Your Local Squirrel Babe

What does a description even means? Hahaha Please, what even life means?

[macaria-rosetti]

Last year I was weighing around 127lb

I’m so happy I’m now 100lb

[macaria-rosetti]

Have you ever wondered how does being a millionaire must be?

[macaria-rosetti]

Ok, I’ve got to confess that I’m not doing great so far.

Last year I ran away with my ex boyfriend, practically living the “rockstar” life.

Recording sessions, sex at midnight, A LOT of fighting and A LOT of crying, he was doing drugs but as strange as it sound I never realized that, not even when he snuck out of the bed at 4 am to do lines on the kitchen counter.

But there’s one thing that keep tormenting me 'til this day, even months after we broke up and I got back with my parents, and it’s one day specially when I almost run away from him but could get the actual guts to do it.

And when I got back to our little department he was crying so loud and I discover some cuts in his arms, he cut himself while I was out… blood spilling through his precious skin… and the next thing that I remember is my scream of horror.

That scene still haunts me, specially at night in my nightmares, the scene repeats itself over and over again, and the thing that wakes me up is my scream.

I know you’re not professionals, but I’m to ashamed to ask for help to my family.

My sisters and my parents try to ignore that episodes of our lifes, and so do I.

But I’m so done with the fact that I still have nightmares about him, I have a new boyfriend now, the total opposite of my ex, my boyfriend is sweet, plays the piano and has an university scholarship thanks to the fact that he is extraordinarily smart.

He was my high school boyfriend and I practically cheated on him with my “bad boy” ex, when he found out that we broke up a year later I finished with him, he came to see me and ask me if I was ok. He was sweet and patience, he told me he was suffering because of my absence and didn’t get himself involved in another relationship because he couldn’t get himself into it, I am “the love of his life” in his own words.

I’m feeling really guilty, why I’m dreaming with that nauseous day and not with my present? My perfect present where my parents love me, my sisters love me, my boyfriend is somehow the representation of Hades from Lore Olympus and I’m getting myself back to collage. Why I’m still dreaming with a day so dark in my life?

If someone here knows the answer, please, give it to me, I know I need help but I’m so ashamed to ask for it.

[macaria-rosetti]

Laying on the floor is an emotion

[macaria-rosetti]

‘I’M JUST A KID AND LIFE IS A NIGHTMARE’ i scream at the age of 20 as i’m forced to make adult phonecalls

[hopefulmillennial]

Please be aware, talk about, and share what's happening in Colombia 🇨🇴

Their government decided to rise taxes, yes I'm the middle of the pandemic crisis, which would affect the lower and middle class the most (because they were the ones "who got extra help"), and so the people exercised their constitutional right to speak up against it, and walk the streets asking for it to STOP.

But the government has given instruction to KILL their citizens. We are talking about murder by police and soldiers by government order. We know they have been going into the houses, take out men, women,and children alike and kill them. They are being shot in the streets.

They have been cutting electricity at night to keep them in the dark.

It's a CRIME against humanity what is happening right now. Please be aware, look into it, talk about it. Colombia needs us to speak up for them, because they're being silenced with bullets.

[cul-de-sac-panic-attack-deactiv]

[cosmicloverbaby]

Today someone said to me "gonna name my son Hades so he grows up to be a sad fuckboy" and I can never, never unhear this omg

[petalove]

I Dreamt a Dream! what can it mean?

And that I was a maiden Queen:

Guarded by an Angel mild:

Witless woe, was ne'er beguil'd!

And I wept both night and day

And he wip'd my tears away

And I wept both day and night

And hid from him my hearts delight

So he took his wings and fled:

Then the morn blush'd rosy red:

I dried my tears & armed my fears,

With ten thousand shields and spears.

Soon my Angel came again;

I was arm'd, he came in vain:

For the time of youth was fled,

And grey hairs were on my head.

"The Angel" — William Blake.

[howling-wizard]

had a cool idea how to practise winged people poses, so here’s some sketches of statues!

[macaria-rosetti]

Everything loos better from above.

El dolor y sufrimiento que me invadían en esos días de calor inequívoco con lluvias torrenciales no puede ser confundido con ningún otro que haya sentido antes, el hecho de no poder hablar de esto más que un año después sigue carcomiéndome la cabeza, lleno de preguntas invalidadas por un simple "Todo estará bien" ¿A donde fue mi salvador que se enfrentó a los dragones del castillo para rescatarme? Ahora se que solo cambió y se volvió mi captor.

¿Quien diría que aquel trovador lleno de palabras dignas de los más grandes filósofos se convertiría en el cruel verdugo de mi pasado?

Un cuchillo llamado karma que cada noche me clavabas en el corazón, un constante frenesí de sexo, lagrimas, pasiones proferidas al cielo y aún así el constante recuerdo y presencia de un amor pasado traído por tu mano debido a tu ignorancia, tus inseguridades y tus ansias de castigarme, hiriéndome donde más me dolía.

Como osabas amenazarme con largarte a quien sabe donde con quien sabe quien, las noches que me abandonabas y que me quedaba sola, acostada en ese cuarto lleno de lagrimas, gritos y un constante " DEJA DE LLORAR" trauma que sigo cargando hasta que muera...

Lagrimas, lagrimas que esperaba tu limpiaras con un suave beso, las detestaste a mas no poder, privándome de aliento y luego de alimento, privándome de tu mirar y no dejando otra cosa mas que decepción en tu mirar.

Un día no pude mas y salí corriendo, corriendo lejos mientras gritabas mi nombre, pero nunca te acercaste por mi, simplemente me llamaste como un dueño hace a su perro y yo respondí al llamado aunque quise saborear la libertad por un segundo, para cuando volví ya había nacido lo que se convertiría en el principal protagonista de mis pesadillas.

18 cortes sobre tu carne fresca infectándola con nuevas dudas, 18 cortes que se presentan en mis terrores más profundos , ahora se que debí de chupar de aquellas heridas para consumirte de una vez por todas, pero mi primer instinto fue gritar por mi propia vida, puesto que tu eras mi vida a la vez que ¿como podía confiar en que cuidarías de mi si ni siquiera te amabas a ti mismo?

Dudas se arremolinaron en mi cabeza, no era cierto, lo que habías hecho no había ocurrido, mi mente trataba de convencerse de aquello, pero era mentira y me lo confirmaste una noche, noche en la que me retaste a hacer lo mismo pero a diferencia tuya yo si me amaba, aún me quedaba un poco de dignidad, pero tu tomaste el cuchillo y procediste a crearte la decimonovena herida, otro tajo de carne, mi corazón ya no resistía, mi alma se pudría, mi espíritu disminuía.

No pude más y finalmente terminé regresando al castillo de donde salí, solo que para meses después y yo envalentonada con mis nuevas alas y escamas decidiera buscarte para por fin remediar el pasado.

Pero de una flecha me derribaste y volví a caer en tus brazos solo para ser desechada como basura, por que esta vez yo ya no era una princesa, me había vuelto un dragón y no supiste diferenciarme, por más que trataste no pudiste ver más allá de mis escamas, después de eso comencé a recordar por que te odiaba.

[macaria-rosetti]

Say Yes To Heaven

Hoy le digo SÍ al cielo, hoy le digo TÓMAME a los ángeles, grito imperiosa en busca del eterno descanso que llevo mendigando desde aquel día que mi alma murió pero que mi cuerpo no.

Por fin vienen por mi, me tomarán en sus brazos deseándome enseñar el nuevo mundo, deseándome y punto.

[whatarubberchicken]

Lukadrinette - Part 2

I feel bad not getting my Marichat May fics in, but damn they got dark all of a sudden. To make myself feel better, have another section of the fic that’s currently eating away at my mind:

First part is here.

Again, adult language and situations going on. This happens years after the show.

Seguir leyendo

[ladyanput]

For the Salt!Prompts, my HC Adrien is abused in his household. When with the people he's comfortable with he's practically like a kitten, trying to soak in the love he's been neglected of. No one ever sees what he looks like when someone pushes him. Until Lila tries to kiss him, with Alya encouraging her because Lila let out a sob story about how Adrien, her bf, doesn't give her affection in public. (Feel free to use any pairing. Though it'd be cool to see No tearing into someone

Oh yeah, Adrien is abused alright. I think it's pretty much canon at this point.

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Marinette sighed heavily as Adrien practically curled up on her lap as she tried to sketch, shooting a playful glare down at her boyfriend.

"This is getting ridiculous, you know that, right?" Mari gave a wry smile, stroking Adrien's golden hair from his face as she planted a soft kiss on his lips.

"Don't be mean, Mari, he just wants love." Luka easily plucked his boyfriend off his girlfriend's lap and brought him over to Luka's bed for some cuddles. He kissed Adrien softly, causing the boy to purr loudly.

"I know, but I need to have at least another concept fit Jagged by the end of the week." Mari rolled her eyes, but her smile turned tender as she watched her boyfriends.

They were at Luka's place, locked up in his room to be hidden away from the rest of the world for a while; Adrien's abusive father, Marinette's non stop difficulties with Lila, and

Luka with his sudden estrangement from Kitty Section after they kicked him out of the band.

"Just join us, Nette, I wanna cuddle." Adrien whined, eagerly reaching out, making grabby hands in the direction of his beautiful girlfriend. Marinette sighed and gave it, striding over to the bed and snuggling in, Adrien sandwiched between the two people he loved.

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Marinette sighed as she stared out the window at the pouring rain. Adrien was late again, no doubt being held up by that monstrous father of his. She closed her eyes and tried to assure herself that her boyfriend would soon be out of that. Adrien was managing to sneak money into a bank account under his name alone a bit at a time; she was working on commissions more frequently, and Luka has been working extra hard at his job. Hopefully, in a month, they could all move into an apartment together.

Her thoughts were list as soon as she heard sobbing. Marinette watched from her seat in the back of the class as Lila wailed rather loudly, showing theatrics as she sobbed into her hands.

"H- he won't even let me hug him, Alya! We've been dating for over three months and I can't even hold his hand." Lila whimpered, hugging Alya tightly, sobbing into her shoulder as the journalist rubbed her back in sympathy.

"That's just not right." Alya muttered, scowling as she glanced up at Nino. "I understand not rushing into a kiss, but not even hugging your girlfriend? That's just not right."

"I don't know what I'd do if I couldn't hug Mylène." Ivan spoke up, pulling his girlfriend close for a tight hug.

"Or kisses from Juleka." Rose piped up, gripping her girlfriend's hand tightly.

It was then Adrien entered. He looked visibly drained, dark shadows under his eyes, his hair slightly greasy. He paused in the doorway when the entire class turned to look at him.

"Good morning. Sorry that I'm late." He murmured, making his way to his seat. When he took a seat, everyone noticed how he purposely kept as much distance as he could between himself and Lila.

"Adrien, today is a very important day." Alya grinned as she set a hand onto his shoulder, not noticing how he tensed. The sight made Marinette's blood boil as everyone seemed to ignore his discomfort. "Today you finally give your girlfriend a proper hug."

"Wha-" Adrien didn't have time to react as he was shoved into Lila. Her arms wrapped around him like a vice and a warm kiss was planted on his cheek, leaving a pink imprint. Panic set in and he began to tremble. "L- let me go!"

"Come on, Adrien, I just want a hug, it will make me so happy." Lila whined, her grip tightening as she leaned close, her lips pressing against his ear. He flinched as her nails dug into his back. "And we both know your father wants me happy."

His breathing became more frantic before he roughly shoved Lila away, causing her to tumble to the floor. He rushed passed the dumbstruck class, clinging tightly to Marinette. He was on his knees, his arms wrapped around her waist as he sobbed into her lap.

"Mari, please, I can't take it anymore, please, I don't want to anymore." Adrien whimpered, glancing up at his girlfriend. Marinette's tender gaze met his and she nodded, taking his hand into her own and standing, using her free hand to wipe away his tears.

Alya stepped forward as soon as the duo headed towards the classroom door, but Marinette turned and shot her a look that could kill.

"Force him into anything like that again and I assure you it will be the last that you have hands."

Marinette took Adrien back to her place, cuddling with him in her bed as her parents brought them up comfort cookies and hot chocolate. A text to Luka and he was there ten minutes later, joining the cuddle pile.

"You don't have to go back, Adrien." Marinette whispered, stroking Adrien's back, smiling as he pressed into her hand, so starved for a loving touch. "You're eighteen, you don't ever have to go back."

"We'll give you all the love you need." Luka assured, kissing Adrien's cheek, before resting his back against the headboard of the bed. He grabbed his guitar off of the floor and began to play a soothing soft as Adrien curled up on his lap, with Marinette stroking his head.

The young model fell asleep surrounded by love, his mind finally at ease.

[ellohcee]

Lukadrinette

So I’ve been drawn onto this train, and I wanted to make a list of things I see happening with them

Lukadrinette Headcanons (older, let’s say 20)

-Marinette is the first one to notice that not only does Luka look cute and blushy around her, but Adrien as well. He gets especially flustered when they’re both in the same room

-He’s super chill with everyone else, but when Mari or Adrien is around he is a total dork, and she brings this up to Adrien and come to an agreement

-Luka is knocked on his ass when Marinette and Adrien ask him into their relationship

-Like these two literal angels that he’s been crushing on want to date him??

-Cuddle piles

-Hand holding, Marinette likes to walk between the two boys and hold one hand each, but they will switch it up

-When Luka plays a concert with his band, the other two can be seen losing their shit in the audience, yelling “that’s our boyfriend!!” amidst the cheers as they jump and cling to each other

-Luka wanted Adrien in the band on keyboard, but he’s much busier between modeling and classes now that he’s older, almost as if Gabriel is trying to keep him busy…

-Marinette will sing to herself as she does stuff around the apartment, and Luka will start following her around and playing backup on guitar

-Luka gets piercings, mostly in his ears, rings and studs, and one over his eyebrow

-The other two love it, whenever he’s worrying that another one will be too much, they encourage him relentlessly

-The ear piercings can get a little uncomfortable in the cuddle pile, because suddenly ow there’s a stud poking me in the boob Luka can you please not

-Marinette likes to borrow either of their shirts occasionally to wear around the apartment as something comfy

-The boys are All For This

-Adrien likes to steal Luka’s jackets

-When the time is right Mari and Adrien tell Luka they are Ladybug and Chat Noir

- Luka is thunderstruck, standing in awe and whispers ‘I’m dating two superheros’

-Because he had his suspicions about Mari for a long time, but he had no idea with Adrien

-Now they can start freely using their ‘Bug’ and ‘Kitty’ nicknames again

-The first Akuma attack after this Luka is a Ball of Nerves watching the fight on TV

-He knows the duo can handle themselves, he’s watched them do it for years, but everything’s different now. Those are his partners out here and oh my god they just got flung into a wall

-When they get home after the fight, Ball of Nerves runs to greet them, asking if they’re okay, just barely keeping from losing his shit but radiating worry and fear

-The cat in Adrien takes over and he hugs them both and purrs, just, so loud, trying to calm Luka down and tell him it’s okay we’re here, we’re fine, we’re not leaving you

-Luka starts plotting ways he’d beat the shit out of Hawkmoth if he ever gets the chance

-Seriously. He’s on the list.

[paintingsunsets]

[macaria-rosetti]

I crave death as the same way I crave for being released from this mirror that holds my true self.