maddie

15-16 sideblog alter in a sys !

[maniamaddie]

maddie's intro 🗝️

this is a side blog, and keep in mind that i'm 15-16. I have discord if anybody wants to chat with me, same handle as on here. i'm also an alter in a DID system, so educate yourself on DID systems please<3

i go by she/her. AFAB

I am MENTALLY ILL. if you don't like that don't interact with me please

i like girl interrupted and alice in wonderland!

i ask blank + porn blogs to not talk to me as i can get pretty paranoid. i don't really care about interacting. (like liking my post.)

autism, ADHD, OCD, DID, C-PTSD, other specified personality disorder (bpd, hpd, avpd, and dpd traits)

i don't send suggestive pics,, sorry

i become dependent/attached very easily, please make sure you know what you're getting into

if you wanna know more about me don't be afraid to send an ask asking about me :)

[maniamaddie]

turns out being raped and groomed for most of your childhood gives you sick fantasies about it happening again

[maniamaddie]

i genuinely just.. can't cum anymore when masturbating 🤷 i think trauma has gone irreversible damage to me cause i used to be able to before i stopped masturbating for a couple years out of guilt and now i just can't ?? i just wanna feel good for once .

i can still feel horny but i can't???relieve it??

[maniamaddie]

some art of how i wanna look like (i did use a figure for the pose as i suck at choosing poses for drawing)

[maniamaddie]

am i too mentally ill and traumatized for you guys or am i exactly what you want

[maniamaddie]

i'm so weak and eager to please people even if i get uncomfortable.. no wonder why i keep getting sexually assaulted !

[sleptthrudday]

“aww poor thing” yes yes yes im a pathetic little thing care for me make me feel better make me feel small nnnggghgggghghh

[maniamaddie]

send me anons i wanna answer questions !!

[maniamaddie]

took that one test :p

[maniamaddie]

hi guys,, reminder that i am, in fact, a minor !! if you have 'mdni' anywhere on your blog, don't interact with me !! check profiles first !! also don't ask me for nudes !! please and thank you

[maniamaddie]

someone who will wash my hair when it's too difficult to do myself,, someone who will help me make my food because i don't know how to,, someone who will pick me up when i faint,, someone who grounds me when i have a panic attack,, just someone

[tigerclaw2zz]

yes im freaked out yes im nervous

[maniamaddie]

i prefer men who actually care for me and don't only view me as some thing to fuck.

someone who can handle my highs and lows, someone who can handle when i split, someone who can comfort me when im sad or scared, someone who cares about me, someone who listens to me, someone who's genuine.

(reminder to read my intro)

[maniamaddie]

don't expect a lot of nsft from me. i like fantasizing, but doing/writing out stuff can make me uncomfortable sometimes :p

[maniamaddie]

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god i'm so tight i can barely fit two fingers,, 😵‍💫 i wish i could cumm!!!! ugh,, stupid body

[maniamaddie]

Thanks for answering my questions, may I DM you to talk more about it?

sure !

[maniamaddie]

is this alter the only one managing the blog? If so, why?

yes. not every alter likes the stuff i like, and i wanted my own blog to express myself !! if other alters front and decide they wanna join the blog, they are free to, i guess. i don't really care about it as long as they don't pretend to be me, but i would rather have them making their own sideblog :p