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somethings haunt me

I lie awake on the bed

stare into nothingness

and replay the scenario

like a tape-recorder

wondering where it all started

and why I am not out of this loop

Will I exit this circle?

Or will I be laying here

and faking all what-ifs

#thoughts #qoutes #madhaviv #random writes

you were color in my life I never painted

you were poem in my life I have never written

you were start in my life I have never pointed at

you were sun in my life I squinted my eyes at

was it a bump in the road or an elaborated illusion

will I find you or will you be a mirage

#thoughts #qoutes #random writes #madhaviv

The urge to pack my bags and walk out of the door this second is up til my neck

the dreams, memories, clothes, pictures and videos stuffed into it

just to walk out of the door

but something was pulling me back

is it my fear that I cant depend on you anymore

or is it my frustration that I cant take another step forward

I turn around and there you are standing in your glory

looking at me, fear filling your eyes

thoughts running in your head

I drop everything, turn around

screaming, crying and grieving

thinking you will understand me

but alas, that was not the scene

your obstinate behaviour is seeping out of you

I run into my room, crawl to the corner and bawl my eyes out

making myself small and small to fit into your image

and hiding from the world that you are not letting me explore

#thoughts #qoutes #madhaviv

She's drowning in sorrow, lost in her mind,

Her heartache so deep, impossible to unwind,

She's trying so hard, to fight through the pain,

But the weight of the world, is driving her insane.

She's screaming for help, but no one can hear,

Her fears and her doubts, they're so crystal clear,

She's struggling to cope, with all that's at stake,

And the only solace, is the darkness that awaits.

#thoughts #qoutes #madhaviv #my poem #depressing poem

Lost in a world of make-believe,

Where pain and sorrow, take their leave,

A flicker of light, on a screen,

That transports me, to another scene.

The characters come alive, before my eyes,

And I'm no longer, in my own disguise,

Their stories, their struggles, become my own,

As I escape, into this alternate zone.

The present fades, as the story unfolds,

And I'm lost in a world, that's not my own,

A moment of solace, in a world of chaos,

A sanctuary, from the battles I've lost.

But as the credits roll, and the screen goes black,

I'm jolted back, to my own track,

The problems I've left, still linger on,

And I'm forced to face, what I've been running from.

So I turn back, to the world outside,

Where reality bites, and I must abide,

But the memories of that world, still remain,

A fleeting escape, from the pain.

#madhaviv #thoughts #qoutes #random writes #lost in make believe world #poem

Pacing in my bedroom, my mind racing too,

Lost in thought, not sure what to do.

The world outside seems to move so fast,

But in my room, time seems to last.

My thoughts are loud, like a thousand drums,

Pounding in my head, until the chaos becomes numb.

The floor beneath my feet feels hard and cold

As I pace back and forth, feeling so old.

I close my eyes, and feel the peace within,

The chaos fades away, like a fleeting sin

#thoughts #qoutes #random writes #madhaviv

Swimming in the sea above Floating in the clouds below With the sun on your skin, and the wind in your hair, A different world, so light and free, A place to dream, to imagine and to be Each a different world, a different place, A world of wonder, a smile on your face.

#random writes #my thougts #my thoughts #madhaviv

She was a rainbow, a spectrum of hues,

A burst of color in a world of blues.

Her spirit danced, her smile lit up the sky,

A brightness that could never be denied.

But he was colorblind, he saw the world in shades of grey,

Unable to appreciate the beauty that came her way.

He missed the reds and greens, the yellows and the pinks,

The vibrant life that made her heart sing.

#thoughts #She was a rainbow but he was colorblind #aesthetic #madhaviv

Secret meetings behind the stall

Stolen glances and kisses

Craving for your touch in-front of them

I can see you, but cant feel you

The distance is killing me

Silent sobs through night get me

Eyes are puffy, cheeks are red

for we didn’t make it through that evening

Reminiscing the distant memory

Watching a couple in the restaurant corner

Daydreaming its you and I

Guess we were never meant to be

No more clandestine meets behind the mall

It’s a wonderful feeling to be loved

Dancing in the kitchen with no music on

That’s the feeling I longed for and dreamt of

#random writes #thoughts #madhaviv

I’m still in the theatre

sitting in the corner that haunts me

thinking about you in the dim light

when I was still the one you want

everything was just right

but I can feel the mascara run down my cheeks

heart shattered like glass.

Still at the restaurant

when I was the one you want

the familiar ache when I remember you

snaps me from the reverie

and breaks my soul

Its time to go

but I’m right where you left me.

#qoutes #remembering you #moving on #i’m still here #thoughts #penned #madhaviv

Your skin glimmers in ways the sun can only dream of, a constellation of golden freckles that steal moments away from the sky above, gilded reflections hidden behind the open sea of your eyes, softened lips that hold a cloud of even softer memories.

No earthly sound ever as sweet nor as gentle as the sound of you. You breathe a breath of fresh air, an escape from reality beyond this world and into the next.