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Maroon blooded Tamaraw. Dating beterinaryo ngayon ay naging inhinyero. Ine-enjoy ang buhay sa FEU. Kabilang sa chearleading varsity ng UPLB. Kumokoryeograper din at kumocoach sa kung saan-saang eskwelahan. 24 going 16. Dugyutin at pakalat-kalat sa...

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Sanctuary

 We didn’t built this sanctuary just to let it fall down.

I don’t want to leave. I don’t want to leave this place where our memories, experiences, and everything we had in our relationship are housed. Why is it so easy for you to leave everything behind? Why is so easy for you to walk away to everything that we had and have? Why can’t you realize all of these things? That the one who will love you forever is standing in front of you but you neglect to notice.

 I may have done bad things in the past but I tell you - I’m different now. I’m better than before and that’because of you. But you chose to turn your back on me. You’re so unfair. Yes. 

If only you can feel the pain that I’m feeling right now. If only you can see right through my eyes. If only you can realize what I realized. But no, you can’t.

You’re asking me to find another place to stay because you’re leaving. That’s it? After all. That’s it? After the struggles, problems, and challenges that we’ve surpassed you’ll just tell me to leave everything? You’re slowly distancing yourself to me. You’re fading. We’re fading. So easy for you.

Lumalaban ako pero pilit mong pinapatalo ang laban na ito.

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I'm lost.

I’m lost. Lost at a place you left me standing. I thought I was holding your hand then I realized I was holding onto nothing. You left me in the dark. In pain. In so much pain. You promised me things. Things decorated in all of the colors of the rainbow. But then, it was overshadowed by dark clouds. Lost. Forgotten. Why is it easy for you to forget everything? We had 4 years of our lives. How am I suppose to cope up with your loss? When everything I see, hear, go, everything, reminds me of you. Of us! Damn. 4 years! I know I made some mistakes. I made decisions I shouldn't have made but there is a thing called regret and when you truly love someone, you'll break anything and prove everything for them. That's how love goes. Love? This proves that your love and my love is nothing but a piece of garbage. Yes. If you truly love someone. You'll do anything for him right? You wouldn't be selfish. You wouldn't want him to die in pain. Of too much heartache. Everything's served in front of you. All you have to do is pick up those utensils and ingest it. Love is powerful. But for you, I think it's not. But one thing's for sure. I never, ever loved someone like this before and even if it's almost a year now since we broke up, I'm still madly in love with you. But, this, this I promise you. You will be the last man that I will fall in love to. I will hold on to this flowing air from that place that you left me. I will let it guide me back to you. And hopefully, we'll meet halfway. I love you so much. This isn't goodbye. We just saved the game and will load it in the future, when the right time comes. I will forever be waiting for you to comeback.

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It's been a while.

I never felt this much broken before. I usually love watching or seeing wedding proposals but lately, I'm starting to hate them. I'm not bitter. Hell right. It's been a while. I miss you. I miss us. I miss those days that we're still together. I miss the way you treat me with utmost care and concern. Right now, you wouldn't even give a damn on how I feel. Really. I'm so broken deep inside. So much broken that I can't even feel myself anymore. I want you back. I badly want you back. I made mistakes, you gave those chances and I wasted them. I know. But right now, I'm better than before. I'm so sorry for everything that I've done. I want you to know that I have changed. I love you more than before. You were and will always be my everything. I miss you so much. I know it's too late. But I still believe that we can still make it happen. Let's start over. Please give me that last chance to prove everything to you. I know I'm asking too much after all that I have dine but I don't want to lose my greatest love for good. I'll prove to everyone and above all to you that I deserve another shot. 4 years is not a joke. Although I made it seem like that but honestly and I'm sincerely sorry for everything. I miss the adventures. I miss the fun. I miss that guy who made me believe in forever. I miss the one who is always by my side all those years that I'm down. I love you. If you're reading this. 😔 Please, another chance? I won't ruin it. I'll take all that pain that I've caused you away. Let's start in a clean slate. I love you. So much that it hurts. Right now, I feel that you already found someone that will fill up those gaps that I did. I don't know. But it's just a wild guess. Based on what I saw and seeing. And I really hope it's not true. You're my everything. My life. My joy. My sadness. The one that I'm willing to spend my whole life with.

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I was badly hurt. He didn't even gave a damn.

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You are the only person that makes me feel special.

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Losing you is worse than dying. 😔

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I feel lost without you. 😔

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It was only just a dream. 😢

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I love staring at you while you sleep. And oh, I love your snore. 😍

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Sana

The biggest regret that I made last year was breaking your heart. Oo, sobrang pinagsisihan ko ‘yun ngayon. Sobrang tanga ko kasi. Hindi mo deserve ang matrato ng ganon. I made mistakea and I want to make up to it. I want you back.

This time I’ll be better. The best version of me. I love you so much. The past few months, I’ve let my self search for who I really am and what do I need to further improve myself. Along the way, I felt really empty. I felt really lost. Lost, lost without you. I’m so sorry. Although I’ve done nasty things that brought upon this kind of chaotic situation, I really want to prove that I’m worthy of your love. More than 4 years na tayo oh. And I’m really sorry.

If you will let me, If time and destiny will allow, gusto ulit kitang ligawan. I want to prove to you that the guy you loved more than 4 years ago is back and is better than ever. I love you. I really do.

There may be tons of distractions along the way at natutunan kong iwasan 'yung mga 'yun on the process of searching for myself. Please, allow me to be part of your plans again. I miss you so much.

I want to be your “motty” again. I miss how you hug and kiss me. It’s really special. No one can ever do those things to me with such emotions and gentleness than you do. I love you. I want you back but I guess you won’t let me.

I had my time. Now you need yours. To find yourself, to forget all the pain that I’ve caused you. Sorry. I’m really sorry.

Natatakot ako. Natatakot na on the process na makalimutan mo lahat ng 'yun ay kasabay na makalimutan mo din ako. Makalimutan at makahanap na ng iba. Sobrang sakit. Never been this hurt before. Mahal na mahal kita. Mahal na mahal.

Aalis ka na din. Lalayo. Paano na? Paano na tayo? Ayy, wala na nga palang tayo. Di ko na alam gagawin ko. Balik ka na sa akin. Gagawin ko lahat para mangyari 'yun. Mahal mo ako di ba? Mahal din maman kita. Pero you said that love is never enough. Ayusin muna natin sarili natin, 'yun ang sabi mo. Ayos na ako ohh, handang handa na ulit ako. Kaso ikaw, ikaw naman ang hindi handa. Natatakot ako. Natatakot na tuluyang mawala ka.

Katabi kita ngayon. Pero parang wala na lang ako sa iyo. Masakit. Sobra.

Sana, sana sa akin ka na lang ulit. Pwede naman tayong maging masaya ulit ahh. Kalimutan lahat ng sakit na naidulot ko sa iyo. Hayaan mo akong palitan ulit lahat ng mga masasaya at bagong alaala. Grow? We can grow with each other naman ehh. Grow as an individual and as a couple. Pwede naman ahh. Oh sadyang ayaw mo na lang talaga? Ewan. Masakit. Pero mahal kita.

Maghihintay ako. Kahit gaano katagal pa 'yan. Kahit malayo ka na. Dito lang ako. Magtitiwala sa mga salitang binitiwan mo.

Happy New Year. Bagong taon. Taon na wala ka na sa piling ko.

I love you. I love you so much MGNA.

Sana mabasa mo ito. Sana. 😢

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'Yung may quiz pala kayo tapos hindi mo alam.

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'Yung ikaw lang bumagsak sa klase niyo.

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‘Yung akala mo pasado ka sa exam pero hindi pala.

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'Yung ikaw tinawag ng prof. tapos hindi mo alam 'yung sagot sa tanong niya.

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'Yung akala mo bagsak ka na sa exam 'yun pala nagkamali lang ng basa 'yung prof. mo sa grade mo.

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Happy Kapamilya Dub Day

Hindi naman siguro lingid sa kaalaman ng iba ang nangyayaring gyera sa mundo ng Twitter. Pero seryoso, hindi na talaga nakakatuwa. I’m not against AlDub or whatsoever pero ‘yung mga fans kasi, OA na talaga.

Yes, they’ve always been on the top trending topics ever since they’ve made their grand entrance on the entertainment scene. Pero as of now. Pilit na ehh. I heard and I’ve seen people na nagtwee-tweet gabi pa lang para mag-top trending topic agad siya. Ready for the next day kung baga. Pero nasaan na ang fun sa pag-tweet? I mean ‘yung tipong mag-tweet ka for the sake na masabi mo ‘yung nasa mind mo at hindi ‘yung kahit ano na lang gawin mo ihahashtag mo pa ‘yung AlDubcheneschenes kahit hindi naman relate? Para lang mag number 1? 

The problem is that ‘yung fans kasi. They’re over acting. I also saw one tweet na kaya daw pinagsama-sama mga famous love teams ng ABS-CBN sa Showtime Kapamilya Day is dahil na threa-threaten sila? Uhm. Ehh sino ‘yung gabi pa lang pinapatrend na? Sino mas mukhang threatened? 

The fans. Yes, the fans. The way they attack other people dahil lang sa AlDub. It’s not good. Ginagawa na kasi nilang santo mga ito ehh. Why not focus on other issues? ‘Yung tweet worthy or whatseover. Oo, it’s for fun and entertainment purposes pero what I want to say is OA na. Nasabi ko na bang OA na? OA na.

Sana mailagay niyo sa resume niyo or biodata niyo na isa kayo sa million-milliong nagpatrend dun sa AlDub. Kinaganda niyo ‘yan. Pinagpuyatan niyo ‘yan ano ba.

Sabagay, kalyeserye nga naman. Pati mga tao utak kalye.

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INC

For the past few days the troops of INC are causing such turmoil to the point that it caused such disturbance to thousands of motorists and other people in Manila and Quezon City.

The heck! When everything was about to leave the streets and return to their lovely abodes, mayor Erap granted INC a 5-day permit to rally, I mean have a “VIGIL”, on the streets of Manila. Seriously? Ang dami nang naapektuhang tao sa kaepalan nila ha. Hindi na ako natutuwa. Sa Taft Ave pa talaga. Jusko, paano naman papasok mga estudyante niyan? Paano na ako papasok? Midterm week pa naman namin. Mga nandamay pa mga mokong.

It’s such a irritating scene. And really, a concert on the streets? Akala ko ba rally este “VIGIL” ‘yan? Nananakit pa ng mga taong nadaan sa kalsada. ‘Yan ba tinuturo ng rehiliyon niyo? Sorry not sorry. I know someone from INC and he’s neglecting his studies dahil may something sila sa INC at bawal mawala dun. Seryoso?? Mapapakain ka ba ng rehiliyon mo? To the point na ilang beses na niyang tinake ‘yung subject kasi sobrang dami niyang absences dahil sa mga kachuchuhan ng INC.

Tapos ano ngayon? Damayan? Ehh ‘yung iba ngang sumasali sa rally este “VIGIL” nila ay hindi alam kung bakit sila andun. Pinapunta lang ganon. Utot niyo. Pwede naman kasing mag rally este “VIGIL” sa mga lugar na walang makaka-apekto sa ibang tao or ‘yung planado para magkaroon ng alternative routes ang mga tao. Hindi ‘yung nanggagambala pa ng iba.

Separation of state and religion? Duh. Sa mga pinag-gagawa nila. Lalo silang kinakaayawan ng mga tao. Mga papansin kasi ehh. Pwede naman kasing I-voice out ng maayos ‘yung thoughts nila, hindi ‘yung nandadamay pa ng ibang tao.

Sorry, I just need to release these thoughts.