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[malachaibennett]

(insp.)

[thenameismaynard]

always reblog

[respectable-alcoholic]

Is This What Love Looks Like: A Heresy Epilogue/Mini/Thing

A few weeks ago I had an anonymous request for a fic involving Bonnie in the late months of pregnancy and needing Kai’s comfort.  I had another recent request for an epilogue, and I decided I might as well blend the two. (Though I do I have a feeling there may be multiple epilogues abrewing.)  To those who made the requests, here is what I came up with and I hope you like it.

I just need to insert one little disclaimer:  I have tried to stay true to Kai as a character, and to me that means exploring the dynamics of what is and isn’t a healthy relationship, and the reality of being with someone like Kai Parker, on top of all the other drama these characters are going through.  It’s up to you to decide green or red on the health bar, but If anyone gets weirded out, …i’m sorry? 

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Tags: @fuckitimfangirling @bonkai-legacy @l0nd0ninnit @bonkai-diaries @one-of-the-nine @agentsbarnes-parker @themist-underground @bich-nga @thecacklingtauren @nys30 @shadowcatgirl09 @malachaibennett @thelazygirl30 @leianaberrie @klarolinefan23 @jordanjanellejoy @mayhaptomorrow @albion19 @a-bonkai-fantasy225 @weknowwearebeautifulanduglytoo @unicornsince88

Likes and reblogs by people I didn’t tag will be tagged in future fics, yeah? 

[malachaibennett]

This was so amazing and lovely; I wrote you a review!😚

[pumpkin-bird]

bonkai scenes have more chemistry and fire than any other couples of the show. true fact.

[lifelovemusiq]

[malachaibennett]

😍

[lightwoodxalec]

[dailymysticfalls]

[malachaibennett]

*screams internally*

[evolutionofstars]

[l0nd0ninnit]

There’s something not right about him.

^AKA I’m sexually attracted to him and I don’t know how I should feel about that

[bonkaifever]

No lie detected. 

[bonkai-diaries]

l0nd0ninnit I think that’s why Kai got under her skin the most, because there was a conflict of emotion. She was attracted to him and it disturbed her. She kept trying to get rid of him, you know out of sight out of mind, because he was beginning to unlock something deep inside of her that had never really been brought to the surface before. (Though that didn’t stop her from eventually having dreams about him) Bonnie likes things being black and white, this person is good, that person is bad, this person is a friend, that person is an enemy etc. Kai was complex and his darkness was alluring to her and therefore it fucked with her psyche. But could she trust him? She kept telling herself not to. Was he completely bad? He did help her bring her magic back. He had a horrible childhood. She “hated” him even though other enemies have treated worse, she has even died before. She “hated” Kai because he was changing something in her. “Listen, Jer, I’m not sure I’m still the same Bonnie you want to be with..I don’t know if I’m scared of myself or if I kinda like the new me” Bonnie feeling conflicted about whether she likes this change in her. Kai brought out a little darkness and badass sexual side in Bonnie. Bonnie burned that guy’s hands at the Rave with her magic, “Can’t help it…I’m hot”  he also brought out Bonnie’s more selfish life preserving side, which she had to learn the hard way after being so hellbent on keeping Kai in the prison world, therefore once again sacrificing herself and her freedom. Kai made it known that when it comes to survival, always put yourself first. Bonnie wanted to take the car and go separate ways. Kai was not going to allow that to happen. She was left in the Prison World and had to fight for survival. Having time to reflect how all her previous sacrifices she made for everyone else had gotten her nowhere but either dead or now trapped in a prison world all alone. So she finally comes back and once again Damon is planning on doing something could potentially put her life in danger. She tells him “For the first time I’m putting myself first” *thank god finally* 

This could have been explored more later in the season and into next season, I fear they are reverting Bonnie back to the way she was before this. Her helper role. I knew it as soon as they decided to kill off Kai. Sigh. 

[themist-underground]

This is golden, especially the begining: “ Kai got under her skin the most, because there was a conflict of emotion. She was attracted to him and it disturbed her. She kept trying to get rid of him, you know out of sight out of mind, because he was beginning to unlock something deep inside of her that had never really been brought to the surface before. “ I do think that Bonnie hides a darkness inside of her, she dealed with dark magic, died multiple times, and her loyalty and sense of sacrifice is so high that at a point I wondered if she was self-destructive?

[bonkai-diaries]

clemencesandrine  thanks. And I agree, I feel like it’s possible she was being self-destructive, almost like she felt she thought she didn’t deserve to live, not over her friends and the others around her. Like her life wasn’t as important. This is another reason why it was so important that Kai was willing to sacrifice his life for Bonnie, because he felt like she was more deserving of life, more than him and more than anyone else. But I also wished so much that Bonnie would have found that out eventually. That someone was willing to do that for her for a change instead of the other way around. I’m so irked that this was never revealed, because it was so important to the story and for her character.

[themist-underground]

bonkai-diaries: Exactly she’s the kind of person who gives and gives without daring asking things in return. A true heart of gold. But she didn’t had an easy childhood: her mother abandonned her, her father was distant, she probaby growed with a low self estime. Thanks to her friends she created another familly outside of her own dysfontional one. She grew up with them and her Gran with a certain security and stability. And when her Gran died, the one who raised her, was always her for her and teached her magic, she must felt guilty and unstable. With most of her familly gone/away, her friends are the last stable relationship she had, her familly, and never hesitated to protect them, save them, and listen to their needs beyond hers because it’s so important that they stay, alive and well. They mean eveything to her, and pitifully they are not capable to show her the same. What’s surprising is that she could have grown ressentful and bitter of what people did to her but she always choose kindness, forgiveness instead.

Thank god Kai for doing this, he was the first person to understand her this deeply and really see her value. She’s one of the strongest person on the show and would have been even stronger realising her worth! All she miss is self-worth.

With Kai and Bon together we would have seen sides of Bonnie we never realised was there, because he was waking them up… What links them is so unique, they would have help eachother growing into themselves because they are two sides of the same coin. Like you said she’s attracted to his darkness and this is so significative that their name Malachai and Bonnie: in french Mal hence for bad and Bon means good. Them together would have been epic af.

I’m irked too and so frustrated: this is such a waste!  I fear for Bonnie her future as well a character, IDK it’s like they take off everysingle intriging thing of the show, no wonder no one gonna watch it anymore…

[bonkai-diaries]

“Like you said she’s attracted to his darkness and this is so significative that their name Malachai and Bonnie: in french Mal hence for bad and Bon means good. Them together would have been epic af.”

OMFG I’m actually angry at myself for never really paying much attention to that, and I’m a person who studies languages, and I ignored the prefix of their names.

But exactly, she had a not so good childhood herself. Grams and her friends were of great importance to her, I still think the gang took advantage of her and I wanted to see Bonnie feel resentful for a change. Bonnie was still loyal and kind to them almost without question, but the show failed to connect the dots when it came to why Bonnie did the things that she did, because a lot of what Bonnie went through emotionally etc. was left off screen. This made her become one-dimensional and not as relatable. Finally in season 6, with the introduction of Kai, Bonnie and her emotional state was focused on more than previous seasons. And, as you said, Kai brought that out of her. And I think her character would have further evolved had Kai stayed on the show.

[mysticfalls-originals]

hold up. woah. I knew nothing of the meaning of their names - I mean come on - fate had to have stepped in at some point to set up such a magnificent pair like Malachai Parker to Bonnie Bennett; his bad to her good. ugh. I can’t breath. BOOST THE SHIT OUT OF THIS. I need to see many bonkai pictures with Mal and Bon in french writing and showing the light and dark, good and bad, oh. mah lord.

[veryownpersonalblog]

Where’s the hot guy who has a major crush on Bonnie?🖤

[santiagonex]

#she was enjoying this way too much

[malachaibennett]

I love Kai's Bonnie.

[thefudge]

i love that, after everything, kai still loves his sadistic little witch who makes his life hell :) 

[bloodygifs]

[malachaibennett]

You know what's kinda hot? His face right here.

[vampirefairyestelle]

Don’t @ me but angry Kai is HOT AF 😏

[l0nd0ninnit]

But is this suppose to be the bad ending to Kai’s story? I don’t know about you but Kai left in a prison world in which Bonnie only has access sounds good to me @vampirefairyestelle

[vampirefairyestelle]

Lmao yes 😏 She can come visit him and it’s only the two of them! No one to interrupt or disturb them 😉 @l0nd0ninnit

[l0nd0ninnit]

LOL! I need to @one-of-the-nine because this is bonkainky gold! Imagine all the BDSM…

[bonkai-legacy-deactivated201706]

This is kinda like Heresy series

(Kinda)

[tsyphony]

Imagine her stopping in every year or so, just to taunt him. Then it becomes every few months as they banter back and forth. At Christmas time, she puts a Santa hat on his head and changes the music to frosty the snow man twenty four seven. She’s lonely, cause you know all her friends are off doing their own thing. And one night it happens, she’s angry, she’s tired, and she just needs to feel something, so she goes to cut into him with every hurtful word she can think of, but instead just staddles him while he’s chained up to that chair and just devotees him. And he’s oh so willing for her too. Best conjugal visit ever.

[bonkai-legacy-deactivated201706]

STAAAHHHHPPP

😭

[bonkai-diaries]

YESSS

give me all the sin

[l0nd0ninnit]

One-shot please? @tsyphony

[tsyphony]

@l0nd0ninnit it’s running through my head right now, just trying to finish up a Bonkai art strip first.  But hopefully by the end of this weekend.

[l0nd0ninnit]

Bless you @tsyphony A bonkai art strip and one-shot?!! AHHHH!

[respectable-alcoholic]

LOL @l0nd0ninnit that fucking gif is cracking me up.  @tsyphony TAG ME WHEN YOU WRITE ITTTT.  

[tsyphony]

@respectable-alcoholic I blame you😈 just finished re reading heresy again😍😍😍. Ze little gray cells are boiling over with bonkai goodness.

[respectable-alcoholic]

Re reading? Re reading?!?

[tsyphony]

@respectable-alcoholic hell yes! This will be me even when I’m…

[malachaibennett]

Lmao I love this post.

[santiagonex]

Bonnie/Kai + first and last scene

[malachaibennett]

Shook.

[kirasren]

There is no one else. Just you, and your insecure little mind, and a song you hate on a juke box. Forever. 

[bring-kai-back-to-life]

For a moment I thought she’d say “There’s no one else. Just you and me.. 😂😂

[malachaibennett]

Just look at how beautiful they are.

[bonkai-diaries]

Why did Kai look so much hotter in the scene where he was tied up though? It was as if he made himself extra sexier in front of Bonnie.

[malachaibennett]

Right???

[kaiparker]

you’re here to punish me? cause THAT’S KINDA HOT.

[malachaibennett]

They both look SO hot.

[bonkai-diaries]

Confession: I ship bonenzo. Or at least I thought I did. But then I found myself wanting to skip their scenes and hope for Bonnie and Kai to come face to face again. Their scenes are so sexually charged and more appealing to watch even as protagonist and antagonist than all of the other shipping scenes this show is trying to push. I realize I wanted more.