laissé seul

(v.) french LEFT ALONE

[magiclostinneeds]

you make me feel so proud of being in love with you

[magiclostinneeds]

to R.

[magiclostinneeds]

I'll do anything for you #rjps

[stay-close]

“Dear heart, sorry for the pain.”

— Unknown

[magiclostinneeds]

here am again back to my old ways

[magiclostinneeds]

🥺 this is so true!

You know you're attached to someone when you've gotten so used to talking to them in a daily basis and they've become a part of your happiness. But when you guys don't talk, it's like part of you is gone and you just start miss them uncontrollably.

[magiclostinneeds]

Sometimes, you have to be alone to come back and be better.

[magiclostinneeds]

What if

... you and I were meant to part ways, only so that we could find each other again.

[sparksflys]

Who could stay? You could stay

[magiclostinneeds]

It's late and all this shit is happening to me and i should be sleep but I can't sleep because I just feel this deep wave of loneliness bc I miss you so much

[magiclostinneeds]

are you okay?

No, i'm not okay. I'm hurt because i had to let go of the one person that brought me joy. The person i loved the most she could find happiness. Why would i do that? Because that's what love is; sacrifing yourself to protect someone no matter how it effects you. Its hard, its really hard because you want to be sellfish and have them with you but you can never be truly happy if you know that they aren't, so you let them go. And you hurt, a lot, for a long time.

[magiclostinneeds]

[magiclostinneeds]

I'm..

I'm tired of faking a smile and telling everyone I'm okay. I'm hurt. I'm stressed. I'm damaged. I'm exhausted of living with all this pain and anger that I managed to built up inside.

[magiclostinneeds]

It's twelve o' clock and I need your attention

It's like the alcohol making my head spin

Your scent is the rum in the bottle

Keeping me hopeless 'til I wake tomorrow

And if tonight ever makes a difference

The way that I feel the way that I'll remember it

I'll take this down until the glass remains

Swallow the words that I was meant to say

It's a long drive back to Vegas skies

So I don't, I make one more wrong turn tonight so

Say goodnight our first goodbye

I've only got forever and forever is fine

Just take your time

We'll stop the clock together

And know that the timing was right

All of these guards they stand tall and defensive

Putting up walls around what was once innocent

It won't let me in but I'm stronger than that

Cause you stole my eyes and I'll never look back

Girl last night I forgot to mention

The way that I feel the way that I'll remember this

When we're this young we have nothing to lose

We just the clock to beat and a hand to choose

It's a long drive back to Vegas skies

So I don't, I make one more wrong turn tonight so

Say goodnight our first goodbye

I've only got forever and forever is fine

Just take your time

We'll stop the clock together

And know that the timing was right

It's a long way down

Just fall into place and you'll fall into me

We'll make it out you'll see

Say goodnight our first goodbye

I've only got forever and forever is fine

Just take your time

We'll stop the clock together

And know that the timing was right

Say goodnight our first goodbye

I've only got forever and forever is fine

Just take your time

We'll stop the clock together

And know that the timing was right

Source: LyricFind

[magiclostinneeds]

Before you get attached to anyone, be prepared if they leave.

[the-perks-of-being-megan]

there isn’t enough words to describe how fucking alone I feel.

[flowercrowns-and-catastrophe]

I'm sick and tired.

I've been running on empty.

Not long enough for people to notice that when I say I can't hang out it means I'm in bed staring at the wall.

How long does it take before someone greets me with understanding and not invalidation.

Excerpts from a book I'll never write // always what you can do for others and never what others can do for you