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This is it, you found it. What will you do next?

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Guyblogging is just shitposting

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It DOESN'T mean that I'm entitled.

To anyone or anything.

Ever.

A self given title holds no weight.

Titles are given and earned.

Which is exactly why I thought that what news arrived were intended for me.

"He hasn't always been this nice"

Interesting observation, let's examine the conditions under which that niceness was able to flourish, and try to recreate them.

Maybe you can be nice too!

:D

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"He hasn't done anything in a really long time"

Do you think that stating objective truths makes you right?

That is not all it takes to find truth.

Yeah, I haven't done anything in a while, maybe except for everything I have done. That "anything" has a very specific meaning.

A meaning which I've found along the way, a meaning that is difficult to share, and even more so to find.

The meaning behind words is often reliant on the way the person presents it, so much of communication is missed whenever you write, no emphasis or gesture can be conveyed appropriately, unlike spoken word. It is these very same limitations that served to make a space where I could examine and develop my own thoughts.

I'm extremely comfortable being with myself.

"Yo le voy a presentar una demanda"

No se a quien, pero ojalá se sirva la justicia si acaso ese es el siguiente paso.

"Yo opino que se quedo pendejo"

Buena opinion, que gusto que la puedes respaldar con experiencias personales.

Yo también tengo algo asi.

"So that's why he's always got ammo"

If my experience yields that conclusion, I'll gladly embrace it.

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"If I hadn't done anything..."

That's not true, if you hadn't done anything, we would've never met.

I heard the rest of that sentence, or at least I believe to have picked up a longer sentence that is priming this entry.

It is true that certain actions, if avoided, could have led to a different present today. That is factual, but it is also very broad.

There was a pattern that was affecting you for long before, and long after our time together. Even if during the eye of the storm we found solace in one another, that didn't even begin to address the real issues that plagued us then.

Sure, maybe today we could have plenty of things that would have been unique to that experience if it was allowed to continue. But those lives are so different from today's reality in our current timeline that the alternative might hold some allure compared to our positions in the now.

And for all of these things, all these emotions, and all the conversations had and not had, there never seems to be a clear path. There's always a reason not to, and those reasons are always louder than the willingness to address the issue.

That's why they got mad, and I heard him get like I've never seen him. So many people went through much more than we could have asked for, and it only ever led to frustration, deception, and isolation. No one who has tried to improve the status quo has ever been satisfied with the outcome, and truly it isn't fair on multiple fronts, but it starts with your decisions removed from yourself taking away from your own agency. That's the thing I stay insisting wasn't fair.

When I hear it, I have to reply. I don't know what effects my efforts have had, but I expect no response nor reward. At least not anymore.

When my own agency was stripped, I learned what I couldn't without experiencing that kind of underhanded abusive behavior. Even if only adjacent, the proximity tainted the whole experience, and the only way to survive was to challenge it.

If that's what made me a legend in your eyes, then we must continue to tell the tale.

If everything isn't okay, it isn't the end.

But I can't go for that, and you can't go for this. So a compromise will be found down the road I'm sure.

In the end.

For now, a new beginning looks for a way to sprout.

How many beginnings does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop?

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"If I hadn't done anything..."

That's not true, if you hadn't done anything, we would've never met.

I heard the rest of that sentence, or at least I believe to have picked up a longer sentence that is priming this entry.

It is true that certain actions, if avoided, could have led to a different present today. That is factual, but it is also very broad.

There was a pattern that was affecting you for long before, and long after our time together. Even if during the eye of the storm we found solace in one another, that didn't even begin to address the real issues that plagued us then.

Sure, maybe today we could have plenty of things that would have been unique to that experience if it was allowed to continue. But those lives are so different from today's reality in our current timeline that the alternative might hold some allure compared to our positions in the now.

And for all of these things, all these emotions, and all the conversations had and not had, there never seems to be a clear path. There's always a reason not to, and those reasons are always louder than the willingness to address the issue.

That's why they got mad, and I heard him get like I've never seen him. So many people went through much more than we could have asked for, and it only ever led to frustration, deception, and isolation. No one who has tried to improve the status quo has ever been satisfied with the outcome, and truly it isn't fair on multiple fronts, but it starts with your decisions removed from yourself taking away from your own agency. That's the thing I stay insisting wasn't fair.

When I hear it, I have to reply. I don't know what effects my efforts have had, but I expect no response nor reward. At least not anymore.

When my own agency was stripped, I learned what I couldn't without experiencing that kind of underhanded abusive behavior. Even if only adjacent, the proximity tainted the whole experience, and the only way to survive was to challenge it.

If that's what made me a legend in your eyes, then we must continue to tell the tale.

If everything isn't okay, it isn't the end.

But I can't go for that, and you can't go for this. So a compromise will be found down the road I'm sure.

In the end.

For now, a new beginning looks for a way to sprout.

How many beginnings does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop?

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Okay, that's enough of that for now.

Now it's time for this.

What is this? You ask.

You tell me. What is there to say?

When everything is said and nothing is done, there is something to do and nothing to say. Much like how this paragraph has a lot of words in it that don't really have any meaning beyond the one you give it, and by pointing it out it evokes a meaning to be had.

We are truly trying to help one another, in our unique ways.

Aah dammit, I had to squeeze some of that. I thought I said I was done!

It wouldn't be the first time I said I'd be done with anything.

So you wanna be starting something?

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Okay, that's enough of that for now.

Now it's time for this.

What is this? You ask.

You tell me. What is there to say?

When everything is said and nothing is done, there is something to do and nothing to say. Much like how this paragraph has a lot of words in it that don't really have any meaning beyond the one you give it, and by pointing it out it evokes a meaning to be had.

We are truly trying to help one another, in our unique ways.

Aah dammit, I had to squeeze some of that. I thought I said I was done!

It wouldn't be the first time I said I'd be done with anything.

So you wanna be starting something?

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I'd agree that I need to hear that.

I don't know what is being said, but when you say "[my name] needs to hear this" I can sense that you're coming from a good place. I know what you mean.

I don't know what that thing I need to hear is actually is, but based on my trajectory and performance, there is probably a lot of overlap with earlier live conversations.

Knowing who I am, there are things that I cannot bring up easily or right away, and yet there are enough hiccups along the way to know that I am feeling dysfunctional in my environment that I cannot easily address. There is nothing wrong with the system, but it doesn't feel compatible long-term with myself.

My frustrations aren't born from a lack of compensation, or adhesion to the system. Industrialized and organizational psychology has the goal of positioning people in the most efficient place for their unique set of skills and capabilities, and I can't help but see how much I don't belong sometimes.

I'm forever grateful, and I am also blessed to have gotten the opportunity that I find myself in, and it hurts so much because of how happy it makes me to be where I am.

But if I'm not where I belong, does it matter how happy I am? At least a little bit. Not that my happiness is or should be a priority during working hours.

I'm great at adapting, and I believe that I can find success anywhere, but I'm worried about how I'm affecting other things more delicate than my own satisfaction.

Something else to consider is the weight of the value of the current succes that found me. Just because I can be successful anywhere, it doesn't mean I'm seeking greener pastures.

I feel selfish about my own selflessness and that feels more like a punishment than a reward.

I won't overdo it more than I already have. Don't misunderstand my words with dissatisfaction.

Maybe I'm just overworked, maybe I'm just aloof, maybe the heat got to my head, or maybe I'm just talking a bunch of nonsense, but something I will never question is the validity of the friendships I have forged along the way.

They are the wind pushing my sail.

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What good are un-monetized emotions?

People do things to make money more often than out of passion. It was because of passion that people grew in renown, which led to money for nothing, where everyone wanted to be.

So many people don't want to start new things, pick up new hobbies, learn something new, if it won't lead to another passive income entry in their bank account.

That's s big reason AI has been so prevasive, the people who use it the most are trying to get rich with it. Or at least make money.

The new emboldening of people who are entering different markets because the process is completely streamlined is astronomical.

And none of those AI enabled startups are making nearly as much as the guys who push for its everyday use.

Not to say that just cuz u found success in the age of AI that you didn't earn your place. I mean, what is earning?

What have I earned from my own unmonetized emotions?

Something money can't buy.

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"Yeah dude, amd we're not stupid."

Oh, something to prove, huh?

Me too.

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Si, definitivamente soy el hijo de mi madre.

¿Porque lo dirán?

Si también soy el hijo de mi padre.

((Ese señor, ES mi padre) no lo entenderían)

Igual que soy hermano de mi hermano, o hermano de mi hermana, o nieto de mis abuelos, o primo de mis primos, o amigo de mis amigos. O conocido de mis conocidos.

Es por mi estilo de comunicación, ¿verdad?

Es porque soy alegre, amable, cariñoso, sensible, flexible, curioso...

O sera por mi destrozo, el cual solo es evidente gracias a sus propias acciones y actitudes.

No soy rencoroso, no me tomo nada personal, ni lo personal.

Lo que si soy es lo que alguien esperaba.

Aqui estoy.

Y no lo digo para que me hablen, sino para que lo entiendan.

Hablo igual no importa mi destino ni el receptor.

Solo hablo, y trabajo las cosas.

Pero si ya te hice la talacha, echame la mano ahi cuando se pueda.

Espero que un dia pueda ayudarlos a todos a salir de ahi, y si me ven como amigo, amigos seremos.

No me gusta ver a la gente como enemigo.

Se siente bien feo.

Prefiero no verlos y darles chanza de entender.

Creo que hay algo que yo no he entendido, supongo que no debe de ser nada importante para esta experiencia si todavía no me cae ese 20 de entre tantos que han caído.

Nomas no te caigas por favor.

Me preocupa.

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"Cada dia cambia la melodía"

Pues si, cada dia aprendo algo nuevo, o escucho algo viejo.

Cada letra influye el destino. El pensar que mi escritura no tiene influencia es estar en el mismo error en el que piensas que tu palabra no afecta a nadie.

Inclusive con este conocimiento, la realidad fisica tiene una manera de hacernos olvidar las lecciones más importantes.

Lo volveré a olvidar, y lo volveras a recordar. Y en lo que lo volvemos a pensar, lo volveremos a vivir.

Esa sera la forma en la que lo sabras, cuabdo te vuelvas a dar cuenta de que a pesar de todo lo que ha cambiado, nuestra constante sigue obstante.

Pero como si la presencia de algo detuviera a alguien de hacer algo que ya querian hacer.

Nadie nos tiene que perdonar, no hay nada que reconciliar.

Una versión de cada persona existe dentro de todas las personas, y si no fue esta experiencia, es porque los caminos que llevamos no fueron compatibles, y no hay nada de vergüenza en eso.

No llores por lo que fue y/o no fue, pero tampoco dejes de llorar cuando tu corazón te lo pide.

Te lo dice el llorón mas grande que conozco.

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Whether there was ever anything going on, I cannot ever be sure.

But IF there was, I took care of it already.

Trouble only comes under my terms, so there's never any problems.

That's a problem too.

One that I cannot fix yet.

One that will get fixed on its own when it needs to get fixed.

Until then, the ward works as intended.

Just keep on trucking.

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Ugh, it was so much easier when there wasn't anything going on.

...no it wasn't?

This isn't a prospect as much as it is the song of entropy.

But you know how that sounds like right?

The same way tv static is an expression the cosmic microwave background.

Incoherent yet constant.

Now who would go ahead and try to sift through that?

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Maybe I need to get out of where I'm not wanted.

I be trespassing cuz I haven't found a place I'm not wanted in.

Sorry I stepped on your yard, it was on my way to the call, and I couldn't go around.

Let's do it again!! :DDD

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I'm really not trying to insinuate anything.

Any echo of a reflection is mere coincidence.

Multiple synchronicities are often indicative of background movements.

Unless I'm you.

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"I better hurry the fuck up"

Oh shit