if there was only something between us
Tilting his head at the morticianās willingness to stay out in the cold and the rain, Danny smiled. āYouād stay out here just for me?ā he asked. āYouāre ridiculous. Youāll get pneumonia.ā He picked up Mackenzieās hand again and began to stroke his fingers and trace along the insides of his palm. He felt so calm with Mackenzieās head resting on his shoulder, he almost forgot about the urge to kill that was bubbling up inside of him. To make things safer, he took another sip of holy water and gritted his teeth against the burn. He was becoming used to how it felt but that didnāt mean it was any less painful. When the aching subsided, he looked around for a shelter. He spotted the gazebo in the distance. āLetās at least get out of the rain. I donāt want you to get sick, even though you deserve it, you bastard.ā He chuckled and helped Mackenzie get up.
They walked together to the decorative gazebo which had roses and vines trailing up the sides. It looked like it was in disrepair to an extent but it wasnāt falling apart. There were a couple leaky holes in the roof but the benches werenāt wet so it was still a fine place to sit. He sat down with Mackenzie next to him and reached over to give the mortician a hug. To answer his question after the long silence, he kissed Mackenzieās forehead. āI never stopped loving you,ā he said. āI doubted myself time and again for it but I never stopped loving you. Itās funny, I should be absolutely livid since you murdered me, but I missed you. Honest to God, I wanted to break your neck at first, but now I just want to kiss you.āĀ
Maybe this was a sign that they truly were dangerously codependent on one another but Danny didnāt recognize his forgiveness as something wrong. They were a couple who abused one another in a vicious cycle of hurting then forgiving then hurting again and never giving up because they couldnāt see life without one another. Neither of them fully realized it, though sometimes they had glimpses of reality in which they could recognize how unhealthy their relationship was truly. However, that didnāt seem to change their attitudes towards one another a bit. Here they were, kissing and hugging like nothing had ever even happened. Like Danny had never struck Mackenzie out of anger, like Mackenzie had never killed Danny, like they had completely forgotten about what theyād done to one another.Ā
Danny stroked Mackenzieās cheek tenderly and gazed into the morticianās brown eyes with nothing but love in his own. Somehow despite everything theyād been through, it only served to strengthen their bond together. Not even death could separate the two of them. He leaned in towards Mackenzie and kissed him again, and then again, and again after that until they were making out in a gazebo in the pouring rain. The world seemed to disappear. With a final kiss, Danny pulled away and smiled. āMackenzie Tyler,ā he said, āIād let you get away with murder.ā
Mackenzie was shocked that Danny hadn't killed him yet. He was wary that it was all just an act, that Danny was going to turn on him sometime in the future, but he just couldn't accuse him of something like that. "You never stopped loving me?" He echoed. These words rung foreign in his head like a distant church bell. "Danny... I held you down, I slit your wrists and I shot you with my bow and arrows twice. I wanted to make sure you were very very dead. There's no room for error. Why would you still love me after you know I had every intent to make sure you died?" He couldn't understand it. Even after all the forgiving they'd done to one another every time something happened it was still confusing to him.
Of course he did happen to remember all the times he forgave Danny for hitting him or even breaking his arm once. Maybe it was true what the others said and maybe they really were too close. If they could get away with abusing each other and still claim to love each other at the end of the day, something must be wrong. Mackenzie knew that. He was smart. But his emotions were getting in the way. Every word Danny said made him fall in love with him all over again. The kissing didn't help anything either. It just reminded him of old times and he blinked back tears. He felt horrible for the fact that Danny was dead because of him. "You did let me get away with murder." He sighed. "I feel like you shouldn't even be talking to me. You should be angry with me. Why aren't you angry?"










