Entry #14 | 12/18/24 | 39/114
Hey tribe!
It's been 39 days since I have created this account for my academic weapon journey. As days go by, i have realized a lot of things, especially in my visions for myself.
I find myself irritated constantly every time I'm scrolling through my tumblr account. Although my moots have the same purpose as mine, I still find it toxic. Pushing myself to be productive by accomplishing tasks related to academics everyday just like my moots is exhausting. Comparing the notes I receive and the notes my moots receive is also exhausting. Trying to take aesthetic pictures and organizing entries is also exhausting. It feels like a chore staying consistent. My mind focused on uploading daily contents rather than using this account to track my progress.
Throughout my progress, i have also realized that my learning strategies are not effective for me especially when I have time-constraint and I have a short span of attention. I am enrolled at a trimester university. We only have four months to finish one semester. Since I want to top the board exam, I also enrolled myself in a review center. Now, it become mentally draining to try balancing out both uni, review, and my personal relationships.
Lastly, my long-time goal to be consistently one of the top students in our Course Enhancements changed into just passing it. I am now focusing on making my fundamentals and test-taking strategy strong, but my strategy in managing my time while staying consistent and protecting my mental health all at the same time is still lacking organization and objectives.
In short, since I have big expectations for myself, I focused on the results rather than enjoying and improving the process. And it is a good thing that I realized all of these things early. At least I can still save myself from the emotional damage that I am about to face.
Now that I have an evaluation for my progress, my resolution is to revise my plans.