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I stood there, fixing my eyes on a small point in the distance.
A person? Someone who I used to love.
Or just a hallucination.
A dead memory slipping through my fingers, as I desperately tried to keep it with me, even far away. Anyways, it was gone by then. Not changing my situation, just making me a little bit more delusional and miserable thinking it was something real.
Fine ash rose from the ground and flew with the wind as I dug my heels into the scorched surface. Empty wasteland of misery.
I knew it all was my fault. I knew too damn well I shouldn't have done that. A single tear ran down my check, and dropped on the ground.
It's not a good moment to be weak, you know that.
I whispered to myself.
████████ fell out of the world
████████ fell out of the world
████████ fell out of the world
████████ fell out of the world
"... Stop it" I sobbed, falling on my knees, my voice cracking. "I am sorry, okay?!"
<████████> Isn't it ironic?
<████████> A thing that was meant to "make peace and protect everyone" caused a war that killed thousands. And your friends.
<████████> And the only thing you can do now, is cry? Guess you really are a miserable coward.
I got tagged by @reverienne to make a writer's roundup of the year 2025. Which actually reminded me that I hardly ever post about my writing endeavours and my progress. To be honest, I was tagged at the beginning of January but every minute I could spend on writing, was spent on writing my project. Which leads us to the first point of the summary, which is:
Favourite Thing I Wrote
The year 2025 was almost exclusively dedicated to my interactive fiction project that I have hinted here and there multiple times. I'm happy to announce that the draft has been completed, edited and coded. I still need to transfer coded parts to Twine to make it playable!
It is still too early to tell more about it as I still need to test it and incorporate any feedback received. Since it's my first interactive fiction project, and due to my unpredictable time resources, I can't yet assess how much it takes me. But once I can roughly set the release of the prologue, beware — because once I start talking about it, you probably won't see the end.
New Things I Tried
That would certainly be coding in Twine (including some meddling with JavaScript) for said project. Programming and coding is something I've played with several times during my life so while I never got to a professional level, I still had the basics that helped me with translating my (sometimes messy) vision to code.
Credits
None of the above would happen (or wouldn't happen this year) without my trusted beta reader @kawaterrier and her constant support - starting with brainstorming and discussing my ideas, through beta reading my draft and giving valuable insights (that have improved my prologue A LOT!), and basically giving me ready-to-use template that I only needed to adjust a little. I do know some CSS but I would spend *ages* trying to figure out how to incorporate settings options (like setting light/dark mode or changing font size by the player).
Favourite Thing I Read
In one of my posts I mentioned that reading-wise, 2025 was not a year of achievements. I haven't read many books but also — in spite of my best plans — I haven't read many IFs. I'm mostly writing on my phone and my computer time is limited, so whenever I had time *and* could focus on something, I tried to write or code my project. If I couldn't focus, I could only succumb to doomscrolling and not much more.
However, I did manage to play "Viatica" by @fir-fireweed ! If you're looking for a short an uplifting interactive story, check it out! Hopefully, I can play more games this year!
Writing Goals for 2026
My nearest goal is to test and release the prologue of my game! As I said, I can't estimate how much it takes as I need to have it read by several testers. When I can safely estimate the release date, I plan to start with my side blog.
Once the release happens, I'll tell you more about my following plans for chapter 1!
Final Thoughts
If you engage in writing and feel that making a writer's summary of 2025 (even 20+ days into January 2026) could help you put things into perspective, this is a tag for you!
Ingredients: Suna Rintaro x gn!reader, Kenma x gn!reader, Kuroo x gn!reader, Ushijima x gn!reader
Contains: headcanons, social media, mentions of social media apps, not proofread
Type of order: macarons (headcanons),
Suna:
he always takes pictures, on dates, at the gym, during training, and even at home
His Instagram is a great priority in his life
There is no day without a post and a story
One of those influencers
His fans should always be update
And even at games he takes pictures and uploads them hem on Instagram
He also uses twitter pretty often, he makes his dad joke there and uses it to annoy Atsumu
If he gets hate comments he just blocks the person instantly, but if someone makes a bad comment about you it is over for the person they will get humiliated during an Instagram lifestream. No one will be mean to his s/o
He will roast the fuck out of everyone who will talk bad about you
The haters are crying on the floor
Will send you snaps all the time, your flames are really high
His snapscore, therefore is astronomical
You're on almost every post of his and you're not people get suspicious and form theories about your breakup
Fangirls/boys are always sending him some weird dms so he has to be creative with his way of answering those terrible pickup lines
Kenma:
his job is social media, but he is still a streamer by heart
He is daily streaming on twitch, even when he has an important game to play
Will announce his streams on Twitter and Instagram
He sometimes uploads cute couple pictures of you on Instagram
His viewers want to see him and you play different games, so you set up a day where both of you game together like animal crossing, stardew valley, phasmophobia, and other stuff. From horror to casual everything
Mario kart is still a heavy topic because it almost caused and an insane argument
Just like suna, he will not be nice to any haters he will make fun of every hater in his chat
When someone bullied you in chat or on Instagram he will bring hell upon them, they have chosen death
He will report them and they will lose all their social media status and dignity
Has multiple corporations and sweepstakes
He is one of the most famous influencers in japan
But he will not tell everything on his social media, some things are still private like the engagement or the wedding
Kuroo:
his Twitter account is filled with chemistry puns/memes/jokes
He will brag about you on every platform
Makes occasional tik tok likes pranks or educational
He once pranked you with the salt spoon prank and you never let him back into the kitchen even though it was a prank
He doesn't do extreme pranks like breakups or injuries, but he still tries to get you mad on purpose
He thinks it's kinda hot
Just has fun on social media
Isn't as active as his friends but he still shares parts of his life with his fans
A big part of his life is you so you will be in almost every picture
Whole japan is shipping you because of Kuroo's cheesy captions
Ushijima:
thinks social media is a waste of time
Wants to spend his life in a reality where not everything is perfect and photoshopped
Still has to use some platform to be present as a celebrity he is
Only uses Instagram to share his gym experience
He is one of the fitness influencers
He gets used to social media and uses it quite frequently
Pictures of him and you are limited because he doesn't want to use your relationship for cloud
But every time he posts a cute couple picture everyone is over the moon about how cute the both of you are
Charity galas are often mentioned in his posts and he even has links so you can donate for multiple fundraisers
john and early-twenties deanna on the road together, hunting and they are close and somewhat codependent but nothing's ever happened between them, neither one even thought about it.
they arrive in this small town on the hunt for a werewolf, stop at a gas station and the old guy working there keeps eyeing deanna gassing up the car and asks john how someone like him scored a young pretty thing like her and john, who maybe has lucked out the last three times he went out to get laid and isn't planning to stick around past the full moon in two days anyway, just shrugs and says, dumb luck, rather than explain. maybe it'll give them an advantage, everyone thinking deanna's just an accessory instead of a skilled hunter. and maybe it makes him feel better, pretending he could actually pull a smokeshow like her.
anyway, no motel close by, but gas station guy says the local bar/roadhouse has a room upstairs for travellers. they drive to the bar, making plans on how to flush out the wolf before the moon.
they get to the bar and bar owner dude's like, oh yeah, it's you and your lady right, gas station dude called and gave me the heads up, and deanna gives him a funny look but goes along with it, pushes under john's arm and leans in, and they pay for the room for the next couple of days.
gasp, there's only one bed, but they are used to sharing a bed even if they haven't in a while, not since sam left anyway. and john just pretends like nothing's happened until deanna asks so what do i call you now? honey? babe? and john makes these excuses, gas station guy must have assumed, but we can pretend for a couple of days right? because it's for the job and they pretend to be someone else all the time so it's not a big deal right
anyways long story short johndeanna fake dating and they don't get the wolf the first time around so they have to stick around longer than anticipated and both get weirdly into it, blurring the lines so much that something actually does happen between them for the first time.
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You take a deep breath as you pull open the heavy door. The air inside is warm but still you shiver, naked as you are, save for the intricate black mask covering the top half of your face. The thumping beat of the music vibrates through you, making the soles of your feet tingle. Still, it’s not loud enough to drown out the sounds of sex all around you: the slapping of flesh, guttural groans, moans and sighs and screams.
You furtively glance back at your husband who you know has entered the room just after you. Jeff nods to you, eyes sparkling, before he walks by you and over to where they are serving drinks.
Your stomach flutters with nerves as you survey the room. While you had agreed to this, it’s still a little unnerving to be here, naked and exposed. You can feel people’s eyes on you, strangers’ eyes, roving over you top to bottom, and you barely resist the urge to cover yourself as you move deeper into the room. There are people fucking on every available surface, and probably just as many lounging around and watching, and you clench your thighs against that first tingle of arousal as you hear a woman to your left moan brokenly as she’s bounced in someone’s lap. That could be you. Probably is going to be you in the not-too-distant future. Fuck.
You jump when a finger softly trails down your arm, a warm body pressing in close behind you. It’s not your husband—you’d know him anywhere. This is—someone else. You will your pounding heart to calm down as you turn around to face the stranger.
He’s tall and half of his face is obscured by a black mask just like yours. He has a nice mouth, though, plush lips, a strong jawline, stubble. Your lips pull into a small smile when you notice a cluster of freckles at the base of his throat. It’s a small detail to focus on but it makes it feel more familiar; this isn’t something you’d know about a random stranger.
He takes your hand, thumbs at the wedding band on your ring finger. “You gonna get me in trouble?” he asks, and you shiver at the sound of his voice, low and teasing.
You swallow dryly, then shake your head. This is as much for your husband as it is for you.
His lips pull into a grin, and you gasp when he easily spins you back around. You can feel him against the small of your back, hard and—God, big, and he palms your tits as his mouth latches onto your neck. It’s really happening.
You groan in anticipation when one big palm skirts down your stomach while he nudges your legs wider with his foot at the inside of yours. All your muscles tense as you wait for him to touch you, right here in front of all these strangers.
Your head tips back onto his shoulder with a soft whine and he chuckles into your ear as his hand slides between your legs, barely grazing your clit as his fingers go straight between your folds, a fingertip resting teasingly against your entrance. You are getting more aroused by the second, your heartbeat pulsing in your clit.
His finger briefly dips into you before sliding up to your clit, spreading your wetness and circling the sensitive bundle of nerves until you clench your thighs around his fingers.
“Ah ah, none of that,” he chides as his foot kicks your legs wider, exposing you to the view of everyone in front of you.
It’s exhilarating, thinking about all these strangers watching you, seeing you like this, naked and vulnerable and so, so aroused. You make a noise of protest when his hand disappears and it morphs into a groan when he sucks his finger into his mouth, tasting you. He hums into your ear, says, “Delicious,” as he grinds himself against your ass, your skin already sticky with his precome. You wonder if he’s going to take you right here, like this, if he’ll hitch up your leg and—
He releases you with a pinch of your nipple and a slap to your ass. “Come,” he says, guiding you along with a hand on the small of your back to the open bed just a few feet away. He urges you to lie down and as you do, you see Jeff from the corner of your eyes as he settles in an open spot across, idly stroking himself as he watches you settle in the middle of the bed, legs spread wide.
Wide palms smoothing up your thighs draw your attention back to Freckles. His eyes are sparkling mischievously behind his mask as he grips your hips and pulls you forward. The new position leaves you utterly exposed with his hands tilting your hips up and your legs falling wide, and you bite your lip when your eyes meet your husband’s, his gaze half-lidded as he groans softly. You can’t hear over the noise, but you know; you can see his lips part and his hand speed up on his cock.
You smile, entirely unprepared for the sensation of a mouth on your pussy. Your hips jump and an arm comes down over them to hold you down as he licks you taint to clit. You can’t help a moan at the wet heat on your pussy, the teasing tongue, the toe-curling suction. Your fingers twist into Freckles’ hair, torn between pulling him closer and pushing him away, and his lips curve into a smile against your flesh.
Your back arches when two fingers enter you without warning, squelching through your wetness, as he attacks your clit again. You do hear Jeff’s moan this time and echo it, loud and unashamed, hips bucking as much as they can under the restriction.
Your orgasm is building fast, curling tight in your belly, tingling up your spine. His fingers speed up, relentlessly hitting your g-spot as he continues to devour your pussy. You scream your pleasure a moment later, the intensity overwhelming, your muscles locking, pussy clenching around the fingers still slowly stroking into you.
You whimper when he sucks at your clit again, the feeling almost too much. You ease your grip on his hair and he noses into the crease of your thigh instead, stubble bristling at the inside of your thigh, fingers still inside of you, as you try to catch your breath.
You are still reeling from your orgasm when the fingers start to move again, slowly, before a third presses in. Just like that, you’re teetering on the edge again, that first flutter of another orgasm starting deep in your belly. You mewl in frustration when he withdraws his fingers a second before you can crash over the edge. He laughs, slaps your pussy, before three fingers drive back into you hard and fast only to leave you hanging right on the precipice again, muscles fluttering around the sudden emptiness.
“Fuck,” you cry breathlessly, jerking for his hot breath on your sensitized flesh, the kiss he sucks to your clit.
Freckles hauls you upright, takes your place on the bed before he pulls you into his lap. You go easily, your legs like jelly as you straddle him and rub yourself along the length of his hard dick, your core aching in anticipation. His hands go to your hips, guiding you, and his head tips back, mouth open in a pant. It’s a gorgeous sight.
Feeling bold, you lean forward, suck and nibble on the cluster of freckles, lick up his throat and suck on his Adam’s apple. His moan vibrates under your lips as his grip tightens on your hips. You sit back, brace yourself on his chest with one hand as you shift up onto your knees, using your other hand to guide his cock to your entrance.
Your gaze flickers to Jeff, who is watching you as you sink down, taking just the flared head. You gasp, and your husband licks his lips, strokes his cock, his eyes fixed between your legs.
Freckles’ hands flexing on your hips have you tearing your eyes away and refocusing on the cock working its way into you. It’s thick, just the way you like it, and you are panting a little harder the lower you work yourself. There are more people watching you, men and women alike getting off to the sight of you fucking this stranger, and you close your eyes, stutter out a breath as you sink down the last inch. You moan at the fullness, your fingers curling into Freckles’ chest as he starts thrusting up into you, ratcheting your pleasure right up to the edge again. Just a little more—
You gasp in surprise at the sudden pressure on your clit, at the presence of a third, new hand touching your body. You can’t see who it belongs to but it’s big and its touch is sending you flying almost immediately, clenching hard around the cock buried deep inside of you as you tip over the edge again, your thighs shaking with the intensity of your orgasm.
You slump forward with a moan, only to have those big hands slide up your body and palm your tits, hauling you upright again, keeping you bouncing on Freckles’ cock. It’s almost too much, the stimulation too intense, and you throw your head back on a keen when your nipples get pinched, rolled, pulled.
Freckles laughs breathlessly as he slows his pace, his gaze somewhere over your shoulder. He nods, and the hands leave your tits, grab your hips and lift—lift you off Freckles’ cock with a wet squelch that makes your cheeks heat, your pussy clenching on nothing.
Freckles shifts back and onto his knees, grinning, and you don’t have the time to question what he knows that you don’t before the big guy holding you drops you onto the bed, rearranging you onto your hands and knees.
Freckles brushes your hair out of your face, slaps his hard cock against your lips, smears precome and your own juices onto your skin. You shiver, your mind reeling with the overwhelming intensity of the situation. “C’mon,” he urges quietly, and you wet your lips before placing a kiss on the weeping tip, teasing him just a little. He growls, a deep, rumbly sound that whispers down your spine, and you open your mouth and let him push in on a shallow thrust, and your combined tastes burst on your tongue salty-bitter, making you groan.
“Go easy,” Freckles says, and you don’t understand until—until you feel the pressure of a cock against your entrance, and it enters you easily, almost too smoothly, with the slick squelch of—lube, you think, and you pant around the cock in your mouth as you try to process the dual sensations.
Your hands curl into the bed when you are starting to feel full. But Big Guy, he keeps pushing, going deeper, and you tense, your eyes going wide as you look up at Freckles. He cups your cheek, thumbs at your earlobe, says, “I know it’s a lot, sweetie, just a little more, promise it’s worth it,” before he languidly rolls his hips, slides his cock over your tongue and to the back of your mouth.
You make a soft noise in your throat, your body trembling as it tries to adjust. Freckles keeps fucking into your mouth in shallow strokes, rubbing himself over your tongue, his hand resting lightly on top of your head, guiding, angling, but not forcing.
Behind you Big Guy moans as he finally bottoms out and you gasp, the air stolen from your lungs with how deep inside of you he feels. His first thrust sends you scampering forward, onto the cock in your mouth, and you cough when it hits the back of your throat too quickly. Big Guy pulls you back, his hands holding you tight as he feeds his cock back in balls deep, making you whimper and moan.
It takes a few moments for the intense fullness to turn into pleasure, but when it does you arch your back and press back into the feeling. Big Guy laughs and slaps your ass for it, right and left, while Freckles is relentlessly working your throat open with little thrusts that send him a fraction deeper into you on every one.
That first full push into your throat still makes you gag, your whole body going tight and making Big Guy curse under his breath for the clench of your cunt.
Your eyes water and your cheeks heat. You can do this, have done this for Jeff, but with the two cocks working you into a frenzy and your skin prickling under the gaze of God only knows how many strangers, you can’t focus enough to put your best efforts forward.
Big Guy slows his movements, palms your ass, spreads your cheeks, but it’s Freckles drawing your attention with a tug on your hair as his hips rolls forward again to bury his cock into your mouth and throat. You suck in a breath through your nose before he sinks himself in all the way, and you swallow against the intrusion, drawing a groan.
You wish you could see your husband right now, see how much he enjoys seeing you like this, get some reassurance. But you can’t move enough to see him, not like this.
You gasp when Freckles pulls back and gives you a moment to breathe. At the same time, Big Guy settles into an easy rhythm—too easy, almost teasing, you think—and then you feel a thumb circling your ass, slick and teasing, pulsing against your hole, and for a moment you think you can’t take any more, can’t take another sensation added to the mix.
You whine softly when the finger presses in at the same time as Big Guy pushes himself deep again.
“Fuck, yeah,” Freckles chuckles breathlessly, “you think you can take us both, sweetie?”
His thumb strokes the hollow of your cheek, almost gentle, and you are torn between nodding and shaking your head, your mind reeling at the sheer possibility of—
“Yeah, I think you can,” Freckles drawls in that deep voice and you close your eyes for a second, overwhelmed with the stimulation, with the deep pressure of a cock in your pussy, the pleasurable tingle of a finger fucking your ass, the hot weight of a cock on your tongue. Overwhelmed with the thought of having one of them fuck your ass instead.
Your orgasm hits you out of nowhere on Big Guy’s next stroke in, shuddering through you in waves, your body trembling in their hold. Big Guy fucks you right through it, though the tight clutch of your muscles on his cock, his slick skin hitting yours on every thrust as he sneaks a second finger into your ass.
You make a strangled noise, somewhere between a moan and a whimper as you keep shivering through the last tremors of your pleasure.
“She ready?” you hear Freckles ask through the fog in your brain, and Big Guy’s fingers plunge into your ass a couple more times, scissoring on the way out.
“Yeah, you’re ready, aren’t you sweetie?” Freckles asks as he pulls out of your mouth, his spit-shiny cock bobbing right in front of your face when you look up at him to nod.
Big Guy hauls you upright again, those big hands cupping your tits and you gasp for how deep it sends him. You look over to your husband, his eyes on you and only you despite the redhead on her knees sucking his cock, his lip caught between his teeth, his hands flexing restlessly on the girl’s head. You know it’s all because of you, not her.
“Hey,” Freckles says, as he grabs your chin and makes you look at him again. For a second you wonder if he’s going to kiss you, but then his gaze darts over your shoulder again and he nods as he pats your cheek.
“Fuck,” you whine as Big Guy withdraws slowly, leaving you quivering, achingly empty, his fingers rolling your nipples as he keeps holding you upright, making you watch Freckles lie back and lube his cock, leaving no doubt about what’s going to happen.
You swallow, tasting the remnants of Freckles in your mouth, as Big Guy mouths on your neck, his breath hot-damp on your skin.
“Go on,” Big Guy murmurs against your ear as he lets you go, his voice smooth and silky.
Freckles holds his hand out to you and you take it, letting him pull you towards him. His hand is sticky with lube, leaving your skin sticky as well as he manhandles you into his lap, your back to his chest.
It brings you face to face with Big Guy for the first time; your eyes wandering up his body, from that long, thick cock up over chiseled abs and a defined chest to a strong jaw, over the plain black mask to shaggy brown hair, his skin glistening with sweat. Good God. Your eyes drop back down again, and you wonder how in the hell you even managed to fit him into your body.
He grins at you as though he knows where your thoughts have gone.
You are distracted again by Freckles circling your clit as he slaps his slicked-up cock against your cunt a few times. It’s Big Guy who knees closer, though, and guides Freckles’ cock to your ass.
Freckles groans, the sound vibrating against your back as he mindlessly strokes the back of your thighs, holding you open. There’s only pressure and you try your best to relax, your lips parting in a breathless gasp when the tip pops in.
Freckles pants into your ear, his grip on your legs tightening as he slowly circles his hips up, sliding himself deeper.
“Oh my God,” you cry out when Big Guy drives three fingers into your cunt at the same time and presses down. Freckles’ hips stutter, his voice shaky as he curses colorfully into your ear. Your back arches when Big Guy fingerfucks you hard, making you shake and moan as he drags another orgasm out of you.
“C’mon, stop playing,” Freckles rasps, his hands splaying over your stomach as Big Guy moves in close enough to keep your legs from closing. You stop breathing for the moment he breaches you again, for the incredible fullness of two cocks inside of you.
You catch one last glimpse of Jeff with his head thrown back, hips lifting to fuck into the redhead’s throat as he comes, before your vision is filled with Big Guy as he buries himself deep inside your pussy again.
“Fuck,” you whine weakly, sandwiched between these two strangers, filled so deeply it feels like you can’t breathe.
Freckles coos breathless little nothings from beneath you as they settle into a maddening rhythm that has you scrambling for purchase, your fingernails digging into Big Guy’s shoulders as you try to hang on.
It seems impossible to come again, but against all odds you can feel the pleasure curling tight in your belly again.
“Fuck, I can feel you, Jay, that’s so fucking hot,” Freckles pants as his hand presses down low on your belly, before he grabs one of your hands and makes you feel it, too.
Big Guy—Jay, you suppose—pulls back and buries himself to the hilt again. You feel it inside and out, and when Freckles presses down on your hand, the pleasure sparks up another notch. You whimper, too overwhelmed to form words, your body tensing in anticipation of the inevitable.
You are going to come again. You can feel it building with each push and pull and Jay grabs your chin, makes you look at him as he fucks you hard and fast.
“C’mon, one more,” he urges.
Freckles presses down on your belly again, mouths at your neck, his breath hot as he says right against your ear, “Give us one more, sweetie. Wanna feel you come all over our cocks, c’mon.”
It’s his fingertip on your clit that sends you into an earth-shattering fifth orgasm a moment later and they fuck you through it, rhythms finally faltering as they follow you over the edge, both of them holding deep as they come inside of you, groaning their release.
You ride the last waves of pleasure, the tension starting to leave your body. Their hands are still stroking your body, soft and gentle now, their breaths on your overheated skin making you shiver. You feel exhausted now that the fog in your mind is clearing, the little pains and aches starting to set in.
Jay thumbs at your jawline, shifting your focus back to him. “You good?” he asks and you nod shakily and lick your dry lips.
“Yeah,” you say, your voice cracking on the one syllable. He smiles at you, wide, all teeth, his hand skimming down your side as he starts to pull out.
Another shiver wrecks your body for the slow drag of his cock and you gasp when he pops free, leaving you so empty. He drags two fingers through your folds, traces your entrance and then down lower to where Freckles is still buried inside you, and you can’t help a soft mewl. You are not sure how much more you can take.
Freckles shushes you, runs a soothing hand over your ribs. Your eyes dart to your husband who looks just as fucked out as you feel, his mouth curving into a lazy smile. You sigh in satisfaction, happy that you both got what you wanted tonight.
Jay’s big hands settle on your hips and carefully lift you off of Freckles’ cock and you can’t help a soft whine at the loss and the emptiness, the slow trickle of cum down the inside of your thigh. He sets you down on your feet, rushing to steady you when your legs wobble.
There are still so many eyes on you, even now, and for the first time, it feels a little intrusive. All you want now is Jeff, to be held and to kiss him and feel his warm, reassuring presence.
Jay slowly lets you go, the redhead who sucked Jeff’s cock sliding in against your side instead, her arm going around your waist. “C’mon, let’s get you cleaned up,” she says, and you nod before you glance back at Freckles sitting up on the edge of the mattress, then up and up and up at Jay—God, he’s so tall, taller than your husband even. The words thank you hover on the tip of your tongue but you don’t need to say them for them to know.
“Come,” the redhead says, guiding you away from the scene of the crime and back the way you came, past the locker area into what you realize are communal showers.
At the far end, two women are lazily making out in the spray and you glance at the redhead again who is gently steering you under the warm spray of a shower.
You let it rush over your body for a moment before you take off your mask and lazily run your hands through your tousled hair, then down your body.
“I’m Danni,” she says as she lathers up some body wash in her hands, then gently scrubs them down your back.
“Y/N,” you sigh.
When you turn around, her mask is on the floor with yours and you look at her for a moment. She’s pretty. You wait for the inevitable flare of jealousy at knowing she had her mouth on your husband’s dick but it doesn’t come.
She smiles at you as if she knows, then slides her slick hands over your hips to the outside of your thigh. “You’re gonna be sore tomorrow.” she says quietly before handing you a damp washcloth.
You gingerly run it between your legs and down the inside of your thighs, cleaning away the evidence of your debauchery.
“You’re with—”
You feel stupid calling them the nicknames you gave them in your head to her face, so you just say, “—them?”
She nods, her lips quirking into a small smile. “Yeah, we are—a thing.”
You nod before tilting your head back into the spray, letting the warm water run over your face. When you bring your head down again, Danni is wrapped in a towel and holding one out for you.
You take it gladly, wrap yourself up in the fluffy cotton before following her back to the locker room. You blink at the harsh lights and wander over to locker 17 and put in the combination to unlock it.
“Hey sweetheart.”
You smile as an arm slides around your shoulder from behind, Jeff’s warm body pressing against your back, his beard bristling at the side of your neck as he noses at your jaw.
You melt back into his embrace, let his familiar scent and the low rumble of his voice wash over you.
“That was fucking hot,” he rasps into your ear, and although he is already dressed again, he can’t resist a slow roll of his hips against your ass.
You hum in response, basking in the warmth of his body and the knowledge that despite having sex with other people tonight, your marriage is absolutely fine.
“Take your time. I’ll wait for you outside, sweetheart,” he says after a while, and he kisses the side of your neck before he lets you go.
You miss his warmth immediately. Still, you take your time getting dressed, letting your muscles dictate how fast you move. At last, you take a big gulp of the bottle of water you brought with you and scrounge your hair up into a messy ponytail before you take your purse and leave the locker room.
You can still hear the thump-thump of the music as you pass by the heavy wooden doors. Your cheeks heat when you think about what happened on the other side of them.
You go outside, the night air cool on your skin. From the outside, you’d never be able to tell what is going on inside.
You make your way to your car where Jeff is waiting for you. He holds out his hand to you and you take it, let yourself be pulled in.
“Hey,” he says, and you smile, saying, “Hey,” back before you lean in and kiss him, long and slow.
You only part when there’s movement behind you, and you turn, tuck yourself against Jeff’s side, your face flaming when you recognize Danni and—you can finally see their faces now and they are both so handsome.
You watch as Freckles fist-bumps Jeff like they are old buddies. They probably are, you realize. You hadn’t even given it much thought what it exactly Jeff had meant when he said he had arranged for this evening.
Freckles shoots you a grin as he runs his hand through his hair. “Jensen,” he says easily, “this is Jared, and you already know Danni.” Jared lifts his hand in a little awkward wave while Danni flashes you a smile.
“Y/N,” you say, ducking your head. It’s a little hard to look at them when a highlight reel of the two of them fucking you six ways to Sunday in front of your husband is still playing in your mind in high definition.
Jensen chuckles and drags his knuckles down your cheek, lifting your chin. “No need to be shy, sweetie,” he says and you release a nervous breath as Jeff squeezes your hip reassuringly, giving you something to focus on.
“You know, when Jeff suggested this, I wasn’t sure how this was gonna go, but—” he trails off, glances at his partners. They both nod. “If you ever feel like doing this again in a more private setting, give us a call.”
Fuck. You are a little mortified but at the same time just the thought makes you clench your thighs.
He leans in and places a kiss on your cheek before he side-hugs Jeff. “Think about it,” he says with a grin and you watch him throw an arm around Danni’s shoulder before the three of them take off.
“No pressure,” Jeff mutters as he kisses your temple, his hand squeezing your ass. You already know he will make you feel like a queen once you get home, taking care of your every need.
You hum softly and lean up to kiss your husband before saying, “I love you.”
He thumbs at your cheekbone and steals another kiss. “I love you, too. Thank you for tonight.”
And you know you won’t even have to think about it. You know you’re going to call them.
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About My Writing:
I mainly write reader-insert fanfiction. My reader-inserts will have their own stories and can be read more as reader-insert/oc hybrids. As such, the usage of y/n is not included, and most inserts will have a nickname.
All of my fics feature a plus size reader insert, and the majority of my reader inserts are explicitly latine. If not explicitly latine, my inserts are always written with queer plus size poc in mind.
As a queer, disabled, plus size, non-binary woman of color, all of my writing is written through that lens.
Please be aware that I do not:
1. Take Requests. Feel free to send asks, hcs you have, and thots about characters, and/or my fics! Just be aware that I may or may not write something for it. I don't take traditional requests because they are too stressful.
2. Write dd/lg, a/b/o, power imbalances with large age gaps, or RPF. I don't feel comfortable writing these things, though I may reblog fics with such themes. These will be appropriately tagged. I do not write or reblog RPFs.
