Makka

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Something flew into my window last night. I don't know whether to go to bed or stay up all night.I saw something about an hour ago, flying around the apartment in the dark and smashing into the walls. I haven't seen it for an hour and a half now, but it's still creepy. I'm tired of everything

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Drawing for college. Every time I see it, I'm convinced that we're doing something useless.But you can't give up on it. It's an ancient Egyptian-style chainsaw.

What can even say about it?

The only thing that makes me happy now is that the end of the school year is in just a week.

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While I'm listening to my classmates' presentations.

The heat is unbearable. I'm either dying or melting.

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Another shift instead of doing my college projects

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I do everything I can except what I have to do

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I really like this skull mask look. It speaks for itself.

A little drawing while I'm working on a college assignment.

Guys, love each other. There’s already too much pointless hatred in the world.

I feel like I'm doing the wrong thing. I'm swamped with debt for my plein air painting exams. I'll be painting nothing but plein air painting for the next few days. ◉⁠‿⁠◉

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Нахуй все

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Lately I’ve been doing some plein air painting. I still haven’t finished the piece. I hadn’t gone out just to draw like that for several years, not since I graduated from art school. Turns out I really missed it.

(Though I got horribly sunburned in the process. Nature always charges a fee for romance with sunlight. Ridiculous star.)

(Don’t ask.)

I also drew a little Art afterward in Tomodachi Life.

A completely random couple got together. It’s weird, but also kind of cute. I love this game more than you could possibly imagine. I finished this drawing while working on the plein air piece

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Composition work for college 𓅃

One of my latest works. I finally have time for personal drawings, but I’ve just been lying around, doing nothing, barely even thinking 𓃗

I really enjoyed working on this drawing. It even surprised me

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Quick art inspired by the cow statue in the college courtyard.

Do cows have horns and udders?

Lately, I've been catching myself doubting everything. Even things I've seen with my own eyes and known my whole life.

But how I enjoyed drawing this work

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Alexey Vronsky.

I drew him without even realizing it. For some reason, I initially thought it was the actor who played Pecherin. I wanted to draw a male portrait. You know, they sometimes say that people most often depict people with their own facial features. I'm no exception. I struggled with myself so that he at least looked like himself, and not like a portrait of me with a mustache

(I would have looked good with a mustache).

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Bastards wrapped me up

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I've been wanting to draw him for a long time, and here's the result. Before this, I had another version of the work with Varka, but after 15 hours of drawing, I thought the work was a bit weak (I might post it later. I used a reference image for that one)

Studying distracts me from drawing. I have to draw at night. It's been a while since my last post, and a lot has gotten better in my life. The weather outside is snow and a blizzard, and it's already March. I'm really afraid of strong winds.

~Ah Varka~

(⁠〃ﾟ⁠3ﾟ⁠〃⁠)

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I've been wanting to draw him for a long time, and here's the result. Before this, I had another version of the work with Varka, but after 15 hours of drawing, I thought the work was a bit weak (I might post it later. I used a reference image for that one)

Studying distracts me from drawing. I have to draw at night. It's been a while since my last post, and a lot has gotten better in my life. The weather outside is snow and a blizzard, and it's already March. I'm really afraid of strong winds.

~Ah Varka~

(⁠〃ﾟ⁠3ﾟ⁠〃⁠)

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@ihtevrn from TikTok

collaboration with my girl(⁠ʃ⁠ƪ⁠＾⁠3⁠＾⁠）

I'd be glad if you subscribe to her.

THIS IS HER⬇️⬇️⬇️

This was my first time participating in a collaboration. (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

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A few years ago, I made myself a promise that I would become a more open person. That I’d learn to share my worries and emotions without fear, shame, or regret.

In the end, I turned into a clown who tries to make everyone around me laugh. I knew it would happen and made another promise to myself that I wouldn’t regret it. I kept that promise. The worst part is that no one takes you seriously anymore, and sometimes it becomes this awful devaluation of everything you do.

When I completely changed my circle of people, I felt free. I could feel and do everything in a new way. But in the second year, the shame toward the people close to me came back. In just one year they did more for me than the ones I spent ten years with. Maybe I’m exaggerating and taking it too emotionally, but the feeling of my heart beating still matters more to me.

I don’t use social media because I’m afraid the people close to me will see me there, and I haven’t figured out why it bothers me so much. I sit on Tumblr because none of my close people are here.

I don’t know how to miss people, I never learned to apologize properly, I can’t hold grudges and I forgive absolutely everyone for everything. I despise in myself the things I love in others. I don’t understand anything anymore, and I don’t really want to.

It’s a basic starter pack, I guess, but it still feels awful.

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I finished two works in one day. Pierrot took almost three weeks to draw, and here's the final one. The drawing is still 3GB.... for me it's a lot

ヽ(o＾▽＾o)ノ

°˖✧Pierrot✧˖°