⋆.˚ Sugar talking ⋆.˚ - ellie williams x fem!reader.
Part 1: sweet words, bitter memories.
Summary: You're finally rebuilding your life after a breakup with someone you thought would be your forever... but she suddenly reappears, arms open with new promises that everything will be different this time.
Will it really be different or is it just the sugar talking?
Pairing: modern college au!ellie williams x fem!reader
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Your eyes darted around the campus as you entered. It looked lively. Too lively for a place that causes so much academic stress.
Its a new academic year, and you could practically feel the excitement radiating off of the 1st years. Those poor innocent sould don't know what they're getting themselves into.
As you walked you see friends reuniting, laughing and smiling as they hug each other. You see societys back in action, trying to get you to join one. You look down at the ground as you made your way, trying to avoid eye contact with somebody trying to make you sign a petition that you had no genuine interest in.
You look at the ground, and you wondered how this semester would go. Would it be challenging? Would it be fun? Would you learn something new? Would you pass all the tests?
You wondered a lot. You were always wondering about something, even if it wasn't important. You wondered about your parents, how they were doing without you. You wondered if you would have enough money for food. You wondered what you would wear tomorrow. You wondered if the professors would like you. You wondered if Ellie would remember everything that she had to you.
You wondered a lot. That was something that she hated.
You let out a shiver the cold air hit your face. Fuck
You were barely here for five hours and you were already thinking about her. You did good this summer. You barely thought about her. And you wondered, was it because you were busy with family? Was it because you weren't in the same place as she was? You were doing so good.
Now you were barely here, and she was already plauging your thoughts like a nightmare.
You thought it would finally be over. It was to an extent. You still think about her. But it doesn't hurt as much. Your heart doesn't clench anymore. Your throat doesn't close up anymore. Your eyes don't fill with tears at the memories. But she's always there in the back of your mind.
Ellie will always be there. And you hope one day... maybe one day, that she will finally leave your thoughts.
You walk down a corridor, your mind filled with different things. You were trying to make yourself think about something else apart from her.
Unfortunately everywhere you looked on campus, every bench you went past, every lamp post, every corner, everything reminded you of Ellie. The memories haunt you, they hold onto you like a tick holds onto a dog.
You walked past a bench that she whispered sweet nothings into your ear, telling you that she would never hurt you, and how much she wanted to marry you. You walked past the lamp post where she gave you gum after you forgot to brush your teeth one morning because your roommate took too long in the bathroom.
You chuckled at some of the memories. Some memories were beautiful, they reminded you of a simpler time in life. They reminded you of a time when you were so innocent and naive to believe that Ellie was the one for you, that Ellie had no intention of hurting you, that Ellie actually loved you at a time.
The more you made your way through campus, as much as you were reminded of the good things, you were reminded of all the bad moments as well.
You walk past a lecture hall that held a memory of the 1st time she had dissipointed you;
"I have a surprise for youuuu" Ellie said with a bright smile, as she made her way over to the bench you were sitting.
"A surprise?" you raised an eyebrow. "Dude, you know I hate that shit."
"I know, but you like me, so I know that you will like the surprise."
"Fine" you sigh playfully. "What is it?"
"Instead of asking what it is, ask where it is"
You raise a brow "oh? Where is it"
"Do you know that weird professor with the funny hair?"
"Professor Proton?"
"Yeah, that guy. Come to his classroom. I have something for you there" she said as she smiled brightly.
As you get up, you give her a small smile and a kiss on the cheek. "Okay, I will. What time should I be there?"
"At four" Ellie said with a small smile.
The whole day you were in class, you were thinking about it. What could the surprise be? As much as you hated surprises, you learned to like them when you started dating Ellie.
Ellie was all over the place, always coming up with something spontaneous. She was so adventurous, quite the opposite of your quiet personality. But you did it because it was Ellie, and she liked it.
You would've gone to hell and back for her.
You were counting down the hours, then the minutes, then finally the seconds when you could finally see her.
As soon as your last class ended you practically sprinted your way to the lecture hall. You gave a knock on the door to see if Ellie was there.
It was quiet. A little too quiet for something Ellie was involved in.
You thought this was a part of the surprise. A grin spread across your face, hoping that she was going to jump out to surprise you. You open up the door.
There was nothing.
"Ellie?" you whisper out quietly.
"Ellie?" you ask again. You walk through the empty lecture hall.
"Ellie" you say her name.
You pull out your phone to call her. Once. Twice. Three times. There was no answer.
She's never done this before. She always answers you, she always texts you. And why would she bring you here if she, if she had nothing planned? Did she lie? Did she get busy? Did she forget? You texted her multiple times but there was no response.
You sat in that empty lecture hall for almost an hour waiting for her, hoping she would come.
She never showed up. After a while of sitting in self pity, you finally leave with a sigh. Your heart heavy.
Your mind was running with different scenarios that would've happened to her. She would never not just show up, right?
Right?
You decided to go look on campus if you could find her, but you didn't. You didn't hear from her at all that night.
She texted you the next day with an apology saying that she went out with friends and she got distracted, and she was sorry for not texting you the night before.
She never mentioned the surprise that she had. She never mentioned not meeting up with you. Still, up to this day, you wonder if there was actually a surprise.
That's when the promises started. She said she would communicate better, she said she was sorry.
"I'll never do it again"
That was the first time Ellie had let you down. Little did you know that it would not be the last.
You realized that you had stopped at that same classroom, and you were just staring at the door as all of the memories came crashing back. You take a deep breath as you compose yourself.
Sure, you might not directly feel anything for Ellie anymore, or so you think, but thinking about all those times, how heavy she made your heart feel, or how much she hurt you, still brings a level of pain to your heart that you wish you could take away.
You miss the girl you were before you fell in love with Ellie. You wish you were the girl before she hurt you.
You made your way to class and you finally sit down. The professor walked and he had a bright smile on his face. It made you smile too. He loved it when people were passionate about what they did.
Ellie was passionate about Astrophysics. You didn't quite understand everything about physics or the universe, but Ellie spoke about it with so much passion, with so much love
You could tell that it's something that she's always wanted to do. The way that her eyes would sparkle or light up every time she would talk about it. You thought Ellie felt the same way about you like she felt about what she was studying.
You thought she spoke about you in the same manner that she spoke about her work, but she never did. It was another disappointment that you had to swallow.
Ellie was in the shower as you were laying on her bed, waiting for her to come out. The two of you had just gone out for a dinner.
It was one of the best dates that you've ever been on. Ellie always made you laugh. She always gave you butterflies. She made you feel things that you've never felt before. It was moments like these that made you want to freeze time to be with her forever.
You checked your phones battery percentage, and you notice it was on 3%. You let out a grown as you put your phone on the charger.
"Babe?"
"Yeah?"
"Can I use your phone?"
"To do what?" She yells from the bathroom.
"To watch reels, you idiot"
"Yeah, yeah, whatever" she laughs back.
You take her phone and you start scrolling on Instagram, watching whatever nonsense her feed recommended.
As you were scrolling a text comes in from a group chat. A group chat whose name you don't recognize.
It's called Truth Warriors.
The text above read: "so you forced yourself to enjoy the date...?"
You click on the text, confused. You scroll up to hopefully get some context.
You read how Ellie was telling her friends about you. She was saying how she wasn't in the mood tonight, many of the texts described you as a clingy girlfriend who doesn't want her partner to have friendships outside of the relationship.
"she's gonna freak out if I cancel dude" one of the texts read.
You were clingy yes, but Ellie never once communicated that she was uncomfortable with the way you act. This felt like a slap in the face.
You felt your heart breaking in real time. You read how Ellie was texting them throughout the night, saying that she was bored, saying she wishes that she was with them instead.
You kept swiping up, you kept reading and your heart kept breaking.
You leave the chat, you put down her phone, not saying a word. You lay down in the dark, thinking about this.
Is this how she sees you? Is this how she views you?
Ellie came out of the shower. You heard her voice, but you weren't really registered what she was saying.
"Babe"
"hmm?" You respond.
"Are you okay?" Ellie asks
You look up at her. She was looking at you with genuine concern, concern that you would have believed if you didn't just read those texts.
"Yeah" you say softly. "I'm just tired"
You weren't tired. You were full of adrenaline. Your mind was going at a thousand miles per hour. You were wondering what else she was saying about you that you didn't know about.
You feel her laying behind you. She kisses the back of your neck, then she kisses your shoulder before she puts her hand under your shirt and she grabs your boob.
You tense up, feeling how gentle she is.
Is she gonna tell her friends about your body? What else was she telling them?
You lay there quietly as her breathing became even.
Were you worth anything to Ellie?
Your first class wasn't as bad as you expected it to be. You found it quite interesting. All the students looked refreshed. The professor seems nice enough.
As sooon as class ended students immediately scattered to go to the next class or to go get something to eat from the campus cafeteria. You pack your bag and you make your way outside.
You only had one class today. You were thankful for that. You've been going to bed late the last few weeks, so your sleeping schedule is fucked, and you really wanted to go and take a nap.
You make your way outside again as the cold air just hits you. You take a mental note to bring a sweater tomorrow because you felt goosebumps rise on your arms.
You make your way to the cafeteria because you were really not in the mood to cook tonight and you were not going to order food in this economy.
Your eyes scanned the current options available: Bread, bagels, bread, and more bread. You scratch the back of your neck. 'these don't look very appetizing you thought to yourself'
"Good morning" you say with a smile as you approach the cafeteria lady.
"Morning" she says grumpily.
'Oh' you thought to yourself. "Um, when will the lunch options be out? I don't want to sound ungrateful-"
"No, it's fine" the lady said bluntly.
"Just give it about an hour. This is our breakfast selection. Lunch will be out soon"
You decide to sit down at a table near where they serve the food because you know if all the students come out of class for lunch, you're not going to get anything. So, you wanted to be the first one to get it.
You put on your earphones, hoping to drown out the sounds of students and your own thoughts. You mindlessly scrolled through the Instagram app. As your fingers quickly double tap the screen, you feel a gentle tap on your shoulder. You removed an earbud and you looked up a little confused.
Here she was infront of you with all her glory. Short, autumn brown hair. As beautiful as ever. Ellie fucking Williams. The woman you thought was going to be your forever.
The one you trusted would not hurt you.
She stood Infront of you with holding two coffees, an awkward silence streches between the two of you.
"Ellie?"
"Yeah, that's my name" she laughs awkwardly.
"What do you want?"
"Tough crowd"
You looked at her with pure disgust. Ellie flinched slightly at your expression. She shakily puts down the coffee in front of you.
"I was hoping we could talk" she says with hope in her eyes
"Talk about what?"
"Everything"
"No" you reply bluntly.
A look falls across her face; one you can't read. With a pleading voice (a voice you truly believe was all for show) she whispers "please".
You quickly pack up not wanting to see her any longer. A whiff of her perfume hit you as you got up. She's wearing the perfume you got her. You got because you thought the smell would fit with her despite knowing she doesn't wear perfume. She never wore it, now that she's trying to talk to you, she is? She's playing tricks with you. You fucking knew it.
"Atleast take the coffee" she says
"I don't want your fucking coffee; I don't want to talk to you. I don't want to see you ever again. I thought I made that clear"
"You did, but-"
"Leave me alone"
At that point, you had lost your appetite, just seeing her filled with so much disgust, so much pain, so many bitter memories.
You walked out of the cafeteria not caring if lunch was done yet. As you made your way out the cold air hit your face, you didn't even flinch as the cold because your body was warm with adrenaline. You felt anger coursing through your veins. As much as you much as you felt the anger running through you, you also felt your heart yearning for her.
You were feeling so many emotions, you don't even know what you truly felt for her.
You spent the last two months trying to forget about Ellie. You spent the last two months healing what she broke. You spent the last two months trying to build up a part of yourself that you had lost to this woman.
And she had the audacity to come back to you, to speak.
No, you were not gonna let Ellie back into your life.
Not again.
Not after what she did.
But maybe things will be different this time......
⋆.˚ Sugar talking ⋆.˚ - ellie williams x fem!reader
Summary: You're finally rebuilding your life after a breakup with someone you thought would be your forever... but she suddenly reappears, arms open with new promises that everything will be different this time.
Will it really be different or is it just the sugar talking?
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