* winter rose

the fluttering butterfly of the night.

[soundsofmyuniverse]

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           THE HOLIDAY SEASON HAD BEEN  extra kind to amy ,  granting her the opportunity to spend some free time with people she cared about and a couple of days away from work ;  the burlesque was exhaustive  ( especially when you’re one of their best dancers ) ,  so it should be no surprise that she was more than happy to have some time off .  however ,  as amara well knew ,  all good things come to an end ;  and what an ending it was .

         when the  crimson - eyed girl  decided to spend her last say of freedom outside ,  something amy rarely ever did ,  she wasn’t counting on the possibility of rain .  perhaps it was foolish of her to not carry an umbrella in her purse at all times ,  but still  ---  that thought wouldn’t be of any help right now ,  not when she felt foolish standing underneath a marquee ,  soaked wet and waiting for the rain to pass .  the idea of catching a cold or something worse was rather terrifying ;  the last time she’d felt that way was ...  no ,  stop it ,  the woman thought to herself ,  shaking her head and banishing  the memories  away from her mind .  no matter how much this new life made her feel closer to being human again ,  she knew it wasn’t true .  it was a lie ,  a prank someone decided to pull on a number of people .  

         noticing someone approaching in the distance ,  amy’s arms wrapped around her body to keep warm and she took a few steps back in attempt to make more space in the sidewalk ,  turning  her gaze  away from the person .  she knew they would judge her no matter what ,  but that didn’t mean she wouldn’t try to hide .  after all ,  hiding was all the woman ever did .  

[malfestedichor]

where have you been that you would never go again?

    ❝  I HAVEN’T BEEN  to many places ,  but i don’t want to see  ostrheinsburg  ever again .  i guess i shouldn’t want to go back to  romania  either ,  not after what raphael did …  people might still be looking for him in  wallachia  —  and for me , i guess .  ❞

[malfestedichor]

what is the worst thing someone has ever said to you?

      “ THERE’S BEEN A FEW  rude things ,  but i tend to forget them  —  people don’t usually retain useless information ,  you see .  however ,  i do remember these two guys from when i was  a child .  i guess they despised me for not wanting anything with other slum residents and beggars ,  and one of them said i would turn up  dead  in a back alley soon enough .  well …  needless to say that never happened .  what an idiot . ”

[malfestedichor]

burnededens

   — @malfestedichor··· said ,  ❛ sometimes to achieve the world one desires, one must destroy the world.   ❜ 

   — ❝ SEE ?? YOU UNDERSTAND , ❞ Jacob nods his head in agreement , looking her in the eyes before he stands forward. He’s never been one to go into deep thought - not because he isn’t capable , and not because he isn’t smart , but Jacob works at too quick of a pace to think if he can afford not to. But there are RARE MOMENTS where he’ll show other people what it’s like inside his head , like in this moment with someone who appears to see similar ways he does.❝ Problem is , these issues are so ingrained into the society we live in - we have to NIP THE PROBLEM IN THE BUD , but because these problems have occurred for so long , you can’t really ensure an issue’s gone unless you start from the ground up. Tear down , rebuild with the rubble. That’s how I see it. ❞ That’s why he’s trying to do away with the small sources of corruption he suspects to invade Castle Town - it’s why he keeps his gang. But he has to make sure he does away with them in such a manner they can’t get back up , that way , the issues are gone.    

        WE HAVE TO NIP THE PROBLEM IN THE BUD .  there was something about the man’s words that confused her  ---  not because amara didn’t understand what he meant ,  but because she’s heard similar before .  hell ,  one might as well say she was familiar with from both sides of the situation .  she once was the problem and the victim ,  the rose & its thorns .  of course ,  there was no possible way for the man to know about any of this ;  no one did except for herself and edelle ,  who was yet to learn the specific details about her past .  amy knew the things she’d witnessed had little chance of similarity to what jacob meant ,  but that would not keep her from taking them as she would .  there is nothing wrong with playing devil’s advocate ;  especially when your prey holds strong values  .  ❝  &  how do you suppose people should tear the world down ?  ❞  she inquires ,  her crimson gaze staying fixated on the figure before her ,  chin resting on the palm of her hand .  ❝  i knew a man who sought to rebuild the world as his own .  a world where his kind would not be seen as  filthy scum ,  but as people like all else .  so he tried and tried ,  but it was all for naught  ---  though his methods were unusual ,  and all he’d achieved faded from his grasp as easily as it came .  ❞  pausing ,  amy straightened her posture before speaking again ,  the same  mona lisa - like  expression lingering on her face .  ❝  what do you suppose he should have done ?  follow the path his madness was leading him to and try an even more ...  radical approach ,  or simply accept defeat ?  ❞

[soulcaliburgeekage]

W I N T E R R O S E

[malfestedichor]

goldcnvntlcrs

&&  — HE CAN HEAR THE PERSON IN FRONT OF HIM TALKING , BUT HE CAN’T REALLY FIND A REASON TO LISTEN. it’s not unsual to find claude in this predicament , clearly bored out of his mind as his eyes drift from the dark , amber gaze before him over to the figure across the room , almost immediately keeping his attention on them. “ eh , i think i’m good and about done with this conversation. ” nobody could say claude every claimed to be graceful about these things because , well… he didn’t. not really when it came to people talking his ear of. without any hesitation , he moves over to the person he spotted , leaning against the wall as he offers them a small smile. “ thank god you looked at me , i was so fucking bored over there. ” shrugging , he looks over to the person he just ditched , then back to his new companion. “ lets say we ditch this place , hm ?? i can think of ten better things we could be doing. ”

          ❝  CHARMING AS EVER ,  aren’t you ,  claude ?  ❞   she greets him with a question of her own ,  ruby lips curled into an amused smirk .  although amy wasn’t exactly close with claude  ---  at least not enough to hold him in the same position as edelle and dahlia ,  the dancer didn’t take him for  bad company  either .  the man was definitely better than at least half the people in at the burlesque ;  costumers and workers alike .  ❝  i can tell why people seem to enjoy  your company .  that being said ,  ❞  she raises her glass , taking a fairly long sip from her drink while crimson gaze drifting towards the person claude had been speaking to previously .  what a bore ,  she thinks .  ❝  i believe the idea of a day off is to have an employee spend time away from work and all that relates to it  ---  including their fellow coworkers .  ❞   not that she would mind it entirely ,  of course ;  at least she knew the man not to be some creep .  those were always an annoyance ,  even if amy could handle them with effortless ease .  ❝  are you truly so  hopelessly bored  that you would rather spend your precious time with me ?  ❞

[setthandkate]

madison for Kode Magazine; october 2016

[malfestedichor]

📱 dollie!!

CONTACT INFO

name:  mothwoman . 

ringtone:  kill bill sirens

missed calls:  0

times called:  2

LAST SENT

amy  ( dec. 1st @ 4:10PM ):  it’s not that i don’t like butterflies ,  dollie …  

amy  ( dec. 1st @ 4:12PM ):  i just wish i could shower without worrYING ABOUT HITTING ONE AND HAVING YOU PANIC ABOUT IT

amy  ( dec. 1st @ 3:11PM ):  please keep them in your room .  or you know ,  just don’t let them get inside the bathroom .  i would like shower in peace .

amy  ( dec. 3rd @ 1:40AM ):  hey ,  did gladion stop by earlier by any chance ?

amy  ( dec. 3rd @ 1:40AM ):  no reason ,  i just wanted to know …  no ,  we’re not together again .  also i’ll be home soon .  don’t feel the need to wait up .

UNSENT

amy  ( drafted on dec. 2nd ):  you have a sister ,  right ?  i remember seeing two of you at that flower shop .

amy  ( drafted on dec. 2nd ):  after that i just connected the dots ,  since you don’t talk about her much .  family drama ?

amy  ( drafted on dec. 2nd ):  it’s none of my business and i don’t want it to be ,  but if i were in your shoes ,  if i had absolutely any family left ,  i wouldn’t just ignore them .

amy  ( drafted on dec. 2nd ):  if i still had my parents ,  my whole life would have been different …  maybe i’m just bitter that you have someone and i don’t .

amy  ( drafted on dec. 2nd ):  anyway ,  i guess you and edel makeup for it .  and gladion ,  too …  whatever ,  there’s no way i’m sending these out .

[malfestedichor]

📱 !!

CONTACT INFO

name:  empress .  /  @sacrilegiovs 

ringtone:  you do it well  /  saint motel

missed calls:  1 

times called:  3

LAST SENT

amy  ( dec. 1st @ 3:07PM ):  has dahlia ever showed you her butterflies ?

amy  ( dec. 1st @ 3:09PM ):  as in the actual ,  living butterflies she keeps in our place ?  there’s a lot of them 

amy  ( dec. 1st @ 3:11PM ):  i feel like i can’t even shower without thinking about water sprinkling all over the damned things !

amy  ( dec. 2nd @ 1:40PM ):  you sure you don’t need me to come over ? 

amy  ( dec. 2nd @ 1:42PM ):  if you’re gonna spend the whole day overthinking whatever one person told you about your past ,  you might as well share it with me .  i already said i’m here for you .

UNSENT

amy  ( drafted on nov. 30th ):  i do hope that you and dahlia don’t spend so much time together that i hardly get to see either of you .

amy  ( drafted on nov. 30th ):  believe it or not ,  the two of you are the only …

amy  ( drafted on nov. 30th ):  friends i’ve ever had .  that’s the proper term ,  right ?  is this what friendship is like ?

amy  ( drafted on nov. 30th ):  this is stupid .  if you push me away ,  that’s fine .  it’s not like you will be reading these anyway .

amy  ( drafted on nov. 30th ):  but i suppose i do enjoy your presence .  i would like for it to last for a while .

[malfestedichor]

📱 gladion !!

CONTACT INFO

name:  dearest.  /  @nvllfvtcd

ringtone:  cherry ( instrumental ) / lana del rey

missed calls:  0  

times called:  2

LAST SENT

amy  ( nov. 30th @ 2:10AM ):  hey ,  i just got home .  hope this doesn’t wake you up .

amy  ( nov. 30th @ 2:13AM ):  i should have known .  you need to stop staying up so late for my sake ,  you need rest more than i .

amy  ( nov. 30th @ 3:21AM ):  you fell asleep while typing again ,  didn’t you ?  what a dummy …  sleep well ,  glad .

amy  ( dec. 1st @ 1:40PM ):  i wasn’t shaming you for sleeping ,  silly .  manon said tomorrow is your day off at beans x3 .  is that true ?

amy  ( dec. 1st @ 1:42PM ):  no reason …  but in case you’re wondering ,  i’m free all day .

UNSENT

amy  ( drafted on nov. 26th ):  what’s going to happen to us when you wake up ?

amy  ( drafted on nov. 26th ):  with any luck you’ll remember some significant other from wherever your real home is and let me go . or you’ll be as stubborn as ever and stay forever ,  however long your forever is .  

amy  ( drafted on nov. 26th ):  either way ,  i hope you’ll wake up to happier things .

amy  ( drafted on nov. 28th ):  i wish i didn’t remember the things i do .  we wouldn’t fight as much ,  i’d tell you how i feel everyday with nothing but certainty of my own emotions ,  i wouldn’t worry about hurting you ,  and things would just be easier .  

amy  ( drafted on nov. 29th ):  why is it that the idea of you hating me hurts more than you fearing me ?  is it because we’d share the same fear ?  … why does the thought of you hating me make me feel so weird ?

[malfestedichor]

sacrilegiovs

@malfestedichor

“  updates  ?  oh  ,  there  have  been  …  plenty  .  some  good  ,  some  bad  .  ”  edelgard  hums  as  she  takes  out  her  crown  ,  placing  it  atop  her  head  before  she  turns  around  to  face  amy  .  the  scene  playing  out  is  reminiscent  to  the  first  time  she  brought  it  out  for  her  friend  —  right  before  the  fated  masquerade  .  except  this  time  ,  edel  knows  far  more  than  she  ever  thought  possible  .  “  as  you  already  know  ,  i  am  dating  dollie  now  .  one  of  the  better  developments  that  have  been  made  ,  i  can  assure  you  .  however  ,  ”  she  pauses  with  a  sad  smile  ,  knowing  that  although  she  doesn’t  need  to  hold  back  with  amy  ,  it  might  be  a  lot  to  take  in  .  it’s  still  a  lot  to  process  for  herself  ,  no  less  .  but  because  it’s  her  life  ,  or  rather  former  ,  she  wants  to  share  with  those  close  to  her  .  this  life  or  a  past  ,  even  the  next  ;  true  companionship  was  always  difficult  for  her  .  and  now  that  she  has  more  of  it  ?  she  selfishly  doesn’t  want  to  let  go  .  “  as  it  would  turn  out  ,  i  didn’t  actually  have  to  do  that  much  digging  into  things  .  someone  …  important  to  me  ,  he  decided  to  bring  me  in  from  the  dark  ,  so  to  speak  .  though  i  must  warn  you  before  going  further  ,  you  may  not  believe  any  of  it  and  i  wouldn’t  blame  you  .  ”  especially  ,  edelgard  realizes  ,  that  if  her  own  life  here  is  fabricated  ,  would  that  not  mean  amy’s  —  everyone  else’s  —  is  ,  too  ?

           THERE IS NO DENYING   the blonde’s response to her inquiry about updates makes the corners of amy’s lips curl briefly into a smirk ;   what is life if not a collection of good and bad moments ?   that being said ,  she finds herself wishing the pros would outweigh the cons in this situation .  there was little amara could control of her friend’s life  ---  or anyone’s life ,  really  ---  yet that does not mean she is sit down and watch as chaos unfolds .  she promised herself that much .  while listening intently ,  the malfested’s  crimson - colored  gaze drift to the crown resting atop the other woman’s head .  she had never been one for nobles ,  unable to harbor anything but  resentment  towards those who mistreated the homeless of rouen ,  but that changed upon meeting raphael .  had she met edelgard under any other circumstance ,  their relationship might have followed an entirelly different path .   patiently ,  amy waits her turn to speak ,  prefacing her words with a brief chuckle .   ❝  yes ,  i’ve heard about you and dollie ,  and i am ...  happy  that you are together .  ❞   the word tastes bitter on her tongue ;  could she even recall what true happiness felt like ?  ❝  but do spare me of any petty fights you two may have in the future ,  yes ?   ❞  it is then that her posture changes into a more serious one ,  as if preparing to face a harsh truth  ---  or to expose one .  ❝  edel ,  we’ve already been through this ;  i  will  stand by you ,  you have my word .  ❞   a pause ,   ❝  and if you truly are no longer in the dark ,  then you must know that i may not be as  innocent  as you think i am .  as a matter of fact ,  i’m far from it .  whatever it is you want to tell me ,  i promise it won’t be nearly enough to make me turn back on my word .  ❞

[malfestedichor]

once-an-ice-queen

Upon hearing Amy, she shifted her cold glance towards her. — Not exactly used to people being able to read her so well, though even she knew she must appear out of place with all of the questions running through her head at the moment. Regardless, Nicole tried to put on her usually near emotionless demeanor as she subtly analyzed this stranger. Her red eyes not quite fazing her - she had dealt with someone with red eyes … Or a red eye, before after all. - and a part of her was just as curious or possibly amused as this unfamiliar person. “ It would seem I am . . Could you possibly tell me where I am? ” — She was going to take this chance to try and gain some information.

      BINGO ,  just as she’d expected .  perhaps it was the search for the evil sword that had made her able to read people so well ;  in ostrheinsburg ,  knowing how to see through an opponent could mean winning the battle .  that ,  and how deep you were willing to bury your feelings .  needless to say that for amy ,  that wasn’t a problem .  at least not back home .  ❝  you’re in castle town ,  in the state of delaware .  personally ,  i like to think of this place as an extra circle of hell ,  ❞  you’d have to be  incredibly cruel  to trap people in a place like this ,  not to mention erase the memories of a few citizens as well .  it’s such a cruel world .  ❝  and judging by your behavior ...  i’m assuming you remember a thing or two .  ❞  a sigh escapes her lips ,  gaze wandering around for a moment ,  ❝  wish i could say you’re lucky but ,  well ,  some of us would rather  forget .  i’m amara  ---  call me amy ,  if you wish . ❞

[incorrectsoulcaliburquotes]

Amy Sorel + text post meme

[malfestedichor]

+ Bravery

       ❝  BRAVERY AND STUPIDITY  are two sides of the same coin .  raphael hardly knew a thing about being responsible for someone else’s life when he took me off the streets .  some would consider it brave of him to take an  orphan girl  under his wing with so little knowledge on the matter and so many  silly nobles  chasing after him ,  some would consider it stupid .  so many of the things he’s done could be considered either brave or pure foolishness …  but if you ask me ,  he really is a dummy .  ❞

[malfestedichor]

once-an-ice-queen

❄️tw: brief death mention • tw:gun mention❄️

As Nina or Nicole - as she was now apparently known - awoke inside her Castle Town apartment for the first time, she was understandably…. nothing but confused. Usually it would take quite a bit to confuse her but, being in an unfamiliar body, a unfamiliar home, hell even an unfamilar world it would seem — That would all qualify for quite a bit. She remembered the chapel, stealing her sisters wedding dress, ‘saving’ her sisters husband-to-be from a life of hell, the confrontation with Anna, even her first at length conversation with that annoying son of hers Steve… … But … Then what? Did she ever leave? ——For a moment Nicole considered the thought that maybe Anna, by some miracle or slim chance, had actually won their seemingly endless rivalry in that chapel in Italy. She wondered “Am I… Dead?” accidentally outloud yet under her breath as she left what appeared to be her apartment building and walked on to the sidewalk. Subtly glancing at the people and buildings around her, for anything or anyone that seemed even remotely familiar.

        A PART OF HER  wants to laugh at the stranger’s inquiry ,  though she knows it wasn’t much of an actual question .  it makes her turn her red - colored eyes towards the woman ,  as if to examine just how  ‘ dead ’  she was ;  after all ,  if this town had any such thing as an authority on what undead people looked like ,  amy figured it would be her own self .  ❝  ... hardly ,  ❞   she responds simply ,  not really putting that much thought into the situation or what could have led the other to such an assumption .  ❝  i would say  confused  ,  but not dead .  ❞  if anything ,  amara would say she looked just like any other human .  a privilege ,  if you asked her .  head tilting to the side in slight curiosity  (  or was it amusement ?  )  ,  she furrowed her eyebrows at the stranger ,  a hand holding the shoulder strap of her bag .  there was still some time left before tonight’s shift ,  and it wasn’t like amy was in a hurry to get to the burlesque .  ❝  in any case ,  are you lost ?  ❞

[malfestedichor]

fvtvrelegends

   ⁠— ❝ HOY THERE , GRACIOUS CUSTOMER !! MAY I INTEREST YOU IN … Ugh. ❞ He breaks character to heave a long sigh , forgetting why originally he volunteered to do this. He stands outside his workplace , hands on his hips &  lightsaber in one hand - of course , dressed in an … interesting Santa Costume ; a brown cloak over the regular attire that seems to fit a WEE BIT too tightly. Jedi Santa Claus was what he went with ; it beat Inigo’s suggestions of Hot Santa Claus , and that may have been what the original costume meant for , but that wasn’t exactly Owen’s ballpark. So he waves his fake green lightsaber around , shaking his cloak and swaying back and forth. ❝ TO YE POTENTIAL CUSTOMERS !! Our Black Friday sales will be starting soon ; I will also take pictures if it means to check the store out !! I am only but a simple gracious Jedi waiting for my … SPACE SLEIGH OF THE GALAXIES to return … ❞ And a whisper , under his breath , ❝ I will breakdance in this costume if it means I get a raise. ❞ At least it helps him take part in his theatrics ; one of the reasons why he’s doing this in the first place. But the costume … that’s a bit much. ( Or maybe he secretly finds it cool , but he knows nobody else will. )

         FOR SOMEONE WHO  didn’t quite work at the hq ,  amara frequented the store more often than one would think .  perhaps it was the fact that they did sell a few items that suited her aesthetic ,  or maybe the way some of the employees weren’t as repulsive as most of the townsfolk ;  in fact ,  she felt somewhat comfortable around them .  her objective today ,  however ,  wasn’t to stop at the hq but to visit gladion at one of his two jobs .  he should be at the record scratch judging by the hour ,  and yet ...   well ,  the red eyed girl couldn’t keep herself from making a stop upon seeing the rather  original  santa claus costume .  ❝  i see mister jade has picked this year’s christmas prey ,  ❞  she comments with a smirk .  amy knew the store’s owner wouldn’t make anyone play such an interesting part on purpose ,  but she couldn’t let that pass .  ❝  i would have imagine something along the lines of  vampire santa ,  given henry’s tastes ,  and yet ...  i have been  proved wrong .  ❞  tilting her head to the side ,  the girl did her best to hold back her laughter ,   ❝  you should try doing advertisement for  the burlesque  in that outfit .   i am sure people would be very ...  intrigued .  want me to speak to my boss on your behalf ?  ❞