ྀི︶˚̣̣̣ Fish's personal ♡

Personal blog, editing blog is @lovesickdigital.

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‎ ̥̈ ͜𓏼˚̣̣̣𐂯⠀󠁏⠀󠁏Fish or Kev/in ♪ ͜ ͜͜ ݃ ֪֪֪‎ ‎ He/They ♫ gfluid

⠀󠁏⠀󠁏⠀󠁏⠀󠁏⠀󠁏⠀󠁏 ⏝⊹⏝ㅤ ꒰ა ⑅ ໒꒱ㅤ ⏝⊹⏝

　 ͜ ◞ ྀི ♪ ࣪ ‎ Welcome to Fish's personal blog!

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‎ ‎ ͜𓏼✚ @lovesickdigital - Fish's editing account! He will not take requests or suggestions on this account, and will only take them on that account.

CW/TW: This blog will post talks and mentions about suicide, sh, abuse, and sensitive topics.

╰→ If you cannot handle or like that, please block/filter the tags ╰→ 【 I wish all life withers.. 】 & ╰→ 【 Vent 】 & ➩ 【 :( 】 and just block this blog rather than reporting it, thx ^^

⠀󠁏⠀󠁏⠀󠁏⠀󠁏⠀󠁏⠀󠁏 ⏝⊹⏝ㅤ ꒰ა ⑅ ໒꒱ㅤ ⏝⊹⏝

♪ ͜ ͜͜ ݃ ֪֪֪‎ ‎ Fish has no dni and blocks freely. Ask 2 vent first, if he says no, then it's a no. They will block you if you vent even after Kev says no or vent without asking. If Fish says yes, then vent all you want to him ^^ [Though he cannot listen as their mental health is currently terrible].

One more thing is that I usually or mostly talk in third person rather than first person and use double spaces when talking here, but Fish can stop if you're confused! And do please consider your wording carefully, as he usually takes things seriously, and overthinks a lot.

They usually struggle with opening up to new people at first as he's very anxious and quiet, but once you get to know them, he's quite loud and energetic, although toned down a bit in public. Using tonetags are definitely appreciated when interacting with Thistle, as they're quite slow when processing what you said ^^

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Mmmh.. Fish has nooooooooo motivation or ideas for edits.. He may go on a hiatus..

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liquid sunshine

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pleasure corrosion netzach sprite edits for your.... um... pleasure?

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I highkey need more Sharplow content.. Fish may or may not be planning to retheme to them.. They genuinely make me sick, the rivalry hello??

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QOH carol of the new ones

flashing images/bright colours

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Hah... I did it again, so much for being 4 months clean. Almost got caught doing sh, but managed to hide it without suspicion.

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Corey is so me core. Fish def needs to edit him. Corey is best boy </3

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The void is what remains. And it holds things that can’t be found anywhere else. 

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CW/TW: VENT, MENTIONS OF ABUSE, SH, AND SUICIDE. NOT FOR THE LIGHTHEARTED.

Fish hates his mom. He hates how she pulls their hair harshly, he hates how she gets mad over the smallest mistakes they make. Kev hates how she always switches between loving and angry so fast, he can't even predict her mood anymore.

Fish just wants to fucking die already. His mom keeps making threats on how if she doesn't hold back, she'll kill him. Well? JUST FUCKING DO IT ALREADY. I'M SICK AND TIRED OF ALWAYS BEING ON EDGE AND FLINCHING WHEN YOU'RE NEARBY. You say you love me, but if you really did, you would always be loving and supportive, not furious when Fish doesn't get with honors.

I have the urge to unscrew the blade from my pencil sharpener and just start cutting. Slashing and slicing all over my skin, hoping that this is all just a bad dream, and that my real mom is loving and caring.. I guess this is why Fish always gets so scared when a loud sound is randomly played, or gets uncomfortable in silence, or when mother passes by without any intent to hurt him, but he still recoils slightly and tenses up.

Ryoshu is more of a mother figure than my actual biological mother, I feel a sense of comfort whenever I see her on screen. How I wish she was real, so I could rush into her arms and cry into her shoulder finally being able to act like a proper child. Since I never got the chance to, perhaps this is why I am so childish..

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Genuinely, I'm going to have to start actually managing my situation of trying to make a personal blog and then just abandoning it. But Fish promises to actually use this blog for what it was made for [hopefully..]