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⟡ J, she/her, American, 25
⟡ requests: open (updated june 25, 2026)
⟡ request guidelines
⟡ fluff and angst
⟡ Masterlists: Marauders, Lightning, Hogwarts Legacy
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hi!! i saw that you were asking for requests and i was thinking maybe remus and “i don’t expect you to say it back”. maybe like friends and they’re out and there’s drinking and remus does something and reader accidentally says something like “this is why im pretty sure im in love with you” or something??
Hi! It's not quite as accidental as it could be, but reader definitely wouldn't've said it if she was sober. And Remus is just a caring guy. A chill dude. ♡
Hope y'all enjoy
A rolled ankle
Remus Lupin x fem!reader
892 words
cw: fluff, no Y/N, a lil drunk!reader
It was James and Lily’s idea to do the bar crawl. You were onto your fifth bar and you probably should’ve limited yourself to one drink per bar. But you didn’t. You were dancing with Marlene, feeling like you were on another planet. The occasional boy came and danced with you, but they never stayed long. You never gave them the attention that they wanted. Remus was off by the bar, watching more than he was drinking. Part of him wished he was one of those guys who was able to go up to you and dance with you without worrying about ruining the friendship. But he wasn’t, so he watched.
Maybe if you had drunk less, you would’ve noticed. If you drank anymore, you’d be the one asking him to dance with you.
Peter decided it was time to go to the next bar, which happened to be his favorite. He eagerly gathered the group and got you to start walking. Remus fell into step next to you near the back of the group. He tended to do that.
“Here,” he said, shrugging his jacket off.
He draped it over your shoulders and you slid your arms through the sleeves. It was like second nature. You adjusted it and smiled at Remus.
“Cozy!” you chirped.
“I know. Why do you think I bought it?”
“Thank youuu,” you said, gently bumping into him.
“Anytime, love.”
Marlene, Mary, James, Sirius, and Peter were singing some quidditch chant. You and Remus talked about the okay-ish music in the last bar, although Remus did note that you seemed to be enjoying yourself.
A few streets later, you asked, “How far away is this pla-AH!”
Remus tried to catch you as you tripped, but he wasn’t quick enough. You hit the pavement and swore extensively. There was a sharp pain in your ankle.
“You alright?” Sirius asked, turning around to see you on the ground and Remus crouching down to assess the damage.
“Ow,” you said.
You sat up slowly and rolled your ankle.
“I don’t think I’m going to make it,” you said as your ankle throbbed with growing pain. Tears were beginning to form in your eyes.
Remus looked from you to your friends and back to you.
“My place isn’t too far from here. D’you want to head there until you sober up a bit?” Remus offered.
Remus’ place was small and it wasn’t really set up for people spending the night, unlike the Potters’. You nodded. You could rest on his couch and take the floo home when you felt like you could stand without passing out..
“Alright. Arm around my shoulder, and one, two, three, up!”
“You’re sure you’re good?” Lily asked with a concerned look on her face.
“Yeah, yeah. Just no more dancing for me tonight.” You tried to put some weight on your ankle and winced. “Or for a while.” You chuckled softly. “I’ll make it to Lupin’s fine.”
The group said bye to you two and continued to Peter’s bar. You started slowly towards Remus’.
“I think I have some wrap. Ice, at least.”
“And a couch,” you said. “A good couch for laying down. Because the world seems a little spin-y right now.”
Remus chuckled. “We’ll get you some water too.”
“Oh, water is good. And some acetaminophen. That good muggle shit.”
“I got that, don’t you worry your pretty little head.”
You giggled, and then groaned, “Ow!”
“Almost… there…”
Remus unlocked his front door and helped you in and to the couch. He got you the medicine and water he promised you. He briefly looked for wrap and then wrapped up your ankle until it was stiff. Then he sat down next to you.
“You’re the greatest,” you sighed. “What would I do without you?”
“Lay on the ground and wait for someone else to help you up.”
“True,” you laughed and rested your head on his shoulder. “This is why I’m pretty sure I’m in love with you.”
Remus stiffened slightly. “You’re in love with me?” he whispered.
It wasn’t that he didn’t want to hear you say that. You’d said it many times in his dreams. This was real. Well, possibly real, given how much you’d had to drink.
“How can I not? You’re like my best mate all through school. You’re hot. Sweet. You feel like home. This-” You gestured around his flat. “-is so you and I love being here, with you. And, you know, I love you. Obviously, I don’t expect you to say it back. It’s just hitting me that sitting here with you is so much more better than drinking overpriced drinks and dancing without you.”
You could feel Remus soften under your head.
“I wish I had danced with you,” he whispered.
“Promise me you’ll dance with me when I’m able to?”
Remus didn’t answer right away. The gears in his head were turning.
“How about this…”
He pulled his wand out of his pocket and waved it at the turntable by his window. It crackled to life and a soft tune started playing. Remus stood up, held out a hand for you, and helped you up. He placed your arms around his neck before putting his hands on your waist.
“Just don’t put weight on that foot, okay?”
You leaned up and kissed his cheek. “Okay.”
tags: @navs-bhat @faceache111
I hope your writer's block ends soon❤️
But is it possible if I could ask for James Potter with “I had a speech prepared but I’ve forgotten all of it.”
Maybe someone got wind that James needed to ask reader an important question and everyone assumed he was going to propose. Reader freaks out and avoids him. James finds reader in their spot. Queue freakout scene where Reader begs him not to marry him. Then she back tracks. "It's not that I don't want to marry you but it's just too soon." James nods, "so you'll marry me eventually?"
James asks them to move in with them after the graduate and they live happily ever after
If you don't like that idea, scratch it lol
Thank you if you do write this and I hope it helps
This idea is very, very cute and I'm happy with how it turned out. Thank you, thank you, thank you! We will chip away at the writer's block ice berg one smaller fic at a time.
Currently laughing at the idea of tagging this as a miscommunication trope, except it's not miscommunication between James and Reader... It's miscommunication between James and Peter. Guys being dumb.
Hope y'all enjoy ♡
The wrong question
James Potter x fem!reader
1.5k words
cw: fluff, Y/N, reader freaking out (i wouldn't call it angst?)
James had been thinking out loud, as he sometimes did in his dorm. He claimed it helped stuff make more sense. Remus claims James just likes to hear the sound of his own voice.
Peter had been in the dorm.
“Need to ask Y/N that before this weekend…” James said slowly.
“Ask her what?” Peter asked.
He assumed it was something silly. If you liked that book you were reading, and if he waited until the weekend, you would have finished it and moved onto the next one. If you wanted to sneak into Hogsmeade early to get first dibs on Honeyduke’s newest shipment. If you thought one shirt was better than another for your next date.
“It’s not important,” James said, speaking too quickly to be the truth.
“Then why before this weekend?”
Peter narrowed his eyes.
“So I don’t chicken out. I'm an adult. I can ask my girlfriend questions.”
Peter didn’t run to tell everyone right away. He would tell Remus and Sirius later.
“James is going to ask Y/N to marry him soon.”
“Soon?” Sirius asked.
Peter nodded.
“And he used those exact words?” Remus added.
“Well, no, but what other adult question would he ask his girlfriend? And yes, he did emphasize the girlfriend part.”
One thing led to another and Marlene cornered you in the Transfiguration Courtyard.
“Are you going to say yes?” she asked, rather forcefully in your opinion.
“To what?”
She inhaled deeply. “Oh, you haven’t heard.”
“Heard what?” You had been slightly disinterested but now you were curious.
“I swear it’s all the common room is talking about. Potter. He wants to marry you.”
Your wide-eyed expression was only a fraction of the shock that you felt. Yes, your relationship with James was fantastic. You loved him. But marriage hadn’t explicitly come up yet in any conversation. There had been conversations about the future, but those tended to be more of what you wanted out of life. You were so young. You still called yourself a child at times. You knew James loves to jump into things with both feet, hence why he kissed you on your first date, but he knew you took your time with things, why your second kiss was three official dates after.
“What?” you repeated.
“Peter heard him say he’s gonna ask soon.”
“Soon?” You quickly gathered your few things around you, fumbling with them as you did so. “Um, excuse me. I’ll talk to you… later.”
You hurried inside the castle and tried to escape the uneasy feeling in your stomach. James had been so considerate with how you approached love. After that first kiss, you couldn’t look at him. He found some time alone with you to figure out why and once he understood that he went way too fast, he promised he’d go your speed if you gave him a second chance. He kept that promise. Until now, apparently.
Your feet took you around the clock tower. You knew you can’t go back to the common room. James would be there. So you kept walking until you ended up by the quidditch supply shed. You laughed at yourself. It was a shaky laugh, but still a laugh.
Where else would you go to think about your relationship with James than the spot the two of you had claimed as yours. It had been the place where you had your first one-on-one interaction with him. You had fallen off your broom during flying lessons. It wasn’t far enough to hurt yourself, but your ego was more than bruised. You ran. And a few minutes later, James was sent to find you. Find you he did, but he also comforted you. Years later, the spot would be where he asked you out for the first time. James and Sirius were adamant to get their land-loving friends in the air, and when they were done, everyone skipped out on putting the broom away except for you and James. He’d later tell you that it had been planned that way. From there, it was your spot.
You sat down, lost in your thoughts. You played with the grass as you tried to figure out how James thought proposing to you while still at school was a good idea. You couldn’t. You threw a handful of grass at the ground.
You didn’t notice when the sun went down. You stood up, brushed yourself off and headed back to the castle and the common room. You knew you missed dinner and without knowing the exact time, you might be pushing curfew. The moment you walked through the portrait, James saw you.
“Y/N! You missed dinner!” he said, standing up and starting to cross the room.
“I-I know. ‘M not hungry,” you said hurriedly.
You picked up your pace and practically ran up the stairs to your dorm. James furrowed his brows. Then he went for the portrait hole.
“Potter, where you going?” Peter called from the other side of the room.
“Kitchens. Not hungry my ass…”
You almost cried when a fifth year knocked on your door and said James asked her to bring something to you. That something being food. How were you supposed to tell this boy that you couldn’t marry him?
Marlene must’ve said something to the girls because no one mentioned James when they came into the dorm.
In the morning, you laid in bed as long as you could. That was James’ first clue that something was off. Not being at breakfast at your usual time and skipping dinner? You must be ill.
Then you were deliberately avoiding him. You didn’t walk with him to classes, usually bolting around a corner or into the nearest loo. James tried to brush it off as you not feeling well. But you didn’t say a word to him. Well, you weren’t really speaking to anyone much, but he was your boyfriend so he assumed he ranked higher than others.
Lunch came and went. You grabbed something to eat and disappeared.
At least she’s eating, he thought.
The afternoon was like the morning and after the last class ended, you were gone again. James was worried at this point. He started looking for you. Common room. Great Hall. Library. Asked Lily if you were in your dorm.
He ran a hand through his hair and adjusted his glasses. How could he forget? He went outside to the quidditch supply shed and there you were, sitting on the ground with all your school supplies next to you as you twirled a blade of grass in your hand.
“Hey,” he said softly before taking too many steps closer. “I’ve been looking for you.”
Your stomach dropped. You didn’t want him to ask now. You still hadn’t gotten your head wrapped around it.
He sat down next to you.
“How’re you feeling?”
“I-“ Your voice cracked. “I suppose I’ve been better…”
James frowned. You didn’t look sick, nor did you sound stuffy. You were a little pale, but that was probably from not eating enough.
“Erm, I don’t know if it’ll help but I wanted to ask-“
“James, don’t,” you said with more strength than before.
James stopped. If you had looked at his face, you would’ve seen utter confusion. His brain went to two options: either you wanted to be alone right now or you wanted to break up. He started to pray it was the former.
“I know what you’re going to ask. And… I can’t. We can’t. We… we haven’t even graduated yet! I can’t marry you. We haven’t talked about it enough. There’s so many things that could happen. The what-ifs and details and little things of life that we can’t control. And I’m not ready. I still feel like a kid. That would make me a child-bride and I won’t let that happen. You’re a great bloke, James. You really are. And you’ve been a fantastic boyfriend and I do love you. But don’t ask me to marry you, because I can’t.”
James felt like a brick had been thrown at his face. That was not the question he was planning on asking. Not today at least. He wasn’t ready for marriage either. He agreed that you hadn’t talked about it enough. And even if you had, he would make sure it was a step you were ready to take.
“I mean, one day I’d like to marry you. I just can’t, not right now. It’s too soon. So just don't ask right now so I don't have to say no.”
There were a few seconds of silence.
Then James said, “I’d like to marry you too one day. But, erm, that wasn’t the question I was going to ask.”
Your face burned bright red as you looked up from the grass at James.
“It wasn’t?”
“No. And I had a whole speech prepared, but I’ve forgotten all of it.” James ran a hand through his hair. “My dad helped me line up a flat for after school and I wanted to ask if you’d consider moving in with me.”
You gasped.
“Obviously, I don’t need a yes or no right now. It’s just, I know you were planning on going to your parents’ until you figured something else out. So I’m offering something else.”
You grabbed James’ face and kissed him. He did keep his promise of taking things at your speed.
“I think that’s a lovely idea,” you said.
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Help me get over my writer’s block
Reopened my requests in hopes some new ideas will work some magic to help me finish my WIPs. (I have like three different xJames requests that I just can’t seem to finish…)
Pick a person, pick a line from here and anything else you’d like to add (AU, trope, etc). Or send me your own ideas ❤️
I will be trying to keep these shorter, aka not 10k 😅, but you know how things go.
Thank you to everyone who sends something in!
Debating reopening my requests because I’m struggling to finish anything I’ve started… Like maybe I need to a word/dialogue prompt thing and keep them short.
Thoughts?
Wasps and Catapults
This started as a response to a request (by P 🦋), but it's not really as enemies-to-lovers as I feel the request deserves.... So enjoy this request-adjacent fic :)
James Potter x Black!reader
10.1k words
cw: lil fluff, Y/N, stranger to lovers, james falls fast, james and y/n are professional quidditch players
The taxi pulled in front of a dingy bar. You eyed it cautiously from your seat as you unbuckled.
“St. Michael’s,” the driver said in a gruff voice. “D’you need to arrange a pick up?”
“Not sure how long I’m staying,” you said.
You reached into your purse and pulled out the fare. You thanked the driver and stepped out of his vehicle into the early November air. You really weren’t sure why you had come, but you did. No one had seen you so technically you could still turn around and no one would be the wiser, but the taxi was gone.
The inside of the bar was nicer than the outside. It still wasn’t a place you’d frequent. You walked up to the bar and signaled to the bartender.
“I’m surprised you showed,” a dark haired man next to you said.
“I’m surprised I was invited,” you retorted. You smiled at him. “It’s good to see you, Reg.”
The bartender stopped by and you gave him your order. He was quick to make it.
“I think Sirius was curious to see if you’d come since you’re back.”
You nodded. “I wasn’t sure how much he follows quidditch.”
“His friend put on your interview,” Regulus said before tilting his glass at you. “You’ve made quite a stir.”
“They act like I’m the first player to go from a national team to the British-Irish league. Everyone knows it’s a better league.” You took a sip of your drink and added more casually, “Plus the pay’s better.”
“Don’t you get family money?”
You shook your head.
“No. I think Mum officially cut me off when I joined the team.”
“Huh.”
A burst of loud laughter drew your attention farther into the bar. You recognized two of the loudest as they leaned on each other for support. Your brother looked the same as ever to you, besides more defined and filled out. Which wasn’t saying much as you didn’t see much of him after you turned fifteen.
The other man was James Potter. You didn’t have the pleasure of going to school with him or knowing him personally. He had just finished his rookie season with the Caerphilly Catapults and, from what you heard, was working miracles for marketing and match attendance. He was objectively good and attractive, did well in interviews, and interacted brilliantly with fans in the clips you had seen.
Regulus nudged you slightly.
“You should say hi to Sirius before he finds you standing with me.”
“I assumed you were on good terms?”
“We are.”
Then Regulus turned and walked away from you. Clearly, your brothers were in better touch with each other than either was with you. You couldn’t blame them. You hadn’t put in much effort yourself.
But you were here at Sirius’ invitation so the least you could do was wish him a happy birthday. You approached the boisterous group with a smile you hoped didn’t look as forced as it was.
“Sirius,” you said.
The conversation quieted but didn’t half. Most of the people around Sirius were looking at you with vague familiarity in their eyes. Obviously Sirius knew who you were, and it appeared James did too, along with a blonde girl.
Sirius said your name with a warmth you didn’t expect. The vague familiarity shifted into surprise.
“Happy birthday. And, erm, thanks for inviting me.”
“Figured it was a good enough excuse to try to get the three of us together.”
You raised your glass in a mini-toast. “You succeeded there.” You looked at the people around you. “School friends, I assume?”
One of the boys in the group opened his mouth to answer you when you heard a familiar voice.
“Is that the newest Wasp?” Gideon Prewett asked as he walked over with his brother.
“Prewett and Prewett. What a surprising duo,” you said.
“Longbottom’s over there. You gotta tell us about the league switch,” Fabian said.
“Sirius, we’ll catch up later, yeah?” you asked, looking back at your brother.
“Assuming you don’t go back to France.”
“Wasn’t planning on it.”
You gave the group around Sirius a polite smile before following the twins to a table. The group was quiet for a few seconds.
“So how did you get more than one Quidditch favorite here?” Mary asked. “D’you send an invite to every player out there?”
“If James isn’t drinking with me on my birthday, one of us is dead,” Sirius said, elbowing James.
“And Noir over there?” Marlene asked. She had yet to look away from you as you sat with the Prewetts and Frank.
Sirius let out a short laugh. “She was in the country for once.”
Between going to Beauxbatons and then immediately playing quidditch in France, you hadn’t been in England for a November since you were a child. You tried to remember to send Sirius a letter when his birthday came around.
“Black, don’t be taking a piss. How’d you get her here?” Marlene pressed.
“You’re the one taking a piss! How’d I get my sister to come to my birthday?”
The air in the group shifted.
“Pardon?” Remus asked. “You have a sister?”
Sirius looked from friend to friend, becoming just as baffled as they were.
“Yes? Certainly I’ve told you lot?”
“Certainly not,” Lily said. “I don’t recognize her from school at all?”
“That’s ‘cause she went to Beauxbatons.”
“Wait!” Peter interjected. “I think I remember something from first year. You know, that first night in the dorms?” He looked around the group for backup but no one seemed to remember. He shrugged. “You never brought her up again so I guess we all thought you were lying and forgot about it.”
“Why would I lie about having a sister? If I was going to lie about family, don’t you think I’d choose something better?”
James had stopped listening. Like Marlene, he kept looking at you with the older boys. Without being able to hear whatever you were telling them, James could see the passion in you.
He was also thinking back to one of his first interviews with the Catapults. It was a ‘Get to Know the New Players’ kind of thing and one of the questions was Celebrity Crush. James wasn’t sure if Sirius ever saw that interview, but he mostly definitely said your name with no hesitation.
As the night went on, you mainly floated around the children, now adults, of the Sacred 28. They were the only people you actually sort of knew. They all seemed perfectly content to keep you entertained, or to have you entertain them with your professional athlete stories. It seemed to be all you talked about lately.
You excused yourself to get another drink. James saw you leave the group you were with, not that he was paying attention or anything. James scanned the room for Sirius. The birthday boy was dancing and probably too drunk to remember much in the morning. Perfect. James did not wish a horrible hangover on his best friend; however, he wasn’t sure how Sirius would to him attempting to chat up his sister so an incoherent Sirius was good.
You were leaning against the bartop as you waited for your drink.
“On behalf of the Catapults, welcome to the better league,” James said, stepping into the space next to you.
You raised an eyebrow. “I’m sure I’ll be very welcomed during our first match.”
“You think we’re a match? Brilliant!”
“What?” you asked, standing up straight and turning your shoulders towards him. Apparently he was a stupid drunk?
“You and me. We’re a match. Good pairing. Dynamic duo.”
You scoffed a laugh. “You’re cute,” you said flatly.
James took it as a compliment. He ran a hand through his hair and grinned the boyish smile that got him on multiple covers of Quidditch Weekly.
“Glad you think so!”
The bartender set your drink down and you thanked him. You turned back to James. He was still smiling.
“Is there something you need?” you asked.
You didn’t mean to be short with James. Well, you did, but in almost any other situation, you might’ve entertained the idea of him more. At the moment, you knew he’d been drinking, he was a new rival, and he appeared to be good friends with Sirius. It wasn’t the time nor place to be flirting.
“If I ask you something, will you be completely honest with me?”
You blanked for a moment. That wasn’t what you were expecting him to say. You thought he was going to ask for your number, or something along those lines, which he was debating. Then you would have shut him down and walked away. As attractive as James was, he was your new rival.
“Sure, why not?”
“Why’d you switch leagues?”
“I’m sure you’ve seen an interview.”
“I have,” James said with a smile. “I just don’t believe that’s the whole truth.”
“Of course it isn’t.”
“So, I want the whole truth.”
You took a sip of your drink.
“You spend a third of your life in France and are fully willing to spend the rest of it there, and you’re still not French enough for the French. I wasn’t born there so I wasn’t good enough to be the star of the France team.”
“Who were you hearing that from? I thought France loved you?”
“Fans, trainers, teammates.” You laughed at the absurdity of it. “The coaches were the only ones who didn’t seem to care I wasn’t French-born. But it was never a huge thing, you know? I was good enough that people worked with me and looked past it, but there were comments. Enough comments and you know how people really feel about you.”
“Merlin, that’s kinda horrible,” James said.
“So I’m switching to a team that’ll actually appreciate me. And everything else I’ve said in interviews.”
James looked at you with an unreadable expression on his face. You took a sip, waiting for a response that didn’t come.
“What?” you asked, not wanting it to become awkward.
“It’s just difficult to see how someone could not appreciate you.”
You rolled your eyes, but your soft smile told James he was doing good.
“So, how well do you know Sirius?” you asked.
James laughed. He thought you were joking. He thought everyone in this bar knew that he and Sirius shared everything. They often said that they weren’t just friends, they were brothers. Plus, they still lived together after seven years of schooling and having Sirius move into his parents’ house during the summer after fifth year.
You tilted your head to the side slightly and James’ laughter subsided.
“Oh, you’re not… Sorry,” James said, rubbing the back of his neck and then running a hand through his hair. “Very well. Better than my broomstick. That’s part of why I waited until he was distracted before talking to you alone.”
You snorted a laugh. “I can’t imagine he’s protective of me.”
“I don’t know about that… But he’d also have my head for paying attention to the wrong Black tonight.”
“Maybe he’s right. It is his birthday.”
James waved his hand dismissively in the direction where he had last seen Sirius.
“I’m letting other people pay attention to him. Merlin knows I’ve given him plenty,” James said. “So, do I get more questions or was that the one pure honesty answer?”
You pulled out your phone to check the time. It was later than you were expecting and you had a meeting with your coaches in the morning.
“I think that is going to have to be it. Would you tell Sirius to text me?” you asked.
“Are you leaving?”
“Yeah. Early-ish morning.”
He nodded, knowing that he’d also have an early morning if his coaches weren’t aware of Sirius’ birthday. They were well aware.
“I’ll need your number then. I’m not sure he has it.”
You held out your hand for his phone and James’ face lit up. He wasn’t exactly sure you’d give it to him. There was a chance that Sirius did have your number and then he wouldn’t have had a good excuse to get your number besides really wanting to talk to you again.
“You can give it to Regulus too, but no one else. I don’t need my phone blowing up.”
James looked down as he put his away, and when he looked up, you were gone. You hadn’t said goodnight or bye. A quick glance towards Sirius and you weren’t saying bye to him, nor were you saying bye to Regulus. You had simply vanished.
By the time he got home, James was itching to text you. He wanted to know that you got home safely, and then he would go from there. But he had more important things to do at the moment. Making sure Sirius ended up tucked into his own bed was at the top of the list.
James brought Sirius a water and some medication in the morning. He was greeted with a groan.
“Your sister wants you to text her sometime,” James said.
“M-kay,” grumbled Sirius.
James didn’t ask if he needed her number. He assumed Sirius would ask him for it later if he did need it.
He pulled his phone out of his pocket as he walked back to the living room. It wouldn’t be weird if he texted you now, right?
<get home alright?>
Your phone buzzed in your hand as you were adding a promo photoshoot to your calendar. You didn’t recognize the number. You glanced at the time. It was too early to be Sirius.
It buzzed again.
<james btw>
You swiped into the notification.
<<yea. w/ coaches>>
James didn’t text you again, which was good. You didn’t need a text conversation blowing up your phone as your new coaches went over more scheduling before your debut match as a Wimbourne Wasp. Beyond the meeting, your days were beginning to be filled with training and getting to know the Wimbourne team, both on and off the pitch.
<whens your first match>
Another new number. You could assume it was Sirius. Anyone associated with the Wasps was either already in your phone or they knew when your debut was. James was the only other person you’d given your number to.
<<sunday>>
<dinner on fri?>
<<ok>>
Sirius texted you an address and said to come over whenever. That was all the communication you got. You finished up practice on Friday and apparated to a short distance from the address. You weren’t sure of the area, but it seemed okay.
You knocked on the door. Sirius opened the door after a minute.
“Hey,” he said.
“So this’s your place… Not bad.”
“Mum thinks we’re all disappointments but we make do.”
You laughed. “Make do? This is more than make do.” Then you sat down at the table. “So… what do you do?”
Sirius started telling you about the music shop he worked in. The two of you talked about what was going on in your lives beyond work and a little bit about your experiences in school. Then you circled back to the present.
“Okay, so I need to be prepared. When the tabloids start comin’ round, what do you want me to tell them?” Sirius asked.
“What do you mean?”
“You know, the gossipy stuff that they write.”
“Um, no, I’m not seeing anyone. Not looking. You’re my brother, ew, gross, we are not sleeping together. Family’s not why I came back but it’s a plus. I don’t hate France. Um, what else?” you asked after listing off what you could think of off the top of your head.
“How about favorite teammate? That could be drama.”
“Leonard, the keeper. He’s been really welcoming. But for the love of Merlin, emphasize that he’s my teammate and friend, nothing more.”
“Got it.” Sirius laughed lowly. “The first time they found me after James got big, I was a lying mess. I wasn’t expected to be cornered on the way to the pub.”
“Just ‘cause your friends?”
“I mean, I was going to meet him there.”
At that moment, James stepped out of his room. “Heard you’re talking about me?”
You and James locked eyes, both freezing. Somehow in all the catching up with Sirius, he failed to mention that he was living with James. He also failed to mention to James that you were coming over today.
“What’re you-I mean, hey. Hi,” James said as his face shifted from confused to excited to nervous. “It’s, uh, good to see you.”
Sirius rolled his eyes.
“Yeah, um, you too,” you replied, sounding just as awkward about it as he was.
Sirius looked from you to James.
“James, you going somewhere or?” he asked, dragging out the last word.
James straightened and nodded. “Yeah. Yes. Heading over to Lupin’s.”
“See you later then.”
“Yeah. See you… later…”
James moved towards the door slowly. He was more focused on you and the fact that you were in his flat than he was on where he was walking. He bumped into a small table they had by the door.
“Bye,” you said as he opened the door. Once he was gone, you turned back to Sirius. “I didn’t realize James was your roommate.”
“You never asked,” Sirius said, a little confused on why it mattered who he lived with. “Does that bother you?”
Maybe you weren’t a fan of him living with someone who was considered your opponent.
But you shook your head. “You can live with whoever. Jus’ wasn’t expecting to see him, that’s all.” You paused, and then added, “Lupin… that’s Remus? He lives nearby?”
You stayed at Sirius’ flat for a while. James didn’t return until after you had left; he stayed at Remus’ longer than he originally meant to just so that you wouldn’t be there when he got back.
“James,” Sirius called from his room when he heard the door open and close.
“Yeah?”
“About Y/N,” he started. He met James in the hall. “Don’t even think about it.”
James made an odd face. “About what?”
“Don’t shag my sister. Don’t kiss her. Don’t undress her with your eyes. Don’t flirt with her. Just don’t.”
James almost said it was too late for that. At least for the last two.
“Whatever you say, Pads,” James said lightly, causing Sirius to frown.
“I’m serious.”
“I know.”
“Actually serious. Don’t touch her.”
“What if she touches me?”
“She won’t.”
James shrugged and went into his room, leaving a frustrated Sirius in the hall. James hadn’t actually agreed to listen to what Sirius was asking of him. They both knew it.
<youre wrong>
You stared at the text from James for two minutes before responding.
<<about?>>
<sirius>
<<pretty sure he’s my brother>>
<hes protective>
<<funny>>
The next day was one team meeting and a light practice. Everyone was told to rest up. It seemed like the whole team was excited for your first official match. You had been practicing really well with the team so far. It would be the first test.
Falling asleep wasn’t easy. You’d played in hundreds of quidditch matches over the years and the first one of a season always made you nervous. Now, this wasn’t the first of a season, but it was the first with this team in this league. It made you uneasy. What if you ended up playing horribly and you ruined your life by leaving the France team? The team was unlikely to take you back if everything failed.
You were staring at the dark ceiling in your bedroom when it suddenly lit up. Without looking, you reached over to grab your phone.
<good luck tmrrw>
<shit>
<hope i didnt wake u>
You exhaled loudly through your nose, but a small smile found itself on your face.
<<thx>>
James wasn’t expecting a response so quickly. He assumed you’d be asleep, especially given that he was supposed to be asleep.
<excited?>
<<nervous>>
<youre a superstar>
<youre going 2 kill it>
<<unless i eat shit>>
Because what if you fell off your broom? What if you dropped the quaffle every time it got passed to you? What if you flew right into the stands?
<u wont>
Five letters never felt so… comforting? James didn’t know you. He’d probably seen a match or two, along with an interview. Yet his brief texts soothed you. He had so much confidence in you that it was almost amusing.
You were asleep before you had the chance to wonder if he would’ve been saying the same thing if you were facing him tomorrow.
Sirius woke up to an empty flat. He always did on days when James played. Either James was away in some hotel - his coach was firmly against apparating on game days because of the risk of splinching - or his pre-match ritual was already in motion. That day was a home game so James was already at the pitch, watching previous recordings of his opponents.
You were stretching and trying to find ways to distract yourself at your own home pitch. You took a lap around the stands. You went up and down a few flights of stairs but not too many to wear you out. Eventually the whole team was there and dressed so you could start warming up. You practiced shots against Leonard.
“How’re you feeling?” he asked as he threw a quaffle back to you.
“Now that I’m in the air? Brilliant,” you said before chucking the ball through the far hoop, and then immediately flying to get it.
“Throw like that and you’ll be golden,” he laughed.
He blocked your next shot. A few minutes passed and warm ups were over. Your team gathered on the ground for a final pep talk from your coach before the match would start. You glanced over at the Appleby Arrows. They had a decent record so far. Not as good as the Catapults, but better than the Wasps. If anyone was being honest, the Wasps were hoping you’d be a hero to them. They needed someone who could consistently score and handle the pressure.
You could handle the pressure. It wasn’t your best match ever, but it was a win. It was the best match so far for the Wasps that season and it was because of you. You felt like you were walking on air.
The Catapults had barely snagged the win. The seekers were closing in on the snitch when James passed the quaffle to his teammate. They threw it into a low hoop as the opposing seeker caught the snitch. If the quaffle hadn’t gone through, they would’ve lost the match.
“Potter!” a reported called as he left the locker room with his bag.
He held on a groan. He didn’t want to talk to people right now. He wanted to lay on his floor until Sirius made him do something “normal.” James, however, liked being likeable so he put on a smile and stopped for the reporter as she called his name again.
“Tough match out there today, but congratulations all the same,” she said brightly.
James nodded and ran a hand through his hair.
“We need to be putting the quaffle through the hoops more so it doesn’t come down to a final shot like that.”
“That’s the excitement of the game,” she said. “Speaking of excitement… Do you remember your interview for WizRadio last year?”
He chuckled lightly.
“I can’t say I remember word for word?”
He adjusted his bag strap on his shoulder and leaned down a little bit to appear interested in what she was going to say.
“You were asked about a celebrity crush and you said everyone’s favorite Y/N Noir.”
James felt his ears growing warm.
“I need to know, do you share in our excitement with her joining the Wasps? Or did you prefer having such an excellent player in a different league?”
“Like you said, she’s an excellent player and I know she’ll make us work out there if we want to win. I’m always glad to see the league gain great players that keep the game interesting.”
The reporter smiled at his media-trained answer.
“Do you know if she won today?” James asked, the words falling out his mouth.
He could have looked it up on his phone. He could’ve asked literally anyone else.
The reporter’s face lit up.
“Oh, following her schedule? Let me see…”
The reporter pulled out her phone to check the league’s website.
“It looks like the Wasps did beat the Arrows! Any words you’d like to give to the Wasps?”
“I’m sure it was well earned, and I look forward to watching it later.”
“Would you say you’re the newest and biggest Wasp fan?” the reporter asked enthusiastically.
The heat in his face was increasing so James tried to laugh it off.
“I try to watch all the matches. Keep an eye on the competition.”
It wasn’t a complete lie. James did try to watch a handful of matches, but sometimes he needed a break from what he considered work. He preferred to watch other leagues and muggle sports, and, as long as he never admitted it out loud, the dramas that Sirius put on.
After the reporter walked away, James whipped out his phone.
<told u B) >
He put his phone away and headed to his car.
<<sirius didn’t tell me you are a seer>>
<this seer cant see>
James laughed at his text before hitting send. You’d laugh at that, right? Because he wear glasses, you’d get it. It was decently known that his lenses were thick.
“Ooooh! She’s smiling at her phone! Who’re you texting?” Leonard teased, leaning over to peer at your phone.
The team had gathered at some cheap diner. You were given the choice of a fancy restaurant or here, and you didn’t feel like dressing up.
You clicked your phone off before Leonard could see anything.
“It’s no one.”
“Fast reaction for no one.”
“Just someone saying I played well.”
Chloe, another chaser, looked from you to Leonard and grinned. “But who is this someone? Is he cute?”
“Of course he’s cute!” Will, one of the beaters, said and pointed a finger at you. “Noir is too good to not have standards.”
Everyone at the table was staring at you, waiting for you to confirm what they assumed.
“Fine, yes, he’s cute. Happy now?”
“Do we get a name?” Chloe asked.
“Absolutely not,” you said firmly.
James might be a decently common name, but if you gave an inch, they’d take a mile. And James being “cute” wasn’t breaking news but it was more the fact that they’d know you were texting and he had you smiling at your phone. You didn’t need them, one, making it more than it was nor, two, have that getting out and the world making it more than it was. Because you weren’t texting superstar James Potter. You were texting James Potter, your brother’s roommate.
The next few weeks brought more training, practices, meetings, and matches. The Catapults were good. The Wasps were better than they had been in a few seasons, and you were the obvious reason. You never dropped the quaffle and had the highest scoring percentage on the team. It didn’t matter if you were home or away. You dominated.
<wicked passing today>
<<aren’t u in wales>>
Not that you were following James’ schedule. That’d be silly.
<yeah>
Your match was early in the day while James’ was in the evening. He usually didn’t watch the entirety of another match unless it was after his. He made an exception.
<<how did u see my game?>>
<tvs exist bb>
You both stared at your phone screens. James was mortified he sent that. There was no taking that back. It was delivered and then read and then no bubbles that showed you typing. At least he hadn’t typed out the whole word. James was trying to think of anything he would pretend he meant. Maybe some kind of autocorrect.
<<what channel for u?>>
You were going to look it up, but if James was admitting to watching you play, you could at least return the favor. James got excited at your response. You hadn’t taken his text poorly.
<37>
<u dont need a tv to check me out>
Okay, maybe he was a little too excited.
<<checking out the competition>>
It more or less went from there. You wished each other luck on games and sent each other comments from topics one thought the other would be interested in. You almost called him when an interview with a player on Pride of Portee aired and he started saying some atrocious things. Your finger hovered over the call button before you decided against it. He probably wasn’t watching the interview.
Every time James came out of his room, part of him hoped that you’d be visiting your brother again. An innocent way for your paths to cross. You were never there.
A little over halfway through December, he sent you a text.
<gala?>
You stared at it.
<<?>>
<the xmas gala>
<20>
<fundraiser>
<u going?>
Your coach had called it a fundraiser dinner, specifying that it was a black tie event. Yes, Will, you have to wear a tie. At first you weren’t sure if you would go. You never enjoyed the showy events that you went to with the France team. But your coach spoke with you after the team meeting and said that he was covering your ticket so you needed to go. Being the new face of the Wasps meant you had to show up.
<<yes>>
You twiddled your thumbs over the keypads.
<<I assume u are?>>
<see u there>
You felt strange in the days leading up to the gala. You played it off as being worried your dress wouldn’t fit right day of or you’d stumble over words and embarrass yourself in front of a non-quidditch celebrity. Chloe had gone on and on about the other people invited, a bunch of big names and big wallets in the wizarding world.
And on the 20th, you felt just like you did before your first match with the Wasps. At least you still had your team. Everyone had gotten tickets and agreed to go in together. It was in idea the team’s PR department loved.
“Oh, she’s a princess,” Leonard praised as you walked into the hotel lobby where you agreed to meet.
You spun cheesily to show off your dress.
“The colabs are going to be pouring in after the media sees you,” Chloe said. “Merlin, you are the Marketing Team’s dream!”
“Thank you, but the night is still young,” you said with a laugh.
The team laughed with you and you headed out. The walk into the gala was lined with photographers and reporters. It was impossible to walk more than three steps without hearing your name yelled. You posed with your team. You knew you should get some solos but you were taking it all in.
James had arrived before you did. He stopped to talk to a reporter he recognized. If he had the choice, he’d always pick reporters he knew and trusted.
“Mr. Potter, you look absolutely dashing tonight!” the woman said. “Did you come here with anyone tonight?”
“Trying to come in with me?” James replied with a wink.
The woman laughed.
“Unless you count some of my team, no.”
“No lady tonight. Okay. Well, I hope you don’t mind me saying that you’ve been playing fantastically lately. Is there something new going on?”
“Sorry to disappoint, but no. I must just be getting better.”
“And how are you celebrating that?” she asked with a smile.
James could tell she was looking for something juicy or quote-worthy before she’d move on.
“Anyone you’re going home to or taking out? Or are you looking for someone tonight?”
James immediately thought of you. You’d be here tonight.
“There’s no one right now, but a man can dream that the right person will be walking down the carpet tonight. Don’t tell my roommate, but it would be nice to come home to someone besides Sirius.”
James winked at the woman again and continued on. She started calling for an actor’s attention so he knew he was in the clear. Once he made it to the entrance, he scanned the walkway. The world seemed to freeze in the most cliché way. You were stopped in front of the main display. Even from a distance, he could tell you looked radiant. He hadn’t lied to the reporter. A man could dream.
Just as James turned away, you looked over. You chose to ignore how your heart skipped a beat. A man that handsome had asked if you were going to be here and was looking forward to seeing you. Maybe he was just being friendly for the sake of Sirius, but it still felt nice.
“Noir, come on!” Chloe called from the next photo spot.
You smiled and joined her. The rest of the walk inside was fairly normal. You tried to avoid stopping to talk to reporters, but your team stopped as a group so you had to.
“Y/N, how have you been adjusting to the UK?”
“It feels like home.”
“But how does it compare living to France?”
You stared at her blankly for a few seconds. “You know I grew up in London, right?”
“Oh!” The reporter laughed uncomfortably. “No, I did not.”
Leonard laughed as well and threw an arm over your shoulder.
“Let’s keep moving,” he said. Once you were a few steps away, he added, “You got to humor them, remember?”
You nodded. “Nervous, I guess.”
“There’s no need to be. You got us. You look amazing. And we’re almost inside.”
A few more stops and you got asked more questions. These times you did better. At least until the last one. Apparently she had been watching you and Leonard for a while.
“Correct me if I’m wrong, but is there something here?” she asked, moving her finger between the two of you.
“Excuse me?” you asked with a slight forward lean.
“You and Leonard. I’m sensing some real chemistry!”
“We’re teammates,” you said, trying not to feel weirded out by the reporter’s assumption.
“Noir’s beautiful and we get along, but like she said, just teammates,” Leonard added.
“Maybe you should consider it,” the reporter said, not backing down. “You two would be a cute power couple.”
You and Leonard gave each other knowing looks and walked away.
“Merlin, she’s got gall,” you muttered to him.
“Oh no, I get along with my friend. And because you’re a girl, I must want to fuck you,” he whispered back.
“Let’s just get inside…”
You made sure not to stand nor sit directly next to Leonard for the dinner portion of the evening. You tried looking at him less. There weren’t many reporters allowed inside the actual gala so you felt like you were being watched less but the feeling was still there. It was rough because Leonard was your favorite teammate.
After dinner, the evening opened up. There was a live performer, a dancing area, a silent auction and lots of free drinks. You drank enough to be comfortable socializing with more strangers but not enough to surely make a fool of yourself. The rest of the team went to the silent auction while you stayed behind.
You had gotten a new drink and now were nursing it at a standing table, watching the performer and people dancing. James was politely listening to a conversation that he had no interest in, but with nothing else to do, he felt inclined to stay. Then he saw you standing alone.
A man can dream, right?
“Excuse me, I need to check on something,” James said. “It was good talking to you.”
He took a longer than necessary path to you so that the man wouldn’t quite be able to tell that James was ditching him solely for you.
“I think they have a rule against pretty girls standing alone,” James said after he walked up to you.
“How kind of you for preventing me from being a rulebreaker,” you replied.
“So, do you prefer watching the fun as opposed to partaking in it?” James asked.
You gave him a confused look. “What do you mean?”
“You’re just standing here. Alone. Not doing anything.”
“I’m enjoying the band.”
“You could be dancing to the band.”
You snorted a laugh. “I won’t be dancing alone.”
“You don’t have to,” James said, offering you his hand.
“James…”
“Yes?”
“We play each other in three weeks.”
“So?”
“It… It’s not weird to you? People might think we’re trading team secrets.”
“I don’t think they will. I think they’ll see two beautiful people dancing at an event that has a dance floor and live music.”
“James…” You weren’t quite convinced, despite the butterflies in your stomach.
“All I’m asking for is one dance. And if anyone gives you shit for it, say you were indulging my celebrity crush.”
“What?” you gasped, a mix of being baffled and amused.
“I’ll explain while we dance?”
You felt your resolve crumble. His smile, those eyes, the hand still extended for her. Maybe James was right and no one would question you dancing. You reminded yourself that part of tonight was to have fun, and if you were seen dancing with James, maybe any ideas that you and Leonard were together would disappear.
“Okay.”
You followed James out onto the dance floor to join the people dancing.
“So explain what you said,” you said after a few steps.
“That I think you’re beautiful? Trust me, love, I’m not the only one saying it.”
“Ha,” you said flatly. “Thank you, but that wasn’t what I meant. Celebrity crush?”
He smiled at you in a way that warmed your heart.
“Beginning of last season, I was interviewed by WizRadio,” he started.
“Okay…”
“You know how those things go. Young player full of promise, let’s get to know them as more than talent on a broom. They asked a bunch of questions. Favorite color, favorite breakfast food, what superstitions do I believe in.” He paused. “And who my celebrity crush was.”
You laughed softly. “And you said me?”
“Without hesitation.”
“You sure do flatter me, Potter.”
“Does it count as flattery if I mean it with my whole being?”
“You’re being dramatic about it so yes,” you laughed.
“Am I though?” He leaned in towards your ear. “I could hear reporters yelling your name the whole time I walked in.”
He was stretching the truth, but it still made you blush. He knew you had to be swarmed. You were you and when you looked like that, everyone would want to talk to you.
“Are you saying they didn’t yell your name?” You wanted to add how you would yell it, but that was an inside thought. “I hear the people like you.”
James shrugged. “I don’t care if people like me. I care if you like me.”
He winked at you, causing you to roll your eyes.
“I like you just fine.”
“Do you?”
“I’m dancing with you, aren’t I?”
James pulled you closer. “You are.”
Just like that, one dance turned into two and more. He was undoubtedly charming. His attention was solely on you, and with each song, you felt more and more comfortable. You were both laughing. You only stopped dancing when it was announced that the auction was over.
“I’m going to find my team,” you said. “Thank you, James.”
He took your hand in his and lifted it to his face. He kissed it gently.
“Thank you,” he said.
Somehow your team missed where you had gone to, and when asked, you simply said that you were dancing. They all assumed someone had asked you to dance and you went from person to person as everyone would want to dance with you. They had no clue that it had been James and him alone.
Despite it being in the tabloids for the next week, your team didn’t bring it up. It was strange. You expected someone, Leonard or Chloe, to bring it up. Not even a coach or media personnel.
“What’s this?” Sirius asked, throwing the cheapest tabloid he could find on the table in front of James.
James couldn’t help but smile. You were laughing in his arms, looking like a goddess.
“Looks like a magazine,” James said with a cheeky smile.
“Uh-huh. And the bullshit that’s on the cover?”
James leaned down and adjusted his glasses.
“A beautiful couple dancing?”
“Couple? Potter, I told you to stay away from her!”
“Sirius, a couple as in two people. She looked bored. She was just standing there. And if you really need it-“ James spun the tabloid to be facing Sirius. “-look where my hands are.”
James knew his best friend well. Well enough to know how many lines he could cross in one go. Knowing that he was close, he pointed out a redeeming factor. If his hands hadn’t been in a respectful position, James would’ve found something else.
Plus, it didn’t hurt to not tell Sirius that if you had danced with James for one more song, he would’ve tried to actually kiss you. That’s all he told himself that he needed. One more song and things would be different. He would’ve been dealing with a much angrier Sirius because someone would’ve gotten a picture of it.
“Just…” Sirius sighed, defeated and frustrated. “Don’t go making a habit of this,” he said, gesturing to the tabloid. “She’s a grown woman who doesn’t need your rescuing or whatever you call this.”
James wanted to retort that you were a grown woman who could spend her time with whomever you chose and Sirius would have to deal with it if you chose him. But again, James knew his best friend. It was best to drop it.
The week passed and it was more or less water under the bridge. The holidays came and went.
<srry i missed u over xmas>
You almost hoped it was from James rather than Sirius. It felt like a horrible thing to hope, but you couldn’t help it. James was a special kind of person.
<dinner thurs?>
<<i’ll be there>>
It was a good thing, you told yourself. There was a chance you’d get a brief interaction with James and Sirius would be there as a buffer. You were putting a lot of hope into the idea that seeing James at a distance would somehow stop you from replaying the gala in your mind. If you drifted into your thoughts, you could still feel his hands on your waist. You could smell his cologne. You could see his eyes and the unnamed emotion that swam in them when he looked at you. You trusted yourself that it was better to leave said emotion unnamed.
You apparated into the lobby of Sirius’ building on Thursday. You made your way upstairs and knocked on the door. You waited a little bit. No answer. You knocked again. This time you heard some movement inside the flat.
“Coming!” a voice yelled, muffled by the door and not quite sounding like Sirius.
Then the door opened to reveal a shirtless James.
“Oh, hi,” he said, surprised.
Your eyes flicked up and down. “Classy.”
“I wasn’t expecting company.”
You walked into the entry way and slipped off your shoes.
“Not my fault Sirius didn’t tell you I was coming over. Where is he anyways?”
The flat was dark, only light coming from the kitchen.
“At the cinema with Peter. Was he supposed to be here?”
“Obviously? It is Thursday, right?”
James nodded.
“Well, if he’s not here, I’ll go. Sorry to disrupt whatever you were doing,” you said.
“Stay!” James said with a bit too much urgency. He coughed. “I mean, you can stay if you like. I’ll make you something. I was just going to make my own dinner and then put a film on. Obviously you don’t have to stay for the film but at least stay for dinner.” He paused. “Please.”
You bit the inside of your lip. First he dances with you and now he’s offering to make you dinner.
“What were you going to have?”
“I was going to have Hot Pockets, but unfortunately you can’t have that delicacy. Only got two left.”
“Oh, I know better than to come between a boy and his Hot Pockets. It’s not a big deal, James. I’ll just-“
“I’m making you something. Chef Potter is at your disposal. Speak a dish and I shall prepare.”
He flourished his hand and struck a pose. James fully meant it too. If you requested lasagna or a five course meal, he’d whip out an apron and get to cooking.
“Pizza?”
“Frozen or fresh? If you want fresh, I’ll have to nip down to the store.”
“Frozen is more than fine.”
“Alrighty.”
James disappeared into the kitchen while you turned on lights in other rooms. You sat down at the table. When James joined you, he had acquired a shirt.
“So how did you like the gala?” James asked.
“It was better than the ones I grew up going to.”
“Yeah?”
“Did Sirius never tell you about them?”
“Oh, he told me about them,” James laughed. “But how am I supposed to know if they’re for the same reasons?”
“There was never anything for us to do as kids. I had to eat food I didn’t like. Had to wear uncomfortable dresses. Making small talk with people I don’t know or want to know was different. Now it’s reporters instead of some great uncle who should’ve been long dead.”
“Sirius said he got told to be quiet to the point your parents…” James trailed off, wishing he hadn’t started that sentence.
“I chose which battles to fight. Sirius chose all of them.”
There was a moment of uncomfortable silence.
“Alright, new topic!”
“If you went to Hogwarts, what house do you think you’d be in? Since Sirius was in Gryffindor but your family is-“
You cut him off with your answer. That led into a deeper conversation about how you compared to your brothers and telling stories about them. It lasted the entire time it took to cook the pizza and to eat it. When James went to put the plates in the sink, you realized that you had to decide if you were leaving. Your heart was telling you to stay.
“So, um, what movie are we going to watch?”
“You’re staying?”
James didn’t bother trying to mask his excitement. He had been enjoying his conversation with you so much that he felt a bit sad putting this dishes away as it meant you were likely leaving. But you just said we. You were staying for the movie.
“Sirius got to watch a movie,” you said with an air of nonchalance.
You went over to the couch and got comfortable.
“We got a few options…”
James held up the movies as he listed them off and let you choose which one to put in. Then he sat on the couch next to you. He wasn’t overly close, but it was enough.
Everything that happened after that was delicately subtle. The way he casually draped his arm across the back of the couch like he did that every time he sat down. You shifting in your seat so you were ever so slightly leaning towards him. Him leaning forward to increase the volume, allowing his arm across the couch to move forward to your shoulder closer to him and when he sat back up, he placed his arm loosely around your other shoulder. Then you were adjusting again, only this time to be closer to James until you were leaning into his side.
Every movement was accompanied with pounding hearts and slow breaths. When the anticipation of it all wore off, James reached over to hold your hand. It was romantic to say the least. You sat like that for a while, watching the movie. In your opinion, it was better than any dinner and catching up with Sirius would’ve been.
Then there was jump scare in the movie. You jumped and hid your face in James’ chest without thinking. Once you realized what you did, you kept your face hidden longer, more for covering your embarrassment than avoiding the screen. James gave your hand a squeeze. He hoped it told you that you were okay.
When you did pull back from his chest, you said quietly, “Sorry… Didn’t mean to.”
James just smiled at you.
“You’re welcome to my chest any time.”
Replaying the night in your head later, you’d think it was an interesting thing to say, but in the moment it was sweet. Sweet enough that you almost leaned in to kiss him. Sweet enough that when you didn’t lean in and he did, you almost let him kiss you.
But the image of Sirius coming in to see you and James kissing popped into your head and you jumped up.
James gaped at you, confused. He thought the moment had been right. Things had been going so good!
“I’m sorry,” you apologized again. “It’s just… I can’t. We can’t.” You walked towards the door. “Thank you for dinner, James, but I really should be-“
As soon as you started walking away, James was on his feet and following you.
“Wait!” he said, grabbing your elbow before you could open the door. “Did I mess up?”
“I… Nothing you did was… wrong, per say, but…” Your voice trailed off. You sighed heavily. “I just need to go.”
As James let his hand fall, he could hear a symphony of sad violins. He didn’t want you to go. He wanted you to stay, to finish the movie. He’d sit on the floor if it meant that you’d stay. Maybe then you’d at least get to see Sirius some whenever he got back from Peter’s.
But you walked out the door and closed it behind you.
The next week went on like any other. Practices. Meetings. Training. You were focused. At least, you were trying to be. No one seemed to noticed that you were a little distracted. James and his stupid smile and dinner kept sneaking into your thoughts.
He had texted you the next morning, apologizing if he overstepped and misread the situation. You didn’t respond. You didn’t know how to.
You did exactly what I wanted you to, but we’re opponents and you’re also my brother’s best friend so it’s a little weird. But Merlin, I love being around you and I think I do like you.
That wasn’t something you could articulate in person and it wasn’t something you were going to text. And it did not help that you were playing him on Saturday.
When you arrived at the stadium, you weren’t nervous. You were feeling more confident than you expected yourself to feel. Yesterday’s practice had been fantastic and it was reflecting in your warmups. The whole team was ready to beat the Catapults and propel your team to the top rankings.
Your team was announced and you were completely in the zone as you mounted your broom and took off into the sky. You got into position. You were ready to snag the quaffle as soon as it was thrown into the air.
Then James appeared directly across from you on the Catapults’ side. He smiled at you. You knew the smile was just for you. Only you. It was as close to the greeting he wanted to give you as he could get, given the circumstances.
Things seemed to move in slow motion. You didn’t notice the balls being released and the quaffle being thrown until Amit, the third chaser, shouted your name to get your attention. Luckily, Chloe had grabbed the quaffle. But she still needed someone to pass to.
Unfortunately, the entire match seemed to go like that. You were a half step behind. A fraction of a second slow in reactions. It wasn’t horrible playing for the Wasps, but compared to the Catapults, it wasn’t your best game. At least you made every shot you took. You just needed to take more shots during the match.
The Catapults’ seeker caught the snitch. The game had been fairly close in the end and it really did come down to the snitch. You didn’t speak to anyone as you marched back to the locker room.
After a long shower and taking your time to get dressed, you checked your phone
<sorry>
You threw it into your bag without a second glance. Once again, you couldn’t respond. James had nothing to be sorry for. He played a clean game and so did his team.
You were playing different scenarios over in your head that might’ve gotten a different outcome. You were so in your head that you didn’t notice that you slammed the locker room door when you left, nor that you slammed it in Leonard’s face.
“Hey,” his voice broke through your thoughts. “Don’t beat yourself up over that match. You played well.”
“We could be better,” you muttered. “Should’ve won…”
Leonard put his hand on your shoulder. You had lost before. This wasn’t how you had acted then; something was different.
“Noir, is this about losing or losing to the Catapults?” he asked in a lower voice.
You had been looking down at your feet as you walked. You lifted your head.
“What are you implying?”
“That maybe a certain Catapult-“
“Don’t finish that thought.”
Leonard let go of your shoulder in favor of holding his hands up in defense.
“Listen, no issue here if there is something. But the team knows about the gala. May not have seen it in person, but you know. And I’ve heard he’s friends with your brother. I don’t know if that changes anything, but-“
“But nothing. And there isn’t anything there, so, yeah, there’s no problem. We just lost.”
Leonard hummed and let you walk away from him. This was most certainly not an average loss to you and he knew that you knew he knew it. Being a keeper, he had learned how to not blame himself entirely for lost matches. He wasn’t sure you had mastered that.
You were positively stewing by the time you got home. Because, right, there was nothing there. Nothing between you and James. Just an almost kiss and a bunch of unspoken feelings, because you thought it was wrong in every way except for that you liked him and he liked you
Unless he didn’t actually like you and all of that was to get you off your A-game. It seemed like a lot of work for a match, but maybe you didn’t really know James.
You promised yourself that you would stop indulging in whatever this was with James, if he tried to continue with it. You didn’t text him at all. There was a <we good?> and you left him on read.
James tried to give you space, but it was killing him knowing he had gotten so close yet you were so far out of reach. He could almost pretend that it wasn’t only him, that maybe you were taking a texting break. But he knew you were talking to Sirius.
“I’m headed out!” Sirius had called down the hall.
“Bit early for the pub, isn’t it?”
“Nah, going to Reg’s. We’re doing a sibling meal. Y/N’s idea.”
“Oh,” was all James could say.
Obviously you were talking to your brothers and getting together with them. And not that he was slowly growing desperate for any sign of you, but he got an alert on his phone that you were seen out with your team at a diner. In the picture? You were laughing at something on your phone and showing it to the keeper on your team.
It was just James.
He thought with more time, you’d come around. But after a tough morning training, all he wanted to do was text you for someone to rant about coaches to. He typed, deleted, and retyped a message seven times, running his hands through his hair before, during and after each tone.
“Fuck it,” he muttered to himself.
He called. You gave him one ring before sending him to voicemail. James sighed heavily and, again, ran a hand through his hair as your voice told him to leave a message.
“Hey, um, it’s James. I guess I must be a twat or something since you won’t talk to me… Unless you’re actually busy right now, then disregard that and call me when you get the chance. But, um, yeah. I’m sorry for whatever I did. Tell me and I’ll do better. That’s a James Potter promise.” He chuckled lightly. “So, yeah. I’ll hopefully talk to you later.”
James stepped out of his room and came face to face with Sirius.
“Damn, who’s got you in the doghouse now?” Sirius laughed. “Haven’t heard the James Potter promise in a while.”
“Desperate times, mate,” James said.
“So, who it is. You haven’t brought anyone ‘round lately.”
“We’re…” James’ voice trailed off.
Not anything, technically. He had hoped the gala and the accidental night in would be enough to jumpstart something. Now you weren’t responding to him.
“Undefined.”
Sirius raised an eyebrow. “Were you ever defined?”
“Yes and no.”
“Prongs, mate, you got to give me more than that.”
“We were working towards something. I think. At least I was and it felt like she felt it too. And now, well, you heard it. She’s not talking to me.”
Sirius hummed and said, “Okay. How long were you working towards something?”
“Like two months?”
“Two months?”
“Yes?”
Sirius shrugged. “How come you haven’t mentioned her?”
“It’s private.”
Sirius laughed and grabbed James’ shoulder. “Private? Mate, what are you on?”
James gave Sirius a confused look.
“Since when don’t you tell ‘bout whatever girl you’ve chasing?”
“Since I know you won’t like her.”
Sirius scoffed.
“Won’t like her? What is this?” He crossed his arms. “Why does it matter if I like her? You like her.”
“Fine, little correction. I know you wouldn’t like us together.”
“So she’s a horrible human being like my mother?”
“What? No!”
“Then why won’t I like a girl who makes you happy?”
“You know why,” James said in a sigh, turning away from Sirius.
“I… know… why?” he repeated.
James couldn’t look at him. That’s when it hit Sirius.
“No.”
James didn’t say anything.
“No!”
Sirius punched James and James let him. It was a bit dramatic but James fell to the ground. Sirius all but stormed out of their flat. James had never been on the receiving end of Sirius’ punches. He gathered himself but remained seated on the ground.
You listened to James’ voice twenty times. Every time he said he wanted to talk to you later, you hit play again. That was normal, right? Totally normal.
You sighed. “Fuck it.”
<<wasps pitch 12>>
You went straight to the stadium. It was still early so he wouldn’t apparate there yet. You let yourself in and went out to the pitch to sit down. You waited. It felt better to wait here than anywhere else.
“Noir.”
You hadn’t noticed time passing. At some point you laid back and stared at the sky.
“Potter,” you said.
“Did you… did you get my voicemail?”
You huffed a laugh.
“Get comfortable.”
He listened and sat down next to you. Neither of you said anything for a few minutes. James watched you and you watched the stars come out and hide behind clouds.
“So…” he said slowly.
“The stars are nice.”
“Y/N.”
“I told you to get comfortable and you’re sitting.”
So James laid out next to you. He left space between your shoulders, but you scooted right up next to him.
“Hey,” you whispered.
He turned his head to see you, only to see you far closer than he expected.
Then you did what he wasn’t expecting. You kissed him. Gentle, soft, tender. Immediately, James cupped the side of your face to hold you closer. When you pulled away, you pressed your face into his chest, much like you had during that movie at his flat.
“So was I a twat or…”
“No. I was scared…”
“Of?”
“It not being right.”
“Well, is it?”
“Right? Feels like it.”
James hummed. “So what now?”
“I don’t know. But can we just lay here for a bit and deal with it later?”
“Yeah. We can do that.”
James pulled you closer to him and you watched the stars for an hour. Then you brought him back to yours with the promise of figuring Sirius, the league, and everything else out in the morning.
tags: @navs-bhat, @faceache111
Sh!tshow (NERIAH)
Theodore Nott x fem!reader
4.9k words
cw: childhood friends-to-lovers, no y/n, angst?, Cormac McLaggen is a #BadBoyfriend, idk how compresensive this is
It was a Friday evening and you were lounging on a couch in the Slytherin commons. Your boyfriend, Cormac McLaggen, hadn’t texted you that he was ready yet so you leaned deeper into the cushions as you scrolled Instagram.
Pansy walked out of the hallway that led to her dorm. She took one glance at you in your mini skirt and jumper that likely covered some scandalous shirt and turned for your friends playing cards.
“He canceled again?” she asked the group.
They gave her blank stares. She rolled her eyes before nodding in your direction with a raise of her eyebrows.
“She hasn’t thrown her phone yet,” Lorenzo said. He laid down a three of hearts.
“She only throws it when he’s on some bitch’s story,” Daphne corrected.
“Right. Well, Theo, go see what’s up,” Pansy said as she leaned over Draco’s chair.
“Why would I do that?” Theo asked.
“She tolerates you when she’s in a mood. If we send Enzo, he won’t be able to have kids.”
Theo signed, but set his book down on the table and got up. He walked over to you. You didn’t look up from your phone, but you knew he was there.
“Amore,” he said.
“Theodore.”
He sat down next to you. “Pansy wants to know what pretty boy did this time.”
“You don’t look like Pansy.”
“That’s for the better. I don’t need to be receiving Malfoy’s dick pics.”
You exhaled an amused breath. Theo nudged your shoulder with his, glancing at your phone screen.
“So what’d the twat do?”
“Hasn’t texted me yet. We’re going to bar, but-“
Your phone vibrated in your hand. You frowned.
“Nevermind. I’ll be staying in.”
“That doesn’t sound right. You’re already ready.”
“Apparently there’s some pick-up quidditch match in the gardens.”
“The bars are still open.”
You gave Theo a look that said So?
“Merlin, we’ll,” he said with a gesture to the group, “go with you. You don’t need that sorry Gryffindor to be let in.”
“Yeah! Let’s go out! No moping like last week!” Pansy said. She was still bent over Draco’s chair but had been eavesdropping.
“Last week he said he’d come over late,” you said, not denying that you had been moping.
“And did he?” Theo asked.
“No.”
He stood up and held his hand out to you. Slightly begrudgingly, you took it and allowed him to help you up.
“Wait! Wait! We need to finish this hand!” Lorenzo yelled.
“It’s cards,” Theo said flatly.
“Enz just wants to lose officially,” Daphne said with a laugh as she laid down her hand.
“Fuck!” Lorenzo swore.
“My point.”
The rest of the table laid their cards down, some with more emotion than others. Draco had to stop by his dorm before heading out. Then you were walking to the bars with your friends. You could almost forget about Cormac for the night.
The walk to the bar wasn’t too long and soon enough, you all had drinks in your hands. Pansy immediately dragged Draco towards the dance floor. Daphne, Blaise, Mattheo, and Lorenzo followed shortly, leaving you and Theo standing off to the side.
“Are you at least going to dance tonight?” you asked Theo, despite already knowing his answer.
“I don’t dance.”
“You always say that.” You grabbed his arm and gave it a quick squeeze. “And we both know it’s a lie.”
“We don’t speak of that night.”
“It was a great night and I think it’d do you some good to do more.”
“Right,” he said with an eye roll.
“Hey, you’re the one who wanted me to come along.”
“We all wanted you to come along.”
“Uh-huh. Then why wasn’t Blaise asking about my evening plans?”
Theo took a sip of his drink. “Worried you’ll give ‘im a concussion.”
“They’re so dramatic,” you said with a quiet laugh.
“Look who’s talking.”
It was your turn to roll your eyes.
“Well, I can’t stop you from being a wallflower all night. I won’t be.”
You gave Theo one more smile before joining your dancing friends in the crowd, leaving Theo to stand against the wall alone. He was always one to help get a group together to go out, but he’d participate the least. He called it observing, supervising even. Lorenzo called it being lame. Sometimes Theo would retort with something about not wanting to make a fool of himself. Draco would add that he already did that.
Theo had no problem with coming along to make sure you had a good time and stayed safe. He liked watching you dance and have fun. He liked that you looked over at him and smiled, sometimes waving him over to join but he never does.
Lorenzo took your hand and spun you around. Theo could faintly hear your laugh through the music. Dancing with Lorenzo was an exaggerated experience. He was all about big movements and extra steps. If people didn’t move out of the way or get pushed, you’d run into them. After a few more spins and two dips, Lorenzo left you for a girl Theo didn’t know. You laughed with Pansy at Lorenzo’s attempts to find a girl to take back to his dorm later.
Theo stepped away from his spot to refill his drink. When he got back, someone had their hands on your hips. He took a slow sip.
That boy’s hands should’ve been seared. You weren’t his to touch.
Not that you were Theo’s to touch either, but at least he wasn’t actively doing it.
You didn’t necessarily lean into the stranger’s touch, but you also didn’t pull away. There was no turning around and saying that you have a boyfriend. It wasn’t lewd dancing. After two songs, the guy looked Theo’s way without realizing he was being watched. The stranger didn’t last two seconds in Theo’s glare.
You kept dancing with your friends. Every few songs, a new guy would appear. Sometimes you left them to get a new drink, but other times they spotted Theo and got the message real quick.
There was one guy who wasn’t looking Theo’s way and he didn’t like how he was touching you. His hands were going too high and too low.
Something in him snapped. He threw back the rest of his drink, set the cup down on the counter, and walked over to you. His expression was dark enough that people stepped out of his way. You smiled at Theo briefly. You didn’t think you’d ever seen him look like that; it was downright murderous. Even worse, you thought he looked hot.
“Alright, mate, think it’s time you moved on,” Theo said.
The guy barely glanced at Theo, but the look in his eye was disbelieving.
“Yeah right,” he said. “Who’re you? Her boyfriend?” The stranger laughed.
The guy had watched you long enough to know that if you had a boyfriend, he certainly wasn’t here tonight.
“No, I’m worse,” Theo said.
It happened so fast that you didn’t even realize you screamed. Theo’s fist hit the guy’s cheek bone, and then his jaw. A shove had the guy on the ground and Theo would’ve kept going if Lorenzo and Blaise hadn’t grabbed his shoulders to pull him back.
“Merlin, Nott, calm down,” Lorenzo hissed in his ear.
Your whole group was summoned. Lorenzo and Blaise didn’t let go of Theo. Pansy and Daphne put themselves between you and the stranger and Theo. One of the bouncers was coming over to investigate but Mattheo and Draco stopped him.
“Don’t bother. We’re leaving. He’s just going to pay,” Mattheo said.
The bouncer nodded and turned back around. Mattheo had that effect with people - when he spoke, people listened. Your whole group was pretty sure it was a mix of his anger issues and family name. Draco could also get people to listen, but right now he was more useful for his wallet.
After your group had successfully escorted him outside, Theo tried to pull free of Lorenzo and Blaise, but they kept their grip on him. They didn’t seem pleased that the night had been cut short. Mattheo and Draco weren’t too far behind you. Draco handed everyone except Theo their cards.
“We’re advised to not go back for two weeks,” Mattheo said. “Nice going.”
Before Theo could respond, Blaise added, “I think that’s the first time Theo’s gotten us thrown out. Usually it’s Mattheo.”
He let go of Theo at the same time as Lorenzo. Theo stumbled forwards but it wasn’t enough for him to fall. He regained his footing and kept going.
“Wow, not going to tell us what happened?” Pansy called after him.
Theo kept going. So the group looked to you.
“Any idea?” Pansy asked.
“No clue,” you said, hoping you conveyed more confusion than you felt.
Theo clearly didn’t like you dancing with that boy, based on what was said. You didn’t know why. Theo wasn’t your boyfriend. He was just a life-long friend. But he had said that he was worse, worse than being your boyfriend. You didn’t know what he meant by that.
Possibly your brother?
You didn’t necessarily like that thought. Then your brother was one of your best friends and extremely fit and, more times than you’d like to admit, in your dreams.
As you walked back with Daphne and Pansy at your side and watching Theo stalk ahead of the whole group, you thought more about Theo. He was your first real crush. He wasn’t some famous actor or singer or other celebrity. He wasn’t a hot employee at a cafe you frequented that you could dream about while knowing there was only a fraction of a chance of it happening. Theo was real. He was close. He was an almost.
If cards were played differently… If he drew your hair tie for seven minutes in heaven or spun the bottle your direction… If you played strip poker rather than exploding snap… Maybe…
But it didn’t so you weren’t and you were dating someone else. An older boy who had actually asked. Someone who made a move. Except Cormac wasn’t really a man of action anymore. It was almost as difficult to get a “No” or “I’m busy” out of him as a commitment to do anything.
Once you were back at the dorms, Theo didn’t go inside. He stepped off to the side and lit a cigarette.
“Night, ladies,” Mattheo said, joining him.
Everyone else went inside. You went with Daphne and Pansy into their dorm while the rest of the boys started a new card game.
“So the anger issues are new,” Mattheo said after his second drag. With the group gone, he felt they could talk.
“I don’t have anger issues.”
“And my father isn’t a murderer.”
Theo took a drag to give him time before he responded.
“I just lost control for a second. I’m fine,” he said with too much conviction.
“What’d the bloke do?”
A pause.
“Nott?”
“Riddle?”
“What’d he do?”
Theo didn’t say anything. Mattheo didn’t push. Not even as Theo flicked away his butt and lit another.
“He needed to be punched,” he finally said.
“I don’t doubt that,” Mattheo chuckled with a shake of his head. “But why’d you do it?”
Theo didn’t answer again.
“Okay. So, when did you start fighting McLaggen’s battles for him?” Mattheo asked.
The subtle shift in Theo’s demeanor told Mattheo he was dead on.
“I don’t,” Theo growled.
“Then what’s with punching the bloke dancing with his girlfriend?”
Nothing.
“He cancelled, right? They didn’t break up?”
“He’s a bloody shitshow.”
“Uh-huh. Go on,” Mattheo said with a wave of his hand.
Theo paused. “There’s nothing more to say. He was a proper twat who needed to be punched and McLaggen wasn’t around to do it, so I made sure it got done.”
“So there’s nothing… No other reason you punched him? All just taking care of business?”
Theo flicked his cigarette. “Yes.”
Mattheo dropped it for the time being. Theo was mentally hitting himself for being so obvious.
That night didn’t change anything. Life continued the same as ever. Going to class, studying in the library, returning to your dorm at night, and seeing Cormac whenever he made time for you.
You made plans with him to hang out after his last class. Your last class was before then, so you were passing the time in Theo’s room. You attempted to work on assignments, but that led to you ranting about your Muggle Studies’ professor. Theo liked to remind you that you chose to study that subject.
“It’s not the subject that I mind. It’s the professor,” you said in a huff. “It’s really fascinating what muggles have done without magic. Need I remind you that muggles invented that device you’re currently using?”
Theo looked back at his phone and shrugged. “Doesn’t mean the study of them isn’t boring. I’m sure lots of important stuff happened in history but you won’t see me taking that class.”
“Binns really lost us with that class, didn’t he,” you laughed before your previously sour expression returned as you refocused on your notes. “But if I have to teach myself another chapter, then I’m asking for a refund for this class. It’s ridiculous.”
A few minutes passed. Your phone rang and with a quick glance at it, you answered it.
“Hey, Cormac,” you said.
“Where are you?”
“My friend’s room. Why?”
“Did you forget I was coming over?”
You frowned. “You have class until 4:30 and it’s-“ You paused as you pulled your phone away from your face to check the time. “-3:15. Are you calling me from class?”
“I’m in your room? Class got cancelled.”
“My room? How did you get in?” you asked, sitting up straight.
“I think her name’s Astoria?”
“Uh, alright,” you sighed. “Give me a minute and I’ll be right over.”
You hung up and then gave Theo a forced smile. “Guess I’m heading out early. See you later?”
“Yeah. Later.”
You ignored Theo’s tone. You knew he wasn’t a fan of Cormac and he never tried to hide it. You didn’t think about it often, but Theo didn’t really like any of your previous boyfriends. You swore it was an overprotective best friend thing. He just really, really didn’t like Cormac. Nor did he like being ditched for Cormac.
Later that week, Cormac told you he’d take out for dinner, someplace fancy to make up for something or another. It always seemed like he was making something up to you. So once again, you were sitting on the couch in the common area, scrolling on your phone as you waited for him. At least he had texted you that he was on his way to pick you up. You really should know better by now. Some excuse is bound to light up your phone and then you’ll be ordering delivery because you can’t be arsed to go to the cafeteria.
Theo walked out from his dorm with the intention of going to said cafeteria. At least until he say you and the slight frown that was etched onto your face more often than not. Unlike you, he did know better.
“Pizza or Chinese?” he asked.
“We’re going to a Mexican place,” you said. Your finger paused mid-swipe as you gave Theo a weak smile.
He plopped down unceremoniously on the couch next to you and threw his arm loosely around your shoulder.
“And when your shitshow of a boyfriend cancels again, what do you want?”
You exhaled heavily through your nose. “Chinese. Extra sauce.”
“I know.”
Your smile grew slightly. Besides the fact that your order hadn’t changed in years, it was nice that Theo knew. He remembered. He probably knew you’d pick Chinese but still gave you an option. Cormac had simply chosen the restaurant.
Part of you thought that you had a better time with Theo than you would’ve if Cormac hadn’t cancelled. Chances are you would’ve ended up fighting over something stupid. That was also becoming as common as him canceling the dates he suggested and planned in the first place.
It was an evening when you hadn’t even tried to make plans with Cormac. You were just going to have a good time with your friends. You weren’t going out. Someone brought out some drinks and snacks. Between your group and other people living in Slytherin, there were three card games going, a game of truth or dare, and a drinking game you didn’t care for.
You were sitting next to Daphne as she played cards. Lorenzo was making a crude joke. You looked down to check your phone, hoping that maybe Cormac had sent you a text or a snapchat, anything really to prove he was thinking about you. No notification, but you went to check the apps individually. He had posted to his Snapchat story.
You shouldn’t have opened it.
“Fuck me sideways,” you muttered before tossing your phone to the side with far more force than necessary.
There was an audible shattering sound.
The room stilled momentarily before crescendoing back to its original volume. Daphne could feel the tense irritation radiating off of you but she made no comment.
It was Theo who took action. Of course it was him.
“Repairo,” he cast, pointing his wand at your phone but leaving it where it was.
He thought you didn’t need to keep scrolling and refreshing apps to see what your sorry excuse of a boyfriend was up to. Everyone knew that’s what you saw without seeing it for themselves: Cormac was with another girl and they were posting about it for you to see.
Your mood was ruined. Those sitting directly around you felt it and they walked on eggshells all night to not make it worse. You stayed sitting by Daphne. Theo watched you carefully from where he sat. He wasn’t sure how much longer you’d last in the common area. He got up and fetched your phone for you.
“Movie?” he asked as he held out your phone.
You nodded and the two of you went back to his dorm. No one ever whispered about it. No one speculated about what went on between you two. It was far too common knowledge that you were life long best friends and when you needed to cool off, you went to him.
Theo immediately fell onto his bed, reaching for the remote. Sometimes you laid next to him. His shoulder made a great pillow when you were sleepy enough. This time you sat on the floor with your back against his bed. He picked a movie, one he’d seen before but was positive you hadn’t. To be fair, that category had a lot of movies in it.
He lasted fifteen minutes before the question that was eating him alive fought its way out of him.
“Amore.”
“Theodore.”
“Can I ask you something?”
Theo only prefaced his questions with that if he was about to irritate you. He knew it, as well as he knew you. Assuming he wasn’t an idiot, you guessed at what he wanted.
“No, you can’t have my Transfiguration essay for Draco to copy.”
“Don’t need your essay. He already has mine,” Theo said with a huff of a laugh. He paused. Then, “Why’re you still with McLaggen?”
He was an idiot. But you still sat up and turned so you could see him.
“What do you mean?”
“He’s a fucking shitshow and you deserve better.”
Straight to the point. That’s how you knew he wasn’t messing around. There was no flowery language, no beating around the bush; he was looking straight in the eye.
“Wow, thanks, Theo. Tell me how you really feel,” you said dryly with an eye roll. You turned back to watch the movie.
“I’m just saying. He cancels on you all the time. He lets other girls crawl over him. He posts about. Bastard doesn’t even have the decency to do it in private. From where I sit, you’re begging for his attention and he’s treating you like a second thought, if that.”
“Thought about this, have you?” you snapped bitterly. Then you added, “What’s it to you anyways?”
I’m in love with you was what Theo wanted to say. He wanted to whisk you away from that asshole so that you could know what it was to be so very loved and adored in a way that a friend couldn’t. However, it was a delicate situation. He was well aware of how it could all backfire. So he took the safe route.
He shrugged and said, “I’m your friend. Jus’ think you’d be happier with someone who actually gave you the light of day.” Another pause. “I told you, you deserve better.”
“Right.”
You slouched more against his bed. He didn’t say anything more. He knew you well enough to know when he needed to shut his mouth if he valued his life. Besides, he had brought it to your attention and now, you were thinking about it.
You did deserve better. You thought so every time Cormac ditched you for something, or someone, else. Then you would think that maybe you didn’t deserve better because you’d caught yourself more than once thinking about Theo in ways that you shouldn’t. Especially when you caught yourself doing it when it was just you and Cormac.
Less than a week went by before you threw your phone again. Your friends all stared for a moment, like last time. And then they went on as if nothing happened, like last time. And like last time, Theo didn’t just let it be.
He got up and picked up your phone.
“Repairo.”
That wasn’t new. He always fixed it for you, even though you were perfectly capable of casting the simple spell. This time he didn’t hand it back right away. His fingers moved across the screen. Then he held it out for you to take.
It was open to your text conversation with Cormac. A message was typed but not sent.
<we’re done>
Simple. Succinct.
You looked at Theo with a melancholy expression.
“I’d block his number too and unfollow him on everything.”
Daphne, who was sitting next to you again, stared at Theo shocked. Everyone knew that you and Cormac couldn’t last, but they all assumed you’d grow tired of his behavior. They never thought that someone else would have to suggest that you break up with him.
Your eyes flicked between Theo and the message he had typed.
You hit the send button. Within seconds, your phone started ringing and Cormac’s face stared up at you. At least, it did until you sent it flying across the room with a yelp. All of your friends had gone silent and were either staring at you, your still-ringing phone, or going between the two.
The ringing paused momentarily. Presumably your voicemail greeting was telling Cormac to leave a message and you’d listen to it in 3-5 business days, responses not guaranteed. Then it started ringing again.
“Do you want me to…” Theo asked you in a low voice with a barely-there gesture towards your phone.
You nodded. Part of you assumed he was just going to get it for you. You didn’t expect him to silence the call and then unlock your phone. Unlocking your phone wasn’t really an issue. Everyone in the group knew your password was your birthday. Then he started blocking Cormac everywhere. His number. Instagram. Facebook. Twitter. WhatsApp. Snapchat. VSCO. Even his email. If there was a way for him to contact you via that phone, Theo was removing the older boy.
Then he went back into your contacts and found his own name.
/id treat you better/ he typed in the notes under his contact. Then he closed out of the app, reopened messages, and gave you your phone back.
“Didn’t break this time. I think that’s a first.”
You made a weak noise that might’ve been a laugh. You took your phone back and tucked it into your pocket. Theo sat on the armrest of the couch.
“Well? Carry on,” he said.
Lorenzo cleared his throat. “Did you see that Hannah Abbott’s trying to sell some of the stuff she grows? And it’s, uh, heh, not for potion making.”
“Doesn’t she need a permit or something for that?” Daphne asked, and conversation took over the group.
You were no longer the center of attention. You sank deeper into the couch. You kept glancing at your phone, expecting Cormac’s name to appear. It never did. He was blocked. Theo reached over and comfortingly rubbed your back. He saw you turn your phone over and over in your hands and the way your eyes looked down every time it was screen-side up.
After a while, you set your phone down and got fully immersed in the conversation. You were laughing and snarking off like usual. Theo relaxed. Eventually he got tired of being around people so he headed back to his dorm, and, not surprisingly, you weren’t far behind.
You knocked on his door before opening it.
“Hey, d’you mind if I-“ you started to ask.
“Like I’d say no,” Theo said.
He was already laying on his bed shirtless as if talking off his shirt had been the first thing he did when he got back. It was, but that wasn’t here nor there. When you followed Theo, you also didn’t want to be in the big group; however, you also didn’t want to be alone. Your roommate, Millicent, was probably in your dorm already since she didn’t really socialize with the group much. She didn’t count as company. Not in your mind. Not when your other option was Theo.
“I don’t want to be alone,” you said quietly.
“I know.”
Theo scooted over to make room for you. You climbed onto his bed and snuggled into his side so that he’d place his arm around you protectively. He did. Sometimes you hated how well he treated you when you were only friends. How were you supposed to find someone better than him?
Your phone started to ring and Theo felt you tense. You were shocked for a moment that it wasn’t Cormac. Then you remembered he was blocked.
“Millie?” you asked, answering the call.
“Hey, um, where are you?”
“Theo’s room. Why?”
You figured she had looked in the common area for you. You partially assumed that she locked herself out again.
“Your boyfriend’s here and he wants to talk to you.”
You frowned. “Ex-boyfriend,” you corrected. “Just tell him to leave.”
“Can’t.”
“Can’t?”
“Might want to tell Nott to lock his door.”
The call ended. You looked up at Theo.
“Can we lock your door?”
“What for?” As if he hadn’t been able to hear the entire conversation.
“Corma-“
There was pounding on the door.
“Heh.” Theo got up and opened the door. He stood in the gap so that Cormac couldn’t enter nor see you. “Can I help you, mate? I’m trying to study.”
“I want to talk to my girlfriend,” Cormac said in as gruff of a voice as he could manage.
His meager attempt to intimidate Theo only made him smile. He leaned his weight on the side of the door and put his other hand in his pocket. Theo was an image of cool, calm and casual.
“Sorry? Last I checked you didn’t have a girlfriend?”
“I know she’s in there, Nott. I need to talk to her.”
“Oh, it’s a need now? Interesting.”
“How about you butt out of my relationship and let me speak to my girlfriend?”
“Since there’s no girlfriend, there’s no relationship to butt out of,” Theo said. “You found your way into the building. How ‘bout you find your way out, hmm?”
Then he closed the door and locked it, immediately followed by an anti-alohamora charm.
“He wants to talk,” you said in a soft voice.
“Don’t you even think about giving him the light of day.”
“He came all the way here… so he must actually care about me.”
“No, he cares about not controlling you. Not having you at his fucking beck and call. If he actually cared about you, he wouldn’t be posting bitches on his story and blowing you off every week.”
“Theo-“
“You deserve someone who sees your worth,” he said. He paused as his stomach clenched. “Like I do.”
It wasn’t a declaration of love but to Theo, it felt like it. For better or for worse, you interpreted it as him being your best friend and standing by that title.
“I think you put me on a pedestal, Theo,” you said.
“It’s where you belong.”
He said it just a little too earnestly, like he meant it more than anything.
“Theo.” Your tone was serious.
He sighed and sat on the bed next to you.
Then it fell out of his mouth.
“You need someone who loves you like I love you.”
You shifted slightly. “I mean, with that logic, I need someone who loves me more.”
You felt stupid saying it. It sounded stupid coming out of your mouth. You cringed. You were about to stand up, tell Theo to forget about it, and leave the room.
Then his lips were on yours and his hand was cupping your face.
“There’s no one who loves you more.”
Hi! from honeypot anon 🍯,
thank you for always answering my requests and ramblings with such thoughtfulness, and I hope that asking this isn't too weird, but I was wondering if u got my response to ur hobbies answer? I send so much that I totally don't expect a response— but was wondering if I ever finished my message and sent it since i wanted to make sure i wasn’t accidentally being rude!!
Hi!
I think so? I don’t fully remember 😅 but I feel like you did send something.
If someone sends something in and I don’t know how to respond, I give it some time to see if something comes to me and if nothing does, I usually delete it.
Even if you didn’t send it, I wasn’t thinking you were rude! I don’t expect a response all the time!
Pls never be discouraged from sending stuff to me ❤️
tysm for answering my request it was really good & funny!!
Im so glad you enjoyed it ❤️❤️
Hiii this is not an all this is just a rant
Ughhh I read dress
I loved it I love the way you write anyways
I'm mad at myself cause me and my bestfriend have kissed too twice
He offered to be my first kiss
But like he says he doesn't like me and never has
But he calls me everyday now
I dont know what to do
There's so much history here idk I feel so lost
I'll tell you more if you're interested 😭
I was planning to write Remus x reader to deal with my confusion and panic
Should I still write this? Idk I just wanna have a place where I'm venting and sorting things out
Please write 🙏 and tag me!
Also I have so many questions for your friend. Like who offers to be your first kiss and then says they have zero feelings for you and never have???
That just seems like such a romcom/fanfic thing to do, you know? And then it always ends with them getting together.
Vent/rant to me all you want bc I find this interesting af.
hey! my plea for a roommate james fic, where u r hoping that he’ll leave the apartment when u have a guy coming over to hang out, and he was going to anyways bc he had plans, but once he overhears what's really going on, he decides to be a little shit, and plant himself in the apartment. I could totally see him using the different annoying tactics of ‘dropping by to bring snacks’ or giving this guy the shovel talk 🙈
Hi! We love roommate fics - 10/10 ❤︎ I will say, I did only use the two examples you gave me and there is far more lead up than there needs to be. But I feel like that's my style? You can't just be roommates with James. There has to be a why. ❤︎
ANYWHOO
Hope y'all enjoy some silly James fluff ❤︎ ❤︎ ❤︎
Friend's Brother's Friend's Friend
James Potter x fem!reader
3.7k words
cw: strangers-friends-to-lovers, fluff, no y/n, James is a lil shit (tm)
Through poor timing and the disaster that is England’s housing market, you found yourself looking for a roommate. You had been living with friends since moving out on your own. The first one moved in with her boyfriend. The second got a job in Scotland and had to move. The third ran through her money and moved back in with her parents.
You asked everyone you knew if they knew anyone looking for a place. You could handle rent for a few months by yourself but you simply could not afford to do so forever. Not unless your boss was suddenly feeling generous.
Two weeks passed and you weren’t feeling hopeful. Until a text came through from your friend’s brother. Her brother knew a guy who was friends with a guy looking for a place and said the guy didn’t mind if he was living with a girl.
“Not an ax murderer?” you texted.
“I’ve never met him. Charlie says they’re good people,” your friend responded.
“Get his email. I’ll send him stuff.”
You didn’t vet this “James Potter” very much. Charlie was a decent judge of character. After hearing back from James and getting some logistics handled, he started asking how soon he could move in. You didn’t actually meet him until he was moving in and you were handing him the key.
Maybe you should’ve asked for a picture of him beforehand. You wouldn’t have changed your allowing him to live with you if he was unattractive, but you could’ve prepared for how attractive he was.
After a week of living together, you came to the conclusion that James was going to be a good flatmate as long as you continued living together. He was very respectful and caught onto your routine fairly quickly. He was friendly but not overly intrusive. Even though he didn’t have to, he’d let you know when he was going to be out late, so that if you heard someone coming in the door at 2 a.m., you’d know it was him.
After some more time passed, he asked if he could invite some friends over. You stared at him for a few moments.
“You know you live here too, right?”
“Yeah but so do you. If you’d rather we don’t hang out here, I won’t offer our place.”
You weren’t sure if you would’ve asked if you were planning on inviting friends over. Although previously it had always been another one of your friends who you lived with. This was new territory.
“Well, go ahead. I’ll try to stay out of your way,” you said.
He laughed and smiled at you in a way that felt like sunshine.
“You don’t need to, if you want. You’re more than welcome to join us. I promise they’re a good bunch.”
“Okay.”
That’s all you said. It was almost amusing how people kept describing that group as good people. It wasn’t exactly reassuring though. Wouldn’t everyone describe their friends as good? But then again, if they weren’t solidly good people, he might not have said you were welcome to join them.
You weren’t sure if you were going to. Really, you had already decided that you weren’t going to. It was James’ home as much as yours and you didn’t want to impose.
You were in your room when everyone started showing up, as you could tell through the sounds of the door opening and closing and additional voices. When you got up to get a snack from the kitchen, you had to walk by the group. They were scattered around the living room. Some people sitting on the floor, some on furniture, and two standing, one leaning against the wall and another leaning over the couch. You hadn’t been expecting such a large group.
You also hadn’t been expecting all of them to be looking at you. You unknowingly halted all conversation with the opening of your door, even with James hissing “Don’t!” at the entire group.
You gave them a short, tight-lipped smile before hurrying into the kitchen. James, slightly mortified, jumped up as Lily followed you.
“Hi!” the redhead said, making you jump.
“Hi,” you replied. You wouldn’t be impolite to James’ friends. “Did you need a drink or something?”
“Oh, no. Thank you, love.” She smiled at you as you glanced over your shoulder at her from where you stood by the fridge. “I was actually hoping you’d join us out here! If you’re not too busy doing… whatever you’re doing right now.”
“I… I don’t know. I was kind of settling-“
“So you aren’t busy? Fantastic! I think we’re about to play two truths and a lie if you’re game. Or you could just hang out. You don’t have to play, obviously. Although it’d be bloody fantastic if you did.”
“Lily.”
James stepped into the kitchen. He gave you an apologetic smile as he ran a hand through his hair.
“What?” Lily asked, crossing her arms and straightening her back. She had such a confident air about her that seemed to challenge James.
“You know what.”
She sighed, rolled her eyes and left the kitchen. But not before telling you, “You really should play.”
James let a few seconds pass. It was now just the two of you in the kitchen.
“Don’t feel like you have to,” he said quietly. He knew everyone would be trying to hear what he was saying. “They just want to meet the poor girl who actually agreed to live with me.”
“Is there some horrible secret I haven’t discovered yet?”
“Some of them think so, but I’m lost on it.”
You nodded.
“Right.”
He didn’t leave the kitchen. You had your snack halfway prepared on the counter, but he was hoping you would come out to the living room. He had a feeling you’d really like his friends, and them you. That way he’d feel even less like he’d be taking over your space when he had friends over. James just wanted all of his friends to be friends.
“Hang around for one game? And if you don’t want to stay longer, just leave and I’ll make sure everyone leaves you alone?” James offered.
He hoped it was a good compromise. His friends could get a taste of who you were and then he could deal with them later. He liked living in this flat with you. He’d be damned if they messed it up by being weird.
“Yeah, okay,” you sighed.
You followed James out and once the group realized you weren’t leaving for your room, they cheered.
“Sirius, you go first,” Lily said.
Several people went, with James leaning over to say people’s names as they went. It didn’t take long until you were laughing uncontrollably with them. You weren’t comfortable enough to have a turn yourself, but you had a good time.
You didn’t realize how easy it was to be James’ friend, not how quickly he took to you. The “new roommate” feeling left the airport not long after the first time his friends came over. They often came over, albeit smaller groups. Whenever you and James ended up in the kitchen or living room or at the table together, you talked about anything and everything.
You were still thrown for a loop when he came out of his room looking semi-dressed up. It was not his work attire, but he was clearly going somewhere nice. However, he was only wearing a white t-shirt with two shirts in his hands. He held them up once he saw you.
“Which one goes better with these shoes?”
“Hmm?” you hummed.
“I thought the green one was nice, but I don’t know. And I trust your fashion sense more than the boys.”
You bit the inside of your cheek as you scanned the shirts.
“Where are you going?” you asked.
“Laney’s, that new lunch place off Trinity Place. Mum’s been dying to go.”
You nodded. You had heard of it.
“Blue one. It’s a bit dressier.”
James returned your nod, tossed the green shirt back in his room and put on the blue shirt. You didn’t mention that the blue shirt would also bring out his eyes more. You half assumed he already knew that.
Days later, he was yelling down the hall, “D’you want spaghetti with chicken or meatballs?”
You didn’t answer right away. You had to assess the situation.
“Made too many noodles. Figured you could use dinner too,” James said when you stepped into the kitchen.
“Oh, okay,” you said before giving your answer.
That was only the beginning of James randomly cooking for you. Some weeks he did it more than others. But it was nice. He was a great cook. He stopped saying he made too much of something and just cooked. When he did cook, you’d eat together and he’d ask about your day.
Sometimes it all felt straight up domestic, but it was platonic. Completely. Fully. Platonic.
Besides being one of the hottest people you’d ever seen and an overall great guy, he was your flatmate. It’d be too weird to get a crush on your flatmate. Especially when you knew he couldn’t possibly like you back.
You also weren’t going to hold out for James. It felt silly, given you had a guy who you knew liked you back. Nick. You met him in a cafe a couple of months ago. You’d met up and gone on dates in public, and now you were going to invite him over. It was a big step.
You weren’t sure what Nick would think of you currently living with a guy. He might see it was a weird situation. You tried to clean up the flat a bit.
“You doing anything on Thursday?” you asked James as you cleaned.
“Drinks with the boys. Thirsty Thursday, you know?” He paused. “Why? You want to come with?” The gears in his brain immediately started turning. “I could invite Lily, or Dorcas and Marls? That way you wouldn’t-“
“Oh, no! No thank you,” you said interrupting him. “I was just curious.”
“Just curious” was enough for James for two days. He had absolutely no reason to think otherwise until he heard it.
It was an accident. He didn’t means to eavesdrop, but your door was open a crack and he was going to ask if you had an opinion on dinner.
“Nick is going to come over,” James heard you say. There was some silence. “Yeah, he’a the muggle.” More silence. “James is going out so it’ll be just me ‘n’ him. I haven’t told him my flatmate’s a bloke. I don’t know if he’ll think it’s weird or whatever.”
The next bit of silence felt louder to James. You were going to alone with some muggle in the flat? Yes, you were an adult, a witch more than capable of handling herself and a muggle. Still, something felt wrong to James about this “Nick.”
“They stay out late, and sometimes he crashes at his friends’ place. It’ll be fine.” Silence. “Alright. See you later.”
James turned around and booked it to the kitchen. If there was any chance you’d come out of your room and see him standing there, he wasn’t going to risk it. But once in the kitchen, he took out his phone to text Remus and Sirius.
<cant make it 2morrow. srry>
His phone buzzed five minutes later with Sirius calling him lame, but James didn’t care. He wasn’t going to leave you alone with Nick.
The next day, you got confused when James came out of his room after dinner, wearing sweats and a t-shirt.
“I thought you left already?” you said. You hoped you didn’t sound panicked but Nick was supposed to arrive in a few minutes and James was still here. He wasn’t supposed to be here.
“Oh, Sirius is sick so I’m staying in,” he said casually. “You look nice. Going out?”
You did look nice. You had put together an outfit that was casual and relaxed but in a way that, at least to James, was obvious that you put in effort to look that way. It wasn’t your going out look, and James knew that.
You shook your head. “I actually have someone coming over.”
“You do?”
“Yeah. He’s supposed to be here any minute now.”
“He? You invited a boy over to our flat?” James teased.
“You’re welcome to have girls over, if you want,” you said.
James just smiled at you. “Noted. Well, I’ll try to stay out of your hair tonight.”
You internally sighed a breath of relief. James went to grab something from the kitchen and then he went back to his room, with the door closed. Nick arrived shortly after.
“You look lovely,” Nick said after you let him in.
“Thank you,” you said. “Movie sound good?”
You hadn’t actually discussed what you were going to do tonight. It really was just to hang out, you supposed.
“Yeah. You got one picked out?” he asked.
“I got options.”
You led him to the living room and showed him some of the newer movies you had gotten. You talked about some of the movies you’ve seen recently. He picked a comedy.
“We can watch that one after if we’re feeling it,” Nick said, pointing to the horror option you had.
The romantic opportunities flitted through your mind. One whole movie to get comfortable and then another that made it acceptable to curl into his side. One thing could definitely lead to another if you played your cards right.
You put the movie into the DVD player. You and Nick got comfortable on the couch with a blanket over both of you. It wasn’t quite cuddly. There was just enough space to tempt you.
James heard the sound of the TV and he recognized the opening song of the movie. You had watched it last weekend. He thought it was a bit funny that you were already watching it again. He managed to stay in his room for ten minutes; then he was sneaking into the kitchen.
Crisps? Popcorn? Cookies? What would be the least romantic snack to bring out?
James wiped his hands on his sweats and turned around. Popcorn was too noisy. Two bowls of crisps. Yes, two bowls. One bowl could lead to hand touching and then hand holding. You holding hands with Nick would only give the guy ideas. James wasn’t here for that.
“How’s the movie?” James asked, bowls in hand, as he walked up behind the couch.
Both you and Nick flinched before looking back over the film. You had vastly different expressions. Nick was absolutely baffled at why another guy was here and you looked borderline furious. What was James doing?
“It’s good,” you said.
“Got you guys some crisps. Movies snack,” he said, holding out the bowls.
“Thanks,” Nick said tentatively. “Um, who are you?”
James smiled. “Her roommate.”
Nick’s eyes flicked to you momentarily and then he echoed, “Roommate.”
“Moved in a bit ago, yeah.”
Nick hummed. He gave James a quick once over and turned back around. You could see that his demeanor had changed. This is why you didn’t want James to be here tonight; this could have been avoided and you could’ve eased Nick into the concept of James.
“Thanks for the snacks,” you said.
You hoped James would go back to his room. He said he was going to stay out of your way for the night so why wasn’t he leaving? He leaned against the wall with his eyes on the screen.
“James,” you hissed.
You jerked your head toward the hallway to your rooms, but he shook his head and waved his hand dismissively. James thought he’d supervise for a few minutes. Then he’d leave you alone. He just needed to be sure that Nick wasn’t going to try anything as soon as he left the room.
Groaning internally, you turned back around and attempted to save the night by scooting closer to Nick. It was like he read your mind. Nick wrapped his arm around your shoulder. You could practically feel him relaxing as you seemingly picked him over James.
It made the other boy’s blood run hot.
This was what he was trying to prevent!
He stood in the living room until he couldn’t take the sight anymore. He figured that if he couldn’t prevent cheesy moves being used on you in your own flat, he could prevent your heart from getting broken. James planned to talk to Nick. He just needed to figure out when. Based on that interaction, you wouldn’t like him talking to Nick so you’d have to be out of the room.
A while later, James heard your voice in the hallway.
“-use the toilet. Should be more crisps in kitchen, if you want. Or you can see if we have anything else you want.”
Fate was on James’ side, he decided as he listened for the sound of a door closing. Then he moved quickly. While girls usually took longer using the toilet, he didn’t have all day.
“D’you mind if I open-“ Nick started to ask before noticing it wasn’t you who entered the kitchen. “It’s you again.”
“I do live here, mate.”
“As she failed to mention.”
James perked up at the slight bitterness in his voice.
“Anyways,” he said, dragging out the word as he moved past Nick to the other side of the kitchen. “You better not hurt her.”
Nick turned, following James’ direction. “What gives you the impression I intend to?”
Instead of answering, James just gestured to all of Nick, and then he said, “She’s bloody fantastic and deserves the world. I could see you… left in a back alley somewhere.”
“Back alley?” Nick scoffed.
James hummed and grabbed an apple from the counter.
“Right…”
Then James was straightening his back to stand at his full height. He moved to stand very close to Nick.
“If she sheds a single tear, if I hear you’ve raised your voice at her, merlin forbid a hand, it’ll be me putting you in that alley,” James said, voice low yet steady. He followed it with a large bite of the apple.
The sound of a door opening split through the tension James had purposefully created. James took that as his cue to leave. He clapped Nick on the back.
“Good chat.”
James smiled as he passed you in the hallway. You gave him a curious look. What was he doing out of his room again?
When you got to the kitchen, Nick was putting on his coat.
“Oh, are we not… are we not watching the other movie?” you asked.
“I, ugh, got… a text from my… mum. She needs me.”
It was obvious he was lying. You crossed your arms and tried to not look hurt by it.
“Right. Okay,” you said with a nod. “I’ll see you later then?”
“Yeah, maybe,” Nick said before heading to the door. Then he looked over his shoulder and added, “You should talk to your roommate.”
You stood in the kitchen for what felt like ten minutes. Just standing. Maybe if you stood there long enough, it would start to make sense. The first movie had been good. Nick had been laughing. He had his arm around you. It was comfortable. At least you thought it was. Had James really made him that uncomfortable?
“Potter?” you asked the darkness of the hallway.
A faint light told you his door was open. He could definitely hear you.
“Yup?” he called from his room.
You walked down the hall slowly. You pushed his door open to see him sitting at his desk. He had a quidditch magazine in front of him, but it was closed. He wasn’t reading it. He wasn’t even pretending to.
“Uh, what happened to staying out of my hair tonight?”
James gave his best attempt at a forced confused expression and failed miserably.
“What do you mean?”
“You know damn well what I mean,” you snapped. “Two bowls of crisps? And then watching the movie!”
“I didn’t watch the whole thing.”
It was a pitiful defense and he knew it.
“What did you say to him? I thought I had rebounded from your appearance and then my date leaves, telling me to talk to you?”
“What did you have to rebound for?” James asked, purposefully not answering your question.
“For you!” you sighed dramatically. “Just about any bloke I bring back is going to have some kind of feelings about me living with the fittest guy they’ve ever seen!”
That was exactly what he needed to hear. James grinned widely and ran a hand through his hair.
“So you’re saying the fittest bloke poor Nick’s ever seen was just making sure you don’t end up heart broken?” he asked with far too much smugness in his voice.
“You what?”
“Told ‘im that if he hurt you, I’d leave him to rot in an alley.”
You stared at him dumbfounded. It took you a few moments to find your voice and form a coherent thought.
“Because that’s something roommates do?” You were exasperated so sarcasm surfaced as defense.
You took a step back as James stood up. It did nothing. He took a step towards you and you backed into the doorframe.
“It is when one roommate realizes he should be the only one kissing the other roommate.”
“What?”
The gasp of disbelief was a mixture of thoughts. He couldn’t be serious. You didn’t randomly admit that to people. There was no way it was true, either. James didn’t think about kissing you. You were just the random girl who happened to have a room available and connect with him through friends of friends. This couldn’t be real. If anything, it was a very, very cruel prank.
“Nick hasn’t kissed me,” you said after James didn’t say anything.
“Can I kiss you?” he asked in a soft voice.
You should’ve been furious. James ruined your date when he didn’t even know how you felt about him. He chased off a perfectly good guy.
You should not have been nodding. But you were.
James grabbed your waist tenderly and pulled you closer to him before allowing himself to press his lips to yours.
So maybe Nick had a point when he said to talk to your roommate.
tags: @navs-bhat, @faceache111
Dress (Taylor Swift)
Remus Lupin x fem!reader
3.3k words
cw: fluff, drinking, friends-to-lovers (speedrun), no y/n, reader and Remus are pining idiots
“I think I’m going to get something new,” you said casually as you walked with Lily through the mall.
“New?” she repeated. “What’s the occasion?”
The two of you walked into a store you both liked.
“Does there have to be an occasion for me to buy something?”
“Yes.”
“That’s definitive.”
“When was the last time you got something new?”
“Your birthday, remember?”
Lily laughed. “That wasn’t new! Marlene was going to throw it away! You didn’t buy it from a store!”
“You said got something new. I got it. It was new to me,” you said with a shrug. You flipped through the shirts hanging on the wall. “But I just feel like my wardrobe could use a little refresh.”
Lily didn’t look convinced. As you wandered the store, she kept glancing at you as if whatever items you decided to try on would clue her in. She knew it in her bones that you didn’t think your wardrobe needed to be updated. You were looking because of something specific.
Your phone chirped and you pulled it out of your pocket to read the text. You smiled as you typed a response.
“Who you textin’?”
“Remus.”
The lightbulb went off in her head.
“Correct me if I’m wrong, but are we shopping because of what Sirius sent in the groupchat?”
You kept your eyes glued to your phone.
“What’d he send?” you asked.
You knew what he sent and Lily was right. You just didn’t want to give her the immediate satisfaction of being right and then having to explain yourself.
“Oh, you know, just that Lupin promises to come tonight since he’s been gone for like a month.”
“Two and a half,” you corrected.
It was automatic. Your face burned and Lily’s lips stretched into a wide grin.
“It is because of that!” she gasped. “You’re shopping for Remus!”
You kept walking and flipping through shirts and dresses and pants and skirts. It wasn’t like you could truthfully deny her claim. You hadn’t seen the boy you’ve been pining for for two and a half months and you wanted to try to catch his eye. So what?
“So you fancy him?” Lily asked, keeping up with you.
You held up a brown top and she pushed your hand back to the rail.
“Do not pick brown. How long have you fancied him?”
“What’s wrong with brown?”
“It’s a neutral. You’ll stand out in the wrong way.” She stood in front of you and crossed her arms. “How long have you liked him?”
“Then I’ll find something better,” you sighed, trying to move past Lily.
You didn’t have a real answer to her question. You didn’t really know when it shifted from loving him as your best friend to wishing it was more. Not that you were actually going to say anything and risk losing him completely. You’d try to get attention here and there, but if he never hinted at returning your feelings, you’d leave it at that.
Part of the issue was that you had kissed. Twice. The first time was at a party. You were playing spin the bottle and it landed on him. It wasn’t the brief kisses that others had just to get it over, nor was it an excuse to start snogging. It was just enough for you to know what his lips felt like.
Nothing came from that. There was minimal awkwardness as if best friends randomly kissed all the time and never talked about it. And it wasn’t for a while after that that you started thinking about it more.
The second kiss was after Hogwarts and both of you were drunk at a bar. That night was more or less a blur. Lily had been there but she went off somewhere with James. Sirius was with some girl he met there. Dorcas and Marlene were also nowhere to be found. It had really dwindled down to the two of you. You were sitting on the same side of a booth as you rambled on about something. Remus had been nursing his drink. He was more than happy to listen to you talk and stare at you. You didn’t notice. You stopped talking to take a sip and some of the liquid remained on your upper lip. Remus couldn’t stop looking at it, and this time you noticed.
“Something wrong with my face?” you had asked.
“I can fix it,” he had said before leaning in to kiss your upper lip.
Then you didn’t let him pull away. You kissed him back in full force and put an arm around his neck. He braced himself with an arm on the table.
Beyond that, you didn’t remember too much of that night. Just the feeling of Remus. At some point you got home, alone, and you and Remus proceeded to not talk about it. You acted completely normal around each other like you hadn’t snogged each other in a way that you’d both be dreaming about for years.
Lily held up a strappy shirt.
“That looks like too much work to put on,” you said.
You kept walking past the shirts on the wall.
“How come I didn’t know you fancied him?” Lily asked, following you.
“It’s more of a wish for a parallel universe, you know? In this reality, I’m just his friend, but in a different one, we’re something more. It’s… a fantasy I can’t get out of my head.”
“So…” She let her voice trail off.
“So I didn’t tell anyone. I mean, come on, Lils. You’re only noticing now?”
“You didn’t say how long it’s been.”
“Some time after fourth year. Fall. If you remember the spin the bottle game?”
“Maybe? I think that was played at every party we went to.”
You shrugged. “You remember it better when your best friend kisses you and then you can’t stop replaying it.”
You and Lily started walking through the dresses. You picked up a few to try on. Lily approved of them before seeing you in them, because what would be the point of trying it on if she hated it. As you walked through the store, Lily was replaying conversations she’d had with Remus in their later years at Hogwarts. Conversations that revolved around you.
The first one had been in sixth year. The two of them had been on Prefect Patrol. Remus had figured that if anyone could help him, it’d be Lily.
“How do I know if a girl I’m friends with likes me as more than that?”
Lily had immediately turned to look at him with wide eyes, but Remus kept his gaze forward.
“It’s not-“ she started to ask.
“No! Oh, Merlin, you’re lovely and all but it’s not-“
“Okay, great. You’re great too. But…”
They chuckled nervously.
“There’s a girl you like. And you’re friends,” Lily said.
“Yes. We go on great. But that’s almost the problem.”
“You get along too well?”
“She’s important to me, Lil. I can’t imagine life without her. What if I try to kiss her and it backfires completely?”
“Has she had a boyfriend?”
“No.”
“Do you know about any crushes, like at all?”
“She thought Fabian Prewett was quite the looker when we were in second year?”
“Okay, but he was so we can’t fault her for that. Um, has she asked you for guy advice?”
“No. I kind of figure she’d ask her girlfriends ‘bout that.”
“I mean, unless she’s flirting with you and you’re missing it, I can’t help you unless you give me a name,” Lily said. “Some girls are very good at hiding it.”
“But if I tell you, are you going to go poking around and give me away? That might be worse than ruining our friendship myself…”
Lily held up her hands. “Don’t tell me then.”
A later discussion would have Remus telling her it was you and giving her permission to do minimal digging. She could not give him away. So she tried. But she never got anything concrete enough to give Remus the green light.
You and Lily had moved into the dressing rooms. It was taking Lily some self control to not text Remus to see if he still liked you.
“So you’ve done years of pining after Lupin and all you’ve had is friendship and one kiss from a party game?” she asked.
There was a prolonged silence as you tried on the first article of clothing you’d grabbed.
“We’ve made out.”
The shirt was not good. You took it off. Lily had climbed the small stool in the corner of her stall to look down at you over the divider.
“You’ve made out?” she gasped loudly.
“Merlin, Lily! Get down!” You held the shirt up to your chest.
“We lived together for seven years. Nothing I ain’t seen,” she said. “Now, explain yourself. What do you mean you’ve made out?”
If this was at Hogwarts, surely Remus would’ve told Lily. Unless it was so horrendous that you both swore to never speak of it again. But here you were, speaking of it.
“Two-ish years ago? We were at the Murky Pond. We both had a bit too much and… yeah.”
Lily got down, changed back into her own clothes and knocked on your door. You sighed before letting her in. She sat down on the stool.
“Drunk or not, he snogged you and you’re wondering if he likes you?”
“We never, you know, talked about it. I don’t even know if he remembers or knew it was me. And again, that was two years ago. Who knows how he feels about me today?”
Lily quickly scanned everything you had brought in. “That one. You’re trying on that one now.”
“Black’s technically a neutral,” you said.
“It’s different and you know it. Put. It. On.”
Once the black dress was on, you had to agree with Lily. It was different. It was certainly better than the brown shirt you had debated earlier. You looked amazing. You tried on everything else you had grabbed, but you ended up buying the black dress. Then you and Lily went back to her place to meet some more friends to get ready for the night.
Thankfully, Lily didn’t say anything to any of your friends as you pregamed. It was one thing for her to know that you harbored feelings for your best friend; it was another for the entirety of the female side of your friend group to know.
The walk to the bar wasn’t long and with the sun still in the sky, it wasn’t a cold walk either. If only it was cold, then you could say your vibrating was shivering, rather than being overly excited to see Remus. Lily was the only one who noticed. She started watching you more closely, trying to see what clues she had missed.
Some of the boys were already there when you arrived. Noticeably missing? Remus.
Lily expected some frown, deflation, sadness, confusion, anything to come from you. Your smile didn’t waver.
“Potter, we brought your girl to you. How about some thank you shots?” you suggested, nudging Lily gently.
“Fine, but next round’s on you,” James said, his trademark easy smile on his face.
“But I brought you Lily!”
“She was coming anyways!”
“All I heard is I’m not paying for the first two rounds,” Peter said. “Let’s go!”
Remus and Sirius didn’t show up until after the first round had been downed. The two of them were greeted with a roar of a cheer.
“Sorry we’re late. Someone forgot how to dress himself,” Sirius said.
“My mum doesn’t care what I wear. You lot do,” Remus said, taking the chair next to you. He leaned over and added, “Hi.”
“So, give us the lowdown. How’s Hope?” Marlene asked.
“Better now,” Remus said, not giving context.
“That’s it? That’s all we get?” James asked. “Give us some details! You’re shite at texting so at least indulge us in person!”
Remus sighed. “What do you want to know?”
“Any pretty ladies there?” Peter asked.
You were caught a little off guard by Peter’s question. Two and a half months was more than enough time to meet someone, or reconnect. You didn’t notice the way Remus tensed and glanced at you.
“Can’t say I was looking.”
Sirius sighed dramatically. “Ugh, boring! So you just took care of your mum the whole time?”
“That is why I went.”
“But you could’ve had fun!”
“We played cards. That was fun.”
“Moony, I love you and only wish you the best, but you are going to die a virgin,” Sirius said. “I need a drink.”
Now that everyone had arrived, the group split up. Most went to the dance floor. Others continued their own conversations at the table you had all claimed.
“Shite at texting?” you laughed.
“The group chat got like 10 texts total,” Remus said nonchalantly.
You stared at him for a moment. “Only ten?”
You had not only received daily texts, per your requirement of a sign of life, but you also still had full conversations with him. You knew service there wasn’t great. That was why some days you only got one text.
“I told you, service wasn’t great. It was better in the neighboring town.”
You smiled and took a sip of your drink that you had gotten after the shots. You didn’t say it, but you wondered if he went to the next town just to text you. That would sure be something if he did.
You talked more about his visit to his mother. He asked how work had been. Then you were laughing. Remus thought you looked as gorgeous as ever.
Just sitting and talking to you, never mind the dress, Remus couldn’t stop thinking about wanting to kiss you and make you his. He knows he already thinks about your two shared kisses more than he should as your friend. He can’t help it. After two and a half months without seeing you, only to come back and see you in that dress, it was taking more control to hold back than ever.
If only he had the courage that he did the night when you were both drunk, he thought to himself.
A little later, Mary grabbed you to bring you to the other side of the bar. Remus watched you go. Part of him felt like he should’ve followed. Wherever you went, he wanted to go, but he stayed seated and swirled his drink. Without you right next to him, the bar suddenly felt too crowded, too sticky, and too loud. At least he could still see you.
He finished his drink and went to get a new one. He figured he would order you one too since the drink you left behind was getting watery. Remus leaned against the counter as he waited.
Lily spotted him and joined him, ordering another drink for herself.
“You should ask her to dance,” Lily said. She had been watching Remus and it was obvious to her that Remus still had feelings for you so she thought she’d nudge him in the right direction.
“Her being…?” he asked, despite knowing exactly who she was talking about - you.
“The girl you’ve been staring at.”
“Lots of guys have been staring at her.”
Remus had eyes. He could see every guy in the room who was checking you out. You looked simply flawless tonight, so really, he couldn’t blame them.
“Lots of guys aren’t her best friend.” Lily twirled some of her hair around her finger. “She wouldn’t say yes to lots of guys. And I’m sure she’d rather dance with you than those skeezes over there.”
“Lily…”
“It’s been years and you’ve done squat. What if she’s waiting on you?” It was a theory, not an outright declaration of the truth. Lily didn’t feel bad about it.
Remus rolled his eyes. “I think I’d realize if my best friend fancied me.”
Despite that, he pushed off the counter and headed in your direction. He wasn’t worried about the drinks. He partially wanted to get away from Lily’s berating, but he also saw Mary walk away from you so you were alone and looking back at the table where he was no longer sitting.
You smiled when you saw him approaching you.
“Remind me what we do at bars,” he said. You both visibly relaxed in each other’s presence.
“Drink.”
“Got that,” he chuckled. “What else?”
“Well, you and me, we talk. Obviously. Others dance.” You gestured to the dance floor. “If you can find Marlene, she’ll shoot pool with you.”
“How about we do something new. Dance with me?”
You scoffed in surprise. “Remus Lupin actually wants to dance? What did they do to you in Wales?”
Boldness struck Remus.
“Taught me that a dress like that deserves to be twirled.”
You smiled at Remus and led him out to the dance floor. He kept a respectable distance at first. Then when the music felt right, he twirled you and he kept you closer to him.
“Have I told you that you look lovely?” he asked over the music.
“Not tonight.”
“You do. Stunning.”
“Why, thank you, good sir,” you said before doing a twirl. “I’d say you cleaned up nicely as well.”
Remus put his hands on your hips. “Yeah, but you always look good.”
He could see the blush blooming in your cheeks. He really hoped it wasn’t from alcohol and dancing, that maybe he had that effect on you. You were hoping that you weren’t blushing too much. You had dressed up for him and he was noticing you, which was the goal, but he was saying that you always look good? That was unexpected. Had he always noticed you?
You kept dancing and he kept his hands on you. You knew that neither of you were drunk drunk. You could maybe be considered tipsy, but Remus had only had one drink as far as you were aware.
His hands were not planted on your hips. It was your waist, your back, your arms, your hands. It was all in a respectful manner, but it felt like too much for just friends.
Then he changed it. His hand caressed your face and then he tilted your chin up so he could kiss you. You didn’t pull away; why would you? It was just like your second kiss with Remus. Except you wouldn’t let it end the same.
When he pulled back, you grabbed his hand and pulled him off the dance floor to somewhere quiet. Also known as, outside.
“We can’t do this again,” you said, which instantly had Remus deflating.
You just kissed him back! You blushed! You complimented him! You had agreed to dance with him, and you didn’t leave him out there!
“Oh.” His voice was quiet.
“We can’t… I need to know.”
He stared at you with a slight frown.
“Need to know?”
“If that means something,” you said, exasperated and turning away from him. “You can’t kiss me like that and then go on like normal, as friends.”
“Wait. Wait a second,” Remus started, but you weren’t done.
“I don’t even know how much you remember of either. But the first time we kissed? Understandable. It was a party game. The second time, we were both sloshed but we still should’ve acknowledged that it happened, you know?”
Remus cut you off by kissing you again. It was brief. He needed to be able to speak.
“I remember them both. I wish I remembered the second better, but that’s what I get for drinking, what, eight shots?” He chuckled. “I remember both. I think about them far more than I should.”
“Why didn’t you say anything?”
“I…” Remus looked down at his hands, rubbing his knuckles. “I didn’t want to risk losing my best friend.” He paused. “You didn’t bring it up either.”
You reached for his hands. You rubbed your thumbs over his knuckles as well.
“I didn’t want to lose my best friend.”
You both looked at your hands and then he threaded his fingers with yours.
“So what now?” Remus asked quietly.
“I think we go back inside and drink to our official relationship. And then later you come back to my place.”
“Just me?”
“Only you.”
Tags: @navs-bhat, @faceache111
Hiii could u write a fic where james is a really good friend, and he introduces you to a friend of his upu hadn't met before, who he neglects to mention or just doesn't know is very hot? At first hes really confused as to why ur acting this way, to then slightly teasing and knowing, to then just straight up jealous- all the stages of pining of ur friend grief 😭
Hi! ❤︎ I hope you don't mind that I went with a college AU. Think of the four houses as like Greek Life houses, based on my minimal experience at an American college. Also the ages and school years aren't clear but whatever. It's fine. We're fine. ❤︎
Hope y'all enjoy ❤︎❤︎❤︎
Magical Woods 102
James Potter x fem!reader, College AU
4k words
cw: friends-to-lovers, little bit of pining, fluff, no y/n
You had never been inside the Gryffindor house. It was one of the four biggest frats on campus and you weren’t really a partier so you had simply never been. Now your first time there wasn’t even for one of their famous parties. You were there to study.
You met James in Magical Woods 101 last year. You became more acquaintances than friends since it was your only class together. Then this term started and you both got schedules into the same Magical Woods 102 class and two of your other classes. You started talking more and that led to you hanging out outside of class and him inviting you to watch his quidditch matches. You had met a few of friends, all of them nice.
Still, it couldn’t prepare you for actually going into the house. You were going to study with James. Usually you studied together at the library or a cafe or outside. You had yet to study where the other actually lived. But James said he had to stay in tonight because of setting a good example for the new pledges or something like that.
You knocked on the door and waited. You weren’t going to simply let yourself in.
Good news. You didn’t have to wait long.
Bad news. The guy who opened the door was shirtless.
Good news. It was Sirius, James’ best friend and someone you had already met. Not surprising, he had been shirtless a few of those times too.
“Put a shirt on. I know you own them,” you told him, entering the house.
“Here for James?” he asked as he closed the door behind you.
You hummed. “I was told we have to study here for the month.”
“I hate getting new pledges,” Sirius said and waved for you to follow him.
He led you through a large sitting room and then down a hallway. You passed various people along the way. You recognized a few from campus, but you didn’t really know anyone else.
“Prongs! Your lady’s here!” Sirius announced to the room where James, among other members of Gryffindor, was studying.
You rolled your eyes. “Not his lady,” you corrected him.
“But a lady, nonetheless,” James said with a smile.
“Fine. Then I’m a lady who is going to fail the Woods practical if we don’t study.”
Peter, sitting next to James, leaned over and whispered in his ear, “I’ve got some wood she can study.”
“Leave,” James said dryly to Peter. Then he smiled at you. “You won’t fail. I won’t allow it.”
You took your spot across from James as Peter left with Sirius. James put away the homework he had been working in favor of his Magical Woods notes and review packet. You got right to studying. Every once in a while, someone passed by the table and said hi to him. You weren’t surprised that he was popular among his housemates. He introduced you to a few, people he deemed some of his closer friends within Gryffindor. They either smiled at you or shook your hand with a “Nice to meet you” and walked away - all except one.
“Potter!” a ginger said, walking up to the table.
“Gideon, hey!” James said. He stood up and gave him some kind of handshake-hug combination.
When he sat down, Gideon’s eyes landed on you. He was taller than James and broader. Based on the size of his arms, you knew that he worked out more than your average guy. In addition to that, he had a handsome face paired with deep brown eyes.
You essentially swooned on sight.
“Don’t think we’ve met before,” Gideon said. He held out his hand to you. “Certain I’d remember that. Gideon Prewett. I play quidditch with James.”
It took you a second to shake his hand; you were caught off guard by his simple compliment. And how attractive he was in general. The few matches you attended, James never introduced you to everyone on the team, and it was difficult to gauge how attractive someone is when they are zipping past you on a broom and covered in pads.
Then, more shyly than you had hoped to come across, you told him your name.
“What position do you play?” you asked.
“Beater. Me ‘n’ my brother are the best pair on the pitch since Hufflepuff’s Johnson and Boot back in the ‘20s.”
You giggled lightly. James furrowed his brow; Gideon hadn’t said anything remotely funny.
“I’ll have to make sure to pay better attention next match,” you said. “And that is when?”
“Saturday. I’ll see you there?”
“Yeah. Definitely.”
“Wicked. See you at practice tomorrow, Potter.”
Gideon walked away and you turned around in your chair to watch him disappear out the door.
“What was that?” James asked.
You blinked, coming back down to earth as you turned back around.
“What was what?”
“I’ve sent you the schedule? And you just watched Prewett leave? Bit odd.”
You felt yourself blush so you looked down at your notes to avoid meeting his eyes.
“Shit, I didn’t mean to embarrass you. Jus’ curious, I guess,” James said.
“It’s not… It’s fine. It’s…” You laughed awkwardly as you tried to figure out how to word it. “You… you always made it sound like Sirius was the fittest of your friends.”
James frowned. “What d’you mean?”
“Sirius, always shirtless. Countless dates and one night stands. You say it’s not a party until he’s snogged two different people?”
“Yeah. That’s one way to describe him. So?”
“So… I, hah, I don’t think Gideon is short on dates either.”
James didn’t say anything. He was trying to understand what you were getting at.
“Is he single?”
He coughed. Then he ran his hand through his hair.
“Don’t know. Never asked.”
“Could you? You know, for me?” you asked, giving him your best puppy-dog eyes. “But don’t say it’s me asking. That’d be embarrassing.”
“I-I suppose-“ he started to say.
You reached across the table and grabbed his hands excitedly. “Oh, you’re the best!”
The two of you managed to study for another hour before you gave up and went back to your flat. James had walked you to the door of the house and then went back to his spot. He stayed there for a while. He was trying to study for another class, but he couldn’t focus.
“Potter, why are you still up?” Marlene asked.
She had been passing by the study room and caught a glimpse of his messy hair. Everyone knew that when the team had morning practice, James was the first to turn in for bed. Always.
“Hm?” He raised his eyes from his paper to Marlene. “Oh, what time is it?”
“9:45.”
“Shit,” he mumbled and ran a hand through his hair before shoving all of his things into his bag. Then he paused mid-motion and looked at Marlene who was still standing in the door. “Do you know if Gideon is seeing anyone?”
She raised her eyebrows. “Gideon? Don’t think so. Why do you care?”
“Asking for a friend.”
“Uh-huh. You know it’s fine if you play for that team, although I’m positive he doesn’t.”
“Marlene,” James said sternly. “I don’t. I am asking for a friend.”
“If that friend is that cute little thing you had in here earlier, then I’m sure Gideon will have no problem entertaining her.”
With that, Marlene was headed to her room, leaving James to think about that. He felt a little uneasy about her comment and it stuck with him. He couldn’t shake the uneasiness. Not when he went to bed, not when he woke up, not during practice, not during any of his classes before your first shared one of the day.
As soon as you smiled at him, it disappeared. The two of you walked to your usual seats in the History of Object Animation lecture hall.
A few minutes after the lecture started, he leaned over and whispered, “I think he’s single.”
You hummed in confusion. “Who?”
You hadn’t forgotten about Gideon. Merlin knows you couldn’t. He just wasn’t the only hot guy on campus; exhibit A was sitting right next to you. Gideon simply showed a little bit of interest and you weren’t going to turn him down if he actually was.
“The one you asked me to ask about. The one you think is hotter than Sirius,” James said, teasing more in the second sentence.
“And you didn’t mention me?” you asked.
“No. Jus’ said I was asking for a friend.”
You nodded. “Good.”
A minute passed where both of you attempted to pay attention.
“So Saturday, you’re coming more for him than me, huh,” James said.
“I guess we’ll see if he talks to me after the match.”
“If? If he doesn’t talk to you after the match, I’ll put itching powder in his gear. And his bed for good measure.”
“James,” you gasped quietly as you grabbed his arm. “Don’t be dramatic!”
“He’d be a deserving, right git. Getting your hopes up and all. I mean, look at you!”
You raised an eyebrow.
“You’re trying to play it cool, love. Trying.”
“I’m cool.”
“Then why can’t I tell Gideon you asked about his relationship status?”
“James!”
“See? Trying.”
“Shut up.”
You were blushing furiously and James thought you looked adorable. He dropped the topic of Gideon for the rest of that class.
He occasionally threw a teasing comment your way as you went through your days together. There was something about seeing you blush and get flustered. You never had to tell him when to stop. He never pushed you too far to where you were annoyed with him.
That didn’t explain the distinct twinge in James’ chest when he spotted you Saturday before the match started. He flew over to the stands where you were.
“Don’t you look lovely,” he said. “Dressing up for Prewett?”
“So what if I am?l
“Never dressed up for me.”
“Jealous, James?”
His immediate thought was yes, but he couldn’t say that. He had never flirted not shown any romantic interest in you since meeting you and you hadn’t either. So why did he hate that you put extra effort in for Gideon?
“It’s just a little unfair, that’s all. You barely know the bloke and I, your very good friend, haven’t gotten anything other than a jumper.”
You laughed. “Okay James. Go win the game.”
“I will for you,” he said with a wink before flying down to where his team was.
Neither of you could believe that James winked at you. It was the flirtiest thing he’d done to you. He touched down on the ground.
“That your friend from the other night?” Gideon asked once James reached the circle of players.
He nodded. “Don’t tell me you’ve forgotten her name.”
“I haven’t,” Gideon said, and then he said your name to prove it. “Just noting where I have to go after the game.”
James nodded again. Have to go. That sounded wrong. Going to talk to you wasn’t something that he should feel obligated to do. Talking to you was just what he did. It wasn’t a chore; it was a delight.
As the match started, you tried to pay more attention to Gideon. He was right that he and his brother were an excellent team as beaters, but James kept drawing your eye. There was something exhilarating about the way he played. He flew so naturally. His accuracy was simply unmatched. Even on his off days, he flew circles around the rest of the team.
Gideon flew up to where you were after the match, hovering at the edge of the stands like James had before the match.
“You actually came,” he said.
“Said I would.”
“So, what’d you think?”
“Of the match? I mean, they weren’t much of competition.”
He laughed. “What about me?”
“You’re good. And you’re right, you and your brother work good together.”
“Obviously I’m the better one.”
“Obviously,” you said, smiling.
“Not sure if Potter told you, but there’s a gathering tomorrow at Gryffindor. If you want to come that is.”
“A gathering?” you asked. “Is that a lame way to say party?”
“Not allowed to call it that in front of the pledges.”
You nodded and said, “I’ll see how much studying I have to do.”
“Aw, it’ll be better than studying.”
“I have classes to pass. We’ll see.”
“Alright. Well, I’ll see you there.”
Gideon flew down towards the lockers and you waited for James. Except he didn’t fly up to you. You didn’t wait too long, but enough to know that he wasn’t going to show up at the stands. You descended from your spot and by the time you reached the ground, you saw James leaving the locker room.
“Potter!” you yelled.
He stopped. He had watched Gideon go to you after the game and that made him feel sick to his stomach. He hadn’t considered that you’d want to talk to him after Gideon.
“Hey,” James said once you made it to him.
“How am I supposed to tell you that you were amazing if you don’t say hi?”
He hummed, like he was thinking of a real answer. “Telepathically?”
“We aren’t twins, so that doesn’t work,” you said. “But I mean it, you were brilliant out there. Like always.”
“Thought you were supposed to be watching Gideon?”
“I did. But I’m not going to come to your game and not watch you. You’re the best bloody player in the sky.”
Pride bubbled up inside of his chest. You thought he was better than Gideon? He’d take that win. So what if you didn’t watch him leave like you did with Gideon?
Only he doesn’t know that you do watch him leave. You have for a while and it’s much easier to hide it when he’s not looking back at you.
“Anyways,” you said as you walked with James, not caring where you would be walking to since you wanted to talk to him. “Gideon said there was a gathering tomorrow? How come you didn’t say anything about it?”
James ran a hand through his hair.
“I didn’t think it was your scene. Never seen you at a party before.”
“He said gathering, not party.”
“There are no pledges around. Call it what it is.” James shrugged.
“And what if I wanted to change my scene?” you asked. “I’ve never been invited to one before.”
He laughed and you gave him a rather insulted look.
“You’re taking a piss, right?”
You shook your head. James stopped walking and turned toward you.
“We have to change that. Immediately. You’re coming tomorrow.”
James said he needed to drop his stuff off at the house but then he’d meet you in the library to make sure you got your work done. Why he could go to the library today and not a few nights ago, you didn’t know. You appreciated him coming. Studying felt less draining with him around.
On Sunday, you spent the morning with your other friends. You had one of your textbooks open on your lap, which you had intended on skimming for review but got distracted. Your friend’s shitshow date was far more entertaining. You stayed with your friends until it was time to change and get ready for the “gathering.”
You didn’t need to knock when you arrived. Some younger students, pledges you assumed, were walking in.
Not calling what you walked into a party seemed like lying. There was music and dim lighting with a faint scent of smoke and you could already see a couple making out. You wrapped your arms around yourself. You needed to find one of the members you knew.
Peter recognized you before you recognized him. He handed you a drink and you felt obligated to talk to him for a bit. He wasn’t your favorite of James’ friends.
Luckily, you only had to stumble through a minute of awkward conversation. Gideon called your name and waved.
“It was good seeing you,” you said before crossing the room. “You are a godsend.”
“Looked like a tough conversation. And you look darling,” Gideon said, giving you a dramatic once-over.
“I didn’t want to do too much for a gathering.”
“It’s for the pledges. I told you.”
“The pledges. And those would be everyone who looks like they’re about to pee themselves?”
Gideon laughed. “As long as they don’t…”
One of Gideon’s friends got his attention. Gideon put his arm around your waist and pulled you in the direction of his friend. You went along easily. You tried to follow along with the conversation but they kept throwing out inside jokes and names of people you weren’t familiar with. You sipped your drink and tried to appreciate being held onto by someone who was into you.
Then your drink ran out. You motioned to Gideon that you were going to get another and you’d be back. He nodded and pointed you in the direction of the kitchen.
The easiest smile of the night spread across your face at the sight of James. He returned it.
“Hey! You made it!”
“I’d never live it down if I didn’t.”
“That is true,” he laughed. “So when’d you get here?”
“Half hour, forty five minutes maybe? I’ve been with Gideon.”
“And how’s that going?” James asked, trying to sound interested and happy for you.
“It’s been okay,” you said. You didn’t want to exaggerate your experience so far to James.
“Just okay?”
“I don’t know his friends all that well.”
James noticed how you had set down your empty bottle and were now hugging yourself. He couldn’t let that slide. He was about to suggest that you spend some time with him and his friends to see if that made it any better, since you did know James’ friends.
A pledge bolted into the kitchen and tripped over something. You didn’t see what. All you knew was that you now had his drink all over you. It must’ve been a full bottle given how drenched your front feels. The pledge was mortified when he stood up.
“Oh, shit. Sorry! I’m so sorry! So, so, so sorry! I didn’t mean to!” he said, the words falling out of his mouth faster than you think should be possible. “James, I swear it was an accident!” the boy added.
You didn’t let James answer him. “It’s alright. I’ll dry. But, maybe let’s have a water?”
James turned and grabbed one from the fridge to hand to the boy, who simply nodded and took the bottle. James was about to commend you for being overly polite. It was a pledge and you are a guest. He should’ve been watching where he was going and showed you more respect. Then he noticed the state of your clothes.
“Damn pledges… You might dry, but you’ll be sticky. Come on, you can borrow one of your shirts.”
He took your hand and led you down the hallway and up some stairs. You briefly forgot that James actually lived in this house and all of his things were just upstairs. The room he brought you to had four beds. A big party house apparently no one got their own room. You could recall someone mentioning rooming with James earlier.
He went over to a dresser and pulled out a shirt.
“Thanks, James,” you said as you stepped into the room. “But, um, can I get bottoms too? He kind of got it all over me.”
“Um, yeah… My sweats’ll be a bit big though?”
“I can roll them.”
He nodded. “Okay.”
James opened another drawer and grabbed a pair of his sweats. He also handed you a towel. He stepped out of his room and closed the door to let you change in privacy. You didn’t take long.
“I’m not going to be sticky. Happy?” you asked once you were done changing and were standing in the hallway with James again.
“I’d be happier if you didn’t sit next to Prewett in my clothes.”
You stared at him in shock. He was looking at the floor; he was unsure how he let that leave his mouth.
“Come again?”
He shrugged. “Just a little weird to sit right next to a guy in another bloke’s clothes, you know?”
“Would you rather I sit next to you?”
He shifted and ran a hand through his hair. “I mean, yeah.”
“I sit next to you every day.”
“I know.”
“So I can’t sit next to other people? Didn’t realize you owned me…”
“It’s other people who want to kiss you!”
Once again, you were staring at James while he looked anywhere but you.
“Other people?” you repeated. “What do you mean other people? I figured I was lucky if I had one.”
“It’s, uh, more than one.”
“And am I understanding this right? You’re one of them?”
He didn’t say anything, which told you that you were right.
“Then why did you go through the trouble of finding out if Gideon was single for me?”
“You know, I’d love to give you an answer,” he said, “but there isn’t one. I just-“
“Are you at least going to do it then?”
“Do it?”
“You don’t want me sitting next to other guys who want to kiss me while I’m wearing your clothes? Then you do it. Kiss me.”
James stared at you for a moment. It was a chance for you to say “Sike!” To say you were just kidding. To turn around and change back into your clothes. When you only stared back, waiting, he took the few steps he needed to before caressing your face and bringing his lips to meet yours.
In the various times that the thought of kissing you drifted across his mind, something he had always dismissed as him being horny and you being pretty and nearby, he figured you would melt into him. If he ever shared a kiss with you, it’d be soft, gentle.
Which to his credit was how the kiss started.
Then you kissed him back and he knew he was doomed. One hand still holding your face, James pulled you close. He kept you close as he backed up until he hit the wall. As soon as he had pulled you in closer, you wrapped your arms around his neck. It took no time for your hands to get tangled in his hair, and even less time for you to forget about Gideon. If you had thought about him, you would’ve assumed that he’d move on pretty fast and it’d be no harm, no foul.
As the kiss escalated with biting lips and tongues going where they hadn’t before, James got lost in the heat of the moment and the hand on your waist started moving upward, under your shirt. It didn’t register right away in your brain. You were too caught up in the fact that you were kissing James and he wanted to be kissing you. But you did pull back.
“James.”
He didn’t move his hand. You were having second thoughts about if you wanted him to remove it, or if he could keep it there.
“We’re in a hallway.”
James hummed and smiled at you. “Observant. We could change that.”
“James!”
“Sorry…”
You looked down, and that made him take his hand out from under your shirt. You were still standing incredibly close to him. You didn’t appear to be in any hurry to move, which James was pleased with. He liked having you in his arms more than he would’ve guessed had you asked him a week ago.
“So where does this leave us?” you asked quietly.
“Us?”
You wanted to roll your eyes. Of course he would reply like he didn’t know what you were talking about despite just getting jealous of you being around Gideon.
“Us. I’m wearing your clothes, we just snogged outside of your room, which you did just invite me into.” You paused. “I feel like we crossed out of ‘just friends’ territory.”
“That is an excellent point you make.”
You waited for him to say more. He didn’t.
“So?”
“You’ll have to meet my mum.”
“Your mum decides who you date?”
He laughed and kissed your cheek. “Course not. She just needs to know that she was right.”
You raised your eyebrows.
“She knew I’d be wrapped around your finger after she heard I invited you to one of my matches. Something about being my father’s son.”
“Huh.”
“She’ll be thrilled.”
“So we’re-“
“Dating.”
tags: @navs-bhat @faceache111
Omg!! Have you seen the trailer?! We should talk about it.. omg thank you HBO
I have seen the trailer, and I don't know if it's the nosolgia or what, but I'm not feeling it. I'm also trying to not interact with it because of JKR's views on trans people and how she has explicity said she's going to spend the money on anti-trans organizations.
Ron's "spew" reaction to Harry being Harry on the train is so so so ew to me.
Vernon just looks like a generic white man with a mustache.
Snape's zipper on his costume? Not great.
Snape being Black is also... not great. The flash back scene of "Snape's Worst Memory" is going to be really, really bad.
I saw somewhere of like if only one of the Marauder's were Black, and Harry's white so if he looks just like his dad, James can't be Black. Can't have the one that goes bad be Black so no Peter. Have the one who gets called a "Half Breed" be Black? No, so no Remus. Which would leave us... Sirius Black. So they are going to come off as racist. There is simply no way around it.
There were just so many other characters who could be not-white and not make a semi-major plot point worse than "run-of-the-mill" bullying. Like James was an ass. Now it's more than that.
Everything in the show is super dark visually, which I understand is how everything is now, but come on. Oh stuff is supposed to be lit by candles? THERE ARE FLOURESCENT LIGHTS ON THE TRAIN! WHY IS THE TRAIN SO DARK? THEY HAVE WINDOWS IN THE SCHOOL TOO
So, um, I may end up watching clips here and there as they inevitably end up on my social media feeds, but I don't foresee myself sitting down and watching the series.
🍯- random yap! i really love what’s considered “grandma activities.” u write? how Jane Austen 🤭 baking? very lara jean & cutesy! just ordered 150 things of thread from amazon to learn how to embroider lmao- I think I went too far for someone who is very much a beginner help. anyways do u have any quote on quote grandma hobbies
Obviously I write. We love a free hobby!
I like baking but omg, it was so much cheaper when I was in high school and my parents paid for all the ingredients bc I am not a box-mix girlie.
Idk if painting counts as grandma activity but Im halfway decent at that when i feel inspired. I got cheap-ass paints, brushes and canvases.
Im a hoe for some bingo. One of my new coworkers goes to this free bingo on Fridays and I went yesterday. OMG, i had so much fun. It was us, in our 20s, and like a bunch of 80 y/os. Fantastic. Loved it.
One of my grandmas watches golf and that is one hobby you wont catch me doing. 🤮
not a request but all your regulus fics are SO good like to die for!! i read all of them too fast and now i miss him😭 can you recommend other blogs that write for regulus? ever time i search i keep getting the same fics and same people
i swear tumblr has the WORST search menus in history. literally they should idk like hide the posts we already liked or at least give the option this is getting insane😒
you’re lovely and your writing is wonderful! remember to eat and drink water and take mind breaks on occasion!! love you
Hi! ❤️❤️
Honestly, I don’t keep track of who writes all the fics I like. Like I’ll come across a fic that I like and I’ll see who wrote it and go “oh, that username is familiar” and then it leaves my brain.
It’s so stupid but I let the algorithm tell me which fics I should read 💀 I just scroll on the “For you” tab instead of “Following” - which means my feed is mostly Sebastian Sallow and Theodore Nott fics and wolfstar art rn.
But when I do search, I always sort by newest so at least then there’s a bigger chance of seeing stuff you haven’t yet.
I def agree that tumblr’s search sucks. Sorry I’m not much help
Hi J!! I wish I could come up with something more original, but honestly all I can say is that I absolutely adore everything you write. I’ve been struggling to find fics I really enjoy lately, and yours always end up being my favorites!! You’re incredibly talented, and I really appreciate you sharing your work with all of us. You always make my days a little better ❤️
Please feel totally free to ignore this idea — it’s just something that’s been stuck in my head for a long time, and I completely understand if it sounds a bit silly. I always wonder what the Triwizard Tournament would have been like if it had taken place during the Marauders’ school years. I think a James x reader fic where they’re both champions would be so interesting, especially if she came from another school! Maybe she could be Sirius’s sister, but their parents didn’t like her and sent her to a stricter school instead. I feel like a dynamic where Sirius doesn’t want his friends dating his sister while James is completely smitten with her would be really funny. Sorry if this sounds dumb!! I’ll keep reading you no matter what ❤️
Hi! ❤︎ Thank you so much!
The most difficult part of this was deciding what I wanted the tasks to be because I didn't want to copy from Goblet of Fire, but if I do a Triwizard Tournament fic again, it will be the same as either this fic or GoF. I def did not include as much Sirius not wanting his sister to date James, but its present. ❤︎
I hope y'all enjoy ❤︎❤︎❤︎
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James Potter x Black!reader
20.7k words
cw: lil fluff, Y/N, slow burn (sort of? I guess), simple untranslated French, James falls fast and hard, James has teenage boy thoughts
You were never what your parents wanted. What a disappointment that their first born was a girl.
At least she’ll have good manners? Nope.
Advanced in learning? You were talented; your grades just didn’t show it.
Interest in femininity, delicacy, beauty? Not at the forefront of your mind.
Ballet – surely you could be trained to dance? Nice try.
French. You could learn to speak the language of your family! Unless someone was trying to ask you to get a coffee from the kitchen, then you’d be cooking in a cafe and everyone would be confused.
Okay, you weren’t that bad a French. You just realized that your parents didn’t love you so you played dumb.
In trying to mold you into who they wanted you to be, they sent you to Beauxbaton. Your grades were tolerable and if they sent report cards throughout the year, every class would say you have potential and you clearly understand that material, you just don’t do as told.
“Are you going to enter the tournament?” your friend Winnie asked as you lounged around your room after returning to school for the fall.
“Bien sûr,” you said. “Pourquoi pas?”
“Des gens sont morts.”
You laughed. “All the more enticing. The danger makes it exciting!”
“And the money,” Daphne, another one of your friends, sighed.
“I thought you were going to marry rich?” Winnie asked.
“It’s a backup plan.”
The next day you were loaded into the carriage and brought to Hogwarts. Everyone in their final three years had to come, even if they weren’t planning on entering the Triwizard Tournament.
It was interesting, to say the least, to see the school your brothers went to. It was so different from Beauxbatons.
“Haven’t they heard of lighting?” a girl asked as you gathered in an entry hall outside a large set of doors.
You could hear murmurs from the other side. Your headmistress shushed you. You took in all of the cold stone as you waited for something to happen.
Then the large doors creaked open and you were able to catch the last words of your school’s introduction.
“-of Beauxbatons!”
Your headmistress led the group to the front of the hall where all of the Hogwarts students sat at four long tables. You felt a little like an animal at the zoo with all of the eyes on you. It was definitely warmer and brighter in this hall, but you weren’t sure if that made up for the grimness of it all.
“Doesn’t your sister go to Beauxbatons?” Remus asked as students in light blue satin uniforms walked into the Great Hall
“Yeah,” Sirius said, uninterested.
“So she’s here,” Remus said.
“I guess so?”
“Wow, all three Black siblings in the same room. How often does that happen?” Peter asked.
Sirius didn’t answer. The boys knew it wasn’t often. You didn’t really come out of your room in the summer. At least, not into the rest of the house. Whether or not you climbed out of your window and shimmied down the drain pipe so you could walk around muggle London was none of his business.
You knew that your brothers were there, somewhere among the tables of green and red. You didn’t bother looking for them. What were the chances you’d be able to spot them among tens of students crammed together.
“And our friends from the Northeast, the ladies and gentlemen of Durmstrang!”
The doors creaked open again and more students came pouring into the hall. You swore each student had an identically pristine uniform. That was impressive. While Beauxbatons’ uniforms were supposed to be identical, not everyone wore it quite the same. From your minimal exposure, it seemed like Hogwarts was even more lax about it.
The Hogwarts headmaster, Albus Dumbledore, said a few more words and then invited the two schools to join his students. A majority of your school headed for the blue table so you went with them.
‘Even better,’ you thought. ‘I won’t have to risk accidentally sitting next to Sirius or Regulus.’
You sat between two of your friends, luckily with other Beauxbatons students across from you. You wanted to minimize the amount of “Where are you from?”, “If you live in London, why don’t you go here?”, “Your brothers go here?”, “So are you fluent in French?” Those conversations couldn’t interest you. You’d let your classmates mingle with the other schools and you’d do what you did best – avoid being everyone wanted you to be.
Dumbledore stood at the podium again, joined by two men. He raised his arms and the hall fell silent. If there was one thing he did, it was command respect.
“The reason we have gathered the three schools together is for a legendary tournament. You may have heard of the Triwizard Tournament. For those who haven’t, and for those who may need a reminding, it is a series of tasks meant to challenge select champions beyond what a classroom can offer. These tasks do not offer the same safety and leeways a classroom does. This is not for every witch and wizard. It is a measure that many adults fall short of,” he explained. “That being said, what awaits the winner is eternal glory. It is an achievement that cannot be matched by anything else. Remember that it may come at a cost if you so choose to enter.”
Dumbledore approached a large wooden chunk to the left of his podium. With a descending wave of his wand, the wood melted away until a cup remained; another wave of the wand set it ablaze.
“Let me introduce Mr. Adam Frankiver, Head of Magical Games and Sports, and Mr. Marius Arbres, Head of International Magical Cooperation.”
You were only half-listening to the two ministry officials as they gave more details about the tournament and its rules. There were some shouts of protests from Hogwarts students when it was announced that you had to be fifteen to enter. You chuckled softly. Did some kid, barely a teenager, really think they’d have a chance against witches and wizards who were of age? They’d be dragged through the mud. And from how they were describing it, the youngster probably couldn’t fathom how much danger they’d be in if chosen.
“Eternal glory?” James whispered as Arbres continued talking. “It’s a tournament made for me.”
“Don’t forget the galleons,” Remus said.
“Don’t worry, Moony,” Sirius said as he leaned over the table to pat Remus’ hand. “When I win, I’ll give you half.”
“Or it’ll be you and me planning their funerals,” Peter said to Remus.
“Oi, only one of us can be a champion,” Sirius said. “And it’s going to be me.”
“I’d cheer for you,” James said, tilting his head and batting his eyelashes in an exaggerated fashion.
“Oh, bugger off, Prongs,” Sirius laughed as he gave James a shove.
After dinner, you were walking back to the carriage with your friends.
“So, what do we do until October 31?” Daphne asked. “Just like sit around and watch everyone who puts their name in?”
“I think we’re going to go to class with them?” Winnie said. “Not really space for class in there.” She gestured ahead of you.
“Damn, and here I was thinking they would let us slack off for a year,” you laughed.
It made sense that the Hogwarts professors would teach you. Not all of your professors came with; most had stayed behind to teach the younger students.
So you went to classes in the castle. The professors were quick to compare you to your brothers. Whether that was a good or bad thing apparently depended on which brother and which teacher. You almost laughed when Professor Slughorn said you had the skills of Regulus but the ability to pay attention of Sirius. Why did it matter if you paid attention if you could brew? It was lost on you.
A few weeks passed. You went with your friends to put your names in the goblet. There was a good amount of people sitting around the hall, watching as people entered the competition. You didn’t notice Sirius nor Regulus sitting with their respective friends. Both had entered earlier in the day.
“Y/N, going first?” Trina, another friend, asked.
“Obviously.”
You walked up the goblet and tossed your name in.
You had all the eyes of the room. Most of all, you had James’ full attention. He had seen you around the school but never quite in this light, and he can’t take his eyes off you. He didn’t say anything. He didn’t even know who you were, or that you were related to his best friend. He just knew that he liked the way you led your friends and the way you smiled after putting your name in, like you knew you were going to see that slip again. He adored the energy you gave off. He could feel it from across the room. It was something special.
You and your friends didn’t sit around. James frowned slightly as you left, not noticing that Sirius was also frowning, albeit for a different reason. He wasn’t exactly the most supportive of you entering.
After that, you started growing impatient. You were ready for the tournament to start, for the champions to be chosen. Then you could either focus on the tasks, if chosen, or you could completely tune out the tournament. You’d go to the events of course, but you wouldn’t care about all their preparing and such.
Needless to say, but the entire Great Hall was vibrating with excitement on Halloween. Each table in the hall had students who were confident that their names were about to be called. You may have been one of them.
“It could really be any of us,” Trina commented. “We all put our names in.”
“Uh-huh. That is true,” you said, although you didn’t believe it.
You had a feeling that the goblet would choose people with the best chance to win from each school. Your friends were skilled; there was no doubt about that. You just thought there were times where you were quicker on your feet, more impulsive and faster to draw your wand and make a move. It was those kinds of skills the champion would need.
Dumbledore stood at his podium and raised his arms like he had on the first night. And just the same, the hall fell silent. He didn’t need to announce what was going to happen. He approached the goblet. Its flames burst larger and spit out the first paper. It unfolded in the air and floated gently in the air before Dumbledore snatched it.
The entire hall was silent. Every eye was on Dumbledore, waiting for him to read the name. You didn’t know which school was first. But this was what everyone was waiting for. Anticipation buzzed in the air.
“Y/N Black!”
It felt like half of Beauxbatons broke out into wild cheers; others eyed you with jealousy or disapproval of your being chosen. Most of the Durmstrang and Hogwarts students applauded politely.
But there were also whispers. You heard them as you walked to the front of the hall. They couldn’t wipe the proud smile from your face.
“Black? Like Sirius Black?”
“Is that Regulus’ sister?”
“Do you think they’re related?”
Professor Dumbledore gave you a polite smile as you reached him. Your headmistress didn't. She simply gestured for you to enter a backroom. She didn’t even say anything as you passed her. You thought she was wishing a lead academic had been chosen, someone who would be good press for the school if they won. “Troubled daughter of the Black family” was exactly something she’d want to hang in her office.
The door closed behind you with a deep thud. It damped all noise from the hall. It was eerily quiet as you descended the stairs you were immediately met with. You entered a room with various shelves and cabinets holding tons of trophies, shields, and plaques. You did a slow lap of the room. The few trophies you skimmed were all for inner-school accomplishments – none of it meant anything to you.
There was a cheer. It was faint yet audible. The quiet returned, only to be broken by the opening and closing of the heavy door at the top of the stairs.
A boy from Durmstrang had been chosen. He nodded at you from the bottom of the staircase, which was on the other side of the room from where you stood. He remained over there. You didn’t take any offense to it. You didn’t know each other and now you were competitors.
It was a tad awkward for a minute. Then there was a massive cheer. It had to be louder than yours and the Durmstrang’s with how loud it was. You reminded yourself that the Hogwarts champion had an entire school cheering for them while you had less than half. The noise got louder momentarily and then quickly faded.
A boy with messy hair, glasses and a confident grin appeared at the bottom of the stairs. His smile shifted into the kind of smirk where you knew it lived on his face. You had a feeling he was like you: he knew he was going to be chosen. He immediately went to shake hands with the Durmstrang boy, and then he turned towards you.
There was a shift on his face. You didn’t know what it was but you noticed it.
“Congrats,” he said after crossing the room to shake your hand as well.
“Likewise.”
Then you were joined by the headmasters, Mr. Frankiver, and Mr. Arbres.
“Our three champions, Y/N Black, Armand Hanes, and James Potter,” Mr. Frankiver said. “We have some brief things to go over before we release you for dinner.”
Mr. Arbres started to talk about minor rules and your task uniforms and other information that you should’ve been paying attention to.
James wasn’t listening. He couldn’t take his eyes off of you. Simply put, he was intrigued by you. He had seen you put your name in and thought you were special then. Now he knew you were a Black. He loved Sirius as a brother, and he admired Regulus’ impressive yet quiet competitiveness. Surely you shared some of their qualities. You had entered the tournament afterall, just like both of them.
You could feel James staring. You figured he was trying to gauge whether or not you were going to be a real threat. The Durmstrang boy, Armand, obviously was.
You were trying to figure out where you heard his name before. Potter. He wasn’t a part of the Sacred Twenty-Eight. You’d heard it before. You knew you had. His face wasn’t familiar, at least not before arriving at Hogwarts.
The headmasters led you back out into the Great Hall and you were greeted with cheers. Each school roared for their champion. The three of you were beaming and waving, soaking up the attention. You weren’t going to lie – it was nice to be cheered for.
Then it was time to eat. You were distracted throughout the whole meal, trying to figure out where you’d heard James’ name before. You acknowledged everyone congratulating you. But your heart wasn’t really in it. James was bugging you.
He didn’t really sit down for dinner. He walked up and down the red table, venturing occasionally to the yellow table and the Hogwarts end of the blue. He was getting pats on the backs as he went. It was clear that he was well-liked.
It hit you later when you were laying in bed. You had heard his name before. It was never said nicely. You were never around to hear the conversation in its entirety.
James Potter was Sirius’ friend.
Mother had screamed about it when Sirius came home for Christmas his first year, and again that summer. Sirius stopped coming home for Christmas and you assumed he stopped bringing James up. You were surprised you actually remembered that.
“So your sister’s a champion. That, what, makes her better than you and Regulus?” Remus teased Sirius as the four boys went up to their dorm.
They had been hanging around the Gryffindor Common Room since everyone still wanted to talk with James.
“I wouldn’t say better, Moony. I’m sure if we went to that pansy-ass school, we’d’ve been chosen.”
“But you wouldn’t be the same,” Peter said. “Having gotten a pansy-ass education and no us.”
Sirius rolled his eyes and pushed open the door.
“How come you never mentioned that she’s fit?” James asked.
“Excuse me?”
“Y/N. She’s easy on the eyes,” James said.
“More than easy,” Peter added while Remus chuckled, shaking his head.
“That’s disgusting. And foul. Horrendous. I might need to throw up,” Sirius said as he headed for the bathroom.
Peter wasn’t done though. “Right, I forgot. It’s only acceptable if it’s your cousin!”
“Fuck off, Wormtail!”
James joined Peter and Remus’ laughter.
Your curiosity got the best of you in the morning. You spotted James from across the hall as he strolled in and down the length of the Gryffindor table.
Sure enough, there was Sirius.
It was the first time in a long time that you really looked at your brother. Even across the hall, you could tell something was different with him. He looked… happy. You can’t recall the last time you saw him smile like that with his head thrown back, laughing. Maybe when you were too little to understand the world.
You scanned the Slytherin table for Regulus. He was more difficult to spot. Perfect posture and dark fair was fairly common over there, and you expected him to be with a quiet group. When you did spot him, some dark haired boy was trying to get his attention while he spoke to some students who had stopped by to talk to him.
(Regulus had gotten permission to have open quidditch practices for those who didn’t want to go a year without playing, and the students talking to him were getting the times. Not that you’d know that.)
“Merlin, that’s weird,” you muttered, shaking your head.
“What’s weird?” a boy named Marius asked.
You considered him your friend; he was one of the few Beauxbatons boys who didn’t irritate you endlessly.
“Actually seeing my brothers.”
He nodded and took a sip of his tea. “I always forget you have those.”
“I assume their friends forget about me too.
“They won’t be forgetting about you when you win,” Daphne said, sitting next to you. “How did Mr. Old Man say it? Eternal glory!”
“His name is Professor Dumbledore,” a Ravenclaw boy nearby corrected, but Daphne just waved him off.
A week went by and the awe of being champion wore off for the other students. The first task was in two weeks. Until then, you were to go to class and do everything as you usually would.
“Miss Black, Miss Weasley here will escort you to your Tournament meeting,” Professor Flitwick said, gesturing to the redheaded girl standing next to him with a note in her hand. “Do take your things.”
You nodded, grabbed your stuff, and followed the girl out of the room.
“They wouldn’t tell me anything more than where to find you and where to bring you,” the girl said. “Champion stuff, they said. It’s so exciting!”
“Uh-huh,” you said.
The girl kept talking as you walked. She wondered about what the first task would be, told you what some previous tasks had been since she read up on the tournament since the other schools arrived, and raved about how James was an obvious choice for the Hogwarts champion. You were glad when you came to the room where you were needed.
“Alright, here we are!”
“Thanks,” you said before the girl disappeared down the corridor you had just been down.
You stepped into the brightly lit room. James and Armand were already there, along with the Transfiguration teacher and another lady.
“Ah, there she is!” the lady exclaimed, clasping her hands together. “Our Beauxbatons champion! Now we can get started!”
You raised your eyebrows and crossed your arms.
“The interviews can get… emotional. So, photos first!”
A petit man walked out from somewhere within the room, holding a large camera. He smiled awkwardly and then meekly gestured for you to join the boys.
“Right,” you mumbled.
At the photographer’s directions, you posed for several photos. You stood with the boys, sat with the boys standing, stood with one boy sitting and then the boys swapped, stood for individual photos. It was a whole ordeal.
“I’m sure that’s enough, Trisha,” Professor McGonagall said. “Let’s get the interviews going.”
“Mr. Hanes, let’s start with you,” the woman, Trisha, said.
Armand and Trisha walked over to the table on the other side of the room. James took the opportunity to talk to you.
“What do you say we ditch this and go snog in a broom closet?” James said, his teenage boy mouth moving faster than any sense in his brain.
Luckily for him, you weren’t expecting to be talked to and your brain didn’t fully process what he said.
“Pardon?”
He cleared his throat. The tips of his ears turned pink, but his hair covered them.
“So, how are you liking Hogwarts?”
“Oh,” you said, flexing your eyebrows and then turning your body more towards James. “Bit cold.” You shrugged. “Drafty.”
“You just don’t have the proper uniform for it,” he said. “But other than that, how does it compare to Beauxbatons? Like the Great Hall, the classrooms, you know.”
And we could go to my dorm if you want a tour of that.
Nope. He could not and would not say that. He took a deep breath to recenter himself and hopefully steer himself towards a cleaner mindset.
“The moving stairs are atrocious. Bloody torture trying to figure them out,” you said.
James smiled. It was a soft kind of smile that made your heart skip a beat. You reminded yourself that he was competition.
“I mean, classrooms and dining hall, good enough lighting, I suppose. The corridors… must they be lined with portraits? Can’t go anywhere without feeling watched.”
“No way you’re not being watched,” James said, before immediately running a hand through his hair. “Merlin, that came out wrong. I mean, blokes got to have their eyes on a pretty girl like you.”
You laughed, and James adjusted how he was standing. He leaned down to be closer to your height.
“Flattery won’t make me go any easier on you during the tournament,” you said.
Then there was the scraping of chairs as Armand stood up and left the table.
“Armand, can you find your way back to class?” Professor McGonagall asked.
“Yes, ma’am.”
“Then go on. No need to miss any more of it.”
Armand left and Trisha called you over, leaving James alone on the other side of the room. He sighed as you sat down. How could Sirius not see how beautiful you were? You were slightly intimidating up close and personal, but James attributed that to your parents. From his experience, Regulus was the same way. And you weren’t going to lay off him nor Armand in the tournament. He knew you’d fulfil that promise.
Trisha started off by telling you the type of article you could expect to see in the Daily Prophet in a few days. She’d need some time to gather all her notes and write the profiles before having her editor look at it. You just nodded. You didn’t care about all the little details.
You thought nothing of the questions she asked you.
Why did you enter? Sounded like fun.
What did your parents think? Do I look like I care what they think? I’m 17.
How do you feel about being the only girl chosen ? There’s three of us so unless it’s all boys or all girls, someone’s going to be the odd one out. Not that it means anything. I have no disadvantage here.
And the boys are both younger than you. Again, so? I know more magic.
The more questions she asked, the more frustrated you became. It was like she was trying to get a rise out of you based on your sex. And get a rise out of you she did. You exploded into a rant of being the best that Beauxbatons had to offer and it didn’t matter that you did go to Beauxbatons - you would’ve been chosen no matter which school you were at, beating out James and Armand from being chosen.
You thought steam must’ve been coming off of you when you exited the room without being dismissed. You took your things and went to your next class.
James witnessed the whole thing. He actually heard most of your answers before you started yelling, and he thought your outburst was warranted. Trisha hadn’t been trying to smooth things over. It sounded like she was trying to agitate you.
“Alright, handsome, let’s get started with you,” Trisha said, giving James a sickly sweet smile.
James looked to Professor McGonagall to silently ask if he should after that, and she nodded grimly. The questions Trisha asked James were much more mild. He assumed they were the same ones she asked Armand since he hadn’t left the room looking like he was going to punch something.
A few days later, the article came out and the Great Hall was passing around papers like there was no tomorrow.
“What is wrong with you?” a seventh year Ravenclaw girl asked you with a paper in her hand. “Sirius is a fantastic wizard.”
You snatched the paper from her hand before she could react. You hadn’t mentioned Sirius in your interview, and that was the only reason you could think of that would have you in the paper. Trisha was the only person from the Daily Prophet whom you had spoken to.
“Page 6,” the girl said.
“Thanks,” you said flatly as you sat down and read.
A frown formed and got deeper the more you read. You didn’t say a single thing she had written. James and Armand’s sections were what you had expected with questions about them entering and what they expected and what they would do with the prize money. Yours had been twisted into some family drama. According to Trisha, instead just saying that you didn’t care what your parents thought because you were 17, you went on a rant about not caring for their permission to enter but now that you were champion, you were going to prove that you were the heir your parents wanted all along. It only got worse from there. She had you dissing Sirius and Regulus. Apparently you thought Sirius was too much with his outbursts and trying too far from the family and Regulus was pathetic for trying so hard to be everything your parents wanted, which was everything you and Sirius weren’t.
“What. The. Fuck,” you breathed.
You set the paper down, grabbed a muffin, and left the Great Hall. If that was going to be the talk for a while, you didn’t want to be there.
At the Gryffindor table, Sirius was reading the article with a frown that mimicked yours.
“Bit rich coming from her,” he said.
James hummed curiously.
“The article? Did you not hear her telling this… Trisha McCatchy that I’m too much and Regulus tries too hard?”
“She said what?” James said.
Sirius slid the article towards James.
“This is not what she said. At least, not about you.”
“What do you mean?”
“She trashed me and Armand a bit, but that’s not important. Trisha was asking about how she felt facing us and being the only girl and stuff. I heard her whole interview. The only real thing in there is that Y/N doesn’t care what your parents think. Wanting their approval? No. Sounding all hoity-toity? No.”
Sirius started at James, taking in what he said. Then he shook his head. “Don’t say hoity-toity.”
“I’m just saying,” James said, tossing the paper to the middle of the table. “She never said any of that.”
If only James could have told all of Hogwarts that. The rest of your week was spent putting up with comments about the article and how harsh you were on your brothers and a little about your parents. Not many of them were too creative. You got called a brat several times, and many Slytherins liked waste of pureblood.
You didn’t have the energy to deal with it all. You needed to start focusing on the first task, which you were given no clues about. It was really to test your ability to think on your feet. So you were to go into it blindly with only your wand and your wits. Which actually wasn’t that bad in your opinion. You assumed it would be some kind of duel.
James and Armand thought the same thing.
Well, James did until he learned more.
He was walking with Sirius and Peter, all under his Cloak of Invisibility, to the Whomping Willow. They were approaching the door they usually snuck out of when they heard voices. There had never been people around that door at this hour.
“And Dumbledore is sure they can handle two Nundus?” the first voice asked. It wasn’t anyone the boys knew.
“He’s confident. Said around 30 people are coming to take care of them when they arrive a day before the First Task,” the second voice said. Mr. Arbres.
The three boys stilled before shuffling more into the shadows. It didn’t matter that they were invisible. James’ mind was spilling. The First Task included Nundus? Dumbledore hadn’t been kidding when he said these were going to be challenges that a classroom couldn’t offer.
“I don’t envy those students… but I would’ve entered too when I was their age,” the first voice said with a laugh.
“I’m just glad Dumbledore is bringing in people to deal with the Nundus. You won’t see me anywhere near them and their poisonous breath. Frankly, it’ll be a miracle if they all come out the same way they go in,” Mr. Arbres said.
Peter tugged on James’ sleeve and started pulling him and Sirius in a different direction. They could find a different door.
“Don’t let them get in your head,” Peter whispered once they were outside. It was clear that James was thinking about the first task. “There’s fresh air charms. You’ll be fine.” He grabbed James’ arm and shook it. “You’re James fucking Potter! If anyone can do it, it’s you!”
James huffed a laugh.
Sirius, however, didn’t read the room. “Aren’t they bloody vicious though? Ain’t that why they need thirty people to manage two of them?”
“Padfoot!” Peter hissed. “Although it is curious. Why only two when there are three champions?
The boys looked at each other and shrugged. They hurried to the Whomping Willow and down the hole to find Remus, transformed and waiting. It would hit Peter later that he should’ve told James that he deals with a werewolf every month, a Nundu would be no problem.
When James woke up in the morning, he made a decision. He needed to find you. He waited until after breakfast, not actually knowing where you’d be and praying it wouldn’t be in the massive carriage. Luckily for me, you were outside of the library with some of your friends.
“Y/N.”
You looked up. Your bright smile from laughing at Winnie faded into a neutral expression.
“Can I have a moment?” James asked.
You stared at him blankly for a few seconds. This was your opponent and the task was only three days away. What on Earth could he have to say to you right now?
You sighed and stood up.
“If I’m not back in five minutes, know I’ve been sabotaged,” you said before following James a little ways away and out of sight.
“Don’t ask how I know this, but they’re bringing in Nundus for the First Task,” James said quickly and quietly.
You blinked. Part of you was expecting to get chewed out for what Trisha wrote, despite having been there for all of your interview.
“What?”
“They’re bring-“
“I heard you the first time, Potter.” You narrowed your eyes. “If I believe you, why would you tell me this?”
“Because I… I want to help you?”
“Because I need help?” you laughed disbelievingly. “Do I look like some damsel in distress?”
James’ mouth worked faster than his brain again. “It’s because you’re pretty.”
“Right. Sure. I’m your opponent, Potter, and I don’t need your help.” You rolled your eyes. “So don’t talk to me.”
“Less than five minutes,” Marius commented when you got back. “Guess no sabotage.”
“I guess not,” you said.
You watched James cautiously as he walked away.
For what it was worth, you did briefly look into Nundus. On the off chance that James actually had good intel and was sharing it with you, you wanted to be mildly prepared. Its main descriptors were resembling a massive leopard, toxic breath, moves silent and carnivorous. Not the most ideal creature to deal with.
The Great Hall was alive with something new on the morning of the first task. Armand and the rest of the students had no clue what the first task included. You had a sinking feeling in your stomach that James was telling the truth and you’d be facing off with an XXXXX-rated creature in a matter of hours. James, despite his friends’ best efforts, was stuck on Mr. Arbres comment: It’ll be a miracle if they all come out the same way they go in.
“Prongs, don’t let it get in your head,” Remus said. “You dodge bludgers on the daily. You perfected Ventus. You’re ready.”
“I might be ready, and I’ll be fine, but what about them? Mr. Arbres said-”
“Don’t matter what he said,” Sirius said, cutting James off. “They all entered on their volition.”
“That’s your sister you’re talking about,” James reminded him.
“And?”
He shrugged. “Just thought you’d be a little concerned about her.”
Sirius didn’t respond. He was still not totally convinced that you had talked about James and Armand during your interview with Trisha and not him and Regulus. He didn’t have any reason not to believe James, but he couldn’t shake it. Maybe it was all the summers you hid in your room while Walburga went off on him and Regulus.
Professor McGonagall walked down the length of the Gryffindor table and stopped by the boys.
“Mr. Potter. It’s time. Come with me.”
“Yes, Professor.” James gave his friends a forced smile and followed his head of house out of the Great Hall.
You and Armand had been gathered by your headmasters and the six of you headed out to where an open-air arena had been constructed.
“Mr. Arbres has told us that all the tasks will be held in here. Do with that what you will,” your headmistress told everyone as you walked in. They lead you and the boys to a large room with some chairs and four doors. Three of them were marked with one of your names, and the fourth simply said “Arena”.
“Your task uniforms are inside your rooms. You have an hour before you need to be back out here, changed and ready to go,” Professor McGonagall said.
No one moved.
“Well, go. Change. Settle your nerves,” she said with a gesture to the three doors with your names.
James nodded and headed to his, and you and Armand followed suit.
The door closed behind you and you were met with a smaller room with a couch, an armchair and a full-length mirror. A blue jumpsuit-type uniform was hanging from the mirror. You changed and then quickly decided that you did not want to wait in that little room. There were couches in the larger room; you could sit out there until it was time.
James had the same idea. While your uniform was solid blue, his was red and gold.
“How are you feeling?” he asked.
“Fine.”
James frowned slightly at your short, clipped answer. You didn’t ask how he was. He hoped that you were actually not feeling fine and that was why you were acting colder than he wanted. For the next forty-five minutes, it was quiet. You fidgeted with your wand, going back and forth between pacing the room and sitting on the couch. James watched you, fascinated, the whole time. Armand didn’t come out until five minutes before he needed to.
The three headmasters came in along with Mr. Arbres and Mr. Frankiver.
“You are moments away from the first task,” Mr. Arbres said. “I suppose it’s time to tell you what’ll be expected of you.”
He cast an excited glance around the circle.
“There will be five totems within the arena when each of you starts. You need to collect all five within an hour. Of course, if you collect them before your time is up, you get more points and we can start the next champion’s attempt. These totems will be your clue for the next task.” His smile curled with a mischievous glint in his eyes. “Finding the totems won’t be your only challenge though. There’s a beast out there that you must get past and it won’t be easy.”
Your eyes flicked to James and he gave you a small nod. A Nundu.
Mr. Frankiver stepped forward into the middle of the circle. He held out a bag to you.
“Pick a marble.”
You did as told. Then he turned to Armand and then James. Once all three of you had a marble, they all glowed bright for a moment before a number was burned onto the glossy surface.
2
“That is the order you’ll go in,” Mr. Frankiver said.
James held up his with the number facing out. “I’m first then.”
“Are you ready, Mr. Potter?” Mr. Arbres asked.
“You don’t even need to ask,” James said, giving him a confident grin.
“You’ll follow us into that room. Then you’ll wait for the cannon. Once that goes out, you’ll enter the arena and your hour begins,” Mr. Arbres said. “Let the games begin!”
The headmasters followed the two Ministry members, and James followed them. He looked over his shoulder at you and winked.
“No need to wish me luck. I’ll be back in no time.”
You rolled your eyes. Armand sat down on one of the couches as James disappeared out the door. You heard some muted announcement and then the boom of the cannon. You started pacing again.
There were cheers, gasps and screams. The moments of silence were more worrying for you. It went on for forty-eight minutes. Then there was a larger cheer.
Mr. Arbres appeared out of nowhere.
“Ms. Black. It’s time.”
You nodded and followed him into the smaller room between the waiting room and the arena. He walked out. From this room, you could hear the announcer.
“Ms. Y/N Black of Beauxbatons drew second. Please give her a warm welcome!”
Boom
You opened the door and stepped out into the light. Tall, dry grass was about all you could see. Looking up, you could see stands.
The Nundu. It was going to be fast, silent and trained on you. You’d have to avoid its breath. You needed to be quick and quiet while you searched for the totems. It would’ve helped if you knew what they looked like. Size, color, shape, anything.
There was a rustle of the grass.
“Shit,” you whispered before covering your mouth with your arm and breaking into a sprint into the opposite direction.
Not too far from where you started, the grass became less dense and shorter. Then you tripped. You swore louder this time. Fear of the Nundu paralyzed you for a few seconds; there was no rustling but you didn’t take that as a good sign. There was a sparkle in the grass where you tripped.
A totem.
You lunged to grab it and then held it above your head. The crowd roared.
You took a deep breath. You could do this. No magic used and you had a totem.
Rustling.
Right. You needed to keep moving.
“Avis,” you said, pointing your wand at where you had run from.
Birds burst out of the end of your wand and into the tall grass. The beast might like human flesh, but you could offer it other snacks.
“Serpensortia.”
A snake slithered into the grass.
You took off in the other direction. You had a lot of ground to cover with less than an hour on the clock. A small roar from the Nundu told you it was close. You sent more bird in the direction of the noise and there was another roar.
“Ventus,” you cast, blowing the grass down until you could see the Nundu.
Bad idea, you thought as the crowd gasped. While you saw the Nundu for the first time, it also saw you.
And there was another totem in between you.
It was a long shot. “Accio totem!”
“Ooh, looks like Black and Potter think the same!” the announcer said with a laugh. “Perhaps we should’ve told them that won’t work!”
You swore again. The Nundu started toward you, slow steps even though you knew it could take you out within a single second.
“Glacius-maximus!”
Ice trapped its feet long enough for you to sprint for the totem.
“Ventus!”
A gust blew the Nundu’s breath back at its face, which didn’t affect it at all, but at least you weren’t hit by it. You took off into the tall grass, and cast the Snake Summons spell again. Maybe the Nundu would see its movements and go after the snake rather than you.
You slowed to catch your breath. There was a small mound of dirt.
“Aguamenti.”
The dirt washed away to reveal another totem. Was this too easy besides all the running? You took a second to pocket the totem. Then a reckless idea crossed your mind.
“Incendio!”
There was a small crackling and then a woosh that filled the arena with an intense heat. Flames now danced around you as the dry grass burned. There was a pained roar from the Nundu, giving you its general location. It was far enough away.
Now you were able to see the area better, minus the smoke from the smoldering ground. You could see a totem not far from the door where you started. It was where the Nundu had started, which was why you hadn’t gone that way to begin with. The Nundu, despite its earlier pained roar, seemed to sense where you were heading and beat you there, standing over the totem as if guarding it. You swore and turned. Maybe you could loop the arena and somehow beat it back?
You conjured more birds as you ran. Something inside you said the more birds you conjured, the better. You could hear the Nundu chomping at them.
You jumped to avoid a chunk of grass that was still burning. You had three totems and knew where the fourth was. You just needed to find one more. You scanned the ground as you ran with the occasional conjuring of birds to distract the Nundu.
Squelch.
You stopped running. Mud? It seeped over your shoes. The arena seemed to hold its breath, waiting for you to squeal in disgust. Except you didn’t. You hadn’t noticed the small pond at this side of the arena, but you were glad you did now. You took two large steps and then you were sprinting into the shallow water. The last totem had to be in here somewhere. Why else have a pond in the arena if you weren’t going to put one of the items in it?
The more steps you took, the muddier the water got. You fell to your knees and started feeling around for something hard, something not mud nor sand. You looked over your shoulder for the Nundu. It was still chasing the birds from your last conjuring.
You felt the totem. You pulled it from the water and held it above your head, causing the crowd to cheer loudly. You stood and slowly walked out of the water. The last totem remained behind the Nundu. You moved as close to the wall as you could, not taking your eyes off of the Nundu. It had gotten bored with the birds. You tried conjuring more but it let them fly away.
“Sourisentia!”
A large number of mice appeared in front of you and ran into the field. Their squeaks caught the attention of the Nundu, giving you the chance to move more quickly and undetected. You tried another snake. You figured it would go after the mice and therefore hold the attention of the Nundu.
The Nundu heard you step on an ember as it popped under your foot.
You swore under your breath.
“Bombarda!”
The snake you had conjured was thrown into the air by the minor explosion you cast. The Nundu was caught off guard by the noise. You sprinted the last leg and as soon as your fingers wrapped around the last totem, multiple stunning snd freezing charms were cast at the Nundu.
“And she’s 11 minutes faster than James Potter!” the announcer said, his voice booming around you. “Excellent use of conjuring charms, and flawlessly done if you ask me.”
A man you didn’t recognize ushered you out of the main arena to a raised platform. You could see James sitting behind the headmasters, Mr. Frankiver and Mr. Arbres, with an empty chair next to him.
“Ladies and gentlemen, the scores for Ms. Y/N Black are…” The announcer paused as each of the five adults in front of James tapped their wands on the table in front of them and a ribbon formed a number above their heads. “Eight, seven, nine, eight, six. That’s thirty-eight to Potter’s thirty-five. Well done, Ms. Black!”
The same man who helped you out of the arena gestured for you to sit next to James. He smiled at you as soon as you sat down. You felt it was unfair how casually attractive he looked, knowing he also just went face-to-face with a Nundu.
“You were brilliant,” he said.
“Thanks.”
The announcer said something along the lines of needing a few minutes to reset the arena before the final champion. You noticed a broom on the ground next to James.
“You flew?”
“Huh, oh, yeah. Really helped with avoiding the Nundu’s breath,” he said. “Strange it didn’t really try to poison you all that much. Maybe it liked your birds?”
You shrugged and turned your attention to the wizards who were regrowing the grass you had burned. James wanted to talk to you more about your task. You were so clearly gifted at Transfiguration. It must be a family trait, given how easily it was for Sirius to do the final parts of becoming an animagus.
The one good thing about you not continuing the conversation was that James couldn’t accidentally let it slip that seeing you stand among the flames was the hottest thing he had ever seen. It did something to him. If he hadn’t been sitting, he was sure he would’ve fallen to his knees.
You were curious as to how James got all the totems if he was flying. You literally found your first one by tripping over it. You can’t trip over something if you’re in the air. You didn’t ask. You didn’t want it to appear like you were colluding, especially since James had told you about the Nundu, giving you a slight leg up. You couldn’t be getting too friendly with the competition.
Neither of you spoke when Armand entered the arena. He was visibly shocked at the sight of the Nundu since he didn’t know what beast awaited him. You hadn’t thought to tell him to even the playing field. Just like you and James, he tried to summon the totems and failed, much to the announcer’s amusement. Then he used a dirt sifting spell as he moved through the grass. He was trying to stay quiet and not move the grass so as to not draw attention to himself. It might’ve been fine if the Nundu hadn’t been completely entertained while facing you; it seemed to be laser-focused on any irregular swaying of the grass.
Armand took the whole hour and only found four of the totems. He didn’t make it into the water. He spent a good chunk of time actually fighting the Nundu. According to the announcer, he was the only one to get dangerously close to the Nundu’s breath. He had been jumping out of the way and was painfully coughing and struggling to breathe when he got up. He needed fresh air and water, which he managed to produce from his wand, but it was still worse than you or James experienced. In the end, he only got 17 points.
Everyone was headed back to the castle. It wasn’t quite time for dinner, even though you were starving. Everyone around you kept congratulating you as they passed, even Hogwarts students who had been whispering harshly about you days before. Then Winnie, Trina and Daphne found you.
They nearly pulled you to the ground with their aggressive hugging.
“FANTASTIQUE! INCROYABLE!” Winnie screamed.
“You were unreal!” Trina said. “And Professor Klauser says you’re mediocre at Transfiguration!”
You laughed as your friends hyped up your performance.
“First place. Way to go, Black,” Marius said.
He and Trevor, another friend, joined your group.
“I wouldn’t’ve accepted anything less,” you said casually, despite the large grin on your face.
You were practically radiating from the positive attention. It was holding all of your attention to the point you didn’t notice or care that you were still in the task’s uniform until you actually reached the castle.
“Merde,” you muttered, looking down at your body.
“Hmm?” Daphne hummed. “Oh, shit.”
You looked up to see Regulus headed your way. Your friends had figured out which ones were your brothers. Regulus stopped in front of you. He had a neutral expression and his hands shoved in his cloak’s pockets.
“Not disappointing,” he said.
Then he nodded and left.
“Um, que?” Trevor asked.
“He just said he loved me. That’s new.”
“He said not disappointing?” Daphne said.
“It’s the same thing.” You looked down at yourself again. “Merde.”
“What now?” Daphne asked.
“I’m wearing… this!”
As if on cue, Professor McGonagall walked up to you. She was holding the clothes you left in the arena’s dressing room and she was being followed by a Ravenclaw girl.
“Ms. Black, these are yours. And this is Ms. Vance. She’ll show you where you can change,” she said.
She handed you your clothes and then walked off.
“I’m assuming you want to shower,” Emmeline Vance said. “Come on.”
Emmeline didn’t talk as she led you up some stairs. She gave a password to a door and it opened for you.
“It’s the prefects’ bathroom,” she explained. “So limited access and a lot nicer. You’re a champion so Professor McGonagall thought it’d be fine for you to use.”
“Thanks. I appreciate it,” you said.
You took your time with the scented water and various soaps. It was strange that the most elegant room in the entire castle would be a bathroom for prefects, but in that moment, you weren’t complaining. You wrapped a robe around yourself and started your post-shower routine. You heard the door open.
“Y/N?” James gasped.
You didn’t turn around, just kept doing what you were doing. “Potter.”
James hadn’t considered that they were letting all the champions use the prefects bathroom, although he didn’t see Armand there. He set his things on a bench by the shower and walked over to where you were. He was immediately hit with a delightful aroma.
“You smell nice,” he said.
“It’s the green soap,” you said monotonously.
James stood there, watching you. He didn’t say anything. He was appreciating how beautiful you were in such simplicity. You didn’t need anything additional to be stunning.
“Can I help you?” you asked after an odd amount of time of his staring.
“Only if you tell me about yourself.”
James was proud of him for giving an actual answer that wasn’t crude. He didn’t need to think about how you probably had nothing on under that fluffy robe and if he had gotten there a few minutes earlier… Right, he was not thinking about that.
“You can ask Sirius.”
“I’ve heard him talk for years. And he’s not you.”
You hummed, not giving him anything more. You weren’t sure if you wanted him to stay or leave. You had told him not to talk to you after he told you about the Nundu, but that had turned out to be correct. He had been okay during the interviews. Maybe you had overreacted?
“You’re excellent at conjuring. Professor McGonagall will be singing your praises on Monday. In every lesson, I bet,” he said after you said nothing.
“Wow, it’s almost like I was chosen to be a champion because I’m competent,” you snarked.
James’ smile widened.
“There’s a difference between competency and talent. And, darling, you are talented.”
You paused what you were doing to look at James. “Well, thanks, then.”
“So what other tricks do you have up your sleeve?”
“I can’t just tell you. How else am I supposed to leave you awestruck in the next two tasks?”
“I’ll be awestruck either way.”
You laughed and stood up. James watched as you neatly folded the dirtiest part of the jumpsuit to be on the side before tucking it under your arm.
“Go shower. You don’t smell nice.”
You gave him a small smile as you left. James sighed. He hadn’t really learned anything more about you, except that you really were your brothers’ sister. A little bit of attention and a lot of aversion to opening up. That, of course, only made him more interested in you.
You quickly discovered the effects of winning the First Task. You were now a people magnet. While you searched for your friends, countless people congratulated you, which you could tolerate. It was the handful who tried to stop you to have full-on conversations that ticked you off.
“My friends are waiting for me. Excuse me,” you said, brushing past some students who had tried to say more than “good job.”
At least when you were with your friends, people didn’t stop to talk to you as frequently. It was reduced to one or two brave souls. Then it was time for dinner and more than a few people tried asking your friends if they’d switch spots with them.
“I just want to listen to the leading champion talk,” a younger girl said.
“And you can hear her talk, from three seats down,” Trina said with an eye roll. “Merlin’s beard, everyone thinks they're entitled to you now, don’t they?”
You laughed along with your other friends. You figured the intense attention would last a day or two and then the upcoming holidays would take over.
You were wrong.
The next week continued with students from all three schools trying to be in your space. Boys flirted with you; girls tried to gossip with you. Everyone was too close. You started to strategically place yourself within your friends, and when you couldn’t, you started hiding in the shadows the best you could. You found longer, less populated routes to your classes. You did anything to avoid people.
To top it all off, the Yule Ball was announced. That day three different boys asked you to be their date.
“No offense, but I don’t know you,” you told one of them.
“This is the perfect chance to change that,” he said with a wink.
“Yeah, I don’t think so.”
Two more days and it seemed like there was an endless supply of boys, many who didn’t care if you were with your friends when they tried to ask you. It really pissed you off when a boy who openly despised you at Beauxbatons asked you.
“Just because I’m a champion doesn’t mean I’m any less annoying,” you snapped at him.
“Tu n’as pas tort…” he mumbled and left.
You were growing more and more annoyed with it. If you just had a tolerable date already, word would get around and they’d stop pestering you as much. You didn’t want to wait for a tolerable boy to come around, which meant taking things into your own hands.
“Marius!” you called, jogging to catch up to him after leaving the castle after dinner.
He slowed his pace for you.
“Have you asked anyone to the ball yet?” you asked.
Straight to the point. If he wasn’t taking anyone, he could take you.
“Erm, no. I haven’t. I think Trina was going to see if any of the Hogwarts boys were going-“ he started to say.
“Do you want to go with me?”
“What?”
“I’m a champion. I need a date. I also need to actually like my date. So, will you go with me?”
“Doesn’t the guy usually ask the girl?”
You narrowed your eyes briefly.
“Okay, fine. Marius, would you ask me to the ball?”
He chuckled with a short shake of his head.
“Y/N Black, may I have the honor of taking the Beauxbatons champion to the Yule Ball?” he asked with a bow and dramatic flourish of his arm.
You were certain all of your friends who were trailing behind saw, and you burst out laughing.
“Happy?” you managed to get out. When you caught your breath, you added, “But great. It’s settled. Thank you.”
James entered the Gryffindor Common Room with his friends. Sirius was coming up with people that Remus and Peter could ask if they didn’t want to ask a Gryffindor. James was only half-listening. Professor McGonagall said that he had to have a date to the ball, but he was honestly more worried about his Herbology essay that he hadn’t started yet.
“Oh, there’s Evans. I’ll be right back,” James said, patting Peter’s arm and walking away.
Peter sighed. “He’s probably going to ask her right now. Think she’ll say yes because he’s the champion?”
Remus shook his head. “She’ll always rather have something decent than suffer for prestige."
“You don’t think James is dece?”
“I’m saying Lily doesn’t think so.”
Lily thought the same thing when she saw James headed towards her. She mentally prepared herself to let him down.
“Evans! I need to ask you something,” James said.
She turned towards him with her arms crossed. Here it comes…
“How many different uses of Sneezewort did Sprout say we needed in our essay? I’m only seeing like three in the textbook and I’m still a few inches short.”
She blinked dumbly.
“What?” she asked once the realization that his question was school-related and not dance-related fully hit her.
“Sneezewort. How many uses do we need in the essay?” He paused. “Please?”
“It’s just the three uses from the book,” she said. “You’re probably missing the Invigoration Draught for potions.”
“You know, I think you’re right. Thanks, Evans. You’re the best!”
James turned around and headed up to his dorm where his friends had gone. Lily thought that was one of the weirdest experiences she’d ever had with him, but she wasn’t complaining that he didn’t ask her to the ball.
As James climbed the stairs, he realized who he wanted to go with. It wasn’t Lily. He had been asking her for almost two years and she said no every time. He actually hadn’t asked her out since you arrived at Hogwarts.
James opened the dorm door and said, “I’m going to ask her to the ball.”
“Evans?” Peter asked.
“No,” James said, as if it were ridiculous that Peter suggested such a thing. “Y/N.”
“No, you’re not,” both Remus and Sirius said at the same time.
They looked at each other with mildly confused expressions and then back at James.
Remus spoke first. “Didn’t she ask you to leave her alone before the First Task?”
“And it’s my sister! You can’t take my sister to the ball!” Sirius added, sounding much more distraught than Remus.
“I mean, she did say that,” James said to Remus. “But we’ve talked since then! She hasn’t been seething or anything.”
“Neither was Lily and you kept bothering her,” Remus said.
“Y/N’s not Evans.”
“Oh, I know,” Sirius said. “She’s my bloody sister! Who you can’t take to a ball!”
“Why not?” James asked.
“It’s my sister? That’s incest!”
“It’s not?”
“But what if she was your cousin? Would it be okay then?” Peter asked.
“Wormtail! Not helping!” Sirius yelled. “Prongs, don’t.”
James just smiled. He knew he was still going to ask you. Sirius didn’t control you, nor did he control James. James liked how you didn’t let people control you; you didn’t care what people thought and it gave the ability to be more free than others. Sirius didn’t want to be associated with his family so he made sure people knew, and Regulus cared about upholding the Black family name so he acted like his parents thought he was supposed to. You did what you wanted. It didn’t align with your family, but you weren’t going out of your way to ensure that everyone knew it.
James started trying to find the right moment to ask you. He’d prefer to do it alone. He didn’t know your friends - yet - and that made them a little off putting. However, you asking Marius to the ball didn’t spread as quickly as you wanted it to and people were still flocking to you. It had gotten to the point where you went off on your own to explore the castle with the hopes of finding the most unfrequented area.
And James had to find that area.
He tried using the Marauders’ Map but with all three schools, there were a lot of names to scan. It was almost easier to wander the castle.
That’s what he was doing when he did find you. You were in an unused-looking classroom down what you deemed too many flights of stairs. It was musty, but you were intrigued by the various objects on the shelves.
“No adoring fans down here?” James asked with an easy smile as he entered the room. His shoulders relaxed at finding you.
You barely looked up from the metal ball and its gears you were twisting.
“Adoring fans or twats who want to get into my pants?”
James chuckled awkwardly. He just wanted to take you to the ball and maybe if he got lucky, he’d be able to kiss your cheek. He wouldn’t deny the thought of something more had crossed his mind. But that wasn’t something he’d do with you right off the bat. With you, there was too much at stake.
You set the metal ball down.
“So you were looking for me?”
“Well, I, um, am I that obvious?” He ran a hand through his hair before walking further into the room.
“More like you’re not the type to just wander a school you already know. This-“ You waved your hand to the whole of the room. “-doesn’t seem like your go-to spot.”
He ran a finger along the top of a shelf. Dust coated his fingertip.
“It’s not.”
“Told you. So, you were looking for me. Why? Already figure out the twist in the second challenge?”
“The twist?” Oh, you were making fun of him for telling you about the Nundus. “Ha. Actually, I wanted to ask you something.”
“No, I haven’t figured out the totems yet. At least, not all the way.” Or at all. You weren’t going to think about them until after Christmas.
“Huh.” He adjusted his glasses and took another few steps toward you as you kept moving around the room. “Not what I was going to ask but okay.”
You looked at him over your shoulder. He had no right being so casually handsome. And he had been consistently kind to you despite your attitude and being his competitor. You waited for him to ask his question.
“Would you come to the ball with me?”
The words came out easily. It was too simple. Yet they hung in the air and you felt like all the air got sucked out of the room. Was he being serious? It was one thing to be friendly, but going with another champion was on a whole other level.
You blinked, not saying anything. James leaned his hip against a desk.
“Speechless? I do have that effect on girls.”
He wanted to smack himself upside the head. That line wasn’t something he knew you’d find charming. Even worse for him, the startled look on your face shifted into something more neutral, and James recognized the shift. It was a wall being put up. Sirius had done it many times during first year.
“I… I already have a date. And even if I didn’t, Potter, the answer’d be no. We’re competitors,” you said, trying not to rush your words. You no longer wanted to be in that room. “Thanks for the offer though.”
You were headed for the door, but James reached out.
“Wait!”
As soon as his fingers brushed your arm, you stopped and looked back at him.
“Who’re you going with?”
His eyes looked sad, disappointed, but he wasn’t accusing you of anything. He just wanted to know.
“Marius. He’s a friend.”
James nodded and let his arm fall. You gave him a weak smile and left him in the dingy classroom. You wished that the dorm situation was closer to what it was back at Beauxbatons; then you’d be able to hide away in there. But it wasn’t. So you were stuck with hiding your friends and avoiding eye contact with anyone but them.
Although disheartened, James didn’t let your refusal bother him too much. You already had a date and it was a friend. Just a friend.
A friend who you stayed by at all times now, not that James was looking for you every time he wasn’t in class.
He just happened to make sure that the Marauders were in the all-schools common areas in between and after classes. He was simply being social, that’s all.
Later in the week when it was just James and Remus in their dorm, James said, “I don’t think she hates me as much as you think she does.”
“She?” Remus assumed it was you, but James needed to learn to give context.
“Y/N.”
“You asked her?”
“Few days ago, yeah.”
“And clearly she didn’t hex you. Is that what you’re going off of?” Remus laughed. “Because there’s no way in hell you snogged her and didn’t say anything.”
James mocked his laughter.
“No, she didn’t hex me. I told you, we’ve talked and we’re good. But, Moony! Moony, Moony, Moony… she said we can’t go to the ball together because she already has a date annnd we’re competitors.“
A beat.
“I’m not seeing the significance,” Remus said flatly.
“You remember when I’d ask Evans out, yeah?”
“Impossible to forget.”
“She always had something to say about me being the problem. Like, me and her weren’t a good fit because of who I am. Whatever. Y/N. She said we’re competitors. That’s the reason why she can’t be my date.”
“And that she already has one.”
James sighed and fell onto his bed. “Yeah. And that. Stupid Marius.”
A few minutes passed with James staring at the ceiling. Remus was working on homework. He had asked Mary to the ball so he didn’t have to worry about finding a date.
“Shit. I need to actually find a date now,” James said, taking off his glasses to rub his face. “Who’m I going to take?”
Remus paused his writing, tilting his quill back and forth in his hand.
“Ask Sirius? I think he has a list of everyone available.”
James huffed a laugh. It would be the kind thing that Sirius would start as a joke but then get overly invested in.
He did end up asking Sirius in the morning. Sirius gave him a handful of names of Hogwarts girls whom he deemed tolerable and knew were still dateless. So in between classes, James found Peggy Coyne, a Hufflepuff who was a sweet girl but too mellow to be considered James’ type. She happily agreed to go with James.
Having a date took some pressure off of James. He could finish the term strong and put his focus on the totems. There was still plenty of time before the second task. He just hoped that he’d be able to figure it out.
But when he got tired of thinking about school and the second task, his mind always seemed to drift to you. You and setting the arena on fire. You and diving into the pond so easily. You in the Prefects’ bathroom… He had to adjust his pants. He needed things to go somewhere with you. Even if it was just one date, maybe just one kiss, so that he’d know how it felt.
So he held onto being your competitor and the endless possibilities for when he was no longer that.
On the night of the Yule Ball, you walked to the castle with Marius. He had greeted you with an “Ah, you look stunning as always” paired with a dramatic bow and kiss on the hand, which reduced you to giggles. You knew it would be a fun night. It was dancing with friends - what could be bad about it?
You and Marius waited outside the Great Hall as the rest of your friends walked in.
“Ms. Black, have you seen Mr. Hanes? I have Potter over there. You three will be entering the hall soon,” Professor McGonagall said as she pointed to where she had come from.
“No, ma’am. I haven’t.”
“Very well. Go stand with Potter and Ms. Coyne. I’ll find him…”
Marius followed you off to the side of the space where James was. From a distance, he had looked like he usually did, but up close you could see he tried to tame his hair and actually put in effort to his appearance. It was well done and worthwhile in your opinion. You gave him a polite smile, which he returned with a nod. His date was a pretty girl who looked like she made flower crowns in her free time. Knowing that James had wanted to go with you, it felt like a drastic change in taste.
James would’ve said hi if he knew that his voice wouldn’t crack. He also figured a simple nod was a lot less incriminating than the stream of compliments he wanted to give you. He and Peggy weren’t dating, but he had asked her. It would be rude.
He could tell you that you look beautiful later in the evening, he told himself. He wouldn’t let you leave the dance without letting you know.
“She’s looking for Armand,” Marius said, breaking the silence.
“He might’ve gone in already,” Peggy said.
You shook your head. “We were told explicitly to meet out here. He’s not that dense.”
James turned a snorted laugh into a cough. You gave him a peculiar look. He cleared his throat loudly.
“I’m okay.”
There were a few moments of awkward silence, with the light sound of music in the background. To stop yourself from staring at James and how good he looked tonight, you looked at Marius. You reached over to straighten his collar.
“Thanks, mum,” he said.
You patted his cheek. “Any time.”
e.”
Then you were waiting for McGonagall to find Armand. No one said anything more. It wasn’t long before she returned with him in tow and another girl.
“Champions, I’ll let them know that you’re ready. Do not go anywhere.”
The professor shot Armand a sharp glance and then she disappeared through the large doors of the Great Hall. Armand muttered something to his date in a language you didn’t speak. She giggled and leaned into his side. Professor McGonagall wasn’t gone for long. Reappearing at the doors, she gestured for the six of you to line up.
The music faded and a voice inside said, “Good evening, ladies and gentlemen. Please welcome your champions as, per tradition, they have the first dance!”
Applause filled the air as you entered the hall behind James and in front Armand. It continued until you found your spots on the floor and the music crescendoed dramatically. Marius placed one of his hands on your waist and took your hand in his other. You took a half step closer to him before the actual dancing part began. It was a simple dance, one you’d learned ages ago. You had never actually danced with Marius before.
“Watch the toes,” he whispered after you stepped on his foot a second time during the one song.
“Told you I knew the dance, not that I was any good at it,” you whispered back.
Daphne had suggested you practice the dance with Marius after he agreed to go with you, and neither of you jumped at that idea. He had said something along the lines of ‘It’s too simple. What could go wrong?’
The song blended into a new melody and your headmistress joined the champions on the floor with one of your male professors. Other teachers followed her. Then students took the hint and joined in as well. There were two more formal songs. After that, higher tempo songs began playing and the dancing felt less choreographed. Some professors lingered on the floor to ensure that the dancing was appropriate. Others seemed more than happy to retreat to man the drink and snack tables, or to supervise by the walls.
You stayed near your Beauxbatons friends for a while. Marius started gravitating towards Trevor as Daphne, Winnie, and Trina got closer to you. You weren’t all that surprised when you saw them sitting at one of the tables off to the side of the hall.
“The boys gave up,” you laughed.
“Paresseux,” Winnie sighed before laughing.
After another song or two, you went to the drink table, needing a breather. You had barely grabbed a cup and stepped off to the side when James approached you. You took a slow sip.
“You look absolutely lovely,” he said. “Breathtaking, really.”
“Quite the charmer, aren’t you?”
“Are you charmed?”
“Shouldn’t you be charming your date?”
James chuckled and moved to stand to your right, looking out at the floor with you.
“I think we both know I’d rather be here with you.”
“Potter…” you sighed.
“I know, I know. Competitors.”
You nodded and took another sip of your drink.
“But that doesn’t mean we can’t talk to each other. Dance together?”
You coughed, trying not to choke on your drink.
“Just one dance. And if anyone says anything about it, we can tell them that it’s… good sportsmanship and I’ll be dancing with Armand next.”
“Good sportsmanship,” you laughed. “If you’re going to say anything else ridiculous, make sure I’m not mid-sip, okay? I plan on making it to the end of this tournament alive.”
“Noted. So… what do you say? One dance?”
You rolled your lips together before looking up at him. The most hopeful and beautiful eyes peered back at you from behind glasses.
“Would you actually dance with Armand if someone says something?”
“Yes,” James said, having never answered something so quickly in his life.
“Okay. One dance.”
As if some greater power was listening to your conversation, the music slowed down and James smiled at you. He offered you his hand. You downed the rest of your cup, placed it on a table, and took his hand, letting him lead you out back into the sea of people. Surprisingly, no one was paying either of you much attention.
His hands on your waist held you closer than Marius had, and his cologne was a pleasant smell, not something you would’ve imagined him picking. Your arms around his neck allowed you to feel his shoulders - muscular shoulders. You allowed yourself to forget the tournament for the song. You were just dancing with a handsomely fit bloke who wanted to dance with you more than anything, and while he was being forward, he wasn’t being aggressive with it.
With that mindset, by the end of the song, you were pressed against James, swaying, and his head was dropped, nose pressing into the side of your skull. You didn’t want the song to end. You enjoyed that one dance more than any before in your life and you knew it was because of James.
But the song was over so you pulled back from him, loosening your arms around his neck. You didn’t pull completely away from him yet. There was something in the way that he was looking at you. It made your heart skip a beat.
His eyes flicked to your lips and slowly, he started leaning in. You didn’t back away right away. You almost let it happen.
“James,” you whispered, turning your head and moving towards his shoulder. “One dance.”
You were reminding both of you.
“Right.”
Both of you took half-steps back. You smiled at him.
“Thank you for-“ He cleared his throat. “- the one dance.”
“Of course,” you said with a nod. “It’s, um, good sportsmanship.”
“Yeah, sportsmanship.”
You left James and the Great Hall for the girls’ lavatory.
He stood where you left him. You had waited until the last second before stopping him from kissing you. You had been holding him tightly. It was so nice! It felt like you thought the same but you were so focused on being competitors.
There was one thing he knew as he stood there amidst the dancing students: He was gone for you. He couldn’t understand how it got so bad so quickly.
You were just as confused. You stared at yourself in the mirror, gripping the sink like someone on the verge of a mental breakdown. James was… better every time you talked to him. How had a simple dance almost lead you to a kiss? He was your competitor; he shouldn’t be making your heart rate speed up. You couldn’t get feelings for him.
When you came back to the dance, you went straight to your friends. You refused to let yourself look at James. James, however, couldn’t look away from you. Your smile. The way your body moved. Your laugh. Everything.
The day after the ball, Sirius wasn’t speaking to James. James wanted to say it was because he was tired or drank too much when he got back to the dorm, but Sirius was talking to Remus, Peter, Marlene and Mary just fine.
“You good, mate?” James asked as they walked back from dinner.
Sirius gave him no answer.
“Padfoot?”
Still nothing. James frowned and as soon as they got back to the common room, James grabbed the back of Sirius’ shirt near his neck and pushed him to the stairs.
“What’s your problem?” James asked in their dorm with the door closed.
Sirius laughed harshly. “My problem? You want to know what my problem is? You! You and whatever this fascination with my sister is!”
“I didn’t take her to the ball,” James said calmly, crossing his arms.
“You might as well have! Staring at her all night? Dancing with her? I thought you were going to kiss her! What the bloody fuck was that?”
“I-“ James’ voice caught in his throat. It was easy to say in his head that he liked you. It was easy for him to see the tiniest signs from you that you might like him back. It was easy to say to himself that you only thought you couldn’t like James because of the tournament. Explaining all of that to Sirius wasn’t as easy. “I didn’t kiss her,” he said quietly.
“And the rest of it? You did stare. You did dance with her.”
“Because I do wish we could’ve gone together.”
Sirius threw his hands up and turned away from James as if giving up. “You can’t like her.”
“It’s too late for that.”
“You don’t even know her!”
“I’m getting to know her and… I can’t explain it. It’s just everything about her.” He sighed. “And it’s different than how I felt about Lily.”
“Is that supposed to make it okay?” Sirius asked, all but growling.
“I mean, it’s supposed to make you not hate me.”
“I don’t hate you.”
“Felt like it today.”
“You almost kissed my sister last night.”
“Then you should’ve almost hated me today. Or wait for one of us to break the other’s heart. Then you can hate one of us.”
Sirius laughed but this time it was warmer, mirthful. “Yeah, I’ll be picking you off the ground when she bolts.”
It was Marius, rather than any of the girls, who asked you about the dance with James.
“Did you actually dance with Potter?”
It wasn’t accusatory nor insulted, just disbelieving, which meant he hadn’t noticed it when it was happening despite being your official date to the dance. You turned over the totem in your hand that you were trying to figure out.
“Mhmm,” you hummed.
He sat down next to you. “Why?”
“Why? Um, he asked and I figured it was…” What had James called it? “...good sportsmanship.”
“Teresa says you looked cozy,” he said, mentioning a younger girl.
“She can say what she wants. James said he was going to find Armand and ask him to dance too. It was nothing special.”
Nothing special… That was a lie. You hadn’t been able to stop thinking about the dance since then, no matter how you try to distract yourself. His being your fellow champion meant that it was so easy for everything to lead back to him.
“The dance might not have been, but him staring at you all night probably was.”
You looked up from the totem. “Excuse me?”
“Come on, I know you don’t need me to spell it out for you.”
“I’m just his competition, Marius. I’m what’s standing between him and hundreds of galleons.”
“Uh-huh. I’m sure,” he said sarcastically, but he knew it wasn’t worth discussing with you since you’d dig your heels in. “So, that totem. Any ideas what it means?”
You didn’t. Each totem was different. Some of them had weird notching on top and bottom of them and others didn’t. As a group they had made no sense to you so you were trying to look at them one at a time, and you weren’t making any progress.
You could only hope that the boys were having the same amount of trouble.
Winnie was standing in your dorm, waiting for you to be ready to head to breakfast after the new term had started. You had the totems on your desk. She ran her hands over them.
“Huh,” she mumbled to herself.
One of the totems only had notching on its bottom and another only had it on its top, and the notching on the one’s top was the inverse of another’s bottom. She tried to stack them and they clicked into place with a loud snap.
“What was that?” you asked as she gasped.
She held up the stacked totems and practically shoved them in your face.
“THEY STACK!”
“What?”
You took the stack from her hands and looked at it.
“The notching,” she explained. “I thought they looked similar so I wanted to see if they fit together and they do!”
“Grab the rest!”
She hurriedly grabbed the other three and let you figure out which ones clicked together until you had all five combined.
“How did I not see this before?” you whispered.
“What do you think it means?”
“No fucking clue.”
You shoved the connected totems into your bag and left your dorm. Besides figuring out what it meant, you also had to decide if you wanted to tell James. You should. You know you should. He told you about the Nundu, which was honestly a bigger help than you would be if you told him. You went two days without saying anything.
You decided on a whim that you would tell him. You saw him turn for the boys’ lavatory on his way to lunch, so you told your friends you needed to use the loo. You waited in the corridor for him. He didn’t take long.
“Potter,” you said. “You got a second?”
His confused expression from someone saying his name as soon as he stepped out shifted into an easy smile.
“Y/N, always.”
He followed you into a shallow alcove.
“Have you figured anything out with the totems?” you asked.
He furrowed his brows and ran a hand through his hair. “Erm, not yet. Sorry… Is that all you needed?”
His pride took a blow at that. He thought you were going to say something about the dance. Maybe you were thinking about it as much as he still was and you couldn’t get him out of your head. Maybe you didn’t care that you were technically competitors anymore.
“They stack,” you said. “All of them. There’s notching.”
Pride was now only bruised, not completely blown to pieces. It wasn’t a love confession, but it was better than using him as a hint supplier.
“Notching?”
“I’m still working on what it all means, but I figure it’s something. And… I thought that you should know.”
“Yeah, okay. Thank you.”
You gave him a smile and headed into the Great Hall. Should you maybe have checked in with Armand and seen if he knew they stacked so that the playing field was completely level? Yes. But did you? No. He wasn’t any of your concern. James somehow made himself your concern.
“So the first one… No clue,” you said to Daphne, Winnie, and Trina as you all sat on your bed about a week before the Second Task. “I think the second one is a pixie? The ears and hands. Not sure what I’m doing with a pixie though. And that’s Hear No Evil. Like from the saying?”
“See no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil?” Trina asked.
“Yeah. And that’s, um, a gardener? I don’t know. Same with the last one.”
“They have to relate to something you have to do,” Winnie said. She reached for the totems. “Freeze the pixie is your best bet there. And don’t listen to whatever is in three.”
“I’m so screwed,” you said.
“You set the arena on fire and made all the boys cum in their pants. I think you’re fine,” Trina laughed.
“I can’t seduce my way through the challenge…” You paused. “Can I?”
The girls laughed.
Each day passed with you getting no closer to understanding the totems. When you helped James, he seemed as lost as you were so that was a little comforting. You had no idea where Armand stood in all of it.
Like with the First Task, the three of you were gathered from breakfast and brought to the arena. You changed in your room and then you were pacing in the waiting room. James watched you from where he sat on the couch. His leg was bouncing with nervous energy. He had some idea of what he was walking into. Pixies and violent plants of some kind.
Armand remained in his own room until five minutes before they were told to be. Only Mr. Frankiver walked in.
“The three of you will be competing at the same time. Please follow me.”
You did as told. After being briefly blinded by the sun, you could see three tall, stone towers, each with a banner from one of the schools. You went to stand in front of the one with the Beauxbatons’ flag.
“The goal is simple! First one to the top earns the most points!” the announcer boomed. “Champions, are you ready?”
You waved to the stands. James gave the announcer a thumbs up. Armand adjusted his stance so that he was ready to sprint to the door.
“On the cannon!”
Boom!
Any thoughts of your competitors or the cheering stands vanished. You yanked the door open and stepped inside. You stood in darkness for a singular moment before torches lit up the room. It looked like a classroom with a door on the other side. You knew it wouldn’t be as simple as it looked. You crossed the room and tried to open the door.
Locked.
You looked around the room, really seeing what was there. It looked like a classroom. A potions classroom. You started inspecting the cauldrons and seeing which textbooks were on the shelves. A few of the desks had pre-measured ingredients set out.
“Sneezewort, eye of newt, boomslang skin… powdered…” You pinched the white powder and rubbed it between your fingers. “…daisies… Okay, maybe I need to…”
Your thoughts trailed off as you tried to lift the boomslang skin and it didn’t move. The same happened with the container holding the newt’s eye.
“Huh.”
You looped the room again. There were ingredients on the shelves around the classroom. You looked to one of the closer tables and immediately recognized it as a basic Pepperup Potion, only it was missing an ingredient.
You grabbed what was missing from the shelves and added it to the table. There was a click. A one-fifth circle slice glowed bright yellow on the door. Four more tables had piles of ingredients.
You moved to the next table and identified everything on it. You couldn’t think of the potion immediately so you moved onto the next one, hoping it would come to you. That’s how you kept moving about the room. One table to the next until you figured out what was missing. It was a little more nitpicky than you were expecting from a Tournament Task, but it was doable.
Before long, you placed the final ingredient on the fifth table and instead of a click, there was a chime and the door opened automatically. It revealed a staircase. You ran to it and up the stairs.
As you reached the top of the stairs, you could hear giggling. You were met with a door, but this one opened easily.
You sighed. You were right about the Cornish pixies. Hundreds of them flew around the room. They were fighting with each other, throwing various objects around, and causing general chaos. The door closed behind you with a loud thud and the room fell silent. Hundreds of pairs of beady, black eyes stared at you. You had a split second before you became their target.
Your hair was pulled. Objects thrown at you. You smacked away ones that tried to grab your ears to lift you up.
“Fuck this,” you mumbled. “GLACIUS!”
A frosty layer of ice blasted out of your wand and coated every pixie in your path. You cast it three more times to make sure each pixie was frozen. Then you crossed the room with ease. The door was unlocked and you headed up the next flight of stairs.
You thought that room had been easy. Too easy. The only justification for it was perhaps if you hadn’t been expecting them, you could’ve been easily overwhelmed by the sheer number of them.
You were still thinking about the pixies as you entered the third room. You stopped in your path and the door thudded shit.
The room was filled with fog. The fog was so thick that you could hardly see your hand in front of your face.
“Ventus,” you cast, but the fog remained.
You stuck your hand out, letting it disappear. It didn’t hurt. So you just couldn’t see. You could find the other side of the room. You started to move forward.
“Y/N?” a voice called.
You froze. That voice was far too familiar.
“Y/N? I’m scared,” it called again.
You realized who it was. Louis Verland. A muggle boy you met years ago over the summer. He barely counted as your first boyfriend, but he was your first kiss and you knew you’d always have a soft spot for him.
“Y/N! Help!”
Except why would the Ministry bring a muggle boy to a wizarding school? It didn’t seem right. You kept walking. Small steps, slow steps, and your hand outstretched to hopefully touch anything before you ran into it.
“Black! Fuck!” Daphne screamed somewhere in the fog.
That caught you more off guard. You spun, trying to figure out where she was. How had she gotten in here?
“Y/N! Please!” she yelled. “Hurry!”
There was so much pain in her voice. You turned away from the way you knew the door was.
“Where are you, Daph?” you yelled into the fog.
She didn’t respond.
Instead, you heard your favorite professor.
“Ms. Black! Augh!”
You stopped moving. Monsieur Bovine was at Beauxbatons. You knew that and hated it every day you woke up here at Hogwarts. It was frankly horrible to be spending your last year without any contact with your favorite teacher.
Then realization dawned on you. Hear no evil. They weren’t here. No one was in trouble. You weren’t supposed to listen to the voices.
You tried to retrace your few steps off course and started moving faster to find the edge of the room. At least then you could use the wall to find the door. The room felt larger than the previous two.
You thought you had to be getting close to the door when another voice called out your name. It was so pained that it physically hurt your heart. You didn’t turn around. You kept reaching for the door you knew was just out of reach.
Because there was no way James was in this room when he was supposed to be climbing his own tower.
There were more stairs. You opened the door and got blasted with humidity and the scent of plants. It was like stepping into a tree-less jungle. The plants that you did recognize did not leave a good feeling in your stomach. They were the type of plants that chose offense in order to survive. You didn’t know how to pacify any of them off the top of your head so you did what you always did: tried to light them on fire.
Except instead of flames, pale sparks fizzled out of your wand.
The room had been enchanted to damper fire spells. That would’ve made it too easy.
You tried to tiptoe forward, avoiding the Devil’s Snare. One more step. And you couldn’t lift your back foot. The plant had wrapped itself around your ankle. You swore loudly.
“Diffindo!”
Your ankle was freed, but you fell forwards onto another plant. You felt a sharp pain in your cheek. The leaves of this plant were razor sharp and cut more when exposed to blood. You forced yourself to stand up to get away from that plant. You wiped at your face and tried to keep moving.
Every step left you fighting with a new plant. Each required its own counter. You were swearing heavily by the time you finished crossing the room; it had taken you longer than the other three so far and you had no idea how far behind you were. At least there was only one room left.
You knew the drill. Up the stairs, through the door, and survey the room.
The final room was cluttered to the point where cluttered was too simple of a descriptor. A landfill or junkyard might be a more apt description. You couldn’t take a step without touching something new and potentially disgusting. What was worse was not knowing what you were supposed to be doing. You crossed the room to find the door locked. But there was a keyhole.
You turned back around to the room. So there was a key somewhere in all of the mess that would free you from the task.
You rolled your eyes and sighed. “Accio key?”
Nothing happened.
“Worth a shot,” you mumbled to yourself. You hummed. Then you said, “Levioso.”
Some items levitated off the floor, allowing you to move more freely and see more of the room.
You saw a desk in the corner of the room and decided to start your search there. A desk was a good place to put a key. Maybe it was a logic puzzle?
The key was not at the desk. However, there was a note that pointed you in the direction of the closet on the other side of the room. Inside the closet was another note. After following the note and the following two, you found the key underneath the deskchair’s cushion.
You never felt more relief than when you inserted it into the door and it unlocked. You opened the door.
Blinding light and deafening cheers met you. You looked to your right. Armand had already made it out of his tower. He waved to you. You turned to your left. There was no James. At least you hadn’t been last.
After James appeared, the announcer got everyone’s attention and said that the points would be given based on the order that you finished, giving Armand the most and James the least. You still have the most points over all. James’ first task points managed to keep him above Armand.
Staircases jutting out from the sides of the towers to let you down. Instead of going back to the castle right away, you made sure to change out of the jumpsuit.
James, still in his jumpsuit, waited for you. He had gotten stuck on the third floor and he couldn’t get what he heard out of his head.
“Hey,” he said when you came out of your room.
“Hi.”
He walked with you out of the arena. He didn’t say anything but something seemed wrong with him.
“You alright?” you asked. “You don’t need to worry about not doing well this task. You’re still above Armand.”
He shook his head. “The third floor… That was cruel.”
“Cruel?”
“Did… did you not hear-“ he started to ask you with wide eyes. Had it just been his tower that had the people he cared about crying out for him?
“People asking for help. That’s what I heard.”
“Just… people?”
“People I know.” You gave him a curious look. “Who did you hear?”
James looked straight ahead. He took a breath before saying, “My parents, Sirius, Peter, Remus, Professor McGonagall, some first and second years I’ve seen around… Marlene, Mary, Dorcas, Peggy, Lily, Emmeline. Some of my cousins. My neighbors back home. You.”
You grabbed James’ arm. You weren’t necessarily phased by him saying your name, especially given that you heard his.
“Merlin, that’s so many people.”
“I… I couldn’t find any of them. I couldn’t help them and they needed me.”
“James, none of them were in there.”
“I-I know that.”
“How could I have been there? I was in my own tower.”
“That’s, erm, actually how I was able to get out. That thought.”
“Everyone you listed off. They’re fine. No one needs your immediate help.”
“Right.”
You both kept walking. You wondered why James didn’t head off to find Sirius or any of his other friends. James couldn’t explain why he didn’t. He knew he needed to be by someone he heard in the tower to remind himself that it wasn’t real, but he heard all of his roommates. He could be in the presence of three of the people he heard, yet he stuck with you.
As you walked into the castle, you asked, “Are you going to be alright?”
He nodded, but you could see the worry in his eyes. That room had messed with James in a way that you couldn’t quite grasp.
“You’re Hogwarts’ champion. You’ll be okay,” you said, hoping that your confidence in him might help.
You placed your hand on his arm briefly before heading to where your friends had started hanging out regularly. James took a deep breath as you walked out of sight.
You were okay. His family was okay. His friends were okay. The young students were okay.
He kept repeating that in his mind. If he kept telling himself that, maybe he could shake the feeling someone was hurting and he couldn’t help them.
You didn’t think about that task any further. You had other things to worry yourself over. You were in your last term at school before you’d graduate and be able to go out into the world as an adult. You still had plenty of time before the final task, which you knew was always a maze of some type filled with various obstacles. There was really no way to prepare for it rather than focus on school and learn as much as you could.
To put it shortly, you weren’t losing any sleep over the voices you had heard. You may have thought about the fact that you heard James’ voice, but you didn’t linger on it to the point where it affected you.
Three weeks had passed since the task and you found yourself unable to sleep. You couldn’t figure out why you could fall asleep. You weren’t worried. There were upcoming tests or incredibly difficult homework assignments. The final task was still a few weeks away. You didn’t feel ill. You had no reason to not be able to fall asleep.
You raised your dorm’s curtain with the intent to open the window. Maybe you needed some fresh air. You didn’t get to the opening part. You could see a figure in the distance, sitting on the hill near the Black Lake, and you decided you’d go see who it was. Your stomach told you it was James. You had no reason to think it was, yet you knew it was.
Sneaking out of the carriage was much easier than sneaking out of the Beauxbatons school building would’ve been, and then you were crossing the grassy field with a blanket from your bed draped over your shoulders. You should’ve grabbed your cloak, you thought to yourself as you pulled the blanket up from sweeping the ground. As you got closer, you realized your gut feeling was right. It was James sitting there. It was rather embarrassing how easy it was for you to recognize him by his messy hair and shoulders from behind.
“Bit cloudy for stargazing,” you said once you got closer.
He jumped at the sound of your voice, but looking over his shoulder at you, he gave you a small smile. You sat down next to him. You didn’t notice him shift a shimmery fabric on his other side to be more under his leg and out of sight.
“So if we cross off stargazing, what are you doing out here?” you asked.
“I can’t sleep… What about you?”
“Same. But don’t you have a common room with a warm fireplace you could be sitting in front of? You know, inside?”
“It’s too quiet in there.”
He didn’t need to expand on that. The wind and the trees and the water made enough noise by themselves, and if you really listened, you could hear animals in the forest. The fireplace might’ve crackled and you might catch a loud snore, but the common room couldn’t compare.
“I can’t unhear them,” James said.
You didn’t need to ask to know what he meant. It had been weeks, but you knew he was talking about the Second Task.
“If it’s too quiet or too dark or too… nothing… I hear them again. I can’t stop hearing them and feeling… useless. Bloody helpless because I can’t do anything.” His voice cracked. “I can’t stop thinking about it and I just… Fuck…”
You were going to look at James and remind him that it wasn’t real and it was just a part of the task that he did finish. Then you saw his red-rimmed eyes. He wasn’t looking at you, but you knew he was going to cry. Rather than witness that, you stared at the soft waves on the water.
“You know, I think it’s good that it messed you up,” you said. “It proves how much you care about the people in your life. You are so… all-in with the people you love. You would do anything to help them if they needed you.”
“Anyone would,” he croaked.
You shook your head. “I don’t think so. Otherwise me and Armand would be unable to sleep too. And it’s crazy that you had a whole list of people; I only heard four.”
“You weren’t there as long as-”
“I wasn’t there long because I knew I couldn’t help those people. If they were actually in that room, needing my help? I would’ve been no help to them. It’d be something I couldn’t handle.”
“What do you mean?”
“Like, um, seeing them need my help, I guess. I wouldn’t be able to do anything.”
“Why?” If there was one thing James was good at, it was avoiding his problems to talk about someone else’s.
“It’s… It’s who I heard. Um, my favorite professor back at Beauxbatons, Monsieur Bovine. And Daphne. She’s, uh, she’s good, but seeing her hurt or in pain… Yeah.” You pursed your lips thinking about it. Then you laughed softly. “And this muggle boy. I met him in London like four years ago? I actually haven’t seen him in over a year, but I knew I couldn’t help him. If he was in that room, something beyond my abilities was going on.”
“Can I ask what’s special about him? If he’s just a muggle you haven’t seen recently?”
“He was my first kiss.”
“Oh,” James said. He sniffled. “And the fourth?”
You hummed in confusion.
“You said you heard four people. That’s only three.”
“Oh, um, yeah. The fourth… Well, if he needs help, we’re all screwed.”
“Must be pretty special then… Who is he?”
You didn’t answer right away. You couldn’t lie to him; that’d be cruel. It also felt strange to admit it out loud weeks after he said that he heard you and you didn’t tell him then.
“You.”
James chuckled, expecting you to join him. Except you didn’t. You just stayed quiet, staring up at the sky.
“Wait, you actually heard me in the tower?” James asked, sitting up straighter and turning his body towards you. “Y/N?”
You nodded, and then you hugged your knees to your chest.
“Over your brothers?”
“They have other people to look out for them. They’ve never needed me. They wouldn’t need me. I doubt they’d ever think to call out for me.”
“Over Marius?”
You gave him a slight side-eye.
“Marius?” you asked. “Why would I hear Marius?”
“You went with him to the Yule Ball,” James said with a shrug, trying to feign nonchalance and failing.
“I did. That doesn’t mean anything though.”
“And you heard me?”
You nodded. “Yeah.”
He waited to see if you would say anything more. He let out a breath.
“I… I don’t see how I rank,” he said.
“I don’t think we’re supposed to.”
“No, erm. You actually heard me?”
You gave him a faux-annoyed look. “I’ve already told you yes.”
He stared at you, eyes flicking to your lips. More than once. You really thought he was going to kiss you and if he had, you’re not sure if you would’ve stopped him.
But instead of kissing you, he reached for your hand.
“Is this something competitors can do?”
You slowly interlaced your fingers. “I think so. It’s… good sportsmanship.”
James smiled and you sat like that for a little while. He couldn’t believe that you actually heard him in the room where you heard people you really cared about. Maybe it made sense if he thought about how you let him hold you while dancing. And now you were holding his hand back. He would’ve been content to just hold yours, but you interlaced them. That was all you.
He was distracted by thoughts of you possibly liking him back that he didn’t actually notice you scooting closer to him. It didn’t register with him until you rested your head on his shoulder. You were growing tired. James provided some kind of comfort that eased you into a relaxed state.
Without saying anything, he switched the hand you were holding so that he could put his arm around you. You didn’t object. He was surprisingly warm, having been sat out there longer than you and you were already getting a little cold. He rested his head on yours for a short while.
Eventually, you found yourself fighting yawns.
“D’you think you’ll be able to sleep?” you asked after a while.
You were comfortable and didn’t really want to move, except for knowing that if you stayed for too much longer, you would fall asleep, and you didn’t want to think about the consequences of being caught sleeping wrapped in your competitor’s arms outside. That had to be against some rule. You weren’t discussing the tournament so maybe it wasn’t cheating. You didn’t know and you’d rather not find out.
“I think so,” James said. “You headed back?”
You hummed affirmatively, and he removed his arm from around you. Then he helped you stand up.
“I’ll walk you back,” he added.
“Oh, you don’t have to. I’ll be okay.”
“I want to. … And my way back into the castle is that way so…”
“Okay.”
You didn’t say anything more. You walked in silence back to the carriage and James gave you a little wave before you slipped through the door. He turned the corner of the carriage and put on his Invisibility Cloak. If anyone else had seen him, they would’ve thought he was in the imagination.
That night helped James moving forward. Whenever his thoughts trapped him back in that foggy room, he remembered holding you and how you leaned into him. He remembered that you had heard him. It was enough to pull him out.
James kept an extra keen eye out for you whenever he wasn’t in class. If there was a smidgen of a chance he could see you, he was looking. If he did see you and made eye contact, you gave him a tight-lipped smile and kept on your way. He didn’t understand that.
You needed to keep your head clear. You had two goals in front of you: finish school, survive the tournament. Neither of those were “get a boyfriend.” Especially when said boy is your competitor and best friend to one of your brothers. Seeing and knowing that James looks for you only made you want to spend more time with him. So you kept to yourself.
“Did you shag her or something?” Sirius asked after seeing your barely-there smile as you passed the boys’ table in the library.
“We didn’t shag. Haven’t even kissed her,” James sighed.
“Then what? I’d say that looks like her bolting, but you don’t seem broken.”
“It’s nothing.”
Nothing for Sirius to concern himself with is what James meant.
Whatever was between you and James just wasn’t concrete. He wondered if he had kissed you that night on the field that things would be different right now. You had told James, to his face, that he was special and you wouldn’t be able to function if he was so in trouble that he needed your help. And he hadn’t kissed you.
Idiot.
He held your hand and then put an arm around you in lieu of a kiss. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.
“Are you feeling okay?” Daphne asked when you sat down next to her.
“I’m fine.”
She scoffed a laugh. “Do you think me dense? I’m fine. Say that to your face.”
“I’m just trying to stay focused. There are just some…” You looked in James’ direction. “… distractions that are trying to pull my attention.”
She followed your gaze.
“Sirius or James?”
“Well, it’s not my brother.”
She gasped and grabbed your arm.
“You can’t leave me hanging! What do you mean? He’s pulling your attention?”
“Shut up!” you whisper-yelled. “It’s nothing.”
“My nothing or your nothing?”
You made a face. “Nothing is nothing.”
“No,” she laughed. “My nothing is actually nothing. Your nothing is there’s something there but you’re refusing to acknowledge it. You know, how there was nothing with Paul.”
“Because there was nothing.”
“He was in love with you.”
“You’re delusional.”
“Am I delusional about Potter?”
You clenched your jaw. “No.”
“So it’s not nothing. You just don’t want to talk about it, hmm?” She grinned at you while resting her chin on her hand. “Le pauvre bébé aime un garçon.”
“Ta gueule.”
Daphne gasped dramatically, but she dropped it. Getting you to admit that you like James out loud, even in the vague, roundabout way that you did, was an accomplishment. Being that she knew that you were avoiding your feelings, she helped steer conversations away from your behavior. It was nice to have her in your corner.
It was difficult to believe how quickly time passed after that. Far too soon, in your opinion, you were putting on the jumpsuit for the last time. Part of you didn’t want to wait in the waiting room like you had before the first two tasks. James was guaranteed to be out there. A larger part of you couldn’t sit in your dressing room. So you went to the larger room to pace.
Like you predicted, James was out there.
“Hey, Y/N,” he said, standing and pushing his glasses up his nose.
“James.”
“I… I wanted to wish you luck out there.”
You nodded. “Thank you. You as well.” You paused, momentarily debating letting it end there. “Do you feel ready?”
The corners of his mouth twitched upwards. You were continuing the conversation. It might’ve been because he had stood up and you still had half an hour until it was time for the task, but you still said something more than thanks.
“After last task? Godric, no. What about you?”
“Without knowing what’s inside the maze, I’m as prepared as I can be. Practically all my learning is behind me.”
“Right. D’you think you’ll still have to take finals if you win?”
You sighed with an easy smile. “It’d be amazing if I didn’t. I would rather die than redo my final year after winning.”
“Why so confident you’re going to win?” Armand asked, stepping out of his room.
“I mean, it’s hypothetical,” you said.
James watched your smile fall and walls go up. So much for a calming conversation before going out into the arena.
“What’ll you do if you win?” James asked. Maybe he could ease the tension.
“You didn’t listen to Trisha or read her article?” he snapped.
“Uh, not really…”
James was talking to you while Armand was being interviewed and when he read the article, it was to explain to Sirius that your portion was filled with misquotes and lies. He barely processed his portion of the article and skimmed Armand’s.
“Maybe you changed your mind,” you said. “I wouldn’t say I’m the same as I was when we talked to that bitch.”
“Wow, bitch, huh? Because she published what you said?”
“I didn’t say-!” you started to yell as Mr. Arbres, Mr. Frankiver, and the headmasters walked in.
“Little tense in here, champions,” Mr. Arbres said with a cheeky smile. “Do you feel moments away from victory?”
“More than moments,” you muttered, and James elbowed you lightly.
If Mr. Arbres heard or cared for your comment, he didn’t show it. “As I’m sure you know, the last task is a maze. The Triwizard Cup is hidden within. Professor Sprout hid it this morning and she has told no one where it is. Not that it’d do us much good if she did.” He paused to laugh; you didn’t catch what he found funny. “And it’s fairly simple from there. First one to find it wins it all. Your current point standings determine the order you enter the maze.”
“That’s not fair!” Armand protested.
“Hmm?”
“Y/N gets the most time in the maze? What if she finds it before I even get in there?”
Mr. Arbres smiled firmly and reached over to pat Armand’s shoulder.
“You’ll understand why that’s simply not possible when you enter.”
“Alright. Follow me. Let’s begin the Third Task,” Mr. Frankiver said.
The group followed him out the door leading to the arena. As usual, the crowd cheered. The towers were gone; they were replaced with hedges taller than 10 feet. You weren’t sure how the students were going to watch, and then you realized that you had no clue how they watched the Second Task. Not that it was your main concern right now.
“Being that she scored the most points in the first two tasks, Y/N Black will enter the maze first!” the announcer said, their voice drowning everything out.
You didn’t process much else as a cannon went off, signaling the start of your time. You entered the maze. After you took a few steps, there was a strange rustling noise behind you. The hedges closed off your way in.
“So that’s what he meant,” you mumbled.
You figured there was no strategy for finding the cup. It wasn’t like you could stick your right hand out and follow the edge until you were out of the maze. You had to find something in an ever-changing maze. You’d hear the rustling again after passing a fork in your path. There was no going back.
The first you encountered that wasn’t a hedge was a dark mongrel. It was pacing around a wider stretch of path, as if waiting for the first champion to cross it. You didn’t give it the opportunity to react to your presence. You hit it with a string of offensive spells. It yelped and collapsed on the ground. You hurried past it, not giving it the chance to recover and attack.
Every so often the hedges would shoot out vines that wrapped around your arms and ankles. Diffindo quickly became your best friend.
You heard a yell somewhere in the distance. It was the first sign of the other champions since you entered, which you found odd. You felt like you should’ve heard their cannons go off.
Your path was blocked by a pool of water. It felt too shallow to make a bridge over so you waded through it. Halfway across you felt a burning sensation on your ankles. The water was murky, but a little further away you could see yellow spotted creatures moving erratically. You watched as one spewed a dark substance in your direction. You tried your best to sprint out of the water.
You rinsed your ankles off, hoping it would soothe them. It didn’t. You tried to remember what those creatures were and what remedied their venom, but your brain wasn’t cooperating.
On the other side of the water, you were met with a forked path and you could see what obstacles await you in each direction. To your left was fog and you did not want to risk it. To the right was a three-headed snake. It was also something you wanted to face off with but your options were limited.
You took the right path and a vine wrapped itself around your thigh.
“Diffindo,” you cast immediately, drawing the snake’s attention to you.
The three heads appeared to be sizing you up. You moved towards it slowly. Maybe you could slip past it without it registering you as a threat. You just needed to get by. As you got closer, one of the head’s eyes narrowed and another started bobbing in a way that mimicked your walking. You swallowed nervously, but you didn’t stop moving.
It twitched and you yelled, “DEPULSO!”
You sprinted away, hoping it wouldn’t follow you. That was only a hope. If you looked over your shoulder, you would’ve seen it slithering after you with all three heads on high alert.
You didn’t look back. There was no need to because ahead of you on top of an elevated platform was the cup. You’d have to find a way up there and fast.
Not because of the snake, but Armand was running at the platform from a different direction. You knew you’d laugh later about him being worried about your time advantage.
Not sure how you were going to go up, you cast a ripple spell, causing the ground under Armand’s feet to rise and fall like waves.
“Wha-?” he yelled before dropping a long string of swears as he fell to the ground.
Then you heard hissing behind you. You finally looked over your shoulder to see it had followed you all the way here and it was angry. You were reaching where Armand was struggling to stand up as the ground was still unsteady. You could practically feel the snake getting closer to you.
At the edge of the rippling ground as it was beginning to wear off, you lurched to the left. It was pure luck. For you, at least.
The snake had been mid-strike to bite you, but with you no longer directly in front of it, it went for the next closest person: Armand. He screamed in pain as the heads started biting him.
“Ascendio!”
Your body shot vertically in the air and you aimed for the platform. It wasn’t a soft landing. The moment you wrapped your hand around the cup, the platform started moving higher until you were far above the hedges and you could see everyone in the stands.
“We have our winner! Y/N Black is the Triwizard Champion!” the announcer said.
You lifted the cup in the air, beaming. Nothing happened for over a minute. It was just you and the cheering students. Then you felt the platform start to move. It brought you over to where you entered the maze, and shortly after, two more platforms brought over James and Armand.
James was smiling as widely as you were; if he didn’t win, he was glad it was you. Armand looked bitter, at least as much as he could as he held his torso, which was oozing some kind of bodily fluid and puss. You didn’t get to talk to either of them as Trisha and her photographer appeared to whisk you away.
You stood next to your headmistress for a phone. Then Trisha got out her notepad and smiled at you.
“No comment,” you told her before turning around.
You disappeared through the door that led to the waiting room. You were not going to give her another interview to twist into whatever she wanted, which apparently was family drama. You didn’t see where James and Armand had gone. Neither one was in the waiting room. You grabbed your clothes and decided to head for the castle. You wanted to shower in the Prefects’ bathroom.
Clearly, you hadn’t been thinking. A crowd of students was loitering around the exit of the arena, waiting for you. You opened the door and immediately they bombarded you with questions, compliments and congratulations. You smiled and thanked them. You tried your best to keep moving.
Not too far ahead of you, you spotted one of the few people you actually wanted to talk to.
“Hey Potter!” you yelled.
He turned toward you and people seemed to make way for you to approach each other.
“Hey Champion,” he said with a wide, genuine smile.
“You know, I just realized something.”
He tilted his head slightly. “What’d you realize?”
You carefully set the Cup and your clothes on the ground. Then you grabbed his shirt collar and pulled him down to your height.
“We are no longer competitors,” you said before closing the gap between you, not caring about the gasping students around you.
tags: @navs-bhat @faceache111