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[mallorywytte]

I still hate myself but I still want to be happy

[mallorywytte]

2026 actual worst year. crush started liking someone else. I should be happy for her but I am not and I hate myself for that. Grades are declining, I need to try harder, I hate myself for slacking off. Lost a friend all because I was insecure and filled with self hatred. I hate myself

[mallorywytte]

I was brawling my eyes out in the fuckass toilet and the window was open and I legit though of jumping for real and I hated myself so much for that I started crying harder. If I actually died of suicide my parents would need to pay off all this debt from my scholarship. I don't want to put them through that. I hate it. I wish there was a way I can die and everyone will forget about me and my death won't burden anyone

[mallorywytte]

I wanna die I wanna die I wanna die I wanna die I wanna die so bad I wanna die let me die

[mallorywytte]

I can't do this pls someone else reply

My mental health is bad enough already dont do this to me please please please

[mallorywytte]

I wanna die let me die

[mallorywytte]

I might actually be depressed for real. I hate myself I hope I die soon and I hope everyone forgets about me so no one has to miss me. I want to go back home so bad I wish time would never pass and I wish I could stay at home all the time

[mallorywytte]

It's so over

[mallorywytte]

this is my last day in hell

[mallorywytte]

I don't want to lose our connection but I don't know how else to keep it. it is so hard. I am the problem

[mallorywytte]

this shit hurts so bad take me back

[mallorywytte]

Okay man I wish it was me 😂😂😂😂

[mallorywytte]

I just feel lonely and yearn for connection that's all there's to it

[mallorywytte]

I am so cooked it's so over sooooooooo over

[mallorywytte]

i do miss her a lot. one day of not talking and im going crazy. i am going insane literally

[mallorywytte]

do I feel jealous or sad when she talks about the guy. or am I just forcing myself to feel this way. this is so confusing. How do I get forget about all this and actually get some work done aaaaaaa

[mallorywytte]

I really hate the possibility that my feelings weren't genuine at all. When I tried to actually move on, it isn't even hard. I started thinking of another person and it feels like whatever I felt for her didn't even exist in the first place. I hate it. Will anything I feel ever be genuine, this actually sucks so bad because I know the root cause of all this is just that I'm lonely as hell. Ever after all this time I still feel alone