other people seem to be able to do on a daily basis

🖤 Putting in headphones when feeling overstimulated and overwhelmed but getting yelled at because someone was trying to get your attention while you had loud music playing and you do this often

🖤 Not being able to understand when someone's joking then getting RSD over being told asked why you can't take a joke

🖤 Shutting down completely when feeling rejected or criticized, when having too many things to do and when being unable to understand a joke

🖤 Knowing you said you would do something and having to face the inevitable doom of doing said thing or backing out (again)

🖤 Accidentally saying something you didn't want to say at all and feeling like an asshole. Also feeling like an asshole because you want to listen better to people but you just end up talking over them and interrupting then hating yourself because you do it all the time and you wonder why they're even your friend still

🖤 Dissociating

🖤 Being unable to control your anger when someone tells you to do two or more things at a time because it feels like way too much at once but then being told "it isn't that hard, why are you being like this? You always have a problem whenever I ask you to do something"

🖤 Being ridiculed for being so obsessive but not ever being able to stop being that way

🖤 Wanting to write or say something but then forgetting it almost immediately and zoning out while writing or typing

🖤 Constantly asking yourself the questions "Why do I always do this? Why am I like this? What the fuck is wrong with me?" then thinking "they're right I'm just lazy and need to try harder"

🖤 Getting pissed off, overwhelmed & stressed when people say to just "get busy and do more" because even when you're not in school or working things are still too much for you and they don't get that One More Fucking Thing feeling to that extent

🖤 Feeling annoying almost constantly, like you almost never stop embarrassing yourself and like you disappoint people all the time

🖤 Being unable to process and/or understand a sentence you know the words to

🖤 Forgetting the meaning of simple words like "irony" and constantly having to google them to re-check/re-find-out

🖤 Looking stupid because you already knew something but your words failed you when you were asked about it (bonus difficulty points if you have performance anxiety)

🖤 Imposter syndrome despite not being overtly successful in the first place

🖤 Wondering if you're just lazy and want to use adhd as an excuse but knowing deep down that you're actually not (bonus difficulty points if you had good grades in school)

🖤 Pacing then getting really upset when someone tells you to stop because it's making them dizzy

🖤 Zoning THE FUCK out accidentally during conversations then having to do the "sorry what were you saying?" Thing where you try to listen but their words might as well be static

🖤 Procrastinating

🖤 Needing people to repeat themselves but feeling like an asshole because it looks like you don't give a shit about what they're saying (also doing this when nothing is more important in that moment than listening and being fearful to even ask someone what they said incase they get angry because people do that seemingly often)

🖤 CONFUSION

🖤 Wondering why your memory has always been so bad when you're in your early 20's

🖤 Wondering how people can work, shower, clean, look good AND eat almost (or actually) every day

[shoppingstars]

do you ever see your old friends/people you knew from school through social networks or pictures and suddenly want to cry because everyone has friends, everyone has a great family, everyone has the capacity to do whatever they want and achieve their goals, but you’re just alone, with a messy mind and watching everything you want and every goal go away because you can’t do anything anymore. you’re just too sick. and you’re there, watching everyone move on, through a cellphone or computer screen, like you’re pausing your own life even if you don’t want to.

[adhdmedic]

[wingedbelievereagle]

[omghotmemes]

stopping the movie to read the joke :D