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lxonessa:

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If it weren’t obvious enough from her dealings with her true alliance, things were coming to a real fever pitch amongst the settlements. Pan knew Rick was in the process of aligning those who weren’t Saviors - Hilltop, Alexandria, and the Kingdom. Pan had no clue how successful he’d been, choosing to get more information that could be helpful and spend her time amongst the Saviors. Sometimes she disliked how at home she felt inside Sanctuary. It wasn’t too early in the evening - the sun still fell above the horizon, and she finds herself sitting with Harper once more.

“You know….. I’ve been thinking about the stuff we’ve talked about, kid.” Pan speaks up, breaking the silence of the surrounding forest. “How badly you’d like to get out of the Saviors.” Her head slowly swivels to look at the younger. “I….. What if I said I could help? That I know more than you think?” Pan would hate for Harper to lose her life in the upcoming possible fight, and she trusts her as well. Silence follows, waiting to see if she’ll bite.

harper’s been here way too long. she knows the ropes - the names - the routes. she knows the rules - the arrangements - the pros and the cons... but there are definitely more PROS to it all than she’d ever like to admit. the saddest part is that she knows there’s no real ESCAPE. her best chance is to make a deal with the big guy himself and hope and pray that he says yes but deep down inside she can already hear him saying “ NO. ”

she’s denied the position of WIFE so many times she knows she isn’t on his good side.

the woman’s voice breaks the silence. it snaps harper out of that daydream state of pretending she’s anywhere but HERE and her expression immediately turns sour despite the small grin she had only moments before. her eyes cut sharply towards pan, brows knitting into a frown as ears remain open for listening.

but what she hears is exactly what she WANTS to hear.

“ yeah? and how do you plan on doing that? ”

#; ( RP. )#; ( DEAD GIRL WALKING. )#lxonessa

abittangledup:

there’s another pause, and the silence between them doesn’t sit well with her. nor does the calmness of harper’s attitude. this has NEVER happened in the entire time she’d known the hot tempered woman. eyes narrowed further and she took a step forward, arms crossed.

“……..yeah…….and then we had to deal with a different group, and there was a horde, that’s when i got separated and met you.”

“i’d ask what you know, but i don’t believe half the shit that comes outta your mouth so, i feel we should en the conversation here before one of us does something that gets us both thrown in the hole.”

“ then you’re not gonna like it when i start listing the people he’s killed, huh ? ” a SADISTIC sort of smile in a way, lips curling past teeth only slightly and brows raising. she shifts her position a bit, rolls her shoulders a tad.

“ i’ll start saying names and you stop me when you’ve had enough. ”

#; ( RP. )#; ( DEAD GIRL WALKING. )#abittangledup #;c: O GOD

continued.

instead of immediately losing her temper, harper tries a different approach this time. she keeps her eyes steadily focused on liz, brows slightly furrowed at the slight raise in the other’s voice and she... stays quiet. her hands mess with the hem of her shirt idly as all the words pass through her mind and then it begins to occur to her...

liz doesn’t know.

“ wait... y-- the satellite. that was a while ago, right ? you... huh - shit, alright. ”

#; ( RP. )#; ( DEAD GIRL WALKING. )#abittangledup

lxonessa:

“You know you could find a better use of our time here than complaining. Maybe attract a few walkers so we have something to kill - ?” Pan returns, still looking out over the surrounding area.

“I don’t particularly like my current situation either, but it’s far better than it could be. I half expected to be killed on sight when I came across everyone.” The woman shrugs, reaching to flick away a stray bead of sweat. “You’re just bored. Find something to do - I can handle watching.”

“ just bored. right. ” harper gives the over-exaggerated roll of her eyes and spins on her heel to pace along the area a bit. she keeps in mind all that pan’s said to her but if she actually decided to care, it would make a huge difference in the outcome.

but she doesn’t care. not anymore. she’s tired of being here and it’s very evident and obvious by attitude and actions alike that she’d rather be anywhere but here. anywhere.

maybe even DEAD.

“ if i could find something to do, don’t you think i would’a done that by now ? maybe even gotten in TROUBLE for it ? threatened ? isn’t that what usually fucking happens in this place ? ”

#; ( RP. )#; ( DEAD GIRL WALKING. )#lxonessa

lxonessa:

Pan merely adjusts her hood - rifle propped across her lap, one leg up and anchoring her while the other hangs loose. She’s had to sit and keep watch as a sniper before, and being in this for the long haul wasn’t something she wasn’t used to. She welcomed it, really. No Dwight in sight and no Negan to listen to. This was fine with her, but Harper’s attitude was something she could do without. “Tch - you think I do? It’s probably one of the easiest things we could be doing right now.” Pan retorts.

Nudging the other where she’s at, Pan tilts her head. “Would you rather be on fence duty – ?”

“ do you automatically assume that my ass wants to be planted within these walls at any given time or...? is that just a hunch? ” her attitude seems to get the best of her. usually when that happens, it sends her on a tangent of words that sometimes don’t fit that well together... but still somehow make sense.

“ i think i’d actually rather be fucking dead in a ditch somewhere. ”

#; ( RP. )#; ( DEAD GIRL WALKING. )#lxonessa

continued.

“ uh. no. why do y-- ”

a rather irritated sigh. harper shifts her weight to one foot and right back again. eyes dart away from the woman’s face with a bit of an eye-roll and tongue runs across her teeth with the intent to hold in the words that she’s just ACHING to spit out.

but that doesn’t last long.

“ i don’t want to fucking be here, alright? ”

#; ( RP. )#; ( DEAD GIRL WALKING. )#lxonessa

nowhere to run from all of this havoc. nowhere to hide from all this MADNESS.

#; ( ZZZ. )#; ( PROMOTION. )#;c: as good as its gonna get rn

capabiliityarchive-blog

ahs: murder house sentence starters

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capabiliity

❜ the light is different out here. it’s softer. ❜

❜ so we’re the addams family now. ❜

❜ that girl is a monster. ❜

❜ jesus h. christ. ❜

❜ can i ask you a personal question? ❜

❜ don’t make me kill you again. ❜

❜ is there anything more wonderful than the promise of a new child… or more heartbreaking when that promise is broken? ❜

❜ i’m trying very hard not to judge you. ❜

❜ but i was never unfaithful. ❜

❜ i’m not usually much of a cupcake girl myself… ❜

❜ i’d kill to live in this house, regardless of the history! ❜

❜ i don’t want to be here anymore! ❜

❜ try to find some dignity in the situation. ❜

❜ every time I find my heart breaking just a sliver for you, i suddenly remember. you made this mess for yourself. ❜

❜ i’m not naive to the ways of men. ❜

❜ you say we were victims of something bad there. i say that’s the place where we survived. ❜

❜ i am trying here! ❜

❜ everybody thinks they have style, and everybody thinks they’re funny. most people aren’t. ❜

❜ i think you should just leave. ❜

❜ the one thing about the dead is they’ve got nothing left to lose. ❜

❜ you hear me? i will kill you. ❜

❜ screw high school. that’s… it’s just a blip in your timeline. don’t get stuck there. ❜

❜ we need the money. ❜

❜ i’m finding it really hard to look at your face. cause i really, really, really want to bash it in. ❜

❜ but i’m not going to be your friend. i will merely tolerate you. ❜

❜ why are you bullshitting me?!? ❜

❜ sometimes shit just happens. ❜

❜ the dead can hold a grudge better than most scorpios. ❜

❜ fags have such a great eye for detail, don’t they? ❜

❜ i’m going to have a little glass of this chardonnay. ❜

❜ as you can see, this room belongs to a sad, depressed teenager. ❜

❜ why are you being such an asshole? ❜

❜ this turns you on. i know it does. ❜

❜ depressing sex is even more depressing when you try so hard. ❜

❜ did it hurt? the first time usually does. ❜

❜ they’re just trying to scare you. ❜

❜ i’m open to suggestions. ❜

❜ i think i have mommy issues. you know a good therapist? ❜

❜ you’re kidding me. i thought you said you hated her. ❜

❜ i have long stopped asking why the mad do mad things. ❜

❜ as big as this place is, it does get very lonely. ❜

❜ watch it, you goddamned queen! ❜

❜ what are you gonna do? murder me? ❜

❜ we’ll make excellent parents. ❜

❜ seriously, though, are you ready for all this? i mean, you never struck me as the diapers and midnight feedings type. ❜

❜ he’s the most beautiful baby i’ve ever seen. ❜

❜ from blood and pain come perfection. ❜

❜ my mom is dead. ❜

❜ why would i do that? ❜

❜ i used to think you were like me. ❜

❜ you are the darkness. ❜

❜ you are the only light i’ve ever known. ❜

❜ you have to pay for what you did! all the pain you’ve caused, all the sorrows. ❜

❜ i can’t be with you, i won’t be with you. ❜

❜ go away! ❜

❜ are you sure you want to be alone? they say this house is haunted. ❜

❜ you’re kind of twisted, aren’t you? ❜

❜ you’re charismatic and compelling and a pathological liar. ❜

❜ ever since I was a little girl, I knew I was destined for great things. ❜

❜ but… my dreams became nightmares. ❜

#; ( A CALL TO ARMS. )

lxonessa:

Her grip only tightens, her free hand moving to hold the back of her pants as well. Pan knows this is one of the few ways she can restrain this stranger without doing much harm.

“I was hoping you’d do that, actually.” Comes a growled reply. “I’m trying to keep this as easy as possible - it’s not like you’re in bad hands anyways. All you have to do is listen.”

it’s not really that it’s an uncomfortable feeling... okay, it is. it’s an uncomfortable feeling that makes her skin crawl and she tries her best to break away from the hold. harper isn’t particularly keen on being touched, so this is on an entire new level of STOP.

at this point, she’s white-knuckling the neck of the bat. luckily, she chooses this time to open her ears and give a LISTEN to what this woman is saying - but by the time it’s been said, she’s already laughing.

“ you’re kidding me, right? i’m not in bad hands -- i shouldn’t be in ANY hands. ”

#; ( RP. )#; ( DEAD GIRL WALKING. )#lxonessa

continued.

“ hah -- ” a pathetic half-assed laugh. harper writhes a bit and keeps shoulders hunched as if the movement will help her gain any sort of upper hand. teeth clench and brows furrow into a scowl while the only response she gives is grasping the handle of the bat harder in her right hand.

“ you honestly think i’m gonna do that...? i’m not STUPID. ”

#; ( RP. )#; ( DEAD GIRL WALKING. )#lxonessa

hellofahit-blog

memeroundups:

Confrontation! Sentence Memes

You don’t think of anyone but yourself.

Admit it, you’re scared aren’t you?

You’re out of control!

I hardly ever recognize you anymore, you’ve changed.

You spend all your time locked up doing lord knows what!

Don’t sneak up on me like that.

I heard the commotion last night… it must of been a terrible dream.

Listen, about last night…

Here’s a tip, stop hiding behind excuses each time someone is worried about you.

Why are you alone most of the time?

Weren’t you friends with them?

Aren’t you tired of lying to yourself?

I should have known better… than to be fooled by you.

You’re pretty satisfied with serving on your knees most of the time, huh?

Quit getting in my face.

I’m warning you, get off my back.

I didn’t need your help.

You say you don’t recognize me, but you’re the one who’s changed.

When will you quit pretending to care? I’m tired of your lip service.

You can’t stand being next to me. Why is that?

Not everyone is going to leave you, but not everyone is going to stay.

You’re gonna get nothing but sass from me if you don’t change the topic.

How many have you killed?

What if they catch you?

This is dangerous…

I know you didn’t have the best relationship with your father/mother…

You’re tired of fighting, aren’t you?

What have you ever gotten out of this?

They’re using you.

I was only using you.

I’ve known your secret this entire time.

Do you really think no one will find out?

Someone is bound to see the true you and I’ll be there for your reckoning.

You only push me away. Let me help.

Are you suggesting we commit treason?

Stop. I won’t have these unnecessary misgivings. Focus on your task.

Your skepticism is easy to read. What is it that you’re doubting?

In the end, you’ve only gotten more pain. I’m sick of this.

You’re going to run away?

Make no mistake, we’re not friends.

You’re low. Lower than scum.

I’m only helping you this once.

Be a little more grateful about my help, you would of been a goner.

You can’t do this alone, let me go with you.

You keep can’t doing this yourself, let me intervene I’m sure we can resolve this.

You keep being singled out, it isn’t fair.

Quit mothering me, I said I’ve got this under control.

Maybe you should stop worrying about me and look at yourself first.

Help me? You could hardly help yourself.

Of course making friends would be easy for you, you’re eager to please.

You really are an emotionless robot.

Don’t touch me.

Get out.

Get away from them!

Watch out!

You’re in danger.

Your loved one is in danger.

If you won’t do it, I’m sure your friend wouldn’t mind being in your place.

Please. Talk to me.

Don’t you ever say that again.

Shut up!

Let go of me.

Tell them how you really feel.

You’re not fooling anyone with your haughty display of strength.

Tell me where it is.

You said you’d never lie to me.

There’s nothing wrong in doing what is absolutely necessary. The ends justify the means.

You obey order without question, you’re just a docile dog aren’t you? No, maybe a pup.

Maybe if you stopped being such an ice queen people would enjoy being around you.

#; ( A CALL TO ARMS. )

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I’ve spent so much time living in survival mode.

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Listen—are you breathing just a little, and calling it a life?

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