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hi, i'm jay (they/he), and this is where i talk about the little people who live in my head! also called maladaptive daydreaming disorder (MaDD)
please reply, reblog, message, send asks, interact in any way! i write these as a diary i let the world see, but it makes me giggle when people care about these little freaks💜
teenagers: you're welcome here; but if you follow/send me a dm, just lmk or make sure it's on your blog (i won’t follow u back tho)
for everyone: sometimes i post nsfw stuff on here (text only); 99% of the time, i remember to mark it mature and add tws
each para gets a tag; they're tagged if they show up!
this blog is less about the experience of MaDD, and more about me keyboard smashing about my OCs... but that does come up
please do not steal these paras. i plan to one day write a book, and also, you know, they're MaDD paras.
but like... if you did make fan art... show me??? i'd love you forever??
never. Never. put my posts, paras, or ‘art’ into AI. it will be an automatic block. this blog is, and always will be, gen-ai free.
✨i hope you have a good day; please go do something that makes you smile; remember you're awesome (dftba) and loved💜
more people should write alloromantic characters in qprs tbh. i mean more people should write qprs in general in all circumstances but my particular hill to die on tonight is more alloromantic characters in qprs. in qprs with aromantic partners, in qprs with another alloromantic partner, in qprs with other characters where they could technically have compatible orientations romantically but that's not what kind of relationship they have or want anyway.
Hiii, I've had the same paras/OCs for six years now, and their playlists need some revamping. So I'm doing a little series of posts where I give you some songs I like on their playlist. Feel free to reply or reblog with some songs you think I should try!!
Vivienne's Playlist!!
12 tracks | 57:45 length
General vibes: Poet and photographer, Hard rock, ex-Catholic, weed aficionado, Irish music, Ren-Faire bard at heart, aromantic
Hiii, I've had the same paras/OCs for six years now, and their playlists need some revamping. So I'm doing a little series of posts where I give you some songs I like on their playlist. Feel free to reply or reblog with some songs you think I should try!!
Vanessa's Playlist!!
22 tracks | 1:14:13 length
General vibes: Tea-sipping Lesbian, neurosurgeon, Nickelodian kid, ex-Christian, Sapphic Latin alt
Some songs I like on there:
Butterfly Fly Away - Miley Cyrus, Billy Ray Cyrus
Starcrossed Lovers - The Fratellis
Happy & Sad - Kacey Musgraves
Mr. Brightside - Hayley Kiyoko
Jenny (I Wanna Ruin Our Friendship) - Studio Killers
Hiii, I've had the same paras/OCs for six years now, and their playlists need some revamping. So I'm doing a little series of posts where I give you some songs I like on their playlist. Feel free to reply or reblog with some songs you think I should try!!
Sam's Playlist!!
17 tracks | 53:23 length
General vibes: Indie songwriter, devout Christian, protest songs, close-knit family, single af
Some songs I like on there:
I Am Woman - Emmy Meli
Like My Father - Jax
Worship You - Kane Brown
Alfie - Lily Allen
Brown-Eyed Girl - Van Morrison
Put a Little Love in Your Heart - Jackie DeShannon
Blowin' in the Wind - Bob Dylan
Here For You - Christa Wells
It Only Gets Better - Wild
Good Day for a Good Day - Michael Franti & Spearhead
Hiii, I've had the same paras/OCs for six years now, and their playlists need some revamping. So I'm doing a little series of posts where I give you some songs I like on their playlist. Feel free to reply or reblog with some songs you think I should try!!
Ronnie's Playlist!!
101 tracks | 5:55:28 length
General vibes: Popular kid -> Immigration lawyer, devout Catholic, DCOM kid, childhood besties -> lovers, Latin pop, Mama Bear
Hiii, I've had the same paras/OCs for six years now, and their playlists need some revamping. So I'm doing a little series of posts where I give you some songs I like on their playlist. Feel free to reply or reblog with some songs you think I should try!!
Roman's Playlist!!
9 tracks | 30:24 length
General vibes: Gymnast/rock-climber/surfer (all-around thrillseeker), brain-surgery survivor, token family heterosexual, good vibes
everyone knows about the filing the serial numbers off that comes with turning a fanfiction character into an original character but theres a lesser known and equally funny "putting an original character created for a preexisting fandom setting into my own world" . like yeah this was always my own oc. i made this guy. however i need to shave off their homestuck horns. dont worry about it. its fine.
Hiii, I've had the same paras/OCs for six years now, and their playlists need some revamping. So I'm doing a little series of posts where I give you some songs I like on their playlist. Feel free to reply or reblog with some songs you think I should try!!
Rhiannon's Playlist!!
16 tracks | 1:03:00 length
General vibes: Bass player, Shakespeare fan, Californian horse girl, Southeast Asian, watching a desert sunset lover after a long hike
Tiebreaker twenty-three!! As always, your options, should you choose: pick a random button, your favorite character, or read the roleplay below to help you. Thanks for playing!!
Who's the Better/Your Favorite Para?
Diego Hoffman-Reyes
Ash Sinclair-Parker
Voting ended onMay 2
Jay: Hello, hello, and welcome to another tiebreaker event!! Today is incredibly bittersweet because we have a moment that's impossible in my actual paracosm: a conversation between my beloved Asher Diego Sinclair and his late grandfather and namesake, Mr. Diego Hoffman.
Let's start like we always do, by centering ourselves on the family tree by yapping about an allocishet white man: Finn Sinclair. Mr. H, would you like to start?
Diego: My relationship to the boy? Officially, he is Stella's child, so Finn's the little boy who lives next door and plays with my daughters whenever he gets the chance. Unofficially... he's like a son to me. His mom works late at a diner—her ex left her before the kid was born, so she needs help keeping watch—so after school and on the weekends, Finn's usually over at my place, doing his homework and annoying my girls. I'm—well, there's my ex-wife's husband too—but I'm one of the only men in his life, so I've agreed with Stella to take some of that responsibility.
I love that kid. Finn's my little helper in the garage—I run a vintage auto mechanics shop—and whenever I get a surrender, he helps me fix it up (then I give his mom a good chunk of the sales for his college fund). I've taught the kid Spanish (because my girls kept using him as an excuse to speak English at home). And he pretends like I don't know about his crush on my daughter, Veronica. I love that kid like my own.
Jay: Awesome, thank you, Mr. H. Asher. What about you?
Ash: Finn's my dad!
Jay: And your mom?
Ash: I have two moms?
Jay: Well, yes. But your Mama mom.
Ash: Oh. Mama is Ronnie.
Jay: So your grandpa was right about your dad's crush on her?
Ash: Yeah? Duh?
Jay: Fair. Anything else you wanna say about your parents?
Ash: Not really. I love them. I'm lucky to have three. They let me keep myJackson. I'm chill.
Jay: I want to give the sentence "They let me keep myJackson" to the Asher that existed the day Finn brought Jax to stay with y'all so bad.
Ash: Yeah, well myJackson was a jerk.
Jay: I know, my love. Okay! Time to think of another question... ooh! This is a fun yet depressing one. So, in the canon, Mr. H, you pass away while Finn, Vanessa, and Ronnie are in high school. And Asher isn't born for like... almost fifteen years later.
So, Mr. H, Asher, if the two of you could go forward or back in time to have a conversation with each other, what would you want to say? For context, Asher also has two older sisters: Samantha and a half-sister named Cassidy.
Diego: Well, that... is a question... I think, first, I'd like to give my children peace and say that I've been there whenever they've needed me, in one way or another.
Jay: That's mostly Finn, and his Visiting Hours by Ed Sheeran-self. He's only in Michigan three times a year—moved to New York when his oldest daughter was born—but he tries to make time to sit with you and infodump about his kids whenever he can, which is at least once a year. And, you know, they all put your picture up in November for Day of the Dead, obviously. Vanessa—she writes to you in her journal, sometimes. And Veronica—I think a part of her will always be in denial. She's a look-forward, not-back type.
Diego: I think I have less to say—I was never the monologing type—and more to do. For my grandson—Does Vanessa have any children?
Jay: Yes? Two adopted sons: Max and Roman. They're twins; she met them when they were five.
Diego: Ah. So my grandsons—same things I did with Finn—fix up some cars with them, go to their baseball games—Do they play sports?
Jay: All of them do. Cassie plays baseball. Sam and Asher are soccer. Max is in ballet, and Roman is in gymnastics.
Diego: And for the girls, spoil them with toys, like I did with my own daughters. All the Barbies, and Poly Pockets, Webkins, and whatever the kids want these days.
Jay: Asher? What about you?
Ash: Hmm?
Jay: If you could time-travel, what'd you want to tell or do with Mr. H?
Ash: Um, I dunno. It's... weird, you know? Mama and Dad, and Aunt Nessa, and my Grandmas and Grandpa Rivera always talk about him. Like all the time. I've seen a hundred pictures and videos, and all that. So like... I dunno... there's not much I'd want to ask, necessarily? That I can't just figure out by, like... asking my parents?
I— the one thing that worries me... so, like, I'm named after him, right? My middle name is Diego. And, so, like, names mean something, and Mama and Daddy have told me that, like, they didn't just pull random names out of baby books. Like, our names mean something.
So like... I dunno, I guess I'm supposed to, like, live in Grandpa's legacy, or whatever that means. And... well, one, I'm trans. I'm genderfluid. Sometimes I'm a boy, but, like... even if I wasn't trans, I wanna play with Barbies too!! And, like... sometimes I feel like having his name puts so much Pressure on me being the man of the family, and all that, and I just—I'm Not, and I don't wanna be.
So like... I dunno... if I had to do stupid time travel and all that... would he even like me??? Would he be mad that Mama and Dad gave his name to a—
I tried to ask Aunt Nessa once, because, like... well she's gay. Obviously. Aunt Nessa and Aunt Ella. But like... she told me that she never came out to him, because, like, she didn't really know—Well, Auntie knew she liked girls since forever, but she didn't really know it was a Thing to like girls until she was a teenager. And then when she was ready, you know, he got sick really quickly after that. So she has the same questions. Like... would he like Aunt Ella, and all that.
I dunno. This is why I don't like to think about it. My parents are great—I mean, obviously, Mama Quinn is gay, and I think a ton of her partners have been nonbinary, too. And my Grandmas are pretty good about it. They try, at least, and haven't really said anything bad about me being a girl sometimes. And Grandpa Rivera—he... he's like William, I don't think he loves it, but he knows enough not to say anything to my phase. Because, like, my Dad will start a fight. And then they'll both have Mama Ronnie mad at them. But would Grandpa H be like that?
Jay: I don't know either, love. Which is why I'm cutting y'all off here...
So anyway! On that joyous note!! Please vote for either Asher or Diego, to finish off our Grand Finals, and I'll see you in the next one (which will very soon be the start of our Winner's Championship!!!!!) Thanks for reading!!
Tiebreaker twenty-three!! As always, your options, should you choose: pick a random button, your favorite character, or read the roleplay below to help you. Thanks for playing!!
Who's the Better/Your Favorite Para?
Diego Hoffman-Reyes
Ash Sinclair-Parker
Voting ended onMay 2
Jay: Hello, hello, and welcome to another tiebreaker event!! Today is incredibly bittersweet because we have a moment that's impossible in my actual paracosm: a conversation between my beloved Asher Diego Sinclair and his late grandfather and namesake, Mr. Diego Hoffman.
Let's start like we always do, by centering ourselves on the family tree by yapping about an allocishet white man: Finn Sinclair. Mr. H, would you like to start?
Diego: My relationship to the boy? Officially, he is Stella's child, so Finn's the little boy who lives next door and plays with my daughters whenever he gets the chance. Unofficially... he's like a son to me. His mom works late at a diner—her ex left her before the kid was born, so she needs help keeping watch—so after school and on the weekends, Finn's usually over at my place, doing his homework and annoying my girls. I'm—well, there's my ex-wife's husband too—but I'm one of the only men in his life, so I've agreed with Stella to take some of that responsibility.
I love that kid. Finn's my little helper in the garage—I run a vintage auto mechanics shop—and whenever I get a surrender, he helps me fix it up (then I give his mom a good chunk of the sales for his college fund). I've taught the kid Spanish (because my girls kept using him as an excuse to speak English at home). And he pretends like I don't know about his crush on my daughter, Veronica. I love that kid like my own.
Jay: Awesome, thank you, Mr. H. Asher. What about you?
Ash: Finn's my dad!
Jay: And your mom?
Ash: I have two moms?
Jay: Well, yes. But your Mama mom.
Ash: Oh. Mama is Ronnie.
Jay: So your grandpa was right about your dad's crush on her?
Ash: Yeah? Duh?
Jay: Fair. Anything else you wanna say about your parents?
Ash: Not really. I love them. I'm lucky to have three. They let me keep myJackson. I'm chill.
Jay: I want to give the sentence "They let me keep myJackson" to the Asher that existed the day Finn brought Jax to stay with y'all so bad.
Ash: Yeah, well myJackson was a jerk.
Jay: I know, my love. Okay! Time to think of another question... ooh! This is a fun yet depressing one. So, in the canon, Mr. H, you pass away while Finn, Vanessa, and Ronnie are in high school. And Asher isn't born for like... almost fifteen years later.
So, Mr. H, Asher, if the two of you could go forward or back in time to have a conversation with each other, what would you want to say? For context, Asher also has two older sisters: Samantha and a half-sister named Cassidy.
Diego: Well, that... is a question... I think, first, I'd like to give my children peace and say that I've been there whenever they've needed me, in one way or another.
Jay: That's mostly Finn, and his Visiting Hours by Ed Sheeran-self. He's only in Michigan three times a year—moved to New York when his oldest daughter was born—but he tries to make time to sit with you and infodump about his kids whenever he can, which is at least once a year. And, you know, they all put your picture up in November for Day of the Dead, obviously. Vanessa—she writes to you in her journal, sometimes. And Veronica—I think a part of her will always be in denial. She's a look-forward, not-back type.
Diego: I think I have less to say—I was never the monologing type—and more to do. For my grandson—Does Vanessa have any children?
Jay: Yes? Two adopted sons: Max and Roman. They're twins; she met them when they were five.
Diego: Ah. So my grandsons—same things I did with Finn—fix up some cars with them, go to their baseball games—Do they play sports?
Jay: All of them do. Cassie plays baseball. Sam and Asher are soccer. Max is in ballet, and Roman is in gymnastics.
Diego: And for the girls, spoil them with toys, like I did with my own daughters. All the Barbies, and Poly Pockets, Webkins, and whatever the kids want these days.
Jay: Asher? What about you?
Ash: Hmm?
Jay: If you could time-travel, what'd you want to tell or do with Mr. H?
Ash: Um, I dunno. It's... weird, you know? Mama and Dad, and Aunt Nessa, and my Grandmas and Grandpa Rivera always talk about him. Like all the time. I've seen a hundred pictures and videos, and all that. So like... I dunno... there's not much I'd want to ask, necessarily? That I can't just figure out by, like... asking my parents?
I— the one thing that worries me... so, like, I'm named after him, right? My middle name is Diego. And, so, like, names mean something, and Mama and Daddy have told me that, like, they didn't just pull random names out of baby books. Like, our names mean something.
So like... I dunno, I guess I'm supposed to, like, live in Grandpa's legacy, or whatever that means. And... well, one, I'm trans. I'm genderfluid. Sometimes I'm a boy, but, like... even if I wasn't trans, I wanna play with Barbies too!! And, like... sometimes I feel like having his name puts so much Pressure on me being the man of the family, and all that, and I just—I'm Not, and I don't wanna be.
So like... I dunno... if I had to do stupid time travel and all that... would he even like me??? Would he be mad that Mama and Dad gave his name to a—
I tried to ask Aunt Nessa once, because, like... well she's gay. Obviously. Aunt Nessa and Aunt Ella. But like... she told me that she never came out to him, because, like, she didn't really know—Well, Auntie knew she liked girls since forever, but she didn't really know it was a Thing to like girls until she was a teenager. And then when she was ready, you know, he got sick really quickly after that. So she has the same questions. Like... would he like Aunt Ella, and all that.
I dunno. This is why I don't like to think about it. My parents are great—I mean, obviously, Mama Quinn is gay, and I think a ton of her partners have been nonbinary, too. And my Grandmas are pretty good about it. They try, at least, and haven't really said anything bad about me being a girl sometimes. And Grandpa Rivera—he... he's like William, I don't think he loves it, but he knows enough not to say anything to my phase. Because, like, my Dad will start a fight. And then they'll both have Mama Ronnie mad at them. But would Grandpa H be like that?
Jay: I don't know either, love. Which is why I'm cutting y'all off here...
So anyway! On that joyous note!! Please vote for either Asher or Diego, to finish off our Grand Finals, and I'll see you in the next one (which will very soon be the start of our Winner's Championship!!!!!) Thanks for reading!!
“you cannot ship these two fictional characters because—” actually I can because they are not real people. they are just toys I play with. you cannot apply real-world morality to fiction or how strangers play with their imaginary toys in their imaginary sandboxes.
you can, however, curate your own internet experience by minding your own business, muting/blocking/scrolling past what upsets you but does not hurt anyone in real life in any way, shape or form.
“ship whatever you want except xyz. there is a limit” so you miss the entire point of what I just said 👌🏻
there is, in fact, no limit. I may be uncomfortable with it, I may even find it unpleasant/disturbing, but my personal feelings are not rules that can be applied to other people, and they absolutely do not justify shaming or harassing other people.
Hiii, I've had the same paras/OCs for six years now, and their playlists need some revamping. So I'm doing a little series of posts where I give you some songs I like on their playlist. Feel free to reply or reblog with some songs you think I should try!!
Quinn's Playlist!!
78 tracks | 4:34:00 length
General vibes: Multi-millionaire -> middle-class, polyamorous pansexual Domme, reluctant mother, Taylor Swift stan
