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[manicpixiedreamenbie]

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Contact the NEDA Helpline for support, resources, and treatment options for yourself or a loved one who is struggling with an eating disorde

Please just block and don't report 🙏 you have no idea how alone we feel without a space to talk to others suffering the same way. I am not pro-disordered eating but I do suffer from it and really appreciate this space to vent into. I do not share pro-content. Thanks for just blocking 🙂

About Me & Stats. (CW in "keep reading")

PRNS: They/Them

Age: 21

Height: 5"3

HW: 227lbs

CW: 207.0lbs

H/BMI: 40.2

C/BMI: 37.1

LW: 128lbs

Goals:

NG: 196.8lbs by Nov. 30th 2021

G2: 181.6lbs by Dec. 31st 2021

G3: 166.4lbs by Jan. 31st 2022

G4: 151.2lbs by Feb. 28th 2022 (no longer obese bmi)

G5: 136lbs by Mar. 31st 2022

G6: 120.8lbs by April 30th 2022

Final/UGW: 105lbs by May 2022

UGW that I should just stay away from but secretly desire: 97lbs

Side Goals:

169lbs (no longer have an obese bmi)

140lbs (no longer overweight bmi)

[flynt-rots]

wdym i’m not losing 5kg every day that’s homophobic

[manicpixiedreamenbie]

I've eaten for the first time in over a day and I still feel disgusting for doing it. That feels unfair

[veganpussyy]

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bitch let me see it

[manicpixiedreamenbie]

I'm sorry I've been so quiet, my brain is decaying over here

[manicpixiedreamenbie]

I'm so tired of involuntarily throwing up in the mornings when I haven't eaten enough

[godisahuman]

Every once in a while I think “why do I have all these mental disorders, surely my childhood wasn’t that bad” and then I have an interaction with my mother and I understand.

[manicpixiedreamenbie]

Me all year long 🥲

[konoko]

ghosting everyone because i think i’m annoying

[jamausis]

what if i….. never said a single word ever again 

[sucboy-deactivated20200423]

Yes I have a nightly routine it’s called being Insane in my room till I pass out

[lovenotlogic]

me: (doesn’t directly tell anyone that i am struggling)

me: kinda interesting how nobody is ever there when i need them ://

[nap3r0ne-deactivated20220903]

Some of y'all are out here literally posting thinspo, diets, tips on how to starve yourself for 70 hours and recipes then saying shit like "I'm not pro, stay safe everyone 🥺🥺"

[tinydeathwhispers-deactivated20]

Facts 👏👏

[sweet-like-saccharine]

*gets a 90% on a test*

*cries*

[9km]

im not american and i think thats very sexy of me

[manicpixiedreamenbie]

I'm an American and am endlessly ugly. This post has it right

[manicpixiedreamenbie]

I have no one to tell this to because I don't want to admit my failures, but today I paid all of my overdue bills (which was a lot) because I finally had the money to, and it feels like a huge weight has been lifted. These bills have been continually overdue because I could only ever afford to pay the minimum due, and stressing me out for almost 6 months. It feels like I can stop feeling guilty for buying something that isn't bill related or need based. I can stop worrying that the wifi will not be in service when my boyfriend arrives at my house. I can stop getting a call a day from each entity I owe to. I can fill the gas tank all the way up, not just put in $7. I can pay back those who helped me when I was struggling.

I hate that there's no one in my life I can say this to and not feel like... embarrassed and stupid.

[waysideshrine-deactivated202107]

prescribe me adderall or i will start cooking meth in my fucking bathroom you fucking psychiatrist