fly me to the moon

maegan. 19. freshman. choreography major. film directing & production minor.

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`⇢ ★ late night coffee 」

irisxgu

( / a smile in contentment forms on her lips as she placed her phone back on top of the table, taking a sip from her iced latte. she did not really expected that someone would actually come over after she had posted that picture on instagram, and so, she was more than happy that someone actually took interest in accompanying her tonight. she took her phone once again from the top of the table, but instead of replying to iris on instagram, she decided to give the older female a text )

[ ✉️  sms »» iris ] i’m just at the window side. tell me if you’re close! 

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irisxgu

iris.cho: I WANNA COME!

maegan_1296: @iris.cho i still owe you some coffee you know!!!

maegan_1296: @iris.cho get your butt down here the cafe outside the campus so i can treat you!!!

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maegan_1296 my daily dose of coffee. ㅋ ㅋ ㅋ now who wants some coffee and sandwich??? anyone?? eat with me?  ㅋ ㅋ ㅋ

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❝ ɪʟʟ ᴀɴᴅ ᴜɴᴡᴇʟʟ — lm & gs.

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seulmigu:

[ ★ ]

     But the mere mention of food strikes an almost painful discomfort in her stomach, causing her to freeze before she can so much as stand on her two feet. When had she last eaten a meal? The inquiry is a mind-stumping one. Two hours? Three? Twelve? Lost in thought, she lays a hand upon her belly and groans dramatically, “I can’t even remember the last time I ate. It was probably years ago.” It is saddening to be hit with hunger alongside several other body weakening sensations eating away at her energy. On the other hand, the female immediately perks up with sudden realization of just who her temporary nurse is. Her eyes brighten with happiness and she blurts out, “Does this mean you’re going to feed me? I hope this means you are offering to feed me because if you’re not then I will be highly disappointed. Deeply saddened because you always feed me when I’m hungry. And you really shouldn’t act this way to someone who is sick.” In emphasis of her sickly condition, Seulmi raises her arm to her mouth and coughs into the crook of her elbow, though considerably less genuine than before. A set of dramatics hinted thoroughly by a slowly appearing grin.

Maegan could only watch the sick girl with a heavy heart. Upon hearing her words of appreciation along with the tap on her shoulder, she couldn’t help but to smile in contentment. She was always that friend, after all – she did liked helping other people after all, she was that friend that you can count on. Maegan was always that type of friend, and so upon hearing the words of appreciation from the other, it made her heart flutter. “Of course, I am your amaezing friend after all.” she almost snorted at her own words, noticing how cheesy it did sounded. “Well, you can use the alcohol, so you won’t stand up.” She smiled, reaching out for it. She opened the packaging carefully. “Give me your hand.” She motioned the other to open her palm so she could pour some of the liquid on her hands.

A heavy sighs escapes from her lips, her instincts were right after all. “Aish, not eating won’t get you anywhere, it will just make things worse. You need to regain your strength.” she stared at her friend with quite disapproval, a half-suppressed frown – almost a pout forms on her lips. The brightness on her eyes, or just on her face in general made Maegan pout even more. How could she say no to that. “I—“ she trailed off, sighing in defeat, she added. “Fine.” her gaze averted as Maegan tried to look around her room, trying to find some food. “Do you even have something to eat here?” she stood up, walking around in circles as she scanned closely to the shelves, on her side table, everywhere really. “Maybe I should go buy some—“ she didn’t even finished her words. “Oh – there’s an instant ramen… here.” she grabbed the cup of instant ramen from the shelf, showing it to the other. “Well, this is better than nothing. I’ll put some hot water on it, then I’ll just bring you something to eat later for dinner, okay? Wait here.” and so, she stormed off the room, going into the open kitchen to get some hot water. 

It didn’t took her long enough though, and after around five minutes she finally got back, the cup finally unsealed, poured with hot water. Once again, she sat on the edge of Seulmi’s bed, the cup of instant ramen still on her hand as she waited for it to be cooked. “Hmmm. It should be done by now.” she took off the lid completely, and with the use of chopsticks that came along with it, she took a few strips of noodles, blowing it a few times since it was still too hot to be eaten. And after a few blows, she gazed at the other with a warm smile. “Say, ahhhhh~”

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`⇢ ★ distractions 」

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seulmigu:

[ ★ ]

( `*; in acknowledgment of the other’s statement, she merely hums. of course the female would still assist her in her studies despite the sudden proposal to be implemented throughout. gazing intently at her friend, she lays her head atop the table once more. seulmi finds it strange that maegan’s eyes stray away from her when discussing the topic of defining ‘anything,’ but she does not bother to directly address it. perhaps she is over-analyzing when she should be contemplating what to request. there are already several ideas in the midst of blooming but she does not want to be too quick when choosing her prize—if she will receive one. ) why would i ever want to get you killed. you are my maeshine and you help me all the time. i really appreciate you and cherish you a lot, so… ( `*; with a sigh, she lifts her head up and rubs her hands together in a motivated fashion. she tugs her textbook close and flips to the correct pages. ) alright, let’s get to work. i think i can do it in ten minutes. maybe fifteen to be safe, but be sure to start with easy questions after i’m done, okay? nothing that will fry my brain. especially since i’m doing this for you, in the end. okay? okay! tell me when to start.

( / maegan could only close her eyes momentarily – the frustration game was too strong today. she knew very well that she was so weak to this. There’s no way she could resist that pout and she could only sigh in defeat ) f—fine..... ( / she said reluctantly ) only because the exam is just a few days ahead, and your time is limited…. ( / still she refused to admit the fact that she was so weak to seulmi’s aegyo and oh how she wished the female doesn’t know her very well – she would most likely use this against maegan often, she could already feel it )

( / however the next succeeding words that left the older’s lips made her cringe to death ) oh my god.... ( / she mutters, immediately covering her ears with her palms -- though it was rather too late ) i didn’t know you were just as greasy as me.... ( / she eyed the latter with quite disbelief. though contrary to her greasiness, maegan however did not like if it was used against her. she does not know how to deal when compliments are thrown at her -- she hated being flustered whenever it happens -- which is what was happening at this very moment. she knew very well that her cheeks were tinted red but she chose to ignore that fact, she tried to remain her usual calm and cool self even though her flustered state was quite evident ) okay. fine. i’ll start with easy questions... ( / nods in agreement, she looks at her watch, trying to take note of the time at this very moment ) your ten minutes...... starts now. ( / her gaze remained at her, motioning her to start with her reading, an amused smile forming on her lips. this was definitely getting better than she expected ) i’ll write down the questions on a piece of paper while you do your...  thing. i’ll leave you alone for awhile. ( / her gaze averts from the latter, trying to leave her at peace. she knew very well that the older was prone to distraction and so she moved her chair a little farther -- but not too far. she pulled out a piece of paper from her backpack and she started to write down the questions, her other free hand covering her handwriting so that the other could not see what she was writing )

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`⇢ ★ distractions 」

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seulmigu:

( `*; eager that the other has so easily taken her distraction bait, seulmi turns fully around in her chair, closing the book before her while she has the chance to do so without being scolded. ) well, i heard that— ( `*; the remainder of her words are drowned out by maegan’s interruption for the second time in a fairly small time period. in all honesty, there is little to be said about “minwoo” because she does not know anything about him. but, somehow, being cut off after minor interest in shown in what she plans to say, it stings slightly. perhaps more so due to the unhappiness that generally comes with being prompted to participate in something undesirable. even if it begins suggested by herself. ) wow. ( `*; that is the only thing that she finds herself able to say. she stares at maegan, steadily growing more dispirited. nevertheless, her mood increases effortlessly when the female’s proposal is left hanging in the air. unconsciously, she moves closer to the other, eyes impossibly wide with enthusiasm now. she quickly forgets about the impossibility to get a word in prior. ) are you serious? can you lower the grade? can’t i just pass? you’re still going to help me out with studying right? i know i can do well if you just stick this out with me. ( `*; pausing in her tirade of questions, thoughts running amok, she is suddenly struck with the realization that she has absolutely no clue what she would like if she were to do as asked. ) i don’t even know what i would i want. do you really mean anything? like, anything? anything in the entire world?

( / she couldn’t help but to chuckle at the obvious enthusiasm laced with her tone. that could only mean one thing though – her plan was actually working. ) okay, okay. calm down. one question at a time. ( / she turn fully around n her chair, now facing her friend as she started to answer her question one by one ) to answer your question – first, does this face doesn’t look serious to you? ( / she pointed out her face, trying to give her a stern look as possible, though she actually failed to keep that face for a very long time and so, she end up suppressing the laugh that wanted to come out of her throat ). nevermind we do know i can never keep a serious face at all. ( / laughs softly before she continued ) but in all seriousness, i am definitely not kidding. second, no, i am not lowering the grade, there’s no fun if i lower it. third of course i am still going to help you, we both know there’s no way you’re going to pass without my help. ( / she nods, before once again turning around to face the table, her gaze averting from the latter ) yeah, anything. well – as long as i can afford it. ( / her shoulder shrugs nonchalantly ) and as long as you don’t want me get killed. then anything really. ( / maegan wasn’t so sure why but she felt rather anxious as to what seulmi might ask, she wouldn’t lie. her curiosity was overflowing right now, she wondered what wish seulmi might want -- hopefully, it isn’t too extreme. she takes a peek at the other from the corner of her eyes, trying to observe the latter if she was feeling rather motivated now – hopefully her plan worked. her hand was now resting against the book ) now….. do you want to start all over again? should i give you twenty minutes instead? you only have to read three pages though…

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`⇢ ★ distractions 」

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seulmigu:

[ ★ ]

( `*; she tries. she really, really tries hard to read the words but after what seems like forever, the writing all seems to blend together into a large mass of undecipherable nonsense. the silence in the library is unsettling. it’s almost too quiet. and, as always, there comes the urge to break that silence. thus, slaps lightly at her leg and sighs heavily when she is forced to return to the beginning of the text due to the information slipping away in mere seconds. ) this is so boring. i can’t read this. this is torture. ( `*; although the time is not yet up, seulmi gasps loudly and turns to face her company, eyes wide with excitement. ) did you hear about minwoo?

well, you know me. ( / winks playfully, laughing obnoxiously after as soon as she realized how greasy was her action. it didn’t took her long enough to calm down though and she tried to regain her composure after a good long laugh that she haven’t had for days -- it definitely just comes out whenever she is with seulmi after all ) ten minutes is long.... ( / she repeats, pretending to give the female sitting beside her a judging stare from the corner of her eyes ) -- ( / she really thought everything was going well seeing that the other seemed to give up in protesting. maegan observed the latter, she couldn’t help but to notice the lack of focus and motivation from her, she could only sigh in defeat. ) this is defintely not going to work. ( / mutters inaudibly as she tried to think of something else that would probably motivate the other but in the midst of her train of thoughts, seulmi managed to spoke out of nowhere which made her taken aback to reality, turning to gaze at her friend ) uhhh.. no? ( / she said reluctantly, eyebrows furrowing in the process ) what about it?

( / before she could even let the other tell her about it, she spoke once again, finally letting her know what she had in mind that could motivate her ) i just had the greatest idea ever. how about.... if you get a grade higher than B, i’ll grant you a wish. it can be anything you want. i’ll take you to anywhere you want, treat you something you crave for, do something you’ve been wanting to do for the past weeks...... sounds fun right? ( / she grins out of excitement ) what do you say?

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haenagu:

( ★ / haena laughed softly though half-heartedly ) you /are/ human, of course. i wouldn’t…uh…like. something else. ( ★ / chews on the inside of her cheek as the other talked, eyes widening when her arm slid around her and pulled her closer, taking a sharp intake of breath ) that’s such…  ( ★ / a sense of greediness overcomes her and she remains silent, averting her gaze ) i don’t ask for hugs from random people. ( ★ / she said in a quiet voice, fumbling with her fingers ) i don’t know what to do with it… i– i thought i’d be out with it before it gets worst… i don’t regret it but i’m scared of being rejected. ( ★ / smiles faintly ) but i don’t expect you to return my feelings. i just want to know so we can be friends comfortably without conflict. ( ★ / frowns at her childishly ) and you’re making it really hard for me. it’s like…you look amused and happy that i’m saying all of these things. ( ★ / crosses her arms against your chest ) are you /enjoying/ this?  

 ( / the mention of haena not asking for hugs from random people did surprised her, she always thought it was a normal thing for the latter, her eyes widening with quite disbelief ) oh wow.. um-- that’s quite a.... shock. ( / smiles softly ) well you wouldn’t know the answer unless you try. but hey, shh. no one’s getting rejected here. there’s nothing to be worried about so.. ( / narrows her eyes as soon as she saw the frown on haena’s face ) no need to frown like that... ( / once again her fingers found it’s way to the corner of the latter’s lips tugging them upwards forcefully ) there. ( / smiles in contentment -- which was replaced by a sly smirk afterwards, her teeth nibbling against her bottom lip as she leaned closer to haena’s face ) what if i actually am? what if i’m actually liking all of this-- what if........  i actually like you? ( / her last words were almost a whisper, tone quite teasing )

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`⇢ ★ distractions 」

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seulmigu:

[ ★ ]

ah! ( `*; she shouts, entire body lurching upwards, startled by the sudden voice in her ears. and if her phone was considered a racket of noise when on the receiving end of messages, this reaction is no doubt several times worse. forcefully sucking in a breath, seulmi whips around to face the culprit of her unexpected torment, only to be surprised by maegan settling into the seat beside her. ) you scared the life out of me. my gosh. ( `*; in retaliation, she lightly slaps at the female’s arm. ) don’t do that again. you’ll get me in trouble. ( `*; with that, she falls back into her chair, gaze heavy on the other. she decides to ignore the intense sensation of several pairs of eyes boring into her very soul, instead giving her attention to flipping through the pages of her textbook. ) for what it’s worth, i browsed the table of contents, the index, the glossary, and the appendix. ( `*; seulmi pauses, a sheepish look on her face. ) in all honesty, i kind of forgot what pages we’re supposed to be studying.

( / the continuous buzz from her phone was ignored and the messages which she assumed was from seulmi remained unread as she continued to venture her way to the library -- she was already halfway anyway )

( / upon seeing the reaction that she was expecting from her friend, maegan let out an amused grin, her hand rubbing that certain part of her arm that took the hit, letting out a soft chuckle. ) okay. shhh. yo, you need chill. it’s just me..... you seemed very serious earlier. for awhile back there i thought you were actually studying but of course we both know that’s impossible. ( / she laughed at her own words before she looked at the other with quite disbelief ) my god – how do you even pass. ( / sighs heavily as she drags her chair a little closer to the other as she remained seated, her head leaning forward as she too a closer look at seulmi’s textbook ) hmmm. as far as i remember, the coverage of the exam starts on page 41. ( / she leans back, her head nodding as she took the initiative to flip seulmi’s textbook to the said page ) you know it’s not that hard…. how about i’ll give you ten minutes to read it then I’ll ask a few sets of questions afterwards? how does that sound? ( / she did not even waited for a response from the other before she had spoke once more ) okay cool. your ten minutes starts now. if you don’t get at least 5 questions correctly you’re treating me ice cream. ( / the corner of her lips tugging in a playful smirk )

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maegan_1296 #OOTD blue and orange does look like a good combination afterall, don’t you think so? ㅋ ㅋ ㅋ

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haenagu:

( ★ / nods, understanding the other perfectly well but couldn’t for the life of her look at maegan again after what she said ) ~ ( ★ / she tried her best to look down and not look up because of curiosity because of maegan’s touch ) it’s okay. ( ★ / she whispered, closing her eyes as she curled her hands into tighter fists to stop from shaking because of her nerves ) i understand. i’m not asking for you– ( ★ / opens her eyes momentarily and blinks at the other ) i– i do. ( ★ / she admitted before she could stop herself, her voice a quiet whisper ) uhm.. i– ( ★ / swallows audibly as maegan leaned closer, her breath hitching the slightest so she placed her palm against maegan’s shoulder weakly in an attempt to push her away, eyes shut tight and head tilted downwards ) it’s just…wrong, okay! we see each other so often and we live in the same room. i feel that i should…i should stop looking for too long or want…wanting to ask for a hug? i don’t know i’m so confused.. ( ★ / she sniffed a little and curled her hand against maegan’s shoulder in a small fist ) i don’t know what to do about this. i don’t even want you to know all of this but i can’t stop…  

 ( / purses her lips together, unable to react with the other’s revelation ) b--but why? i mean, what do you see in me. i just don’t understand-- i mean i’m just an ordinary human being. ( / her both eyebrows furrowed, eyes filled with wonder as her gaze remained at haena ) -- ( / she couldn’t suppress the laugh that slipped out of her throat -- it was almost teasing, obviously quite amused at the other’s attempt to push her away ) you know-- ( / her arm sneakily securing around her roommate’s shoulder, pulling her even closer as her gaze averted, finally looks away to nothing in particular ) i don’t mind. ( / her shoulders shrug nonchalantly ) i mean, i could give all the hugs you need if that would make you happy or if that’s what you need. who wouldn’t want to see that bright smile of yours, i definitely would do anything to make you smile. ( / a comforting smile forms on her lips as she looked at her roommate, her finger leaning to touch the corner of haena’s lips, tugging it upward as if she was forcing her to smile ) well -- unless you want it to stop? are you somehow... regretting that you’re having this kind of feelings? ( / she bit her bottom lip anxiously ) 

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`⇢ ★ distractions 」

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seulmigu:

[  ✉  → amaezing babe. ] of cour

( `*; before she can even finish typing the rest of her short response, her phone pings again, jolting lightly in her hands. the message— the messages that follow the initial question has her rolling her eyes and huffing, though she refuses to pout this time around. how rude to be so blatantly correct. deleting the few characters already written, she quickly replaces them with a more relative reply. )

[  ✉  → amaezing babe. ]  ( ι ´ Д｀)ﾉ  [  ✉  → amaezing babe. ]  i’ll have you know that i am in the library at this very moment. so ha! [  ✉  → amaezing babe. ]  i mean… i haven’t exactly started studying yet, but that’s because you aren’t here! you are my key to success. you are dragging me down by not being here within a respectable amount of time. your class was too long.

[ ✉️  sms »» seulmi ♡  ] HA! i knew it.

[ ✉️  sms »» seulmi ♡  ] i mean it would probably be a huge miracle if you’re actually studying.

[ ✉️  sms »» seulmi ♡  ] we really have this connection and my instincts were never wrong. and my inner senses are telling me that you need my help and so the reason why i texted you.

[ ✉️  sms »» seulmi ♡  ] but fear no more because i , maegan, is finally here to save you from your misery.

[ ✉️  sms »» seulmi ♡  ] anyway i’m almost there!! hang on tight!

( / she couldn’t help but to snicker at her own choice of words as she finally took her mobile phone back to her pocket, rushing her way towards the library which was a few steps away from where she was right now -- and after a few turns around the corner of the corridor, she could finally see the ‘library’ sign. she went inside the pits of hell library ) should i text her or just look for-- ( / she trails off as she started to walk slowly and carefully around the library, looking for a familiar figure around -- she wanted to surprise the other with her sudden appearance, thus deciding not to inform the latter that she was already there. and a few minutes after of searching, she finally found her dear friend sitting alone on the far left, her back facing maegan ) perfect. ( / her lips pursing into a thin line as she slowly and carefully walked towards her, trying not to make even a tiny bit of noise and as soon as she was standing just behind her back, she leaned closer to the latter’s ear, grinning widely from ear to ear as she whispered ) hey babe -- ( / her tone quite teasing, sounding as if she was hitting on her, which made her chuckle inwardly afterwards. it was greasy, but hey -- she was always this greasy anyway ) in all seriousness, did you even opened your book for the past few days, i mean even just scan the pages? or don’t tell me that you literally haven’t studied even just a bit at all. ( / she manages to ask in a somehow low voice since she knew they were in the library as she sat down on the vacant seat beside her friend, placing her books down carefully on the top of the table )

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`⇢ ★ helping hand 」

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irisxgu:

[ ★ ]

“why don’t we start by showing me what you have so far!” iris scurried up to the front before removing her jacket and placing it on the floor. she crossed her legs and comfortably placed her elbows on her knees, eager to see the girl’s current choreo. “don’t worry too much! just let it flow and if at the end something comes to your mind, let that out too! we’re just having fun here, okay?”

Maegan wouldn’t lie – Iris’ words were definitely comforting, but still she couldn’t help but to exaggerate and become paranoid. Though she did have faith on the professor, still, she coudln’t help but become anxious at this very moment. It took her momentarily to respond, sighing in defeat. “O–okay.” she said, reluctantly.

Her choreo was still on a mess, but of course, she knew that Iris couldn’t help her at all if she does not show what she have so far, and so, she reluctantly agreed. “Promise not to laugh, or say anything negative? I know it’s really shitty and i’m – i am honestly out of ideas, and so, my routine is pretty generic, and messy. I am honestly not satisfied yet, but yeah–” she sighed heavily, heels spinning around as she walked towards the stereo, playing the song she was working on.

The freshman sat on the middle of the dance floor, her back facing Iris as she waited for the song to start. She slowly stood up while the beginning tune started, turning around in the process.

Every night up in the club getting money with the thugs thought I’d never fall in love then there was you.

She pretended to walk to the side in a slow pace, stopping midway as she opened her palm in the air, closing it after a few seconds. Maegan walked back a few steps, her hand was up in the air, finger pointing at her head. She clutches her chest passionately after, and slowly she moved her hand that was on her chest into her front, pointing to particularly no one.

And I don’t wanna be a player no more

Maegan shook her head, the corner her lips tugging into a smirk as her hand was still in front of her, palm open, facing in front, she pushed the air away, as if showing an action of pushing someone away.

Every night in the club tricking with a different girl thought I’d never fall in love then I met you

Once again, she pretended to walk in a slow pace, this time to the opposite side of the room, she held her the side of her head, and once again, clutches her chest passionately after, she turned to face the front, pointing to no one in particular.

Girl you changed my mind

She shook her head, her lips curving into a smile.

One look and just one touch.

Her pointing finger rose, before she pointed at her own eyes. Her pointing finger once again rose, before she opened her hand, palm facing forward.

The song continued to play on, and Maegan stood still in the middle, a frown forming on her lips. “Well, that’s it– It’s so shitty, isn’t it?”

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haeundaegu:

okay guys, this is admin maegan. can you guys pls like this post if you’re willing to stay in the rp or something (also liking this post will prevent you from being kicked out of the rp if the revamp proceeds) i want to know how many people are actually still want to keep this rp???? if we get more people that are willing to stay in this rp i might revamp this place.

revamp plans:

wipe out inactive members

recruit additional people to admin

make new ads

make the event that the admins are planning originally happen. (freshmen welcoming party + showcase thingy?)

implement the scoring system which was implemented before and was not used after the revamp

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haenagu:

really? what–  ( ★ / laughs, covering it behind a hand. only stopping when she heard hear continue to speak ) that’s bad, you know… leaving them just like that. i’m glad you guys met, though. and i would love to meet her. ( ★ / realizes what she just heard, her eyes widening at the other ) wait– her?! s-so you like girls i mean…well, of course i’m not going to assume but. uhm…  ( ★ / stops herself from asking anymore questions and blushes faintly ) it’s….it’s weird. and yes i did say her. it was an accident and it’s not like–  ( ★ / she stopped speaking and felt her gaze falter, biting on her bottom lip ) i have never…sincerely liked someone. it’s scary. how you can give someone your heart like that? i felt like it was the scariest thing a person could ever go through. but it would also bring you happiness. and…  ( ★ / her words grew smaller and smaller until it was only a whisper, her mind running with thoughts of how she would say what she was about to say ) i felt weird ever since i saw you. like i didn’t want to be close to you because i was scared. you were so easy to be around with and i felt my eyes always searching for you in a crowd.  ( ★ / pausing, she gripped the bed covers, whispering in a small voice ) and i don’t want to feel like this. we’re friends and roommates and it feels wrong. 

yeah. i’ll set up a day sometime so you guys can meet, she’s an amazing person!! ( / nods excitedly ) well - um, i don’t -- know. ( / trails off as she bit her bottom lip, obviously flustered once more about this topic ) i just like her, i mean, not because she’s a girl. it’s just -- happened. ( / laughs nervously as she covers her both reddened, flustered cheeks out of embarrassment ) it is indeed scary.. ( / she commented, though her words were more of a whisper as she continued to listen attentively to haena’s words, anticipating every words she manage to speak ) -- ( / she felt her heart beat stopped the moment that the topic suddenly became about her, unsure how to react but her gaze remained at the other and as soon as the other had finished speaking, her eyes landed on the grip against her bed sheet, it took her momentarily to finally respond, her hand had find it’s way to the other’s, placing it just above hers as she grabbed a hold of her hand softly and carefully ) i um -- ( / laughs nervously once more, almost trying to uplift the mood ) you were -- always searching for me in a crowd? ( / she repeats, her eyes felt like it was sparkling as she gazed at her room mate, the corner of her lips slowly curves into a faint smile ) hmm-- ( / she leans closer, the faint smile suddenly disappears, once again, appearing more serious once again ) what’s so wrong about it? ( / her tone sounded quite teasing )