Chaotically Divine

26. diagnosed and in therapy for Narcissistic personality disorder and Antisocial personality disorder.

[divine-sovereignty]

My npd makes me believe I’ve conquered the world when all that really happened was I got praised for doing a good job at work or something.

[deusbelli-deactivated20210518]

"I am a god among men" I say to myself as a walk through the grocery store

[yandere-azazel]

I want the world to obsess over me.

[twerkingyaowang]

psychs be like "I specialize in cluster B" and mean they treat BPD, don't know what HPD is, and consider ASPD and NPD patients subhuman monsters

[sunflowerthegod-deactivated2021]

I am personally offended by the idea of not being the most important person in the room at all times

[havingcompassion-deactivated202]

If I get at least one thing done in a day I’m a genius if I get two things done I’m a god

[ghostslimu]

I fucking hate when the internet waters down actual serious diagnoses to the point where everyone can somehow relate to it. I hate when the bad symptoms get glossed over for the sake of making cluster B individuals seem nicer and more relatable to the public, at the expense of painting an accurate picture of the disorder. I hate when the response to me talking about my bad symptoms is to deny that I have them and reassure me that I'm a sweet person who would never do that. That I just have the wrong perception of my own behavior. I hate when my friends say they have the same personality disorders as me because they related to some symptoms they saw on fucking tiktok. But then turn around and call me a horrible person for displaying any symptom that isn't self deprecating, quiet, cute, and deserving of sympathy. The whole fucking point of cluster B disorders are that they make life a living hell. It's not fair, it's not nice, it's not sweet, there's no justice to it. There's no "it's okay to have (insert disorder) and get mad at your loved ones as long as you don't act on it ^^" when acting on it is part of the fucking disorder. Can we stop acting like all symptoms can be suppressed, that having personality disorders and being cluster B is just a minor inconvenience and it's still easy to be a functioning nice person. And can we stop acting like being horrible to yourself makes a disorder "better" and more "noble" than being horrible to others. Thanks. (And no one put words in my mouth, I am not saying that it's okay to hurt others by acting on your symptoms, I'm just saying that it's a part of the disorder that needs to be recognized in order to be dealt with. Denying it's there is not doing anything. "I didn't choose to develop this disorder and I didn't choose to act this way" and "acting this way hurts the people I love and I need to be responsible and seek help" are two statements that can and should co-exist. There's nothing fair about being mentally ill.)

[narc0path]

fuck forgiving and forgetting I need to bash his face into unrecognisable mush

[nsoup]

[fadedstones]

panels from Zoe Thorogood’s “It’s Lonely at the Center of the Earth”

[esthete-god]

[borderlineangel222]

i’m afraid that one day my anger will overshadow the little love i still have left for the world

[cluster-b-culture-is]

NPD culture is feeling physically ill when somone else get praised around you. like sure they saved a kitten from a tree but I.... existed today sooooo?????

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[weltenwellen]

Sonia Sanchez, from "For Tupac Amaru Shakur"

[wholelottala-deactivated2020121]

My alone time is essential, if I don’t get it ima be irritated asf

[narc0path]

fuck forgiving and forgetting I need to bash his face into unrecognisable mush

[papa-rhys]

Imagine being so bitter that you couldn’t hold a relationship together that you become ableist and severely mistreat a whole group of people because you think it’s your “right” because they “trigger” you lmao