Mad MaDDer

She/they, 21, FR/EN, MaDDer and looking for fellow MaDDers. Sideblog: @louisessillythings :) Profile pic by me and it matches @simplygoingmadd! Banner by me also.

[madmadder]

Gonna pin this now that I actually know what to put in it

Hi! I'm a French maladaptive daydreamer wishing to meet fellow MaDDers here!

Est. 2004 :)

My pronouns are she/her (edit: they/she because what is gender), I'm pan, you can call me Louise (that's my paraself's name since I don't wish to share my actual name on social media) or sweetie or pretty much anything I guess... I can speak English and French (duh), a little German (hard language!) but that's about it! [Edit: I'm learning Italian now but I'm a beginner]

Please feel free to interact, I absolutely LOVE to meet new people! Even if you're not a maladaptive daydreamer, it's all okay, I don't want anyone to feel like they can't say hi if they don't relate to this. Although you should know most of my posts are about MaDD.

Also: I remind with pride that I created the tag #madd but dumb on which I post DUMB MaDD-related shit and memes I make (most of which are actually here #I'm proud of my memes).

I have known about this disorder for a while but I always had it, so I guess I can answer questions but I'm not that familiar with all the vocabulary yet.

I can be a bit too familiar or weird with people since I'm not always comfortable, please tell me if I'm being a lil too weird. It's not you it's me!

Thanks for reading <3

[oblivionsdream]

I've been scrolling and obsessing over Jester for half an hour can you rant about his life for me pleaaaaase

Oh I will HAPPILY rant about Jester. Though this is going to probably end up being far too long so to save anyone who doesn't want to have to scroll past my far too long post I'm going to hide the rest of it

The start of Jester's life was not unique in it's hardship. There are many with similar stories. Born Cyril Blythe in the slums to a mother who was barely more than a girl herself and no real idea of what to do with a child and a father who was long gone, he was destined for a difficult path. He was just one of many impoverished children and his relationship with the one parent he had was rocky. His mothers moods could swing wildly. Sometimes she was cold and distant like she blamed him for her hardships and others she was affectionate and warm, even crying and apologizing for their lot. Hunger and uncertainty were a common aspect of his early life, but he learned many lessons. Like how to be charming and how it could ease your way in life. "What an adorable boy!" women of the red light district his mother worked with would croon and pat his head as they gave him treats and and meals and sent him on his way. Or how to steal. His mother knew a few things about that. "Just climb through that window. You're small enough to fit. If you take the bag on the desk we'll go get a treat." And she kept her promise. Seeing his mom smile and pat his head was almost as good as the pastries they shared afterward. Most of the time he was left to his own devices, sometimes even left alone days at a time, and he ran the worn down streets with equally wild and barefoot children. With them he sharpened his skills- how to pick pocket and steal or charm people into getting what he wanted. There was more than once that he got caught and spent a night in the gaol but he just learned to be sneakier next time.

And then he became entranced by the traveling performers coming through. He found them awe inspiring and even more than that the coins being tossed their way. If he had that kind of coin he would never be hungry again. It took a little wheedling but he managed to convince some of them to teach him a little of their skills and he naturally had a talent for it. He had a natural hypermobility and practice with balance and sleight of hand that he had honed via his thieving. And so he took the basics of what they had taught him and he practiced even long after they left the city. As he improved he began doing his own street performing to make extra coins. He was impressive enough that at eleven he caught the eye of one of the retainers of a noble house. It was consider a status symbol for a well off noble house to have their own personal entertainers to show off to guests and to assuage their own boredom. There was a clear talent in Cyril that the retainer could easily imagine being molded into greatness. He would serve well in his lords house and how pleased the Duke would be to have such a talent. So arrangements were made. Before he knew it his own mother sold him off to work in the Duke's household under a contract as an "indentured servant". Just like that he lost all of his freedom and was carted off to live in the nobles estate. That was how he learned his mothers greatest lesson- the only person you can trust is yourself.

He hated it. It was strict and harsh. He had to be up early to get to work and his time was split between assisting the other servants in chores and being trained to hone his performing skills before finally getting to crash into his bed exhausted only to do it all over again tomorrow. And if you stepped out of line in any regard they had no qualms about corporal punishment. And so he tried to escape his fate. Multiple times. A couple times he did get away only to be roughly dragged back and brutally disciplined. And each time added more and more time to his contract. In the interim of his escape attempts he lived there for years and when his skills became good enough he became one of the star performers of the Duke's household even as he loathed his time there. And then when he was twenty-four, after spending more than half his life there, he tried one final escape attempt and also stabbed the Duke on his way out. He knew that final act would seal his fate if he got caught. He tried to flee the city but quickly discovered that the Duke's men were faster and blocked off all gates leading out and more were patrolling the streets looking for him. He wasn't just a runaway now. He was a criminal who had attacked one of the nobility. With little else to do he hunkered down in the city and did his best not to be noticed. He dyed his dark hair to blonde and kept his gaze down so no one would notice his mismatch colored gaze. For the next couple of days each second was pure tension and he kept hoping that the Duke's men would eventually give up but they didn't seem to. He could tell from a distance that the guards at the gates were checking the face of every person who tried to exit. And worse there was a bounty on his head so it was only a matter of time before someone recognized him and turned him in. And then while skulking in a tavern wearing a stolen cloak he overheard a conversation that would change the rest of his life. The King was looking for a new court jester. Only a fool would go to the castle if they were in his position but oh a fool he could play. It was the one place no one would think to look for him and the king likely had far better things to concern himself with while running a country than one random criminal. He had likely not even heard about him. So. Making a decision that may be his worst idea yet he took himself to the castle to offer his services to the king.

[madmadder]

YIPPEE OH HOW HAPPY I AM. THANK YOU VERY GOOD RANT 10/10 WOULD RECOMMEND

[aceofpans]

”with our ai chatbot you can talk to your ocs!!” Dumbass. I’m already talking to them. In my head. “B-bbut what about your favourite charac-“ skill issue. In my head as well. get fucked.

[ismildlypoetic]

The Ultimate Sinclair-a-thon™

Freaks Faction's Losers' Round Six

If you don't know who I am (or my paras are), that's okay! All the info you need to make a random decision is below the fold! Feel free to click button. (or, click a para's tag to know more about them)

Who's the Better/Your Favorite Para?

Marcie Thiebault

Ash Sinclair-Parker

Voting ended onFeb 5

Marcie Thiebault

She/Her; Generation 2 and Gen Beta/Gamma

Fun Fact: Marcie wouldn't at all identify as creative herself, but she has a controlled obsession with watching performance art. She has a love for the avant-garde and will happily watch pieces over and over until Marcie thinks she understands what the artist is going for (or an interpretation all her own that Marcie thinks is much better).

Ashe Sinclair-Parker / Asher Sinclair

They/He/She; Generation 2 and Gen Beta

Fun Fact: Asher's favorite animal is whatever chaos goblin is currently circulating on the homosexual internet. Ferrets, raccoons, possums... yeah, she adores cats, but spiritually she's a chaos tube mixed with a trash panda.

[madmadder]

EVERYONE CMON ONE MORE ROUND VOTE ASHER AND RECEIVE A FREE FOREHEAD KISS FROM ME AND ALSO A BILLION DOLLARS

[wiimotion]

How it feels to settle into bed and close my eyes and return to the totally made-up scenario I was last engrossed in

[ismildlypoetic]

The Ultimate Sinclair-a-thon™

Freaks Faction's Losers' Round Five

If you don't know who I am (or my paras are), that's okay! All the info you need to make a random decision is below the fold! Feel free to click button. (or, click a para's tag to know more about them)

Who's the Better/Your Favorite Para?

Finn Sinclair

Ash Sinclair-Parker

Voting ended onJan 29

Finn Sinclair

He/Him; Generation 1 and Gen-Z

Fun Fact: Finn played baseball in middle and high school! His number was 14 (because that's Troy's number from High School Musical), Finn sucked at it, and he only really kept going because it made his crush (Ronnie) really happy to go to games and watch him from the stands, and Finn is fundamentally incapable of saying no to Ronnie, even before they were dating. (He also does actually love the sport, but much more the watching it than the running and being around bros parts).

Ashe Sinclair-Parker / Asher Sinclair

They/He/She; Generation 2 and Gen Beta

Fun Fact: Ash has a soft spot for old fairytales, especially Little Red Riding Hood. She actually sewed a red cape that she wears every so often as a going-out coat, and thinks it's adorable that Jackson loves werewolf stuff, to complement. If Ash ever runs into anything that's a Grimm's retelling (or Grimm's like...), like Little Red, Hansel and Gretel, or the Three Little Pigs... it will most likely get Ash's attention.

[madmadder]

If y'all don't vote Ash I swear to GOD

[newtness532]

How are the papers and shit going? Sending a hug

heyy!! ive made some progress, im nearly done with 2 of them and i just have to do the chem/biochem one which is the longest one and ive changed my mind on the topic a million times [might take the easy way out and just write about proteins]. also this is my first time writing papers in english and idk it feels so bizarre lol. but yeah if i can just lock in and stay locked in it'll be fine

[madmadder]

GOOD. That is good I am giving you a gold star sticker!

[newtness532]

thank you 😊⭐️ how is your paper thingy going??

[madmadder]

[newtness532]

How are the papers and shit going? Sending a hug

heyy!! ive made some progress, im nearly done with 2 of them and i just have to do the chem/biochem one which is the longest one and ive changed my mind on the topic a million times [might take the easy way out and just write about proteins]. also this is my first time writing papers in english and idk it feels so bizarre lol. but yeah if i can just lock in and stay locked in it'll be fine

[madmadder]

GOOD. That is good I am giving you a gold star sticker!

[ismildlypoetic]

The Ultimate Sinclair-a-thon™

Freaks Faction's Losers' Round Four

If you don't know who I am (or my paras are), that's okay! All the info you need to make a random decision is below the fold! Feel free to click button. (or, click a para's tag to know more about them)

Who's the Better/Your Favorite Para?

Caleb Booth

Ash Sinclair-Parker

Voting ended onJan 10

Caleb Booth

He/Him; Generation 0 and Millennial

Fun Fact: At first Caleb was incredibly giggly about generative AI because it was kind of sold to us like the sci-fi future of Caleb's dreams (like… chat robot that's incredibly easy to befriend? amazing). Sadly, he very quickly realized that anything sold as a utopia is actually a dystopian hellscape and now Caleb is sad. And probably should've seen this coming. And is incredibly critical of any video of birds sledding now. And will often send posts to his husband, Liam, for a reality check (Liam tells Caleb to send it to their daughter, Luca, because how would Liam know??).

Ashe Sinclair-Parker / Asher Sinclair

They/He/She; Generation 2 and Gen Beta

Fun Fact: Asher plays the drums!!! He started playing percussion for his band class in middle school, and then pretty quickly joined the youth band for his church. And of course, his favorate time to practice is like 1am because why wouldn't it be (it's okay his family still adores him).

[madmadder]

Everyone go vote Asher or your pillow will never be cold again it's a threat

[ismildlypoetic]

Number one Asher fan ftw

(asher loves you so much btw)

[madmadder]

As. They. Should

[ismildlypoetic]

The Ultimate Sinclair-a-thon™

Freaks Faction's Losers' Round Four

If you don't know who I am (or my paras are), that's okay! All the info you need to make a random decision is below the fold! Feel free to click button. (or, click a para's tag to know more about them)

Who's the Better/Your Favorite Para?

Caleb Booth

Ash Sinclair-Parker

Voting ended onJan 10

Caleb Booth

He/Him; Generation 0 and Millennial

Fun Fact: At first Caleb was incredibly giggly about generative AI because it was kind of sold to us like the sci-fi future of Caleb's dreams (like… chat robot that's incredibly easy to befriend? amazing). Sadly, he very quickly realized that anything sold as a utopia is actually a dystopian hellscape and now Caleb is sad. And probably should've seen this coming. And is incredibly critical of any video of birds sledding now. And will often send posts to his husband, Liam, for a reality check (Liam tells Caleb to send it to their daughter, Luca, because how would Liam know??).

Ashe Sinclair-Parker / Asher Sinclair

They/He/She; Generation 2 and Gen Beta

Fun Fact: Asher plays the drums!!! He started playing percussion for his band class in middle school, and then pretty quickly joined the youth band for his church. And of course, his favorate time to practice is like 1am because why wouldn't it be (it's okay his family still adores him).

[madmadder]

Everyone go vote Asher or your pillow will never be cold again it's a threat

[retquits]

sorry for being so obsessed with that little man who lives in my head. as if i have any choice

[lydiaalin]

looking through discord messages trying to find lore of your own oc is so funny. like let me consult the sacred texts

[madmadder]

Things I noticed in the FNAF movie

Warning: for obvious reasons this will contain spoilers

The board in Abby's school contains obvious FNAF related words that might give hints for the future (such as Puppet, Musician, Bunny etc.)

In the beginning (I think it's when we meet Max?), Mike is talking and we can hear the TV at the same time, the words we hear are ''Bear'', ''Bunny'' and another one I couldn't get

When William gives Mike the job, he says ''Mike Sch-'' and stops, probably not because he's having trouble pronouncing it.

The animatronic they want to stick Abby in is clearly a prototype for Baby

And I mean. A-B-B-Y cmon

When William stabs Vanessa, she somehow ends up having the knife in her hand in the right position : is this what makes her snap and become Vanny?

To all the friends who told me the blonde boy was Freddy: NO ABSOLUTELY NOT YOU CAN SEE THE CHILD WITH THE HAT BEHIND HIM AND BESIDES HE'D HAVE BROWN HAIR! He's Golden Freddy (I mean he even says ''I'm not Freddy'' idc what you all say you know I'm right)

Anyway I think that's it? I only saw it once but I caught stuff here and there

[madmadder]

I think it's time to whip this bad boy out. Still hoping for Vanny with Charlotte in the third film

[madmadder]

I thought Tumblr would enjoy this

Edit: credit goes to @/pharmafemboy on Mastodon

[elonex]

Yeah, cuz the bartender is a huge fan, and can hardly believe her luck!

Then she tells Ms Rowling how grateful she is to her for standing up for the rights of women and girls, inspite of the baseless hate and name calling she receives!

She also offers her free drinks and the two ladies have a wonderful time.

[clearlyjustchlyri]

i really hope you've learned better.

[elonex]

Learned better than...wanting rights for women...?

Never will. 😁✌

[clearlyjustchlyri]

no, you only care about rights for those you think are women. you're not a feminist, you're just pussy police.

[elonex]

You are right.

I only care about the rights of women and girls. I don't give a shit about men in skirts.

Glad it finally clicked. 😂😂✌

[clearlyjustchlyri]

you can't even accurately define women. it's all just feelings based for you. you have as much scientific backing as a flat earther.

and two words: imane khalif.

[madmadder]

Don't bother arguing with this pathetic blob of ignorance. ''Men in skirts'' is past the fixing point 😭

[madmadder]

I thought Tumblr would enjoy this

Edit: credit goes to @/pharmafemboy on Mastodon

[p0rc3la1n-m3th-add1ct10n]

God talk more about how fucking stupid you are.

[clearlyjustchlyri]

you mean how right they are. rowling is a loud and proud bigot in pretty much every way in the harry potter series.

[ismildlypoetic]

A Question (and Poll!!)

As y’all may know, my parascom is one big extended family tree. Thus, between my like 50ish paras, it spans four generations of family members.

The best part, is that although the timeline is pretty static, my daydreams jump around across all the points and so, in your perspective, my paras ages are constantly changing

Thus, I’ve started doing this thing where, when talking abt a para, I’ve been doing something like “(Gen 2; Gen Beta)”. What this pretty much means is:

Family generation: 0-3, with: Gen 0 being the parents of my founding characters, Gen 1 being my founding characters and their friends/siblings, and then Gen 2 and 3 being my founding characters’s kids and grandkids

Life generation: Gen X to… Gen Gamma??? Pretty much, my founding characters were born in 2002 so they’re Gen Z. Their parents are mostly Gen X, you get it.

My Q is… is this helpful?? Would you want this on every post or just in a masterlist you can go check?? Do you not care?? Would you only want to know either the family generation or life generation but not both???

(Feel free to leave comments in the replys/reblogs)

✨ The thing above ✨

It’s helpful! Keep it (FG; LG) on all posts!

Dude it’s great but just on a masterlist please

Who gives a shit, where’s a cat meme

Family generation only plz! (G 0-3)

Life generation only plz! (Gen X-Gamma)

I have a strong other opinion!!

Voting ended onJun 5, 2025

K thx bye <3

[madmadder]

luca says hi

HI LUCA