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@madnessbypoetry
January 22
There are woman whose kisses can destroy entire ideologies
January 09
I wish i could write more about poetry than i do about politics
However to do so i would need to listen to the birds sing
And Nowadays there are so many warplanes flying i don’t think i can hear them anymore
November 06
I stopped trying to understand life cause i realized i was living a day to day test, when all this time nobody was testing me
Stop planning moves or trying to win every in every interaction
Life is merely an experience so do it just and experience it with your whole being
The only thing promised to us is death so enjoy life before the promise arrives
October 01
I would never change my past
My scars and traumas
Are the only proof
They couldn’t kill gods
August 24
I hope
In the nights
I think about you
You are
Thinking about me
Is it a lot?
June 18
I always loved music
It made me realize
Other people had emotions too
But you were the first one
I ever felt like
Could feel stuff
Just like me
I think about you every year when this date comes up bro
I still listen to your songs just like i did when i was a teenager and they still make me cry and rage like i did back then
I wish i had met you at least once bro, i feel like we would have been good friends
I still check the news every once in a while to see if your son Gekyume is doing well you know?
I wish you saw him dude, he is all grown up and they made a video interviewing him in which he says he loves you a lot and you are his superhero
I hope wherever you are i can go there when i die too and we can meet up to listen to some records and chat
April 11
It is not that i hate suffering
I quite frankly enjoy it
The problem is when it lacks meaning
Why must i suffer?
Give me an answer
If you do
My soul is yours
Take it to heaven or hell
I don’t care
Just give me a reason to suffer
April 04
People ask me a lot if i don’t get scared of fighting, being a MMA fighter and grappler.
I always make up a new reason for fighting and end up never telling the truth you know?
I fight cause it makes me feel alive
There has been so many things in life that made me confused and i felt numb so many times
The thing is the pain is real in fighting
The blood, the pain and the violence
You can’t fake any of that
Hurting people and getting hurt
It keeps me from feeling numb
It keeps me from killing myself
April 02
You are a giant puzzle building itself using the pieces of the people and places you engage with in your life
It is not that you depend on other people or things outside yourself but that you end up internalizing the product of your interactions with them
Internalizing the world is necessary to surpass the concept of dependence by turning it into Self-dependence
The I that sees the world in itself lacks any dependence on things outside the I
Peace comes from Unity with World
March 21
I write the words my mouth can’t find a way to say
I try to forget that which i can’t live again
I thought this was the way
I ended up feeling so plain
Devoid of any will to live again
I feel numb all the time
I miss the pain
March 20
Feeling dysfunctional
Even while succeeding
Feeling sad
Even while dreaming
Maybe i should love myself more
Even if i hate the fact
That i am alive and breathing
March 13
I think my expectations are killing me
Even faster than my sorrows
And way more painfully
Than any drug ever did
March 09
My best friend who i had not talked to in months and whom i had fallen before we fought and stopped talking just called me, she was gonna kill herself
I helped even though i am the one that didn’t want to live until a few weeks ago
Every time i think my life is getting easier it seems the universe finds a way to make it hard again
I fought my mother at the end of last year cause she was making me crazy with her own problems
At the beginning of the year the girl i bonded and connected with for the first time in my life got depressed and dumped me cause she said i wanted something she didn’t want
Now the best friend i thought was missing but was doing well calls me telling me she was gonna kill herself but remembered me and decided to call before doing it
I have indeed realized that my life is not a novel, not a romance and much less some sort of epic story
This is all just a big tragedy
I am the main character
What is the meaning of this story?
March 08
Sometimes i think about the fact that the only way i can perceive the world is through my mind and it makes me scared
Are we all gods in our own little worlds?
Are we capable of molding reality to our desires?
What if i learn to control my mind?
Will i control my world too?
March 07
For a long while i thought
I want to die
And sometimes i still do
But thinking about it
Maybe all i wanted was to be embraced
Even if it was by death herself
March 06
I wish i could be a cloud
Just floating around the sky
Watching people’s lives
Nothing too complicated
Being human is too stressful
March 05
Chasing beautiful things
Maybe the meaning of life is just that
Beautiful people
Beautiful places
Beautiful experiences
Beautiful moments
I feel like that’s what’s keeping me from killing myself you know?