Hello! My name is Mari!
Just the words of a shy introverted person.
I'm trying to live life in general and improve myself just a little bit at a time, while getting my thoughts out about certain subjects.
I'm back on Tumblr after..... How many years....?..... Just because I started playing Infinity Nikki, and feel the need to share these snapshots I put extra effort into.
I accidentally deleted Twitter because I thought it was a spam app that got installed when the logo changed, and I'm too lazy reset the password, so I guess I'll just use Tumblr - like the old days - as a way to express daily thoughts.
I also don't think I ever posted on here that I got a pet bird. I had birds when I was younger--6 to be exact--and now I get to raise a new bird! Her name is Niko, and she is sassy, but cute and lovable.
First of all, I would like to announce that in the year of 2023, I finally did something I told myself I would do while starting my new life across the country--I got a new job. I realize I've always been the type of person who takes a while to adjust to change, and while I'm still adjusting to my new schedule and trying to find a new routine I can follow to make the days easier, it's still overall a much better environment for me to work in.
Other than that, I guess I'm resorting back to tumblr as an outlet to express the struggles of trying to "live" again after dealing with a pandemic, and trying to recover from the anxiety that it caused me personally.
I might delete this post after typing it up, as I normally don't like documenting negative thoughts when it might be on the internet forever...
Ignoring the politics, and focusing solely on how I've been feeling since the pandemic happened..........
I think this whole situation has shocked me and made me truly realize that those apocalyptic/post-apocalyptic movies, as dramatic they can get, were never truly that far off from the truth.
I always assumed that if situation like the covid-19 pandemic were to happen, that us humans would be smart enough to work together to overcome it. It just seems the most logical thing to do--everyone would wear a mask around each other, take the illness seriously, and eventually the vaccine would be made to prevent many more deaths.
But that didn't happen.
It was such an easy solution....
The logical side of me knows that there's so much more that affected the decision to "move on" from the pandemic, and that economically it would do us no good to keep trying to avoid the virus... but it's just shocking that something that once had us working together to "beat" this unknown virus, can unravel so easily once once the seed of doubt was planted.
It's hard for me to "like" people again, when I know that my neighbors had parties with no masks on, then went out into the public, potentially spreading the illness that was claimed to be deadly to a certain part of our population.
It's hard for me to "like" people again, when there are those out there who act "nice" to your face, but also refused to wear a mask in the same building as your cancer patient.
It's hard for me to "like" people again, when someone who works in healthcare, knowingly chooses to not get the vaccine and chooses to not mask around sick patients, suddenly turn around and announces how they "love Jesus."
But how could they "love" Jesus, when they couldn't even show empathy toward those who need the most help and protections?
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I know the way I think is very black and white, and I know there is a gray area where all the unknown questions and answers are thrown into, with no hope of being answered. I can't read the mind of others, nor will I ever understand the mind of others.
I guess this will just be something that history will document, and in 10 years from now, it'll be nothing but a memory.
I get a little sad when I remember how I was 5 years ago, and how I was more hopeful for humanity....
I guess reality has to hit some time, better now than too late.
Well, I guess after a year of being too busy to make a proper blog post, I finally have time to do so....
These last 2 years have been a strange point in time, where I wish this was an experience that never had to exist.
To remind myself what happened in case I ever come across this blog in the future, a pandemic started March 2020, which was expected to last for only 2 weeks while the whole world shut down to prevent the spread of the "coronavirus," now known as the Covid-19. It is now 2022.... and we are still dealing with the pandemic. Lovely.
Well, after 2 years of avoiding said virus, I finally caught it. I'll assume it's because I am already fully vaccinated, that it only feels like a mild annoying cold.... but because of its potential to be deadly to other people, I now have to quarantine for the next 5 days. Again, lovely (not).
Well, because of the newfound time, I got myself a new game called Tales of Arise.
I know I say this about every new game I get hyperfixated on, but I have literally been playing this game for 5 hours increments--I would probably play for more hours, but my husband is also hyperfixated on playing the Finally Fantasy VII remake.
From what I've seen online, I'm likely close to finishing the first 1/3 of the game, and the story already has me hooked. I feel like a child/college student again, where I would game all the way through my winter, spring, and summer breaks. I kind of miss this feeling of being able to game nonstop.
I guess it's just a way to see the light after being forced to quarantine~
This is my new game I’m focusing on–Genshin Impact. It feels really good to run around and just explore something when I’m bored. The best part is that it’s free.
I’m not sure if I NEED to get the extra characters to progress the game in the later levels (which can potentially require RL money), but for now I enjoy what I have.
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I’m itching to try Aion Classic just for the nostalgia purpose, but knowing how much the grind was back then, I just don’t think I have the time to do so. I’m pretty happy just running around exploring things in Genshin Impact.
Lately, after moving into my own place, I have the urge to clean it all the time, and keep it clean…. Having a clean place helps me unwind after a hard day at work, and I don’t think I have hours and hours to play Aion like I did back then.
if someone refuses to better themselves, that’s on them and you’re not obligated to stick around and hold their hand while they complain about the big mean world demanding that they own up to their own actions
A lot has changed since I made a serious text journal-like post on this blog/tumblr.
It’s almost as if I have a little over a year’s worth of catching up to do. So many things happened, so much, that I don’t think I even started processing the events that have happened this past year.
I don’t know where to start, so let me update a little small triumph that has happened today before I start to sort the events in my head.
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Unus Annus, a YouTube channel, promised to only do a year’s worth of content, ended on November of 2020. Their goal was to something or upload something every singe day for 1 whole year, before deleting their channel and all the social media associated with it.
Before they disappeared from the internet, I managed to purchase a piece of “merch” before even the website disappeared from the web from good. I don’t think I’ll ever wear it out since I don’t want to ruin its quality, and there’s basically only a limited amount since they closed down their shop, but I’ll keep it as a souvenir for what they once were, and the odd Covid-19 time they decided to make their videos during.
I also got a cute little tote from being one of the first 100 purchasers of the tiny toy box (I got pet budgies last year).
When are gonna talk about how (cis) female pedophiles get away with predatory behavior all the time from teachers having sex with their teenage students to women grooming children to everything else
To adult women online openly discussing their sexual attraction to famous teenage boys and girls and making nsfw content of fictional children and often times even real ones and disguising it as women's sexual liberation or something and how criticizing them makes you a misogynist
People reblogging without the addition on purpose because it makes them uncomfortable or because they disagree... don't reblog at all. I hope you know that pedophiles have been using this type of content to groom children since forever and even IF they didn't it's still fucking disgusting regardless. Fuck off and die
you’re telling me there are people who listen to music and DON’T use it as the soundtrack for the intense cinematic daydream plot they’ve always got playing in the back of their head???
I finally managed to replace the battery on my laptop after the last year of my laptop battery not holding a charge.
Basically, for the last few years, I was using my laptop as a webcam to talk to my fiance online every. single. night. I had an older laptop back then, but when an update made the laptop jittery and slow, I decided to get a newer laptop--this one.
After a couple of years of having the laptop on every single night, I finally moved in with my fiance, and I NO LONGER need to keep the laptop plugged in with fear that it would shut off right away.
It’s weird, but I find it an accomplishment that I can now move around the house with my laptop without worrying too much about the battery life.
I can now put the laptop to rest after so many years of serving as my fiance.
YOU GUYS I FINALLY DID IT, I FINALLY GOT A VIDEO OF THIS BIG DUMB DOOFUS PRETENDING THAT HE IS ALSO EATING AN ALMOND BECAUSE HIS LADY LOVE HAS ONE AND HE DOESNT WANT TO BE LEFT OUT
POOR CINNAMON ROLL! I love you but this is not a productive use of time!!
For some reason my queue is acting up but heres some akusai i drew based off of moderatelyokcosplay’s cosplays of them! (You can find them on twitter and tumblr!)
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