“SHE LOOKS JUST LIKE A DREAM !!”
art credits: @//thatsallitchief . divider credits: @//pixopix .
synopsis: toji fushiguro was everything but shy. always forefront, loud, obnoxious. but all of a sudden, he has the wind knocked out of him the first time he lays his eyes on the girl standing in the corner of a house party, completely dead to the world. hell bent on getting on your good side, only to be met with eye rolls to the back of your head, mr. frat vice president is forced to kill his pride for once—practically on his knees to merely get to know you.
note/cw: fem!reader, toji is so so so ooc and shy, reader is a lil diva lowkey, this is not proofread btw.
“hey sukuna look over there." toji nudged toward his friend, trying to point to the direction where his eye seemed to have caught the looks of who he could only describe to be the cutest girl alive.
the party was already bustling with people, drinks being passed around endlessly in sukuna's mansion, while people danced as if no one was watching.
the glimmering lights, the endless amounts of chaos, the loud noises and the cheap drinks with the faint smell of weed permeating the air—this was exactly toji's scene. it was loud, blinding, chaotic, everything that encompassed the massive, insane, albeit beloved frat vice president.
he never saw himself ever being in a frat, let alone basically leading one, but with sukuna dragging him into this life and basically having greated delta phi, toji was left with almost no choice.
"oh her? she's in my anatomy class, realll cute. everyone's terrified of her."
"psh—people are scared of her?" the thought was utterly ridiculous to him, someone afraid of a girl who looked like she could barely hurt a fly.
"i dunno man try to talk to herself yourself." sukuna shrugged, making his way through the halls to try to get himself a drink.
you felt out of place here—it was loud, far too loud, the drink tasted like piss, and the music was absolute shit. but you'd promised utahime you'd show up, but she'd long since forgotten about you, chatting up gojo in the corner of the room while you awkwardly fiddled with your fingers wondering whether you could finally leave without anyone noticing you.
the only problem was, everywhere you went, you always seemed to grab some sort of attention (much against your will). you were stunning, deathly smart, and you had most people on their toes around here, all of them just dying to have a conversation with you.
so the second you saw toji making his way towards you, you chugged down the drink in your hands, trying your best not to gag, because to try to have a conversation with anyone involved in a frat, you knew you'd have to be at least some level of intoxicated.
"eugh. is that how you start a conversation with everyone?" you grimaced, your eyes narrowing while toji seemed to backtrack twenty steps trying to make up for this.
"i—uhh." okay. that was new. he never stuttered—well most of the time, no one really shot down his advances that quickly. and gods you were stunning up close, he was starting to feel like a loser with a crush.
you started at him, somehow managing to look down at the absolute behemoth of a man despite being so much shorter.
"well?" you questioned, you wanted to feel bad for him, really, but the way you could see his mind shoot blanks the very moment you uttered a word just made you want to continue to torment him. it's not everyday that one gets to see toji fushiguro of all people find himself at a loss for words.
"i just thought you were pretty, is all."
"thank you, toji. that wasn't so hard was it?" you cooed, almost like he was a child, watching the flush creep up toji's neck while he tried to look everywhere but at your eyes.
"i'll see you around, fushiguro. try not to stutter next time."
"the fuck are you doing here man, you aren't even in this class?" sukuna was almost yelling, while toji had a ridiculous hoodie with sunglasses on, trying to scan the classroom to try to find you.
"that girl…i need to know where she is."
"y/n? you were with her 15 minutes and you never got her name? that's unlike you, man."
"oh she got you GOOD." sukuna was giggling now, pointing at toji's cherry reddened face while you continued to snicker. he could already see his friend slowly falling for a girl who'd want nothing to do with the likes of either of them, and knowing toji—he'd go out of his way to try to prove himself to you. and sukuna was going to savour every second of his suffering.
you were seated up front, right next to choso while you took extensive notes of the class, answering every question during the lecture, your eyes dead focused on the class, barely moving away from the professor for the entirety of it.
right as the class was dismissed, you packed everything into your blindingly accessorised bag, keychains clinking together while you skipped out of class—right before toji sprinted to stop you before you left.
"i didn't know you took this class."
"well i—uhh don't. i never got your name."
"is that all you wanted to ask, toji?" you leaned over, watching his face flush yet again, while you scratched the back of his neck, trying his hardest to get words out. gods, why was it so fucking difficult to talk to you?
"i'm y/n, but i'm sure sukuna already told you that, hmm?"
"words, baby, words." gods you were such a tease. and he knows every single time he tries to talk to you, a small part of him would continue to die, unless he managed to figure out how to form a coherent thought around you. which was proving to be damn near impossible.
"i just wanted to talk to you, why d' you have to make it so difficult?"
"i know people like you toji, and unless i keep you on your feet, i know you'll eventually get bored and forget all about me." ouch. is that how little you thought of him? i mean of course a part of it was true, but it's not like he was just trying to toy around with you, right? was he actually looking for something serious for once?
you knew toji was a manwhore. and you knew you should've immediately shot down his advances. but something about having the suave playboy at the very palm of your hands gave you this sickening sense of satisfaction. well, there wasn't much you knew of him to give him a fair judgement. he was always surrounded by groups of men and women who wished to sleep with him, but you'd never really seen him entertaining most of them. and a part of you was terrified that he only liked you because you liked him.
you were petrified of having to deal with that—you'd seen your friends get into relationships with the idiots from the delta phi and get their hearts shattered. you weren't going to be that girl. you'd promised yourself that.
"and then he—are you even paying attention to me?!" you heard utahime scream from your phone, your head in space while she tried to explain the details of the date she went on with that one blue eyed freak, who was it again? oh, gojo.
"i-i am!! of course i am, hime."
"he walks around campus following you like a lost puppy, n/n. of course it's about him."
"oh he DOES NOT" you gasped almost embarrassed at the sheer thought of this massive six-foot-something hunk of a man following you like a dog. but she was probably right.
"he looks like he has water dumped on him every single time you shoot him down please."
"i'm being serious, y/n."
"i dun know. maybe he's just bored and wants entertainment."
"i dont think i've ever seen toji entertain anyone. he's far too busy cleaning up sukuna's messes to have a life of his own. and for once i see him try to talk to a girl and she's shooting him down like he's got the plague."
"y/n." you could practically hear her glaring through the phone screen, and she knew you, knew how you just had to push people away until they absolutely insisted on staying. unfortunately, toji was finding ways to reluctantly worm his way into your life. you wanted to hate it. you knew you couldn't.
"man how do i get her to talk to me?" toji slumped down on sukuna's couch, his head pouding from last night and the stupid amount of vodka he'd drunk because he kept thinking about it. it didn't work. it just made it a whole lot worse.
"i don't know, man. she's into nerdy shit—museums and all that crap. oh and she really likes this pastry from that cafe near campus. maybe you should try to get some for her."
"woah you're actually helpful, man, thanks."
"how the fuck do you think i get women in the first place?"
"you whip out your dick?"
toji showed up at very crack of dawn, making his way through the cafe before he got his hands on that pastry you seemed to munch on every other day. he placed it in a bag, leaving a note on it—
'i promise it isn't poisoned—t.f'
you made your way into the classroom, finding the brown paper bag on your desk, giggling a little at the note on top of it. gods, he really shouldn't be using his initials to sign off absolutely anything.
you opened it to find your pastry inside—you'd run out of time this morning to get your usually kick of sugar, and a part of you was giddy. slowly eating the pastry with the tiniest smile on your face.
unbeknownst to you, toji was outside this very classroom, waiting until you finally showed up to see his little present. maybe he was just a liiiittle bit of a stalker. it was alright though, he'd hoping it'd all be worth it at the end.
he'd try his hardest to talk to you—he thought he was making progress, really but most of the time, you'd flip your hair, bat your eyelashes at him, and walk right away, paying him absolutely no mind.
"hey! y/n the notes for today—"
"you aren't in my class, dumbass, find something else if you wanna talk to me." you were off again, nowhere to be find, leaving only your lingering scent of perfume behind. and toji being toji would sniff the air while you left, already trying to figure out another way to try to get you to talk to him.
"hey y/n, you coming to kuna's party this weekend?"
"mm i dunno toji it isn't really my scene."
he'd finally gathered the courage to talk to you again and he figured inviting you to a party would be his best shot at spending some time with you—he was a lot more confident drunk, after all.
you laugh to yourself before you could stop yourself—his insistent charm was starting to get to you, the way he'd walk up to you every morning, the way he always waited outside your classes until you were done, some of the attention was starting to feel a little warm.
you could feel your heart soften beyond dangerous territory at his constant pestering, trying to hold a conversation with you, and you could feel your heart flutter when he tried to get you to talk about more academic things. even when you knew he hadn't a clue about what prions meant, he'd listen to you go on tangents about diseases before you stopped yourself, snapping at him because it was lot easier than having to apologise for being boring.
"i dont know, utahime should i go to the party?"
"well a rational part of me wants to say no. but your life is boring as shit so i'm saying yes."
"i second that." you heard shoko take a drag of her cigarette before blowing the smoke in your balcony, watching you struggle to pick an outfit to wear for the night.
"maybe i should wear something classy!" you chirped trying to hide your slit miniskirts and bedazzled belts at the back of your closet. heaven forbid toji saw you like that he'd never shut his goddamn mouth.
"slutty is the word you're looking for." shoko walks back into the room, shoving you out of the way while she inspected the back of your closet, fishing through all your academic outfits until she found the mound of party clothes, body glitter, and bras decked out with more accessories than you can count.
"oh this is going to be fun."
toji was already seated on the worn out couch in the centre of the room, nursing a beer in hand, eyeing the entrance hoping to god you'd magically walk through the doors.
a part of him knew you wouldn't—but right before he could go down that spiral you walked in. and oh. my. god.
he could feel his breath catch in his throat—the way your dress ran up your thighs, the way the fabric hugged your curves juust right had his stupid pants tightening around his cock, his head already buzzed with the alcohol, and the way your body shimmered under the strobing lights made toji wanted to get on his knees before you and just trace your skin with his lips until you were a gasping mess underneath him.
"toji..?" you snapped your fingers in front of him, your bracelets clinking before him while you tried to get him to look at you again.
"well yeah." you sat right next to him, your body pressed against his while he tried to figure out if placing his hand around your waist would earn him a slap to his face or not.
"you can hold my waist toji, i don't bite." you purred—sounding a lot more confident than you felt, eyeing him like prey while he wrapped his arms around you, pulling you closer to his muscled form, as if there was no one else in the room.
people were dancing, sweaty bodies grinding against each other on the floor while you sipped on toji's beer and swore you could see sukuna in the corner of the room, trying to hype toji up while he nervously bounced his leg back and forth.
you placed your hand on his knee.
"you don't have to be so nervous, fushiguro."
gods the sound of his name on your lips wasn't helping, the way you looked up at him through your lashes—he was so close to just getting on his knees before you and just begging you to go out with him. that'd be pathetic though. but he sure as hell wouldn't be above it.
his eyes barely left your cleavage while he stared shamelessly, the body glitter complimenting your skin so well, he felt like a feral animal. and the second his frat bros made their way to greet you he was all but fighting the urge to bark at them like a fucking dog.
he could see the way they were looking at you, scanning your body like hungry wolves while you giggled and talked to them—you could feel his grip around your waist slowly tighten. and gods you were getting a kick out of his misery. but the very moment shiu whistled, placing his hand on your thigh, toji was dragging you away, holding you closer than he was before.
"didn't like the way shiu was looking at ya."
"don't you look at me that way?"
"well, i'm a little hypocrite, sue me." you giggled against him, practically falling over his chest while his arms were wrapped around your waist. for the second it felt like the strange limbo the two of you had been stuck on was finally shattered. that this was actually going somewhere. or maybe it was just the alcohol.
you head was buzzed from the night before, you were tangled in your sheets—your memory failing you, while you tried to look around the room before you looked at your phone.
toji: you passed out after a couple drinks.
yn: sorry! i just got home thanks for dropping me off..i think?
he was trying to type out something, anything to keep the conversation but every single time he tried his mind blanked—you were his dream girl without him realising he ever really had a type.
you were insanely smart, drop-dead gorgeous, with a voice that could make him a frenzied lunatic, and a face with a body that should've been illegal. you were everything, magnetic, quiet, mysterious and alluring—and even being in your mere presence had him sweating bullets.
and you admittely, had grown fond of toji. but you being you, you just had to keep him on his toes until he cracked. there's nothing more attractive than a confident man who just breaks into a pathetic mess, right?
while toji had crashed out twelve different times in his apart, trying to hype himself up to finally try to ask you out on what essentially wasn't even a date.
"god toji what is up with you man?"
"I DONT KNOW YOU TELL ME." you screamed, pacing around the place like a man possessed while sukuna watched him from the couch, nursing a beer in his hands while watching his friend go through the five stages of grief over a girl he could barely hold an entire conversation with.
"i'm gonna do it. i'll ask her."
"on what isn't even a date, bro."
sukuna shrugged, laughing a little while toji continued to pace, as if walking around the room would magically make his nerves calm even a little.
"hey you wanna go to the museum exhibit this weekend?"
"i—i mean." gods why was trying to ask you out so nerve wracking.
"i thought you had no interest in museums."
"i dont but i do like listening to you talk." he says almost sheepishly while you slowly narrow your eyes at him.
"WAIT REALLY?" he cheered outside while a bunch of people turned around their heads to whisper something about toji being pathetic and down bad. gods it was almost like he wanted to ruin his reputation.
"yeah yeah. don't get your panties in a twist." you walked away from him, almost a little giddy, but you weren't going to let him have that. you were always in control.
yn: don't be late or ill have your head on a platter.
toji: jokes on you im into that shit.
your conversation had grown to be more casual—something about having toji pester you constantly had you finally ease up around him, lowering your so called 'unshakable' walls to finally let him have a conversation with you without you having to reprimand him and roll your eyes until you could see the back of your head.
toji was a lot less jumpy too—more suave, more confident, more like the way he was around his friends. but it really was taking everything out of him to not just kiss you senseless and ask you to be his already. but he knew he had to be patient.
you'd opted to dress cuter this time, notebooks in hand while you waited outside the museum's building while toji caught up to you.
"and i'm not late! see." he grins at you almost smug and boyish while you walk ahead of him into the museum.
"good job." you joked eyeing him up and down.
you made your way through the museum, rushing him to the bodies exhibit, pointing at every muscle and noting things down while toji tried his hardest not to gag. he was fucking terrified of the way you seemed so excited by all the strange things, the bones, a part of him wondered what you'd do to him if he ever pissed you off.
you rambled on about things he could barely keep up with, your eyes lighting up in ways he'd never seen before and fuck he just wanted to kiss you right there. it was killing him to be on this limbo of barely your friend, or something beyond that.
fucking hell he could feel his face on fire every second you leaned far too close, he hated it and he hated that he wanted more.
you made your way home, your heart beating out of rhythm while you skipped along, toji finally turned away, walking back to his apartment and gods you wished he couldn't see your face the second he turned away.
you could feel your face heat up, with the way his eyes never left yours, with the way he was looking at you like he was actually listened. you fucking hated it. it made you feel so special, and that was fucking infuriating.
toji practically leaped into sukuna's arms the second he was home, raving about how well the so called 'hangout' went, ranting about how much you actually talked to him.
sukuna was close to making fun of him, but a part of him was happy his friend actually found someone to bother, and the fact that it was someone who could keep up with him was so much better.
"fantastic work, sherlock."
"don't get sassy on me you still have no idea if she likes you back." ouch. but true nonetheless.
gods this entire back and fourth was killing him—but he was making progress, and that was good, right? it meant that the two of you actually had something. that terrified him, because toji fushiguro didn't know what it meant to have someone important to him.
because if this came crumbling down, he wouldn't be able to handle any of it. so he was absolutely dead set on doing this right.
most of weeks passed like a blur—with you and toji talking between classes, with him showing up to your table during lunch with your coffee and a book that he'd seen you read before.
he'd started doing things that he'd never done for people before—observing your habits and the things you liked simply because he wanted to continue to talk to you.
he started to read, for fucks sake. picking up novels that he'd seen you anotate, trying his hardest to make sense of the plot of half the things you'd studied, questioning you so he could just get a look into your brain.
you'd started to seek him out too—telling him about the shows you'd watched, the stuff you'd read, simply because he was just willing to listen even if he didn't know two cents about what you were saying.
you never got to hear the end of it from shoko and utahime, though. they'd bully you the very second they saw your phone blow up with notifications from toji, which was, to put it lightly, constantly.
he was starting to fall for you dangerously fast, his composure slowly chipping away, while you seemed to be utterly unperturbed by anything.
you treated him just the same, but toji could barely keep talking to you without having his nerves in knots and his hands shaking like he was panicking.
he'd constantly leave you little notes at your desk—he'd pester you with details about classes he never took, and on occasion he'd bother utahime to try to figure out the things that you liked.
you were nearly impossible, a closed door and a girl who never wore her heart on her sleeve. it was driving him nuts—the way you seemed to have people pouring they're hearts to you while you gave them nothing to work with in return.
you seemed to air out details about your life that never seemed to give people a single clue about what you were really like, anyway. only ever dropping slight hints about the things you enjoyed without ever elaborating any further. and toji always liked the nonchalant ones. even though a part of him died trying to figure you out.
"you're actually starting to like him, aren't you?" utahime questioned, waggling her eyebrows at you while she poured wine into your glass, shoving it to your face.
"who would've thought, miss i hate all men would've finaaaally found an exception to her stupid rule." shoko says, looping her arms around your shoulders while you downed the entire glass without breathing.
"what if he just…gets bored of me—."
"he looks like he's on the verge of getting on his knees and begging every single time he's in your vicinity, puh-lease."
your head was starting to spin, the topic long forgotten while utahime tried to take a body shot off of shoko while you giggled in the corner.
a part of you wanted to call him while you were tipsy—the alcohol in your veins making you want to do things you wouldn't ever consider doing sober. and before you knew it, you were dialing his number, watching it ring while staring at his stupidly perfect body on your screen.
toji heard his phone ring a bunch—hoping that it wasn't sukuna trying to hide from another girl he managed to screw over, only to be met with that picture of you from the museum that he made your profile. he could feel his heart drop to his stomach. you never called him? hell, you never even texted him first, were you in trouble? were you kidnapped?!
"tojiiiiiiiii" you slurred through the speaker, your voice bubbly and giggly like toji had never heard before.
"why'd you call, ma?" he says, letting out a sigh, still worried sick about the possiblility of you being held hostage.
"rude!! i just missed hearing you." you said almost sing-song and toji was all but resisting the urge to punch the walls and bite his fists. why the fuck did you have to be as cute as you were intimidating. it wasn't fair to his poor heart, y'know.
"you can't just say things like that."
"why not? you say it to me all the time." gods he could practically picture the pout you'd have on your face right about now.
"that's different, when you say stuff like this it makes me wanna hide you away forever, fuck. you have the kind of effect on me i could only dream of having on you, y/n." he spat out, it was painfully honest, he could tell that you were drunk, and he knew that you wouldn't recall anything in the morning.
"well i'm just better at hiding it." you giggled, you could picture his entire face going entirely red, flushed until his neck while you heard him sigh slowly.
"you're dangerous for my heart, ya know that?"
"oh i know." is all you say before ending that call, now watching shoko and utahime fight like children on the ground while shoko grabbed utahime's phone to possibly try to text gojo.
"you called him didn't you?" the two of them ask turning around, staring at your face while you set down your phone.
"pretending to be drunk to confess your undying love wow." utahime says, moving over to pinch your cheeks and stretch them apart.
"that was not a confession!"
"PLEASE you have the emotional range of a stick of celery, that was the y/n equivalent of shoving your tongue down his throat."
toji could barely meet your eyes after that conversation, your endless teasing only had him more flustered than he's ever been, constantly replaying the things you'd said to him in your head before—he was in a trance, and gods he just couldn't look at you anymore.
avoiding you seemed to come easy to him—he knew that he shouldn't be doing this but he was petrified of it turning into something real, something that wasn't just a one sided crush that had his mind turning into jello.
and the second you noticed toji trying to escape you, you knew that that wouldn't do.
right as he was about to escape his class, turning on his heel to try to avoid you, you grabbed him by the ear, dragging him away to a corner before you threw him against the wall. you sure as hell were deceptively strong for someone who looked like she was half his size.
"so when are you gonna man up and ask me out toji? or was this all some kind of sick game to you?"
"don't play with me, boy."
"fine i'm sorry. i thought you were just fucking around and after that call—"
"what call?" you asked, tilting your head over just to stare at him blankly.
"you don't remember?!" you gasped almost apalled at the idea that you didn't even remember CALLING HIM. while he had spent all week thinking about what you could've possibly meant by it.
"i'm kidding." you giggled at the way his face dropped, watching him dramatically slide down the wall onto his knees before you while you looked down at him.
"did i make the big bad vice president shy? awww" you mocked at him, petting his head while he had his face in his hands, trying his best to try and just speak.
"i wanna ask you out y/n. but i can't tell if you like me or you're just fucking with me half the time. it's killing me."
"how will you ever know if you don't ask me out?"
"alright. will you go out with me y/n?"
WHAT. after all that buildup surely you were kidding right. right.
"after avoiding me for that long, surely you didn't think that i'd have you make up for it, now did you?"
"yeah what was i thinking."
he stood up, towering over you once more right before he moved you by the waist, slamming you against the wall instead.
he leaned over just a little his lips hovering over your ears—
"will you let me make up for it, pretty?"
"i'd like to see you try." you huffed back, your face hot, the flush creeping up your neck again. maybe being a brat was a great thing, well, only if it meant that toji would snap right back to put you in your place.
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