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diary of some sort. writing is usually about love in some sort of fashion, and it usually depressing because with love always comes sadness for me. 23, american, she/they.

[manic-thinking]

You told me you were always going to be there for me That you’re always available to talk You’re the first person I’m able to open up to in years Why do you have to go and fuck it all up? I open up Spilling out the words I never thought would leave my thoughts

“I’m not your fucking emotional support animal.”

I knew it was too good to be true.

-manic-thinking

[demon-keeping]

[frachella]

[schwarzfee]

[manic-thinking]

i know the end it's the same as it always is lack of calls lack of response the feeling of despair creeps back up again i'll just say goodbye now it won't change how bad it's going to hurt

-manic-thinking

[manic-thinking]

oh how i wish to write you a ballad to profess my unwavering, faithful love for you it would be comparable to the greats to be taught in a high school english class but even if i did write it, you would never see it i could never show you for the feelings i feel are one-sided unrequited so it will simply sit in this journal never to see the light of day

-manic-thinking

[manic-thinking]

there is a saying, "to be loved is to be known." you never remembered anything about me i remembered every small little detail about you to be loved is to be known yet i should have known you didn't love me

-manic-thinking

[dreamyfilms]

wuthering heights (2011, dir. andrea arnold)

[000l]

[manic-thinking]

I contradict myself. I want you to reach out, relishing in the thought that you too, think about me. But you did. In that moment, I was sad, and I wished you never did. What the fuck is wrong with me?

-manic-thinking

[beylenciaga]

[manic-thinking]

Why?

Why after three fucking weeks

After I finally

FINALLY

Get you out of my head

Must you come back

Weasel your way in

I was finally feeling better

I was finally starting to get used to you being gone

I wasn’t okay but I wasn’t at the lowest fucking point anymore

Why couldn’t you have stayed gone?

I’m not strong enough to stay away

You should’ve just stayed away.

-manic-thinking

[manic-thinking]

Oh how I wish you would reach out. You’d tell me you miss me and update me on your life. You’d ask about mine. We’d stay up all night just texting, like we used to. It would be like I never left. But I know that won’t happen, you don’t care enough. You NEVER cared about me.

-manic-thinking

[twinsfawn]

FIELD DRESSING — J . L . 2023

[timotaychalamet]

Another Round (2020) dir. Thomas Vinterberg

[atari-gang-deactivated20131215]

[manic-thinking]

Said you're not looking for romance, but hell If you were you say it would be with me Just not the time for you to start anything I guess I'll take the consolation prize But what the fuck was that look your eyes?

-Unrequited Love (& other clichès), Breakup Shoes