Lately I have been noticing that my dreams have been very scattered and not clear at all. Normally, I am able to wake up and remember pieces of the dream and it makes some sense. Lately though, theyāre all weirdly scattered and are pieces of dreams that relate to my life, so it makes it hard for me to figure out which bits are real and which are actually dreams. Itās been an odd feeling and has been happening for a few weeks, I believe..
Well this morning, I finally had a dream and it was very clear and vivid and involved someone that I miss. That person being the one that I brought it in my last post that I teased endlessly. Again, it felt like a continuation of what actually happened. And I kept wondering also why he had not shown up in my dreams, so in a way Iām happy but it also makes me wonder if he misses, thinks of me, or dreams of me. Who knows. Anyways, it felt like I was in his city, but then it seemed like I was near home. I remember we were hanging out with one of his friends. We went to leave to go take a walk somewhere, I remember his friend kept walking ahead of us and somehow I felt like I was falling behind with my walking while my friend walked slightly ahead of me. I hardly ever lag with walking and tend to walk very quickly, even all of my tall friends notice because although I am short, I never fall behind, so it was interesting that I caught this in the dream. I also remember him mentioning my suitcase and about me heading home later that it would get late, and I remember saying not to worry, that I would jump on an uber to head home (I actually did use an uber when I went to see him, so again, interesting). We talked a bit and I remember we were having nice conversations, but donāt remember exactly about what. It felt like a continuation of our time together when we met and hung out, so it was nice. And it was nice seeing him in my dream, since I feel like heās been so distant ever since and itās made me quite sad since I had hoped that we would stay in a little more contact. Makes me wonder if heās keeping me at a distance so as not to get close to me, since we have the physical distance to deal with, which is awful. In any case, I am glad that I finally had a dream worth having and worth remembering, with someone that I truly do miss and wish that I could have near me. Maybe this was a way to tell me that although we donāt talk or communicate as much, that I am still in his thoughts and memories and that deep down he does miss me. I do feel that I left an impact on him, so I can only hope, and can only hope to get some communication from him some day in the future. Or maybe thatās just the utter optimist in me that can only continue to hope for a good outcome and the possibility of seeing each other again..
